Good Friday, Easter, 2026

It has been a tough week.  Mostly because I bought the Jeep and acquired a debt that bothered me. I’d traded in my 2017 Mini Cooper and last weekend decided to sell my truck, and camper. They were at Adventure RV waiting to have the one happy jack reinforced.  I worried the night before fearful of the drive out on the highway on my Vespa. It was just a foreboding, an uncertainty. I have this with age now, wondering will I live this truly minor event.  The ride was actually exhilarating .  I wasn’t cold either having dressed sufficiently.  

Kevin said they could get the camper off and I could take the truck in a couple of hours. I rode the Vespa over to Victors. In his Ram we headed out for breakfast. He had his regular omelette while I had sausages and eggs.  His other Veterans came in. Also some folk from the program. He enjoyed chatting with them as they passed out table. I enjoyed the sausages. All round pleasant country men connecting. We talked of guns and the gun buy back too.  

Then I was back at Kevin’s Adventure RV where he was kind enough to use a forklift to load the Vespa onto the F350.

Now I drove back to Vancouver and unloaded so much ‘stuff’ , good ‘stuff’ mind you , at the Maple Leaf Storage Locker, The Honda 3000 generator, tools from under the seat, dog toys of course.  Then I brought back the heavy tail gate and the 4 winter tires.  

The next day on the Grok AI its said the resale price was $40,000. I talked to Ford and the sales man hadn’t got back to me so I phoned next day. I’d taken a day off work to get the Truck because nothing was open on Friday Saturday.

Expectation was the key.  With myself I expected to pick up the truck , drive it home unpack it and sell it. I was exhausted and waited till the next day.

 Then I drove in to Ford and the salesman began dickering because he said I hadn’t told him it was gas not diesel. I lost it and said if I have to do surgery and need to know your blood type I’m going to ask that. I don’t expect you to know that. He wanted me to come back on Monday. He was trying to do the best but I wass frustrated so much that I couldn’t get turned around with all the new cars about. So I went into service which I’ve always loved at Ford.  Told the guy my problem and he understood and drove the truck out of the lot to the gate.  I then drove to another Ford and they suggested because it has the scratches that they wouldn’t buy it because they’d need to fix that .  Canada drives had offered me $33,000 sight unseen but the Journey folk had said that though they were Jeep I could bring it back there when I was buying the Jeep originally. 

I did and Ryan was great. He took pictures, come back next day if the price was fine. He put it out for auction the next day. $30,000 was fine. This was day 3 of the process. That day i drove the truck over. He got the service guys to take my Vespa off the back. I drove home on the Vespa. Great drive.

Monday their accountant was supposed to cut a check.  They didn’t get back to me. I’d signed over the truck and left the truck and was involved in a virtual clinic then I phoned their finance folk and really complained .I was dealing with a woman and police and a machete. I’d ridden my Vespa to the DTES. I had so many people wanting me and here I was catastrophizing about fianances.

I normally don’t think about that because I trust God yet it brings back the divorce where she was on Cocaine and crazy and not showing up at work,  up all night. The dog and I had no place to stay and it was raining and cold and I couldn’t ‘t get any food  or sleep. I had told her I can treat 100 crazy people or her but not both. I needed to get away from the screaming insanity but she refused to go to treatment or get help. I saw a psychiatrist who said my problem was my wife’s severe adiction.  I went to  my so called friends because I knew my dog would be welcome. We’d tried a couple of hotels but they didn’t take dogs.  The biker ‘friends’ realize that I was weak and vulnerable so took the opportunity to capitalize .I’d been their ‘friend’ when I was always financially = well but now tthey stole $30,000 from me along with my truck. In the past we’d all smoked some pot and drunk some wine but in the last year cocaine had hit. 

Fortunately for me I had a bad redaction but for them it was  severe addictions like my wife.  I was now the source of money .So there’s some anniversary trauma shit happening. She’d blown the transmission on my truck and continued to drive it and they kept the truck supposedly in exchange for a car I never got. I hate when the flashback and nightmares come back. I left her and the marriage and the practice that night when she continued drugs and wouldn’t go to treatment.  The lies were worst.  It was when I was with the biker friends drunk at night in the woods that I felt I was outside God’s grace.  That was the height of my ego that I felt I could be beyond God’s love. It was an epiphany of arrogance and self pity.  That day a Christian friend called and I told him I wanted to go back to church .   

