Fountain of Youth RV Spa, Niland, California - Feb. 7, 2026

I’m here at Fountain of Youth RV Spa in the Thor Hurricane Motorhome having come from Sleepy Hollow RV Park, on border of California, Arizona and Mexico at town of Aldegones.

I was so anxious the night before departure but every thing went just fine as I did the next right thing. Loading the motorcycle wasn’t an issue. I was moving through molasses remembering past challenges and praying through out.  Then when I was on the highway and heading west again I was ecstatic. I was at the apogee of my jouirney and heading home.

It is good to be back here.  Yesterday it took only 45 minutes to have my home all set up. It had only taken that long to take down the home. I remember when I planned to pull anchor sailing the SV Giri,  I wanted to be able to ready to go at a half hours notice. Here I am moving in that direction with my ‘land barge’.  I remember thinking how much better it would be to drive down the coast at a 100 km/hr rather than sailing at my maximum speed of 5 to 7 km /hr under power.  What I didn’t consider was the traffic. On the ocean once I was out of harbour I put on the autopilot and there was very little traffic. I had a ship detector and had to on watch but even at night it was not nearly as exciting as it is on the 10 lane freeways around LA.  

I liked the highway 8 headed to San Diego from Yuma.  I turned north at 111.  I loved the views. The Thor front window is magnificent. I might like the endless sky and barking with hills in the background because it reminds me of the prairies heading to Alberta and the Rockies.  

I’m parked in 17 one slip over from 19 where I was before.  Yesterday I walked the dog to the park and he met another dog. I also had to soaks and ate fried chicken I’d picked up on the journey when I stopped in Calipatria looking for eye vitamins. I’m down on the official kind though I have a bottle of almost like eye vitamins from the Vitamin Store. I believe they are maintaining my aging sight. I like the new glasses I have from Sol optical in Aldegones.  2 hours of driving was all round doable. I did 5 to 6 hours driving each day and plan to head back doing 3 to 4 as that’s not so tiring.  I still have to decide whether to take the I-5 through the Sissyou Pass for which I need to have chains.  Or i could head over to the coast where the weather is better and the views are great. I just don’t know the RV parks.  Peter was so kind to give me the list of ones he and Larry use with their Tiffany. That was a god send on the way down.  

My awning isn’t extending so I wish I had travelhome or Kelvin here to fix that.  I checked the fuse and it wasn’t obviously so I stopped as right now the awning is in and I don’t need it.If I were to get it to go out it could be I’d not be able to get it back in. There’s a motor and a wire that needs to be checked.  That was the joy of known Kelvin of Travco.  He was really good at diagnositics and fixing things like this.  I’ve been very fortunate on this trip with RV repairs services so have to remember it’s not like I’m in the extreme backwoods off road hunting with my camper or the Rv’s before that.  There’s help and I really am thankful for that.

I meant to mention God. I had my meeting on line this morning and we talk about spiritual connection and a higher power.  Kirk shard on facebook te bliss he experiences meditating.  Wendy shared how she was able to attend a family funereal calmer thanks to her prayer and meditation. I have a friend Reg who turned 75 and I remembered Willy inviting me for dinner on my 50’s birthday. I’ve had so many family and closest friends die.  Now a friend on face book is recording his end stage cancer from palliative care.  Like my brother Ron he wanted so much to spend as much time as possible home with his little dog. An emergency has him back in hospital again and hopefully he’ll get over this glitch and get more time at home.  I shared with him that he’d brought to mind ‘do not go gentle into that still’ night.  I also thought of Leonard Cohen’s,  As I lay dead, an angel came’.

I’m comfortable with life as a stage on the journey. I’m enjoying reading Dan Brown’s latest book discussing identity as in the ‘cloud’ so to speak. The body is the repeater site.  I look forward to the love of seeing might family and friends again. I dream of this conference in a place like Santorini.  That’s my Captain Stormfield’s Visit to Heaven.  I liked the Moody work on the NDE and the seeing the light.  

I’m pretty happy here. I will be driving the Vespa with Madigan over to Salton Sea beach for him to run.  The town of Bombay Beach seemed like my mind with the new growth, the old shattered mind , the stress of divorce and drugs and death of work.  

Today I’m trying to let go.  I want to know God and know God’s will for me but my ego, that limited sense of self pulls me down into fear and selfishness.

