Thursday, March 29, 2018
Psychiatry Grand Rounds, Neuroscience of Resilience, 3.14.18, Psychiatry Grand Rounds by Noshene Ranjibar MD and Justin Otis, MD said the first and best response to trauma was relational, community and sharing and parasympathetic. In contrast to the local medical administrative disdain for AA NA and Church the presenters celebrated the community and rituals that helped people deal with trauma in the healthiest way, utilizing the parasympathetic autonomic nervous system. The second line defence most known was the sympathetic fight or flight response, the characteristic response elicited by the British Columbia and Canadian administration policies which are legalistic, paranoid, and 17th century pre scientific era, control and power based. The third response was the basal ganglia, reptilian, ancient ’freeze’ response .
They were discussing ‘burn out’ and how they had addressed their problems with physician burn out. It was uplifting to hear all the advances in psychiatry being brought to the department and administration level. Locally I’d been exposed to the junior low brow approaches to systemic problems best described as blame, shame and CYA administration. This is classic communist and totalitarian fear based ‘negotiation by intimidation’ also seen commonly with people drunk and stoned. The rise in marijuana use in government is certainly a contributing factor. Marijuana may removed the empathic capacity of the higher brain function.
British Columbia is the epicentre of crime, drug trafficking and money laundering of Canada. It’s competitor is Montreal made famous by Chabonneau Corruption Commission which showed the Mafia and Biker Gang influence on French Canadian governments. The Canadian Health Care System is descending as Canadian debt sky rockets.
Well in the midst of this I thought I’d just add a blog with the positive images of ’spring’. Because I work in a highly toxic environment in a divided country with failing health care system and roaring corruption and dishonesty, I am forever doing everything to cope. My patients are desperate and maligned and ignored. They’re terrified and the future is very bleak for the elderly. They’ve all been promised everything by the political system and the lies of media ,only to find that they are old and homeless and that third world people feel greater happiness.
I sometimes want a holiday because all my time off is “recovering’ from the George III insanity of governement dictates. Every day colleagues take early retirement complaining of the administration and the government. 75% of doctors would not recommend medicine.
Internationally Canada is known now as the most offended nation in the universe.
Everyone collectively and individually is guilty of a social offence as laws and bureaucracy exponentially increase.
I prayer daily, meditate, write gratitudes, look on the bright side, celebrate crusaders like Jordan Peterson, JJ MacCullough,Diana Davison. I pray for willingness to forgive because I don’t seem to be forgiving as the bolts of negative energy and punishment just keep coming, I shut out thoughts of suicide knowing these creepy callous fat cat elites want this in their secret hearts and I refuse to identify with the aggressor. Too many good people have been killed by these cretans. I pray. I talk to other doctors but everyone I most admire, the greatest of the great are disgusted like I am . The evidence is overwhelming that the problem is systemic yet they continue to personalize it. I walk the dog, my little blind therap dog. I am writing gratitude lists daily while moving through the daily malaise, constant threats hanging over me, I look for ways to escape, hear all the thanks and appreciation of family and friends, feel empathy for the many who are subjected to the ptsd of unfeeling workplace of superiority and rabid arrogance. I resist the strokes and hear aches such covert evil induces. I stop and breathe and look at the spring. These people are sick I say. Pray for them. Thought block. They sold their soul to the company store long ago. Shut their contempt for those who are still at the front out of your mind. Go to church. Go to meetings. Share hugs. Focus on the good. Avoid the shit. There’s a wide open road. Head out on the highway.
Christ is crucified. Get down off the cross we can use the wood. Soon it will be Easter morning. The metaphor is there. This too will pass. Sun always rises. Christ is risen. We’ve seen worse. We will survive . We will thrive. There’s always the resilience.Holy Spirit Come. Lord Jesus Christ. Forgive them for they know not what they do. Be like Jesus. Let the light heal. Invite the Lord into your heart. Let go and let God. Wear life like a loose wrap. Smile and the world smiles with you. Hallelujah Christ is risen.
Saturday, March 24, 2018
Around the world in other jurisdictions and cultures the issue is not whether to bribe the official ther how little one can give without insulting government representative. The whole idea of the ‘tip’ which once was only an issue in hotels and restaurants is the very basis of business and law in`many countries.
Given the scandals over the foreign influence on Hillary Clinton and Justin Trudeau by Islamic countries and the alleged influence on Trump by Russia , politics seems mired like the media and courts outside the promises of the 21st century. Escobar, the great drug lord used to brag that he had bought both the Republicans and the Democrats, hedging his bets, not that that did him much good in the long run.