Ryan then came through ant the Jeep  and gave m the cheque the accountant had screwed up with.  Now there was no bank open. Next day at noon after an easy morning virtual clinic with my cleaning ladies arriving I went into TD leaving the dog in the Jeep. I deposited the cheque. The loan is with RBC the bank I had with the ex decades back .and perhaps that triggered thing too..  I’ll move the money from TD to RBC after Easter.  

With all that I missed Maundy Thursday, the Last Supper and the Washing of the feet. I remember years I’d eat pancakes and participate each day of the Holy Week. That was when I was attending St. John’s or Christ Church. At. St. Barnabus I’ve been more lax.  

As my  friend George says., “it’s only money’ and today that’s the ‘caddilac’ problem.  We call it a caddilac problem because it’s not a real problem like the time the guy went through the stop sign and hit me on my bike throwing me over the hood bouncing off the roof and then landing on my head and neck on the road. I’d been going to see my Priest in preparation for adult baptism.  Lying on the road I felt I couldn’t fight anymore and was picked up in the stretcher and taken by ambulance to UBC. I was afraid my neck was broken and I couldn’t feel.   I just waited for the MRI results after I’d had the scan. The doctor came. His name was Dr. Priest. He told me nothing was broken.  I was so greateful.  That wasn’t a Cadillac problem  My close friend was quadriplegic and told me when the staff didn’t show up , some dispute with her boss,  he’d said he couldn’t empty his bladder and suffered all morning until his son showed up.

I’ve identified with Jesus’s suffering.  Money problems aren’t the cross but illness and death of loved ones and catastrophes are. I was just so self absorbed in things not going on my time.,  Something I planned would be done in a day maybe two took 5. The $40,000 I was hoping for turned out to be $30,000. I was physically utterly fatigued with my chronic back pain and weakness overwhelming at times .  But it was ‘my way’ not .;thy way’ and I was just catastrophizing and feeling sorry for myself.  These moods and paranoid thoughts were Norm in the days before I got sober. I went from a millionaires with yacht and swimming pools and my dangerously insane ex treated as ‘normal’ managing my affairs while I got help . Insane. Now I know that’s the world of alcohol and ego and the people I knew in that day.  That was a bad year financially and physically but spiritually it was the best.  I loved getting to know Father John better.  I met George and I prayed and meditated and walked my dog and was blessed to know Dr. Lam, Dr. Gutowski, Dr. Baker and Dr. Graham.  I considered suicide that year.  Now nearly 30 years later I have so much to live for.

The F350 Lariat edition super duty with sun roof and long box 4x4 had been with me 7 years. I thought of the hunting and fishing and all the good times camping with Laura and Gilbert then Laura and Madigan. It was a really good truck and now it was gone.  The mini had been Gilbert and Laura and my ride. When Gilbert  became blind I traded the Miata sports car  we loved in for the Mini so I could take Laura and him to the Oregon beaches and cry watching him run free knowing he wasn’t going to bang into anything.  Sailing we’d dinghy into a beach so he could run free on the sand 

I’m aging and dealing with loss. I sold the sailboat getting a pittance for it. I don’t have time to invest in sales. When I wrote a book I was supposed to market it and didn’t because it’d rather do clinical work. I like being of service.  

I’m here now in a motorhome with a jeep. The jeep with a tow kit will be able to be pulled behind my motorhome. I”ll probably sell the Vespa and quad because the jeep can do everything.  I’m reducing and minimizing. I have the money in the bank to pay for the motorhome and jeep but something to do with taxes and such makes it better I just have the loan and pay it off over he next 5 to 10 years but then I don’t know if I’ll have 10 years though I expect it’s another quarter country to go unless I get shot at again or go over a cliff or crash a motorcycle or car.  I have a guardian angel or many and have been blessed for sure.

I used to love the Travelling Wilburies “Handle Me with Car’.  Now I’m more likely to play Holy Holy Holy on the stereo.  I love Third Day and am enjoying the audio in the Jeep . I’m in transition.  From Sailboat to Truck and Camper I’m now in Thor Motorhome and 2 door Jeep Wrangler. It feels right. 

Laura is coming over today.  She has a week of holiday and Madigan and I are so looking forward to her being with us. When she came to LA I rented a car for a couple of thousand so I won’t need to do that . I’l have savings too not needing to pay licenses or storage on all the vehicles. 

I’ve been studying Orthodxoy.  Kevin Anna and the God kids have found a home in a Greek Orthodox Church. Because my church is going to hell in a hand basket with King Charles sounding more Muslim than Christian and the pope celebrating Islam I’m considering what church I can attend.  I’m enjoying learning about Constantinople and the Orthodox and Oriental churchs.  My priest was caught up in the Climate Change UN political money scheme.  She’s partial to the South Americans having lived there. I just see the IPCC as a scam created by the Communist Chinese and orchestrated by the communist Maurice Strong and supported by Pierre Trudeau who allied himself and Canada with Cuba and Castro.  Now Carney allies himself with Communist China and is annti anmerica and freedom. 