I had so much fear leaving Sleepy Hollow and once I was o the road it was heaven again. I remember when I was on pilgrimage to Israel there was unrest with people being shot. The pope had recommended everyone go but because of the crisis that didn’t stop me going, the Church of Nativity was almost empty and I was able to enter the Grotto with a few other I’d sund a hymn with.  Now I was discussing sexuality with a friend saying that I recommended ‘Why can’t I buy a Canadian’ from a course i gave for years in which I handed that out. Willie Gutowsky told me that JEsus said ‘do not be afraid’. Or ‘fear not’ some 70 times .  I’m working on being ‘grateful’ I can’t nip all fear but don’t need to dwell on it.  I’ve had a lot of life and negative experiences I dwelt on. My job today is to focus on the positive.  I’m truly blessed and despite being in car crashes and plan crasshes and surviving various sickness I’m here today.

This really is paradise.  I’ve this great little mutt with me. My motorhome which I share with the bank is paradise. It’s all I need and very elegant.  There’s so much more room if I were to just sort and clean. So much stufff I just brought over from the Fuzion RV and I don’t really need it.

Thank you God for all these blessings. I don’t know if God is reality or a loving reality. I really suspect there’s’ pre destiny and I maybe wrote the script to learn love over fear.  It’s a good life serving and healing and now older I can contemplate God.  I’m ’supported to be’ finishing a book on addiction and spirituality.  I have these books in progress and right now rather than write in that genre I’m blogging and journalling which is what I enjoy.  I’m having God on my mind. It was here I road the VEspa to Salvation Mountain and contemplated the prayer Jesus. I am a sinner, please come upon my body and into my heart.  

I’m looking forward to going to the Bombay Beach Church tomorrow with Pastor Jack. He’s preaching on the Gospel of John and I began reading that again on this journey.

Then John gave this testimony (about Jesus) “ I saw the Spiirt come down from heaven as a dove and remain on him. And I myself did not Know him, but one who sent me to baptize with water told me, “The man on how you see the Spirit come down and remains is the one who will baptize with the Holy Spirit. I have seen and I testify that this is God’s Chosen One.”

Jesus Christ is God’s Chosen One.  I suspect that means the ‘messiah’ too.  ‘Christ’.  

Thank you Jesus for this day. Thank you for Love and Life. Holy Spirit come. 

Fountain of Youth RV Park, Niland, California, Feb. 6, 2026

So happy to be back here.  I had real trepidation about departure. I had to block all this negative catastrophizing.  I prayed the whole way and was thankful. Once I had the Thor leveled and the slide in and Vespa stowed on the back I took Madigan for a last walk in the Sleepy Hollow RV dog park. He really likes that.  

Then we were on the road.  I felt great once I was on the highway.  Highway driving my big bummed class A is getting better.  I love the massive window view out front. I filled with gratitude going through the Imperial Dunes. How wondrous is this.  I’ve begun the journey home and despite the initial panic and resistance all was well and I was enjoying the journey.  

Blue sky.  Sunshine.

Easy drive.

I’m very thankful..  Madigan is settling in and sat down for part of the trip. He’s normally standing by my side still getting use to the ‘bus’.  

I enjoyed my Red Bull.  I have them driving.  It was a thing I did on the motorcycle rides. Now I have a half thermos of hot coffee and one Red Bull.

The 111 old road was perfect.

I really am grateful . Did I mention how thankful I was.  I’d had nightmares last night of the end of my marriage and the crash of the clinic and the guys doing drugs.  I’d gone to bed at 9 and woke at 330.  I was able to get a little sleep till 6 but the negativity was loud.  I remember sailing the challenge sometimes to lift anchor and go.  Superstitions and fears.

I am so glad I moved through the molasses.  Loading the Vespa was easy and unloading was easy too.  I just have to do it before I level the Thor.

I arrived parked, unloaded the Vespa, then set up electricity , water, sewer and Starlink. I even set up my little table and barbecue. I’d stopped in Calipatria from eye vitamins but they didn’t have those. I’ve a few left and some other eye vitamins but will pick some up on next passage. I’m thinking of Palm Springs.  Bakersfield and Orange Grove are 6 hours away where as Palm Springs is an hour and a half. I might stop over a night or two to keep the distance to 3-4 hours trips.  

