Wet snow

My mind is in survival mode

I walked the dog in heavy rain that turned to wet snow as we came out of the forest.

Madigan is adorable.  He is so excited when I put the leash on him and tugs so hard when we are coming home.  He has a series of rituals and keeps me to them, his own internal alarm clock, He has his games,

I’ve read the National Post and enjoyed the writing today.  Rapid tests for Covid self exam are proliferating.  New economies.  Businessmen and entrepreneurs capitalizing on the changing times. Like the grow marijuana books. Travel books.  All the innovations of « inovision ». I’ve spent my life under attack by reactionary governments forces.  Now I’m growing old and wonder what I’ll do when I grow up.

I’ve been reading so much history.  I’ve been studying art

Preparing for this trip to Grandad’s birthplace has given me immediate purpose. It’s like kedging though this anchor I’ve thrown into the future to get off this shoal of Covid and lockdowns, 

I just read there are 100 billionaires in Beijing, 99 billionaires in New York.  I’m working on Friday morning again, partly because I have no camping to do in winter, and work is dharma and partly to pay for the costs of travel, mostly the cost of taking time off to travel. They laugh at me for being a wage slave and celebrate their cleverness in investing.  I lost all my investments in marriage and my support of feminism.  Now I’m old and wonder what it would be like if the plans of those years would have come to fruition. I left the professorship and cordoroy and books with one, the house I sill recall fondly and the clinic and private hospital with another.  Now I’m fearful.  The forces of evil still gather in the darkness at the edge of light. I’m hiding here in someway. Watching.  

Now I don’t know what comes next.  I’m resting up but should be doing Rocky Balboa, exercising and playing loud music.  Instead I’m studying history.  I’m overweight and getting throug the winter. I once skied through this season or sailed in the freezing rains or escaped to beaches.  Now I’m working.  I walk the dog. I eat. I read. I watch history.  I work. I am thankful

Seeing the snow today I’m reminded of so many mornings I looked out the window of my parent’s home at the snow.  Falling snow.  Evergreens hung in white.  It’s comforting, the feeling captured in phrases like ‘blankets of snow’.  The earth is being covered by it’s comforter. The bunnies are able to hide from they sky born predators. 

I’m thinking of showering and dressing, Each day a series of rituals.  

America and it’s allies face China and still Russia. I had hoped more from Russia.  Christianity has returned there. The dead souled communists were overthrown but Putin and Xi Jinping seem to join no different from the Socialists of last century Lenin/Stalin and Hitler andd Musuolini.  War looms.  I pray for space flights.  The hope for a meeting with Spock’s people.  A hope for the war to end.  Perhaps without the UN there could be world peace.  Babylon.

I’m thankful for the air I enjoy my first deep breaths in the morning. I’m thankful for my puppy.  He’s so enthusiastic about activity. I dreamed of being present at a castrastion and the chopping off of limb, back in the 15th century of modern Muslim sharia.  Christophobia is rampant.  Jesus was the god of Love.  Love your neighbour as yourself. Love God.  All we need is love. Agape. In the beginning the word.  Higher vivrabtions.  E =MC2.  Energy is fast matter.  All is light.  In Milton Satan the dark angel revelled in his shadow turning his back on the light of God.  CS Lewis’s said why look in the wall for the architect.t Jesus said do not be afraid.  

I am He I am He  Blessed spirt I am he,  I am free.  Free me of the bondage of self

I work so my dog can have a good life.  

Christmas is coming.  

The birth of Jesus.  Jesus Christ means God within and God will come again.  Playing hide and seek with God.  The Hound of Heaven.

Advent.

Hallelujah, 

God is good all of the time,  This to will pass.

Thank you Jesus.  Thank you God, 

Help me to be a better person today. Guide me. Thy will be done.  

Thank you Jesus.