 Israel and America are at war with Iran who was the principle ally of communist China.  WHO went over to the dark side in covid when I studied the genetic code and knew they were lying about the poor Pangala.  Fauci then was lying to the President and the whole lies and corruption of Justin Trudea and autopen Biden was going on. Jan. 6th was a scam as big as the declaration of martial law in Canada over a peaceful demonstration.

I’ve been trying to maintain peace of mind.  I remember Anita telling me that she and Willy tried to play it safe in their latter years of service and work and remember how the wonderful wonderful Godly Phillip was persecuted by the authorities for his pro life stand.

I don’t want to be a martyr. I’m more like Peter and would rather be like John. I ‘m from cowboy stock and want to die with my boots on in bed at a hundred or so.  Dad wanted to go when they wouldn’t;t let him sit outside. I don’t think I’ll do well institutionalized.  But for now I want to camp 

I have everything I need. I’ve money in the bank but no pension so fear when carney gloats about having trillion of Canadian pension and his face and the Quatar faces all look like the my biking hunter ‘friends’ who betrayed me taking my money and belongings and dividing them among themselves.

The guards took Jesus’s clothes and divided them in four among themselves.  The Roman administrator Pilate had put up a sign calling him “king of the Jews’.  

Canada seems metaphorically to be plundered by Trudeau and Carney. The great replacement is the removal of the Christians and replacement of them with Muslims.  The Crusades are taught falsely.  Islamophobia is punished yet it is the Muslims persecuting Christians and Jesus. 

Our PM joined with the Hammas Palestinian terrorists and antisemitism  after Hammas killed hundreds of young Israelis at at music festival. It turned out all the billions of aid money was used by Palestine to build a veritable warrior cave system under Gaza to attack Israel.  Yet there’s Carney clelebrating terrorists like Trudeau did.

I feel sometimes looking at Canadian politics this last decade I’m in the asylum.  Not ironically the schizophrenics votes the same distributions in Canada as Montreal and Toronto.

I was going to go to church for the Good Friday mass but have stopped here to journal.

I will go to mass tomorrow with Laura .She asked me to get Hamm for Easter meal.   

I should stop social media contributions on Facebook. X is more mature.   Zuckerberg is pro communist china.  Communism is the religion of aetheism.  

Today is the day Jesus was crucified. In the Gospel of John his last words are ‘it is finished’.

In Mark ‘Jesus cried out “Eloi. Eloi. Lema sabachthani!’

“My God, My God, Why have you forsaken me?”

Rainy morning, Burnaby

Thank you God for a new day, a clean slate day, a day I can do whatever it is you wish me to do.  Guide me . Be with me. Show me the way.  Let me know you more truly.  Let me come into your joy and let my faith overcome my fear. Help me to help others. May I be the best version of me I can be.  Thank you God for all my blessings.

Thank you for my friends and family. Thank you for my pets and vehicles. Thank you for my right work and service. Thank you for this body and this energy.   Thank you Lord Jesus, God of Gods and Holy Spirit.

Madigan didn’t want to go for walk. He’s napping on the couch and it’s raining. He’s taken to letting me know he’s happy to wait till the rain stops for his walk and poop. 

I’ve been reading social media, X, Trusth Social and Facebook.  I’ve been spending a threes hours a day on it since the war against Iran began Feb. 28, 2026.  The Ayatollah and Iran were China’s ally as was Venezuelan’s cartel communist Maduro.  I was delighted when the US took him how now I ‘m pleased that they have taken out the Ayatolah.  Sharia Communism has been the threat to western democracy at and Iran was the principal supporter of Hammas, Hezbollah and the Houthi.  Now China is without oil to wage war on India Tibet and Nationalist China.  Communism is the religion of aetheism and they’ve killed hundreds of millions of people in the last hundred years.  The war in Ukraine was supported by Iran.  

Carney is a deeply disturbing disappointment. The New World Order was an attempt to side line the US and put China as the one in charge of the world .  Now that’s been countered by the Americans.  Europe has been a joke with its open borders and worship of the climate change theocracy.  All their prophecies have been false.  The Arctic is still there and there are more polar bears and the news is constantly lying to maintain this hysteria.  Fear and doomsayings are the leverage of Carney too.  After the nightmare of Trudeau we have gone to this new Liberal leader who is worse.  At least he’s outfitting the military with new colt rifles.  However he’s introduced censorship like China and made a military pack with them and is alienating the US just like Pierre Trudeau did. All this hate from the Liberals lost Canada billions when Trudeau alligned with CAstro and now Carney is doing the same.  Meanwhile Cuba may overthrow its communist dictators just as Iran is in process of overthrowing its radical Islam leadership.