Larry and Peter do 400 km jaunts and their map of places they like on the way down was a god send.  Going back I’m still not sure if I’ll take the I-5 or head to the coast.

Right now I’m going to take the little guy for a little walk then I’ll get into the hotsprings.  I texted Laura to say that she was all that missing.  I was thankful Adell wished me a safe journey. 

Thank you Jesus for getting me here.  Thank you for keeping Madigan and I safe and for protecting the Thor on this journey.  Thank you!!!!

Sleepy Hollow RV Park, Quechjan Reserve, Friday Feb. 6, Apogee

I’ve stowed and am having my morning coffee, last coffee here.  It’s the apogee of my journey. I begin to head back. I’m booked a couple of hours west at Fountain of Youth RV Spa Niland.  I enjoyed the drive from there to here. 

I had rough dreams of stranges times in the past. They say before dying your life passes before your eyes. I’ve had dreams and memories doing that the last few years. So maybe that doesn’t happen as a flash but begins after 50.  Today is bright and shiny.  It’s a wonderful place here. Quiet.  Friendly.  Again I’ve enjoyed the dog park and walks.  The first week I was walking across the border to Algadones. This last week in addition to work I’ve just stayed here and relaxed. I’m sleeping more.  

Best to move along. Madigan knows something is happening so he’s ready.

Thank you Lord for this Thor motorhome. Thank you for Sleepy Hollow RV Park. Thank you the Quechan Indian Reserve.  Thank you for gas.  Thank you for internal combustion. Thank you for slides and leveling systems. Thank you for sewage and electricity. Thank you for my Vespa. Thank you for my family out east. Thank you for Laura and her family and Kevin and Anna and the God Children

I really appreciate Peter and Larry for the inspiration. I was so blessed that Peter shared the RV parks that they take to come south. It really worked well spacing the journey. I don’t know if I’ll follow that route back as I’ve a desire to go to the coastal route I’ve returned on before. I need to watch the weather and road condition on I5 for Siskiyou and Grant Pass.  Then there is the consideration for the incredible coastal view.

I’m getting ahead of myself.  Get your head in the same room as your ass is.  

Thank you Jesus.

Sleepy Hollow RV Park , Winterhaven, California Feb. 4 2026

I’ve 2 days before pack up and depart. I’m anxious about this.  It’s nothing to get set up and stowed but I feel like it’s a big thing. I hope as I do it more it will be less daunting. My last passage was pleasant and I’m hoping this is too.

The plan is to drive to Fountain of Youth for a week, maybe two.  It’s a couple of hours and I’d get to ‘take the waters’ some more and go to a meeting.  

My anxiety is loading the Vespa though it’s now something I know.

I was glad that President Trump made a treaty with India.  Xi Jin pings purge of the moderates and desires to invade Taiwan seems in the offing. However there is hope there won’t be a world war though France and Englind are aligned with China.  I’ve been caught up in Social Media watching X and FB for daily news.  I have been playing guitar again. I’m supposed to be writing the book but at the end of the day of work I’ve just been making meals and watching old episodes of NCIS I missed . I thought I’d seen them all but this is the LA group when it appears Hetty is departing and it looks like they’re trying to find a fit for her replacement. The general was a good choice.  

I’m looking forward to getting back to Canada. I miss the variety of occasional clinic visits.  Anil has me doing the taxes paper collections.  I’ve a desire to have Alena and Alyina clean my place again. I also miss Laura’s visits .  I think of going up to Whistler with its view and Harrison Hotsprings.  I need to find a good location for the Thor there that’s easy to get into and out of.  I’ve been thinking about the Maverick truck to tow and imagine that’s in the offing. I don’t like debt though.  There’s no rush. I’ll be glad to get my mini back when I get home.

I’ve been thinking ahead like that.  It’s the green I’m looking for and exchanging my Vespa for the Harley form storage.

Epstein list is all the rage with Carney and his wife friends.  It really does seem that all the elites were kinky like Trudeau and having sex with young girls was the catch.  When Buddha had every option with so many orgies and women and presumably girls and boys and whatever he stopped looking outward and went inward.  Gates and Clinton seem to have continued to lust while Musk and Benzo got their kicks heading for space. I’d definitely be in the later group looking for new places to explore.

