Journal - Journey Jeep Service

This is the third tine I’ve been at the Jeep Service for the little dash light that is a circle with an A inside and an exclamation beside. The first time they said that there was ‘recall’ that needed to be done and I brought it back when they had the part.  The light didn’t go out on the dashboard so I brought it back and now again the light hasn’t gone out.  This is the third tine and they’ve replaced the battery and checked everything so say that they expect it to be fine. Each time they’ve said that I can drive it without concern and this time I said I was going off reading in backcountry and they said it was fine and I didn’t need to worry about any damage.  Whatever problem was there has been fixed and now they’re just trying to fix the trouble like. Ryan the tech assist has been so helpful. He relays the information from the mechanic. Madigan and I like that his old cockerspaniel female comes to work and sleeps under his desk.  

I’m tired. I was able to talk with my patients so I got my work done. It’s stressful though.  I was at the clinic this week too and frankly I like my work from home with the quiet and routine. That’s been a little disrupted with the heat wave.  I cant sit at the office passenger seat because it’s too hot. I’m back hear at the table with the air conditioning fan on over my head.  I think I’ll have a nap My cake is tonight. George is giving it I share the night with Manny.  I share my experience, strength and hope. 

Madigan enjoyed the walk to Macdonald’s and the bacon bits. I had the egg sausage mc Muffin and hash browns.

Last night i dropped off the roaster with Rogina and Caroline and then drove to Davie Street pharmacy to pick up the rest of the prescription they’d only been able to half fill on the weekend. I’m delighted that I checked out that the Vespa could go on the back too the Jeep when I towed the Jeep with the Motorhome.  

I’m going to pick up Laura Thursday evening and we’ll be able to head out Friday . Very exciting.  Everything is a challenge.  We’re 10 days at Harrison Hot springs RV.  

Shane’s dog Hank has sun glasses. Madigan had a poop today.  These are the important events.

Thank you Jesus.  

Journal - Sunday, Summer Church

Laura is over.  Madigan is happy.  I made us back bacon sandwiches.  I roasted up another batch of Ethiopian green coffee beans.  Poor Madigan didn’t like the smoke so I put him outside with Laura while the beans cooled and the smoke cleared. I’d put off the smoke alarm that morning already with the bacon despite having vents and fans on.

I’m taking my 29 year sober cake this week.

I took the Jeep into Journey  on Friday and the dash warning light is still on. They think they fixed the problem but despite driving around the light remained on.  I really hope and pray it resolves. They consistently say that there’s no damage being done and they have replaced the recall. They believe it’s just the computer sensors giving a false warning now. They also said that the door closing may not be telling the computer to shut off the battery. I’ve got a batttery charger.

This remains me of the time that Sherrie and I were completely burnt out from work and wanting a vacation so badly only tot have the fellow who turned out to be a sociopath and coke addict fucking around on the diesel of the yacht delaying our departure by three days,  We were so defeated I wanted to feel the boat and take a trip to a Mexico beach but we survived that and years later we’d continue to interface with folk but only once as bad as that guy.  The guy who forgot two screws in our oil pan almost caused ours death as the oil pan was leaking and we had to run the engine FOT because a steep wind had slow our passage by Devils Gap as we watched the ship swallowing hole open and I was pouring oil into the engine while Sherrie held the helm.  These reminded me of my pilot friend who filled up with gas only to find that the pot smoking attendant had fort the gas tank which the pilot saw as missing when he took the turn and saw the gas flowing out the side.  One could argue that the pilot should have double checked but we all depend on each other and now know that drugs are the principle cause of workplace accidents and errors.  In medicine it was swabs and even tools left in the abdominal cavity years past occasioning much checks and counts.  Freud’s ENT friend operated on one of the women and left garage in the nasal wound causing her to have problem breathe ing which Freud claimed were hysteria. The case was much taught as psychological and only by reading histories and biographies of Freud did I find out the lapses by Fleishman. This was when the two were doing coke.