Further the ideas of where on the continuum the doctor sits regarding the collective and the individual are wholly different than what most Canadians assume. Also the 'accountability' of the doctor in different countries is wholly different from the local ever changing responsibility of the doctor and indeed the health care system. This was never better reviewed than the greatest scandal of hospital administration of our time, the finding of the man dead for 36 hours in the Canadian teaching hospital and the abdication of accountability of administration.
There is also distinctly different ideas of cause and effect and accountability in eastern and western 'culture' which affect the very practice of medicine by doctors depending on training and background.
It was no surprise that Dr. Kellie Leitch, a brilliant physician and accomplished paediatric surgeon, should spearhead the importance of 'Canadian values' in this time when the dope smoking pretty haired selfie snapping Canadian Prime Minister Justin Trudeau was insisting there was no 'Canadian culture' and hence no 'Canadian values'. Ironically he also said that Quebec French speaking Prime Ministers were superior to English speaking Prime Ministers when his basic premise was that there was no such thing as a Canadian ‘culture’. While denying Canada 'culture' and denying Canadian 'values' he insisted on the superiority of the French speaking.
The word ‘culture’ derived from the Latin word ‘cultus’, ‘to care’ and from the French word to ‘cultivate’ or to ‘fill the ground’. Well no one in their right mind would doubt that Dr. Leitch cares or is a highly cultivated individual who has done a lion’s share of work, there continues to be complaints about PM Justin Trudeau, simply not caring about Canada, and not by his personal history having much to do with cultivation and work. Unfortunately Dr. Leitch’s insightfulness flew over the stoned heads of easily offended young followers of the Prime Minister.
A company doctor explained to me that I ‘cared too much’ and must ‘lower my standards’ as well as ‘learn to lie’ as he did for he enjoyed greatly his well rewarded government company doctor lifestyle. I personally have to consider every day whether I want to continue as a ‘company doctor’ or if I should, like the other dinosaurs of my era retire early and accept that Christians, godly people in general, moral people and all the doctors of old, especially my most esteemed mentors, and Tommy Douglas, a politically incorrect Baptist minister, are all no longer welcome in Canada. Insurance company models also routinely reward the physicians who do the least for the patient and save the government the most money.
This was a 'joke' of my surgical training where heart surgeons and lung surgeons would compete among themselves as to who could use the least 'thread' as the administration had a fashion of the month campaign to get the surgeons to save money in the operations. At the time I thought it was something out of MASH where no show better defined the oxymoron on 'military intelligence". Yet the surgeons explained that the administrators were more concerned with their budgets than the lives of the patients. Indeed I caused myself no end of difficulty complaining that a small town administrator had robbed the hospital budget for a baby incubator so that he could have a new desk and chair with better wood panelling.
Jesus, the greatest healer of all time, would not be welcomed either. Jesus was vulgar, kept the wrong company, swore and behaved badly, the epitome of a politically incorrect individual. Politically correctness and professionalism were once diametrically opposed. Today a doctor kills or heals as the prevailing mood dictates. It’s just fashion. Medicine is theatre. The Kardashian’s are the new models of medicine.
Tuesday, March 20, 2018
Monday, March 19, 2018
indication that government is somehow stabbing me in the back. Probably the consequence of carbon taxes or sociopaths bearing false witness. Laura isn’t judgemental having injured her back once. She kindly helped me carry the Porta Bote to my truck. I can lift alone but we had to maneuver around picnic tables and bushes and it was just so much easier to ask for helped. Also a woman looks darn sexy carrying the front end of any boat. I will get the wheels for future now that I know how easily it will assemble beside the truck and can be wheeled to the water from anywhere near then.
The trend isn’t new and hopefully will burst soon like the pimple on progress it is.
The liberal arts crowd took Darwin’s ‘survival of the fittest’ and created the “Social Darwinism” insisting those with the most toys wins. Very Marxian in it’s own way. Rather reductionist and wholly unscientific.
The Darwinian hypothesis still devolving hasn’t bridged the lack of inter species evidence. It’s defenders argue now that it’s influence can be seen at the ‘genetic level’ becoming more and more a ‘matter of faith’ than any religion before it. The trouble is ‘mutation’ and it’s tendency to die. Difficult when a whole science is underpinned by something so, well, fragile. Not at all robust.
Owen Barfields treatise on ‘saving the appearances” and the Structure of Scientific Revolutions by Thomas Kuhn are worthy explanations of these injudicious times. We are living in what the the Asians described as a period for equal opportunity for success or failure. In other words, chaos.
Similarly language imperialism is rampant. The internet fans the flames such that superficial or shallow knowledge of a word or ‘meme’ is more important than the in depth understanding that once made the Oxford dictionary so desirable. Today words like ‘gay’ or ‘Snowflake’ or ‘conservative’ or ‘progressive’ are changing so fast that today’s professive is really regressive and snowflakes are indeed the hot item.