I do like the journey.  I’m looking forward to driving back to Canada with the stops.  Five days over a few weeks. I like to speed up and take fewer breaks when the weather gets colder. Last year I thought I’d rather be in Canada than northern US so got home a week earlier. I was thinking of Laura and familiar routines.  I’m antsy.

I’m longing to be heading home but anxious nonetheless.  A couple of work days. I pray I can be of service.  

Thank you God.  Thank you Jesus. 

Winterhaven, California, Feb. 3, 2025

I was rudely awoken by a 7 am call from a fellow claiming he was with Cyberforce Security in the UK informing me that my identity had been stolen.  He began to ask me4 questions about my bitcoin and internet activity .

There’s are fundamental rules of communication, “information is tit for tat’ and ‘what’s in it for me’.  He failed the tests and I then realized that as he was recording my voice he could be collecting voice data for future misuse.  Mother’s advice especially relevant in the age of internet ‘don’t talk to strangers’.   My voice is a ‘recognition’ parameter like my face’ for private data.  I will have to contact the police and local security services with phone number call and date and name to assist them.  For all I know he was a Cyberforce Security agent calling me to sell me services of their company.  The trouble is I really don’t like calls outside of office hours early morning or evening.

So my morning meditation and routine has been disrupted. I did walk the dog.  That’s critical. I had coffee and took my vitamins and yoghurt.  I have a banana to eat but finished off the hard boiled eggs.

My accountant asked for paperwork yesterday.  Kevin has my Camper and will be doing work on it.

I had a fabulous meal last night, barbecued steak and baked potato, butter and sour cream.  Madigan agreed it was the best steak.  We watched the last episode of Space Force and enjoyed it.  But I love everything that John Malkovitch is in and loved Lisa Kudrow. I think she has the sexiest voice and loved her role as prison wife. 

I’m watching tv and looking at social media. I should be climbing mountains running and skydiving.  Meanwhile my back hurts and what I really like doing is lying on the couch in the evening watching tv.  We did that as kids in my home growing up. Eating oranges .  I’ve mandarins here.

I’m planning on leaving Friday. The apogee of this journey. Heading back.  Fountain of youth again for a week then a few days heading north but trying to stay in the warm. Maybe go to the coast but I really liked Bakersfield.  I plan 3-4 hours driving and then I have my 4 days of week work.

Last year when I got into the rain and cold in the north I had no desire to slow down but sped up home looking forward to seeing friends and being back in Canada. I don’t know if Canada will be so great if Carney continues to align us with Communist China which Xi Jin Ping has made into a dictatorship purging his cabinet of rivals.  It’s like Stalin all over again and Carney only is interested in himself.  

The Alberta Separation would be something as I’d really want to move there if they did. I think of moving to Alberta but frankly I really like my work and virtual work and being able to live and travel in this motorhome.  

The packing up and stowing will begin today.  That’s always a bit anxiety provoking. Loading the Vespa. I have to move the motorhome forward so will do that last thing on Friday. I actually look forward to driving on the open road.  It’s all becoming doable and less a steep learning curve.

I received some back pay and am okay financially despite costs and time off. I have anxiety and it’s okay. I pray for my ‘daily bread’ and really would like my motorhome loan paid off. Of course once that was done I’d have another concern. Right now I want to tow a Maverick truck as next step and think I’ll go ahead with that when I get back. I want a year old one or a jeep. Everyone has a jeep to tow though occasionally I see a truck.  L

I really am blessed. Each day I wake up up and thank God for Madigan.  

Thank you God for this day. Help me be a better doctor and help me know thy will and have the power to carry it out. Thank you for this journey and this life today. 

Thank you Jesus. 

 

Winterhaven, California, Sunday, Feb 1, 2026

I had thought to go to church this morning. I’d just ride into St. Paul’s but then I had the thought that might have come from the devil or just my laziness about leaving home.

I’m against Net Zero and the demonizing of Carbon Dioxide, in essence of life.  I had followed the scientific debate for decades and noted all the lies and propaganda of the ‘skies falling give me money.’  The polar bear weren’t dying. None of the ‘so called scientific predictions came true, the world is warming as it should but ctatstrophizing or blaming it solely on gas is all unproven and speculative.  The language is religious and Agenda 21 and Agenda 2030 are the kind of pre multifactorial analysis that is the hall mark of modern science.  I remained sckeptical and didn’t buy into any of the extremism and catastrophizing and the give me more money crowd.  