I have met refugees from Cuba and Iran and Venezuela and know Chinese who have escaped. It’s a wonder that Carney doesn’’t listen to Canadians but remains in bed with his Brookfield corporation and the WEF elitest Schwab group of nihilists.  It’s sad given we’re in a 22nd century science world with radical abundance lead by these 19th century Neo Marxists and 15th century Islamic jihadists.

I don’t like the constant news’s of Muslim immigrants raping while women and children and getting leniency from the Liberal courts. I don’t like seeing all these old men and women being attacked while Carney is pushing MAID for the mentally ill, not violent deranged brain washed immigrants but people like me, white, old stock Canadians Christians.  I have to resist the self pity and fear of being attacked by Carney and his gang of elites.  I admit I’m afraid.  I’d like to escape to some place safe but that’s only because my back is always sore and I’m unsteady on my feet at times .I miss being the mountain climbing kid who was called ‘Billygoat gruff’ for my balance and strength. I miss the kid who did jump kicks and stood up to violent men . I miss the man with a steady arm. I have a tremor in my hand and can’t shoot a pistol like I used to. I can still shoot rifles but that excellent accuracy with scalpal or pistol is gone.  I’m just not robust. Not frail. But grieving the person I once was who ran long distances and swam across lakes.  

I talked to a 77 year old and she told me he didn’t have the stamina to drive to Seattle.  He was admiring my new Jeep Wrangler and I told him I needed it because it towed behind my motorhome.  I’d just returned from the 2000 km drive from Palm Springs back here. It took days because I only driver 3 or 4 hours a day.  

It turns out my Black Creek Siberian rifle has been banned and I’m trying to get registered for the buy back. It cost me $2000 and replaced the banned Ruger I had.  They were both what i used for hunting rabbits. This one shot one rabbit and now a year later the Liberals are punishing law abiding citizens while awarding criminals and terrorists and apparently themselves involved in all manner of corruption.  We’ve gone from being 7 or 8 on the corruption index to 25 th.  

I’m working like I have since I was 12 and struggling to remain positive each day.  God is good all of the time. Yet there I am reading social media which is doom zooming and I’m a little down like Madigan because of rain. It was sunny yesterday and I was much more positive. But I like the rain and green and love the plants of Burnaby.   I’m blessed to have work.

I’m getting my truck and camper from Chilliwack on Thursday to sell to pay for the Jeep and pay towards my motorhome debt.  I’d certainly like a million dollars to be debt free.  But my mom used to say she was glad when I was in debt because she knew I’d be working. IF I was debt free now I might head south to Texas or west to Alberta. I keep hoping that the working people here in BC will push back against the ‘free stuff’ NDP and restore meritocracy and lower costs of housing and groceries and less taxes for the middle class. I’ve paid so much tax. It’s like I work and support three beurocrats and a couple of street drug dealers as well.  I’d just like to pay off my mortgage but really I like my bankers too .  Thank God for my accountants and for the clinic administrations who do their best to let me focus on clinical medicine.  

Time to get to work

Thank you God. Thank you Jesus.  Holy Spirit Come!!!!

Jeep Wangler 2024 Willy’s Edition 4x4 2 door

I am pleased.  First day of spring . I have been wanting to trade in my wonderful Mini Cooper because it doesn’t dinghy tow behind my Thor Hurricane motorhome.  I’d gone with Laura to look at the Maverick Hybrid weeks before and liked it, However when I went back again I thought it was bigger than I needed and had decided I didn’t need a box. I’d thought  brefgore I could load my motorcycle in the box but decided I didn’t want to be loading motorcycles anymore.  I shared my “first world’. ‘Cadillac’ problems with my men’s group, what we call a ‘gift of recovery’.  Quite the change from how am I going pay the rent or will I have money for sardines or tuna for lunch. . I’ve been very poor and hungry three times in my life.  When I first left home, when I arrived in England after bicycling across Europe, when I left my third marriage and entered recovery.  Now I’ve just bought a motorhome worth hundreds of thousand with the help of a bank and want to be able to tow a car behind it rather than a motorcycle.  