I’m glad to be sober

Today the washroom sink faucet isn’t shutting off as quickly as it did. Laura was about to take a shower and noticed it.  I ‘ve been ignoring it and using the hot water one which works just fine.  The cold water one now takes longer to shut off but doesn’t fill the sink so the safety remains.  I took apart the cabinet partition to gain access and then took out the sink drain and found it all hooped with toothpicks and a tiny tool in there. I don’t know if that wwas interfereing with a feedback loop but it’s fixed and I just have to use the plumber’s tape I found and reassemble.  I think there’s a lever somewhere that adjusts the flow by time so I’ll search for that after Laura has her shower.  

It’s Father’s Day and I remember Dad always fixing things. He was an engineer, mechanic, carpenter and all round great guy.  I learned a lot from him and have had a life time of ‘fixing’ things, including surgery, general practice and psychiatry.  Now the tremor in my right hand thanks to the traumatic arthritis of my neck after the kids lost control of their boat of a car and hit the front of mine causing me to pitchpole down the hill rolling sideways.  The head room for the Toyota Corolla didn’t accommodate the length of my body and despite my seatbelt I was bouncing off my head to ceiling and neck askew.  Today my back and neck , Lumbar, Thoracic and Cervical all hurt.  

Yesterday I saw the chiropractor and was better. It helps.  

Laura’s out to back to the plumber function then I have to try out loading the Vespa onto the back of the jeep using the ramp and carrier that I’d used so well on the back of the Thor.

Thank you Jesus.

I didn’t make it to church. In the summer I love nature.  I have joked that I’m a winter Christian and summer Pagan.  I’m referring to church attendance not my believe in the Trinity..  

I enjoyed reading about Rolle and the Cloud of Unknowinng and now Elkhart. I’ve been reading Evelyn Underhill’s Christian Mystics book.  I’m also reading Hiaason’s Latest book though not enjoying his ‘Democrat’ bias. He’s always been making fun of politicians in Miami but this book is more biased and disappointing as a result. But here I am biased against Carney and the NWO or WEF . I don’t like Collectivism especially Communism, the religion of aetheism and the UN has been hijacked by Moaoist Mohammadism.  Thankful the American republicans under Trump are standing up against the New World Order, a variation on the European Union, beurocrat wet dreams with all the inherent corruption. The Ukraine war seems like a massive money laundering scheme Trudeau and Carney have been fueling   That’s been the source of all the drone and robot advances and war developments.  The Iran and Venzuelan interventions cut off 20 % of fuel to China and stopped the Taiwan invasion.  The Strait of Hormuz blockade by Iran has certainly exposed its level of evil.  Now we hear to day that Kier the English Labour PM who was pro WEF and mass immigration and ignoring mass rape and violence by South Asian African and Middle Eastern Muslims.  The shift from far left and communism and back to centrist and capitalism seems to be happening.  Carney is principally servicing his stock option company Brookfields and interfereing with energy development and preogress 

The Climate Change ‘crisis’ hysteria money scam has finally been confronted. I knew the IPCC wass lying for decades and have written about it repeatedly but feel finally the propagandas is being countered by all the physicists and intelligent design folk who have stood up against Carney’s yesterday science.  So sad and disappointing looking at the corruption and watching politicians pay themselves more and more for less and less.

Elon Musk has become a trillionaire and hiss starlink and starship are progressing along with X , the former twitter.

I’m going to get on with the things needing fixing.  

Thank you Jesus.  

Journal - Friday - Journey Jeep

The transmission light persisted on the dashboard,  I drove the Jeep for the week since they did repairs last Saturday.  Today I’m hoping it’s something minor and they’ve said to return in an hour and a half. That’s good news,  

I’m here at MacDonald’s with Madigan.  I wasn’t really hungry. I had my usual breakfast before leaving, yoghurt, boiled egg, banana and coffee.  I liked the Sausage Egg McMuffin .  Tasty but fattening. I believe my lumbar pain would be improved with wait lost. I could lose 50 lbs and be my athletic self or 30 and be my pre covid fit enough weight.  I’m trying to increased my exercise with more walking and swimming.  I think if I’d trade in my Vespa for an electric bicycle I’d increase my exercise.  My Vespa though has multiple purposes and psychological benefit.  We’ll see. I’m working and paying the bank off on the loans for the Thor and the Jeep.  