While this was going on I had access to naval temperature charts and water depths so saw that there was lots of strangeness.  The very nature of the questions was political and religious. I got interested in the chemistry early and saw that many scientists and climate scientists and Nobel Prize winners were being condemned as Freud was condemned by the Nazi. 

Now I’m thankful that Pres. Trump has pulled out of the Climate Change Game. Communist china is building coal mines and Canada is suffering under Carney’s net zero policy.  Obama bought waterfront property in Martha Vineyard.  Greta joined the Palestinians.

I don’t like communism.  I didn’t like when Carney said Canadian values were Muslim values. I didn’t like that King Charles and the Church of England were Climate Change Cultists and soft Jesus and  Yahweh in bed with WEF, Allah, NWO.  NWO is China number one.  Anti west. I didn’t like that my minister was promoting Climate change.  It’s not what Jesus would want in my mind. I was glad to see Baptists and other major Christians bodies were not in the marketing rage.  I don’t see it as spiritual. I think individuals need to be compassionate and I am but I agree with Sowell and I think it was Lincoln or Washington that said it wasn’t the government’s job to be in the business of charity.  I know that foreign affairs is unaccounatable money. When money changes hands there’s immense chance of money laundering and corruption.  Under the liberals corruptions is becoming third world proportions.  Embrace the third world become the third world. 

I saw NWO as anti west and pro China and pro communist.  Schwab says humans must be coerced. Trudau was pro NWO and WEF and Climate Change agenda and he’s such a slimy little shit. Smegma creeepy. 

So I feel like an outsider.  Big brain, highly trained outsider and I don’t like or trust communist China. I’ve seen too many refugees from communism, and know too many fine Persians who escaped. I like  Hong Kong Christians who escaped China’s invasion and Taiwan Christians and South Koreans who know China and speak so differently from CBC and the Liberals. .  

I don’t like that my taxes are going to pay Carney liberal patronage. I don’t like the NWO with China First. I’m very fond of Liberty and America.  I don’t like what I’m seeing in Britain and Europe.  

I don’t like mass migration.

The world has gone crazy since before Covid and the ‘great reset≥”. I find I’m liberal but not radical. I believe in anti pollution and migration and different laws for immigrants especially illegal immigrants upsest me.

I’m pro LGBT but I don’t link that social programming of children should be done by non parents. I think all the left wing socialization out of the Arts crowd has really hurt our STEM competitiveness.

I’m always thinking that there’s a risk of war. The Kennedy Missle crisis left that scar and the Cold War which we won eventually by being strong. . My study of history is that praying for peace and being prepared for war is good sense.

I’m enjoying AA but have turned down a couple of requests to be a speaker because right now I’m feeling overwhelmed on an expedition with my motorhome while maintaining a practice .  It’s all tiring.  I’ve done all the things I wanted to do and am at the apogee of my journey.  I’ve booked another week and I’m here Sunday with a week of work then leaving Friday.  

I’ve walked the dog and I’m already mentally beginning to return to Canada.

I was thankful Pierre Poilevre won the Conservative Leadership review. I’d like a conservative government.  I’m so tired of paying so much taxes . I don’t like that I’m paying off my home too. I have a desire for a Maverick truck to tow behind.  I’m feeling old to ‘depend’ on 2 wheels. I miss my Mini but can’t tow it. I have to pay for the repair of my camper too then I’d like to sell the truck and camper and pay off the loan for this motorhome.  I can only pay down the loan but I really don’t needs to think like that.  I have the money and I’m paying the loan.  I just feel like that locks me into working and yet I like working.  

Today I’m feeling guilty I’m not moving forward on my books.  If I got a more advanced printer I could perhaps do that.  I’m having trouble organizing .  I think if I printed out the pages old fashioned way and had a book draft I’d progress.  My friend is writing a book and it reminds me I need to do something. I do spurts. 

My back hurts and my foot hurts and I’m not walking as much as I’d hoped.   I imagine back home I could swim more.  I’ve these foundations exercises but I’m only doing 15 minutes a day. I’m only walking 3000 to 4000 steps rather than 10.000 steps.  I’m only meditating 15 minutes to a half hour and I could double that.  I feel lonely at times.  My dog wants more attention than I give him.  