I was sitting with Neil, Jack and Terry at the meeting and Neil said ‘why don’t you get a Jeep. They’re the best for towing and what everyone has for that reason.”  The motorhome repair guys I’d talked to all said the same.  Now here was Neil a fellow whose advise I really respected saying the same.  There’ a joke about a guy asking God for help and God sending repeated messages until the fellow finally acknowledges what God had been telling him all along. 

Laura had her Smart Car repair and maintenance done at Merecedes Benz so could drive out to be with us for the weekend.  I suggested when she arrived that we take a drive with Madigan to at least ‘sit in a jeep’ to decide if it’s right.  The nearest Jeep Dealer was Journey Autogroup on Dominion in Port Coquitlam.  They had a 2026 on display but I’d decided I wanted a 24 0r 25 jeep with low mileage , the advise my father gave us, because driving a new car off the lot depreciated it by 10 %.  

Laura and I looked at the  White Jeep Wangler Sport and we liked it. Great look. I liked the sturdy build like a Rolls Royce. It’s built tough for off road.  It seemed high and hard to get into but Sina the salesman who came to helped us said that that particular one had really big special ‘off road ‘ wheels.  

I have a quad. I’ve done all the off road driving in my life with my original Broncho II then later vans and cars and four quads and a couple of off road Honda enduro  motorcycles. I hunt and still do but my friends all laughed when I bought the  a 300 Win mag for long distance shooting as back up to my Ruger 30.06 claimed I could shoot as far as a sniper now.  They said that I wasn’t young anymore and unlikely to be climbing over mountains shooting deer or moose and packing them out. They knew that with my quad or truck I’d taken to being mostly a road hunter who shot grouse by the side of the road and sat in ambush but wasn’t going to haul back an 2000 lb moose from the woods. The last 300 lb mulie I’d shot a few hundreds yards into the bush had taken me all my strength and energy to get back to the truck.  Then it was next to implossible to get it into the truck. I finally used the winch to load it.  

Getting old is not for the young. They lack the courage and stamina. 

I want a 4x4 so I can drive on logging roads hunting and fishing and doing photography. The best part is the jeep tows so well behind motorhomes.  Traveland who sold me my motorhome told me they sell the Blue Ox Flat Towing Systems and that the famed E&H Hitch folk next door do the installing there. 

I told Sina what I was looking for. He called out a vehicle that ticked every box.  Laura and I went out to sit in it . It did feel so right. Laura said “It really is pretty. :  With regular wheels it was no problem getting into the vehicle though Laura with his short legs used the hand hold to pull herself in.  Madigan jumped right up and loved it. A very dog friendly vehicle.  I loved the comfort of the seat. My back has rebelled with aging after being in truck crashes and plane crashes and wrestling violently insane. So a comfortable seat is a must. I’m 6 feet and the mini had little head room and I had problems seeing the lights when I pulled up to a stop light.  Still when I bought the mini I felt like I was in the cockpit of a Sopwith Camel and it was the best high way rally car. I loved my mini but with my neck stiffness and getting in and out of the car I got spoiled the last 3 months of driving my Thor Hurricane motorhome 2000 km south.  The class A motorhome view is incredible by comparison. Now the Jeep had that ease  of entry and exit an old guy like me likes  and that incredible view.  I felt like I was in a mini hummer. I liked all the positions of steering wheel and lights. The only peculiar thing was the windows up and down buttons  was on the centre console.  

Sima explained that the doors come off and the roof comes off for summer driving. Wow.  I’d had a Mazda Miata I loved for its convertible roof but this Jeep was like a regular transformer. Sedate city car to Baja transformers. I really could see enjoying that.  I ride a Harley and we call a car a ‘cage’ but this can transform to being as close to an enduro motorcycle as can be.  Wow!

The back up screen is really good, just like my sister in law Adell’s  Volvo.  That’s what I first did when I had the keys , drive a little forward then back up into the same spot. Fantastic!  I had the Miata and the Mini for when I was working in a downtown clinic and parking in the city was a nightmare. I can’t take my Ford F350 long box truck downtown without really planning for a parking lot.  The Jeep’s maneuverability is incredible.

Sina and his manager offered to let us take the car for a ride but I’d seen enough. Laura and I loved it. But I’d only planned to look .   I really didn’t need a car to tow till my next snowbird trip south.  In LA when Laura joined me I’d rented a car and now I wouldn’t need to do that.  

“I just need to go for coffee and think about it.”  I said.