I’ve not expensive plans this year. Just to return south for the winter with the motorhome. I’m usually spending less those few months too.  

Laura’s coming over today for the weekend. We’ve a week vacation starting next Friday. There’s a July 1 holiday midweek for I will lose a day of work and have taken another day off.  In August I want to move to an RV park with a lake so I can go swimming daily. I did that at Loan Lake, continuing to work but getting a swim in over lunch.These are healthy plans. 

Selling off vehicles I’ve reduced the outlay of insurance and storage so am pleased that I’ll be seeing money coming back to me.  

I have to put some money in the Tax Free Savings accounts to reduce taxes and confirm Doctors of BC support.

I’ve signed up for the Pacific Psychopharamacology course in Sept but have more CME to do. It’d over 5 years.  I’m not going to IDAA this year but will next year.

This Thursday God Willing I’m taking my 29 year sobriety cake though my sobriety date is Sept. 25, 1997.

This weekend I have the Saturday morning MD2 meeting and have to pay the rent for Cariboo RV Park but only a week as I’ll be in Harrison the second week,. I’ve an apt booked with Dr. Readdy for Saturday Morning too.  

That’s the vague agenda,  I’m truly blessed.  Gratitude lists are warranted.

Thank you God for this Sunny day. Thank you for Madigan. Thank you for Laura. Thank you for the great neice Maizy, great nephews Finn and Elliott, the nephews Graeme, Andrew and Allen, thei nephew wives Tanya and Meagan, Thank you for Adell and Ruth Anne.  Thank you for Kevin and Anna and the God kids. Alex and Kendra and Alec, Billy and Bobby.  Thank you for George and Marty, Dean, and Jack and Neil, Tombo, Ward, Terry, Mark, and all the other men of the Burnaby Men’s Group.  Thank you for St. Barnabus Anglican Church and Martha and all the parishioners that make the church on the hill special.

Thank you for my health. Thank you for peace of mind.  Thank you for my work. Thank you for Gary, Mary Lou, Apta, Moninder and the other doctors and staff at Docside Clinic.  Thank you for Ganesh and Anita and Anil. Thank you for Anil my accountant and his family . Thank you for Kim and the staff at BCRV.  Thank you for Nicoletta and Ernest. Thank you for the dogs.  

Thank you for the University and College and Minister of Health.  Thank you for patients and colleagues and research and medications and knowledge. Thank you for my teachers and mentors. Thank you for all the blessings of learning and the wonders of existence and creation. Thank you for Elon Musk and Starship and the entertainment of news, social media and history

Guide me in all my endeavours,  Help me to know you more deeply God.  Protect me in all that I do.  Be with me and remind me of your presence, Thank you for my parents and brother and aunt and all those I’ve known and loved who have passed on to heaven. Thank you for Rainbow Bridge. Help me to be more aware and more enlightened so I have more faith than fear and understand more and am kind more,

Thank you for the flowers and blued sky and sunshine.

Thank you God,

 

Journal - Friday - Journey Jeep

The transmission light persisted on the dashboard,  I drove the Jeep for the week since they did repairs last Saturday.  Today I’m hoping it’s something minor and they’ve said to return in an hour and a half. That’s good news,  

I’m here at MacDonald’s with Madigan.  I wasn’t really hungry. I had my usual breakfast before leaving, yoghurt, boiled egg, banana and coffee.  I liked the Sausage Egg McMuffin .  Tasty but fattening. I believe my lumbar pain would be improved with wait lost. I could lose 50 lbs and be my athletic self or 30 and be my pre covid fit enough weight.  I’m trying to increased my exercise with more walking and swimming.  I think if I’d trade in my Vespa for an electric bicycle I’d increase my exercise.  My Vespa though has multiple purposes and psychological benefit.  We’ll see. I’m working and paying the bank off on the loans for the Thor and the Jeep.  