I need to be more grateful .  

It’s a really lovely day. Hot with some wind.  There’s a woman walking an old dog down the way.  

But I really don’t want to give money to the church for more Climate Change Meetings. The southern Baptists and Mormons aren’t into the Clmate Change Cult /Hoax/Money laundering. Greta Carney Thurnberg Trudeau Sharia Communism, China first hustle..  I want my taxes to go down and what taxes I pay go to roads and not more meetings of liberal cronies.

The trouble with the Southern Baptists is that they’re against LGBT.  I’m socially liberal but fiscally conservative.  

I feel like I don’t fit.  It’s an intrinsic error today.  

I roasted  some Ethiopian beans and the smoke detector alarm went off and I had to open all the windows  and doors despite having the fans on.  I don’t understand that roaster. Tt works well then another time it does this. I think it’s all about my not being exact about it being filled so it stops and burns.  Another learning curve but I’ve more coffee and think I’ll have another.

I miss Leonard Cohen and his song There is a War and I want a new Face. 

I might lie down and nap and read. I like doing that.  

I don’t like theWHO anymore. I saw the political nature of it in Malaysia where science became subsumed by color of the skin. In India I saw the UN guy being followed for money.  Everywhere I look these days I see scientists and colleagues priorizing funding.  That probably always was.  Certainly it was the scandal when I came to VGH .  I haven’t thought about money. I focus on doing the next right thing.  Yet money concerns me. I’m bothered by the debt.  But God has always provided my daily bread and I’ve always paid off debts and loans and kept my head well above water.  I’ve paid off the waste and spite of divorces. I’ve actually survived.  I’ve worked all the time and am at an age where so many are retiring well and have so much while I’m a minimalist.  There’s that creepy ‘poor me’ ‘self pity’ thing coming in that I have to block because really I’m blessed beyond my wildest dreams. I have so much and have been given so much and want really for a closer walk with thee.

It’s not rocket science. If God is the source of joy and bliss being closer would be good. I could go to Ocean side and make trips to the SRF fellowship and meditate more but then I can do the same in Vancouver. I can also join the taichi association when I get back. Mostly I’m looking forward to seeing my chiropractor.  In Fountain of Youth I can do more soaking in the hotsprings. It’s so good for healing.  I’m enjoying walking the little guy back and forth to the dog park here . The dog park there is better because he has all his friends. 

I still could go to St. Paul’s and participate in Christian fellowship. It’s only 9 and the service is at 10.30.  I can even take him.  I could have another coffee too.  

I woke this morning in mental mess .  There’s a lot to be said for doing nothing today.  Spending no money.  Enjoying the desert and heat I could even get out a lawn chair.  I’ve been enjoying lying on my couch inside with air conditioning.  

What do you want me to do God. Guide me.  Loving God of my understanding.  

I’ve a friend diagnosed terminal cancer and am praying for him.  

I’m trying my best to do all I can for my patients and am sorry for so many in extreme pain who are on waitlists for health care. Death by waitlist the Carney Liberals have brought in millions without infrastructure.  They’ve given themselves raises but I’m a doctor and working still and I’ve not been given a raise. No body on the front lines is getting support.  All the helicopter people like Carney get support.

I really have hope for a conservative win but there’s so much corruption and China has so infiltrated Canada that I lack faith in the political future. I’d move to Alberta and feel less alien if they separated.  I doin’t want to do more beaurocratic exams.  I’m happy doing what I’m doing. I ‘m truly blessed.

Thank you for this day Lord. Thank you for Madigan. Thank you for family friends and colleagues and patients. Thank you for Christianity. Thank you for Jesus. Thank you for history I know. Thank you for my full freezer. Thank you for my motorhome. Thank you for coffee. 

I sometimes feel the desire to attend an orgy but then I fear disease and strangers.  I sometimes feel the desire for a last drunk but then I think about 28 years of effort at sobriety and that nothing is improved with alcohol and drugs.  Nothing.  The whole lie is there. Reality is best on reality’s terms.  I sometimes long to be blotto.  But it’s all the back to the womb journey.  Turning back rather than going forward.  