Laura and I drove round the block to the Macdonald’s where I got 2 quarter pounder with cheese meals for the humans and one meat patty for Madigan.  This is when I miss my Dad and Brother Ron most. Dad knew everything about cars and houses and Ron knew everything about business.  Dad helped me buy my first house and it’s the house I still miss today.  I was devastated when my ex wife said she saw it as a ‘starter’ home.  But thanks to Dad I knew what to look for in buying homes and he was always there to advise me on cars.  I could always count on Ron for advise about investment and finances .  I phoned Anil Auluck, my accountant. He’s helped me for years and had the best financial advise. I know medicine.  They say if you want to know where to invest, find out where doctors are investing and invest elsewhere. We are so invested in learning about anatomy and chemistry we simply don’t have time to focus on these others matters. I phoned Anil and ran my plan byt him and he said, “it’s a good idea. We don’t ‘t like you riding motorcycles and a jeep is a good investment”.. Thank you Anil.

My sister in law doesn’t like me riding motorcycles at my age. I think she imagines me have a stroke at high speed on my Harley. I come back from Spokane on the free ways last year and loved it. But I didn’t enjoy my beautiful Vespa 300 on the freeway doing 70 mph this winter as I had the year before. Its light weight makes it easy to load and off load but it’s a bit scarey with crosswinds. In the city it’s the perfect run around.  I still love my Harley for the highway but I traded my big 1600 lb Electroglide I rode to Sturges for my gutsy 500 lbs Nightster Special.   It’s a great motorcycle.  The dog rides in a little box behind me on the Vespa or the little Harley. 

George is my all round wise man. He’s got a new car but I love his little red thunder bird. I’m the Beatles era guy and George would  definitely Elvis/Sinatra era. He sings all manner of songs with his internationally famous barbershop quartet but just got back from touring Route 66.  Laura and I this winter  texted him  a picture of us at the Santa Monica pier , the end of  Root 66.  

‘The mileage is good for second hand. The Jeep is a good vehicle. I think it’s a good plan. Laura likes it. It’s better to have a car than depend on a motorcycle carried behind your motorhome.  Good Idea”. He said. Thank you George. 

I worry I’m being impulsive. I have the money in the bank but the bank and my accountant prefer I borrow and pay off.  

Back at Journey Sina was really helpful.  His manager, a delightful young Sik man with Turban had explained how a car insurance loan worked so I could pay off any time. I’m planning on selling my truck. Downsizing.The insurance guy was great. The jeep insurance was only $50 more than my mini. I phoned Thawn at Rand and McNally. He takes care of my insurance. He told me it was a good deal.  Then the most beautiful tall young woman explained the options for extended warranty. I love extended warranty and I got a great package. The trouble with buying anything from gorgeous women is you wonder how much their looks influence your decision.  Thankfully Laura was there to say it was all good.I didn’t get cosmetic coverage but mechanical and such I’m covered for years to come.  RBC bank gladly extended the loan with reasonable payments.  Madigan was with Laura impatient the whole time.  

My new ‘Willy’s’ Jeep was driven round to the front.  Sina handed me the keys. We unloaded the little I had in the Mini. Then Laura and I were sitting in the Jeep with Madigan. Loving it!!

The only trouble was we couldn’t n’t get the windows down so I had to go out and ask the manager where they were. He laughed and showed me already had Sina had. . “They are on the front console because the doors come off. It’s a common question new buyers ask even though we always tell them”. He said. 

The navigation screen interfaced with my iPhone with CarPlay and blue tooth.  I put in the route home and off we drove.  What a day! What an adventure!

I’m really the proud owner of a racing green Jeep Wrangler 4x4 . Given’ my name is William we liked that the Jeep is the ‘Willy’s” edition. Also when I worked with my brilliant spiritual colleague Dr. Willy Gutowski he’d leant me his Jeep for a month while he was off island. I have such fond memories of working in the Northern Marianas Islandsand Willy was such a profound Christian inspiration I love that my Jeep is called ‘Willy’s’ .  A bit of Jungian synchronicity. God is good all of the time. 

Now all I want to do is ride in my Jeep. When we got back to my motorhome and got out Madigan went round the front and peed on the tire a very long time. “This is mine,” he was saying to all the other dogs.  .  

I’m happy too. Laura’s happy.  A good day was had by all.  All I have to do is make some money to get the Blue Ox trailer system attracched by E&H Hitch and Traveland RV. 

Thank you God. Thank you Jesus. 

St. Patrick’s Day, Doc-side Medical

It was great to be in the clinic today with Drs. Horvath, Dr. Waller, Dr. Saggar, Mary Lou.  The staff and counsellor were there as well and I’m likely to misspell their names.  I was honored to have a birthday celebration with pizza and ice cream cake. I learned the counsellor I so enjoyed is 6 months younger. Dr. Waller told me about his dog walking.  I was actually gifted a bottle of Irish whiskey which continues and recurring irony though I’ve not had a drink in 26 years. It reminds me of my abstinent actor friend who at a decade sober got major role in a beer commercial that funded him for quite some time.  