I’ve not expensive plans this year. Just to return south for the winter with the motorhome. I’m usually spending less those few months too.  

Laura’s coming over today for the weekend. We’ve a week vacation starting next Friday. There’s a July 1 holiday midweek for I will lose a day of work and have taken another day off.  In August I want to move to an RV park with a lake so I can go swimming daily. I did that at Loan Lake, continuing to work but getting a swim in over lunch.These are healthy plans. 

Selling off vehicles I’ve reduced the outlay of insurance and storage so am pleased that I’ll be seeing money coming back to me.  

I have to put some money in the Tax Free Savings accounts to reduce taxes and confirm Doctors of BC support.

I’ve signed up for the Pacific Psychopharamacology course in Sept but have more CME to do. It’d over 5 years.  I’m not going to IDAA this year but will next year.

This Thursday God Willing I’m taking my 29 year sobriety cake though my sobriety date is Sept. 25, 1997.

This weekend I have the Saturday morning MD2 meeting and have to pay the rent for Cariboo RV Park but only a week as I’ll be in Harrison the second week,. I’ve an apt booked with Dr. Readdy for Saturday Morning too.  

That’s the vague agenda,  I’m truly blessed.  Gratitude lists are warranted.

Thank you God for this Sunny day. Thank you for Madigan. Thank you for Laura. Thank you for the great neice Maizy, great nephews Finn and Elliott, the nephews Graeme, Andrew and Allen, thei nephew wives Tanya and Meagan, Thank you for Adell and Ruth Anne.  Thank you for Kevin and Anna and the God kids. Alex and Kendra and Alec, Billy and Bobby.  Thank you for George and Marty, Dean, and Jack and Neil, Tombo, Ward, Terry, Mark, and all the other men of the Burnaby Men’s Group.  Thank you for St. Barnabus Anglican Church and Martha and all the parishioners that make the church on the hill special.

Thank you for my health. Thank you for peace of mind.  Thank you for my work. Thank you for Gary, Mary Lou, Apta, Moninder and the other doctors and staff at Docside Clinic.  Thank you for Ganesh and Anita and Anil. Thank you for Anil my accountant and his family . Thank you for Kim and the staff at BCRV.  Thank you for Nicoletta and Ernest. Thank you for the dogs.  

Thank you for the University and College and Minister of Health.  Thank you for patients and colleagues and research and medications and knowledge. Thank you for my teachers and mentors. Thank you for all the blessings of learning and the wonders of existence and creation. Thank you for Elon Musk and Starship and the entertainment of news, social media and history

Guide me in all my endeavours,  Help me to know you more deeply God.  Protect me in all that I do.  Be with me and remind me of your presence, Thank you for my parents and brother and aunt and all those I’ve known and loved who have passed on to heaven. Thank you for Rainbow Bridge. Help me to be more aware and more enlightened so I have more faith than fear and understand more and am kind more,

Thank you for the flowers and blued sky and sunshine.

Thank you God,

 

Journal - early morning wakening

These are glory days.  Sunny warm.  I’ve so enjoyed walking Madigan at noon.  It’s been so hot in the 70’s yesterday and 71 today.  My motorhome air condition gets overwhelmed.  The sun comes through the windows and heats the place up.  I have vents and fans in the roof and can keep the door open so it’s not stupefying. Yet the air conditioning unit has difficulty keeping up The awnings help to keep the sun from heating the vehicle up but the big window at the front is a heat magnet but I work there and like the view. 

It’s a first world problem.

My mind has been troubled recently.

I am feminizing so that may contribute to my emotional lability.  Unlike my Spock persona , the professional old guy, I am let out the younger feminine self and experience more emotional .I’d rather it be joy and dance but its tends to resentment and self pity

.I wrestle with God pushing the limits and resisting living in fear and safety.  I don’t want to grow old slowly dying daily but would rather rage against the night. The trouble is the writer of that poem, Thomas was a drunk.