It would be so nice to join the Liberal Religion with Woke and favouritism and talk the talk and have a social relativity and  political correctness and fit in. I’d like to  like the Liberals. I’d like to lie like a politician.  I’d like to lie like the bots on social media.  But I’m a truth teller and it’s what I strive for. 

Yet I have this inherent truth or conscience which told me that there was truth in covid and then there was the second year nad the recommendations of glory holes that went over the top. When the Mall was open but the church was closed. When Invermectin and Luvox were demonized. I saw this. I didn’t like the evil that surrounded the government response to the Freedom Convoy. I didn’t like a lot these last decade with the lies about arsonists and blaming everything on Climake Change and Racism. Now it’s tariffs. Yet tariffs have always been around and mass migration was never a good thing without infrastructure. It was too obvious it was anti Caucasian and for Scab voters.

A part of me is that I’ve been to learning to be patient.  I figured I spoke up in my days and paid the millions of dollar price for honesty and truthfulness.  I was also unkind and self centered at times. Now  I’m on the downhill slope trying to go quietly to the grave. I don’t want to rock the boat any more. The river is going home and I don’t want to swim against the current but rather float downstream with God.  I’m really trying to get along, play the game,.  I’ve remained outspoken against Trudeau evil and now Carney evil.  Communism is the religion of aetheists. The aetheists and Islam have made a pact like Ribbentrop Molotov.  Yet it’s far more complex.  Carney is such a lying two faced elite.  Epstein island is a hub, either for black mail or perversion like so many liberals. 

I fear for old age. I fear I’ll be like Dad without my brother to manage his affairs.  

I fear medical care with aging and the lack of it .  Now here I’m supposed to have faith and trust God. Yet when push comes to shove I revert to being anxiety ridden. Self pitying.  I’m lazy today.  I could be robust and go to church instead of staying here. I don’t even need to take Madigan. I could just join and particiapate but the couch is calling and it’s okay here. It’s safe. I’ve been hustling all week and here is a day of rest.  Yet my mind or ego is not at peace with God in charge.  

When in doubt say no.

I liked the priest at St. Paul’s and the people in the parish were kind to me.  

I sometimes have these days of wandering mind.  I miss Laura because she usually has great suggestsion and also cares for Madigan.  

My neighbour with the cane is out and about.  The dog and I like keeping an eye on the coming and going of neighbors. 

When I lie down on the couch Madigan jumps on top of me and wants to play.

I’ve been enjoying watching Space Force with Malkovitch and Steve Carrell and Lisa Kudrow. Great cast and great comedy.  

I have thoughts like if I went to church I could go to Best Buy after and buy a new printer.  But I’ve been spending money and would like not to.  I’d like a day of rest.  I’ve just enjoyed another cup of Yirgacheff Ethiopian coffee.

Thank you Jesus again for this day. Thank you God. Thank you Holy Spirit. 

Sleepy Hollow RV Park, Saturday

So thankful for my Saturday morning meeting.  Feel guilty that I was asked to be a speaker but said no because I’m traveling and working on the go. I feel I have enough on my plate as I’m planning on moving this week. Back to Fountaine of Youth. 

After the meeting I loaded Madigan in his box on the back of the Vespa.  I’d decided to try to take the back road where the signs say the bridge is out. Wasn’t sure we’d be able to made it. I can do 70 on the freeway with the Vespa but am more cautious with Madigan. The cross winds are the issue.  On the back road the bridge was already repaired but the road was being fixed. I was shocked by a moment of distraction and almost hit the last of the barriers.  I rode around several only once almost getting stuck in the sand.  Easier than the freeway and now I can go to church if I choose Sunday too.  

My mission was PetSmart.  When he was a pup the vet recommended Verona and he loves France and Greece wet foods. The troubles is that Veruna cat food is always available but not so the dog food. Here in the states last year it was a challenge because I couldn’t find a wet foods he like. Thankfully he’s fond of the Chicken “Go” dry food. He generally likes chicken.  My last dogs loved little Caesar which appearently isn’t’ that good.  It’s kind of the fast burger food for dogs.   Madigan, fussy pup didn’t like. Fortunately little Caesar has come out with a new “wholesome bowls’.  Thankfully my fussy pup likesz that.