Madigan loved the festivity. 

I’m rarely with groups so it’s good for me to continue apart of the human race. I enjoyed being in the room with patients as opposed to virtual.  There’s something to be said for the balance.  

I came home and walked Madigan who had scored a little bit of ice cream cake. 

A law has been passed extending censorship to social media.  I was flagged for saying “gobbly gook’ with the nonsense said by a politico.  

I enjoyed uploading a reading to St. Patrick’s Breast Plate. 

I also upload videos to my utube channel of birds and dogs and art galleries an and museums.  I may have to do more video.  I haven’t taken it all very seriously happy to get it all going and be able to teach others how to set it up decades back when they first began.  I have the songs I wrote for Christmas .  I have these periods of interest and creativity. Recently I’ve not been making music much except for electric. I love that I’ve done the winter in the south again and become comfortable driving and parking the Thor Hurricane Class A Motorhome. I really like it here.

It’s been raining a lot. ‘Atmospheric River’ is the latest term

The Iran US Israel war continues and the WEF/NW0/ China#1 folk bother me. I don’t like communism and I’m seeing Neo communism was what the WEF was offering and it really was all an attack on Freedom .  Doomsaying and Climate change and open borders. I love the American, Trump and other leaders are pushing back against this .  I am afraid of these left wing leaders and their plans. It’s hopeful to see Iran falling and Cuba about to fall with the US defending Freedom.  Canada is doing poorly economically. I’m doing okay.  I watch too much social media.  

I’m thankful I uploaded Breast plate prayer and must upload more prayers.  

I dreamed of Marion and Willy last night. I have such fine dreams at times. A visitation from my father not that long ago.  Lucid dreaming moments too.  I saw a green Colour mom had dad paint the kitchen. She loved her Irish origins.  I loved seeing the picture of my grandfather’s geologist brother on the pub wall.  

Thank you God!!!!Thank you Jesus. Thank you St. Patrick.  

Burnaby, Brunette River Walk

I slept in. It was 930 when Madigan began barking at the door. I decided wit the sun shining in the skylight it was likely time to get up. 9:30.  Too late for church. I stayed up till 11 watching the Good Doctor.  This morning I think it’s a great medical show but I expect I’ve had enough for a while. A bit too much like work.  I meditated but more like rote than meeting one’s lover.  I am having a bit of a dry period.  glad to be going through the motions and ‘keeping on trucking’ but not in the bliss zone.

I enjoyed the orange juice, egg and yoghurt. I’m really enjoying the coffee, Starbucks expresso. Having another cup today.

I enjoyed my meeting yesterday. It’s good to be a part of this group and chcking in. Then seeing Dr. Ready was very positive.  The sharp pain in my lower back is replaced with a dull ache and I have some more confidence in mobility. I just wonder how frequency I should see him.  Maybe a couple of weeks.  

After that I drove to Ford and checked out the Maverick.  It seemed big sitting in it this time and I realized there were second hand Fiat’s 500 manual transmission which would work too I then drove over to Laura and had burgers and fish and chips at the place near Thurlow and Davie.

“I don’t really need a vehicle to tow behind the Thor motorhome till next year. For now carrying the Vespa works fine.”  

I became anxious reading that physical and eye testing needed to be done every 2 years after turning 80.  I’ve been planning continuing what I’m doing with motorhome for another decade.  I’m also wanting to sell my camper and truck and add the money to bank loan.  Without a winch system I’ll not be able to load a motorcycle

I’m also talking to God about, life death, longevity, health.

I’ve been still tired since a week of flu.  I told Laura I’ve been sleeping more and she said “You’re tired. You must need the rest.”  I liked that. I tend to tell myself I’m lazy.

Today I missed church but took Madigan on the Brunette River walk.  Crossing the little bridge I said hello to Gilbert, George and Tiffany, our pets who liked the spot in the past. 

A new law has come in adding more censorship and restricting criticism of Canada.  “Hate speech’ is the slippery slope. In England they are arresting people for social media communications.  That’s coming here. I probably shouldn’t have called Carney ‘smegma’. I thought it an erudite comment but even John Cleese and Mark Twain wouldn’t do well in Canada today.