I’m coming up 29 years sober and think there is either and element of anniversary reaction or simply that spring with it’s changes is an unsettling time for me.

I woke at 5 am. 

I have meditated in a distracted way, and done exercises, mostly stretching. I’ll walk the dog

Thank you God for this day. Thank you God for the air and gravity. Thanky you Godd for Madigan. Thank you god for Colour. Thank you God for feeling. Please heal my back and removed the pain and increase the movement and capability.  Thank you for sexuality and sensuality, Thank you for genders. Thank you for purpose.

Ive been considering how life is simple in a transactional analysis way.  There seems few plots and the institutions support these plots.  There’s not so clear an agenda for the over 65.  The Aegeism in Canada is affecting me. God fodder for self pity.  I don’t like the media coverage of government and like to say politics is 15th century and science is 22nd slice. Elon Musk just became a trillionaire and elevated a thousand of his company to millionaire stats.  The democrats politics want o take and distribute that money claiming that it wass a group action yet they mostly talk, complain and blame.

I see the Biblical government of Rome and Jerusalem and Christ and the Christians trying to make a positive change .  

Thank you God for discernment,  Thannk you God for coffee.  Let me be a doer not a stewer.

Thank you God for the up elevator, Thank you God for cleanilennss.  The Merry Maid cleaning ladies are coming today at noon.  I have to take the jeep in again on Friday. 

I’ve been subpoenaed as an expert witness but the are only offering to pay $20 

I’m bothered by financed these days, debt and cost and the idea of rich and poor.  Yet I’ve given little regard for this.  I continue to get by and progress but the future doesn’t look bright. I’m 10 years past retirement age traditionally and continue to serve because I like to. It’s good enough.  

I’m annoyed to hear so much complaint about health care and costs and delays.  I am prone to fear mongering and doom zooming but want to see the best I want to be optimistic,

I want to lose 50 lbs. I fasted on the weekend all day Sunday till Monday morning.  Weekly fasting and more exercise and lest snacking is what i need to do. More walking.  Now that’s what I need to do now. 

Thank you Jesus. 

Sunday, June 14, Storage Locker run

I missed church.  I think they are still in process of hiring a new priest.  They didn’’t have Eucharist when I went with Laura a few weeks back.  The uncertainty was all it took. I turned over and had another half hour nap.  I had thought of walking to Brunette Lake with Madigan but it’s going to be so hot. I had begun to pile things like biker jackets for the storage locker run.  That’s the plan now. Less effort and a mall stop as well.  

The government offered me a couple of thousand for a gun buy back, they outlawed the rifle I bought almost the day after I bought.  I thought it being Canadian made it would not be attacked by our government that claims to want to help Canadian industry.  It’s safer in storage because here I have the cleaning ladies and it doesn’t store easily like the break down 22.  I might get the big pot too since I don’t envision doing that kind of cooking.  I want to reduce what I have in the Thor and in the storage locker.

I really enjoyed seeing Ragina’s wall of art and buy a small picture I can mount in the motorhome..  I have a place for this nude but have to get fastener that will hold up in a motorhome.  

Madigan is sitting on the table tooling at the street very entertained.

Yesterday the FIFA crowds made driving stressful.  I drive downtown so little I’m becoming a country driver.  It’s demanding to be watching drivers and the pedestrians as well as the drug addicts. 

I’ve had a coffee 

I have to make room under the bus for the barbecue since the hitch has taken up more space.  I was planing on testing if the Vespa could ride on the back of the jeep with the tire there but I’m thinking that could wait till next week.

I was pleased to get my cheque and pay off the credit cards.  I’d hoped to put some money into my tax free savings account but after all the costs and money on loans I let up this month and had a little shopping fun. I like my new electric toothbrush. I had to pay for medical prevention devices too and insurance.  So dome significant outlay. , I’m paying the bank which has significant shares in my Thor home and Jeep.  