I loaded up. He had his butt hairs trimmed yesterday and now has more wet foods. He prefers share steak with me.

I was able to get Whole Vitamins eye vitamins not as good as the ones I get from the pharmacy and far more expensive. The whole supplement industry is a middle and upper class proposition. Still I was glad to have something till I can get more of what I believe is helping me continue to see despite milde early cataracts and macular degenerations. I put it all down to aging off shore sailing and tropical sun exposure working in the tropics and in the sub arctic but more reports are put on social media of similar eye damage post covid vaccines. I had covid to the best of my knowledge in India and certainly took al the vaccines.  A contributing factor?  I’m just thankful to have the best ophthalmologists and be told that I can still ride my motorcycle.  

The ‘farmers market’ and ‘craft market’ I’d visited the last couple of years on Saturday was going again.  I have a picture from last year that I’m fond of mainly for the clothing and sun and having just seen a road runner there.  Madigan likes markets outside.

After PetSmart he traumatized me slipping off when I was packing the Vespa box. I’d been standing on his leash or thought I had.  There I was calling and walking around looking for him convinced the ratty pick up truck I’d seen leave had scooped him. Thankfully a young man asked ‘Is he a little black and white dog”.  Yes. “He’s just up the sidewalk there. “. Not 50 yards away. I’m shouting his name. He’s oblivious.  Sure enough he’s sniffy a bush.  A couple of other dogs owners with their little dogs looked sympathetic.  A delightful lady said, “don’t you hate that when they don’t come.”

I catastrophized and already had his picture on a milk jug or was getting a ransom letter.  The trouble is I wanted to kill him now that I he wasl alive and back with me, totally oblivious of the problem and looking innocent, of course.

I asked my friend how she ever survived children and she shared a story of her oldest, the mother of her grandmother wandering off in the store only to have joined a little grandmother who was waiting with her for her mother to appear. 

I don’t have children and don’t believe I have the fortitude so was saved.  As a kid I ran away a couple of times and now consider my parents are saints for their tolerance and love.  

I bought a jar of smoke and canned salmon for $30 . The guy caught it himself and prepared and canned it. Reminded me of all the salmon I caught over the years , that and long cod, and tuna.  I’ve been meaning to eat more fish since I eat a lot of barbecued chicken, burger, steak, and chops. It really would be good to buy more salmon and barbecue it too.

I also bought some ground coffee , Sumatra and Mexican. I’ve got bean and I’ve even got Ethiopian Yermicheffe green beans which I roast up myself. I roasted some yesterday and added it ground I had.  I drink 2 or three sometimes even 4 cups in a day.  Travelling I put the grinder away so like having some readily available ground. 

After leaving the market I loaded him up in his box and drove the Vespa to the Mexican grocer.  I needed sliced bread and loaded up on more things like yoghurt bananas and mandarins , sausages and hot dogs. Easy barbecue. I had sausages last night which I watched with episodes of NCIS I’d never seen before.  Hetty is in trouble in LA . I finished off the potato’ssalad. Tonight I’m barbecuing the chicken breasts thawing now and having them with russet potatoes I bake in the microwave and serve with sour cream.

I was pleased to get a $10 comforter blanket there as he tends to chew blankets and is a reason I can’t have nice blankets.  

The ride home was exciting with a bag between my feet, my back pack in his space and all the racks and boxes loaded .I even had the dog food under the seat.  I was glad to get home alive.  We’ve been to the dog park and he didn’t play long tecause it was too hot.  He’s sleeping under the A/C now.  

I’m here’d till Friday and then I begin the journey back .  I’m looking forward to the beginning of the return.  Last year I was supposed to arrive back in March but arrived back in Feb. The back to barn feeling kids in but I’m hoping to go slowly and spend more times on stops. The truth is I’m looking forward to return.  The fact is I really enjoy Canada in March despite the potential for poor wet cold weather persisting. April to November is wonderful. I’m looking forward to driving too as I’m enjoying the Thor with every mile I drive.  3-4 hour a day isn’t too tedious. The appeal of a companion is there.  I’ve talked to long haul truckers whose wives accompany them. I’ve been a loner so long but find I enjoy humans more older.  I’m certainly thankful for my dog despite his terrifying me today.

I’ve so much to be grateful for. I really must be more aware and grateful.  Thank you God.