Kevin was at the International Sports booth at the Outdoor show. They used a picture of him for their booth. Looks good.  They’ve been attending an Orthodox Church.  I don’t know what church to attend feeling that the Anglican Church has become too political and leftist and not at all enjoying their climate change and mass migration support.  I was thinking of returning to the Baptists like my mentor Dr. Ney did in latter years.  I have the thought of going but then I’m now still recovering from the walk and thinking of a nap.  That’s what Madigan is doing.

I’m hoping to ride the Vespa today.  

Merry Maids is coming to clean this week. Madigan is being groomed on Thursday. I’ve a morning in the clinic this week too.  

Laura had her car maintenance done since it began with warming messages not to drive.  It needed oil and her air filter hadn’t been change. Anyway we are happy her SMART car is happy again≥. 

It’s cool with some overcast but some spots of blue sky.  

I am grateful. Thank you Jesus. 

Burnaby, Gratitude

I just came from Dr. Ready, my chiropractor.  It’s been 3 months and my back has some relief.  

All is well.  I have all I need.  My motorhome is repaired by Traveland.  I am here with gas and propane.  I live in a beautiful part of the world.  It was raining and snowing for a couple of days but now it’s sunny. I love the blue sky. I love the green.  The Pacific Northwest is so lush.

I attended a 12 step support meeting today.  I ‘m so thankful for the group.  I was at my Home Group on Wednesday so glad to see George and Neil and Jack and Stan..  I feel lonely and uncertain. Sally said today she’s feeling down from watching too much News. That’s my problem too.  Too much social media.  Wendy said life’s either a miracle or it’s not and I choose to believe it’s a miracle.  Mack said he felt God had a purpose for him and he was progressing towards that. We spoke of a time when we didn’t like others and collected fears and resentments. I shared how I was wanting a new truck and that in the past I would let that Colour my existence .  Poor me I drive an old truck I’d think rather than be grateful I have a truck.  Today I’m grateful.

I’ve been adjusting to return. When I came back I spent a week at Traveland getting the slide fixed, working in their offices and sleeping in the Thor in the parking lot.  I took a hotel room for a couple of nights and worked a couple of full days. This week it’s been all week I’ve worked.  Also I’m feeling I’m over my respiratory illness.  I’d stopped the coughing though the throat grated .. Then it was just feeling drained.  I’ve been sleeping and napping a lot. Lots of fatigue.  Low grade depression. Fear of finances and politics.  Yet I plodded through putting on the game face.  Doing the next right thing.  

Madigan is booked for the groomer.  I’ve seen the Chiropracter and feel better. Laura had her car fixed .  I’m hoping she’ll come today but she may not. She was here last weekend and that was a joy.

I find myself having trouble generating the next ‘right thing’.  I imagine i could go for a walk. I’ve been trying to get to the pool to swim. When Laura is here I don’t seem to have to think about what to do next. Mostly she likes to be fed so I get food or go to restaurants or barbecue.  She and Madigan are good that way. Eating is a good thing with someone else. We watch tv together and that’s good.  Alone I eat and watch tv but feel guilty I’ not saving the world or praying more.  I’ve enjoyed the Star Trek Academy and Brave New Worlds. I’ve been watching Cross and the Good Doctor.  I most nights I watch tv and snack for 2 or 3 hours. I remember when for a decade or more I kept the tv in the closet and only took it out for special shows.  Then there were the years I took courses in the evening. It’s time I reestablished a new routine and a good routine.  I have Madigan to think of. We walk each day and that’s good. 

I am very grateful for today, the sunshine, the comfort, the security.  Thank you God for this life, for my experiences, for this adventure. Thank you for Madigan. Thank you for Laura. Thank you for family, friends, colleagues ,patients.  Thank you for the pine trees and spruce. Thank you for the river. Thank you for the birds. Thank you for the robin that visited yesterday. Thank you all of your blessings.

Thank you. 

Monday, Burnaby, Workday

Thank you God for this beautiful day. Thank you for the clear sky and sunshine. Laura took a taxi home in the dark. Now the sun is coming up.

Thank you God for Madigan. Thank you God for Laura.  Thank you God for family. Thank you for god for those who went before. Thank you God for the colors. Thanks you God for eye sight and hearing. Thank you God for all your blessing,.  Thank you God for the sense of smell. Thank you God for this Thor Hurricane. Thank you God for my vehicles to get about with. Thank you God for Coffee. Thank you God for work today for the clinic and for patients that I can help,. Thank you God that I can be of service.

Thank you God for Conservatives. Thank you God for memories. Thank you god for sensory intake. Thank you God for senses .  Thank you God for spring flowers. Thank you God for all your blessings. \

Thank you Jesus.