I had my hair done by Shirin at Chaterers and it looked so good I couldn’t help but see the wrinkles and turkey neck as well.  So I want a face lift and even consider electrolysis because the neck is a hassle shaving. I’ve obviously got some time on my hands now beause for years I was only thinking of fixing houses and boats and education and supporting wives, partners and dogs.  I’m pretty content by comparison to that early life of study responsibility and struggle.  

I understand men who go to dominatrixx,  I have spent a life time of leadership and so called ‘alpha’ male behaviour in a socialist ountry where only the elite are rewarded and the ‘doers’, trades and professions are punished with taxes and anti male language like ‘toxic masculinity’.  I appreciate the fathers and the families but I’ve married infertile professional women for some reason. I’ve wondered if I didn’t want a sister more than to be a father.  I really did want to be a father in the Medicals school years and residency and after but then decades of women putting the timeline back and not having sex in the end,  being absorbed in their mothers and anything but present and future family defeated me.  I confess I lost interest.  I was more into service and God and adventure.  The heroic too.  It’s been a good run and I’ve enjoyed the many years of companionship with so much to show for those years in learning.  Now I’m just comfortable with this dog and friends and the ability to move my home to the lake.  For years I was hauling stuff each weekend for camping and hunting I’m thankful for the glampingmobile.

The city waits for me a decade from now. Aging the downtown calls with conveniences because the life of the road is a whole lot harder.  Even now I wonder what emergency equipment I need and what can I put in storage. I’d really like to reduce the storage locker too. I’ve been cutting costs all springs with selling of vehicles .  

I still like the Vespa but think an electric folding bicycle may be the way to go. 

I want to fish more and moved my rod and reel to a more accessible location. I do want to hunt too and want to do more target practicing.  

I’m looking for God and God is looking for me.  It’ s just that I don’t think God only likes stoicism.  Time to go

Thank you God for today. Thank you God for Madigan and this body with all its potential. Heal my back lord.  Help me stretch more and exercise more. Help me loose weight so I’m healthier and less at risk for disease,  Help me fasting today and more often,  Help me snack less and watch tv less.  Help me increase my exercise this summer and swim in lakes more.  Thank you for friends., Thank you for Laura. Thank you for Thor and Jeep.  

Thank you for sobriety.  I take a cake next week and then Laura Madigan and I have 10 days at Harrisons.  Thank you for the work vacation.  

Thank you

Journal - Saturday, Denman Street

I started my day with a on line doctors meeting After that I drove my Jeep with Madigan to see Dr. Ready, my chiropractor at Klein Chriropractor.  My lumbar spine continues to improve.  

R. and C. had planned to be a sweat lodge but phoned to let me know they could meet that afternoon.  FIFA is on so the city is jammed.  A lovely sun day and I enjoyed the jean skirt and my black t shirt and sandals .  I wore the brown Mexican cowboy hat to keep the sun off my face .  Madigan thought the whole adventure a delight.  Loved visitting their apartment where Carolyn was finishing making a batch of sour dough bread.  

We had lunch at the Australian Pie Restaurant , The meat pies were delicious.  Denman was busy.Madigan loved all the dog smells.

I listened again as the two reviewed their transitioning.  There’s no doubt about the decision though the bottom surgery has been complicated.  Hormones and all the other matters, top surgery and such went well.  I’d heard the stories individually but enjoyed hearing it socially much later

I’d only had 2 hour parking so had to leave sure that I was a half hour late but lucky.  Driving down town with all the pedestrians and car line ups was stressful. I crossed two bridges since the gps took me north Vancouver to miss the FIFA traffic.  

I’m glad to be home.  I understand why Laura thinks of it as ‘country’.  Now I’ve seen the inside of two apartments, Laura and theirs,  Madigan was delighted to sniff at everything and didn’t piddle on the new hall carpet . We were only their a few moments but I was glad to see Ragina’ art on the wall and smell Carolyn, the little chef’s cooking,  ‘

Their elderly friend is having Maid at the end of the week.  They’d become quite disabled.  Still pre grief and the issues of Ragina’s mother’s stroke and the terrible mondtrous regime she escaped from.