Yet evil remains, quite unadulterated. . Bad has fallen to the relative truth group. Bad is good. But not evil. Why is that?
Sin is another word that remains off the record. The modern media doesn’t want to consider sin but will embrace ‘fake’ news.
Today, statements about morality and evil are tied to ideas like ‘the winner writes history’ and the ‘ends justifies the means’. One would not expect a book like Persig’s Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance to sell today. Yet “50 shades of Grey” is the most popular female book of today even if it is porn.
Even pedophilia which at very least is unhealthy for one is being considered byh the new world order of globalism, in which pedophiles argue they are the ‘oppressed’. PM Justin Trudeau just changed to age of consent? for ‘beastiality’.
What is ‘verboten” today?
‘Everything goes.” “If it feels good, do it”. Yet a day doesn’t go by that that a new diet is conceived and everything has become ‘unhealthy’.
What is evil?
The greatest evil historically was ‘pride’ . Humility was a sense of the ‘right size’ of oneself. Pride goest before a fall. But if as PM Justin Trudeau says, if you kill your enemy, he wins, then clearly pride, such as his selfie addiction is alright. Nothing really is wrong. Unfashionable, perhaps but not ‘wrong wrong”.
But what is evil? Historically it was consider ‘unhealthy’.
Since we all die everything we do can be considered unhealthy. Healthy historically stood for the quantity and quality of life. But Andy Warhol said everyone deserved their 15 minutes of fame. But as the physician is now not just the handmaiden of life but also of death, euthanasia being big bucks, the Hippocrates Oath is out.
So what is evil?
Once there was the idea of evolution and devolution. Once there was an idea of a heaven and a hell. Once there was an idea of good and evil.
Today if there is no evil there is no good, surely.
So what of evil. What of sin. Best we not talk of them. They might well be construed as ‘hate’ speech.
What is evil?
Some would say its Satan acting anonymously but that would be a personification besides which we know that perception is as much as what is inside as outside.
Wouldn’t such a person who talks about Evil negatively be “Evil Phobic.”
Saturday, March 17, 2018
I just heard of several more ‘I’m concerned’ complaints. In all cases a passive aggressive sociopath called an agency ‘anonymously’ and advised that agency that they were ‘concerned’ . The ‘concerned’ citizens, once an asset to the community, are now the root of its destruction .They are increasingly just a ‘jail house snitch’ with an agenda.
Without disclosing details that would expose the individuals these are the three scenarios that I learned of this week. I’ve encountered these hundreds of times in the past most commonly when I worked on drunken “wet” northern Indian reserves and also in the DTES urban ghetto. This has however now migrated to middle class society and beyond.
A professional “fired" an employee and the employee contacted the licensing body for the professional claiming that they were ‘concerned’ about that professional’s judgement and mental health. I presumed they learned this ‘technique’ of vengefulness watching the continued caricature of this which has polluted the American political arena.
President Trump having survived countless attacks on his sanity, character, and ability to lead most recently passed ‘dementia’ tests.
A group of the most unprofessional psychiatrists in history came forward and without ‘permission’ or ‘having examined’ the patient proceeded to suggest the President was mentally ill solely because he was a Republican and they were Democrat psychiatrists. Further his policy changes would affect their ‘fat cat’ bureaucratic positions. They indeed expressed their ‘concern’ and presented themselves as ‘helping’.
Meanwhile there has been a non partisan military mechanism in place for assessment and monitoring of the ‘commander in chief’. These “appointed” doctors and psychiatrists are there to serve as a ‘check and balance’. The group of arrogant psychiatrists had no right to abuse their positions and over ride the democratic institutions. Yet these low brow thugs justified’ their ‘political assault’ on the President and democracy by claiming they were ‘concerned’. The fact is they were self serving narcissists of the lowest common denominator. These bullies and social terrorists were quite willing to destroy the democracy, the impartiality of psychiatry,, and it’s institutions for their own personal gain. All the while they hid behind the increasingly creepy clown mask of the ‘concerned’ do gooder.
The professional in this case was suddenly ‘assessed’ by a mental health ‘team’ based on the ‘anonymous tip'. The process in the end costs thousands of dollars and was extremely frightening and abusive. The professional felt that they were in a Communist/Fascist police state and that any ‘enemy’ could on the basis of their ‘allegation’ bring the full power of the government against the individual. Though vindicated , that individual, was denied being told who initiated the vicious attack The anonymous swaggering “concerned” aggressor by contrast would be rewarded with the knowledge that through a phone call or a letter or a visit to the government office they could wield such power and destruction without any cost to themselves. In this individual instance, they might have stayed anonymous if they hadn’t chosen to expose themselves to gloat.
I have had patients by the dozens brag about their doing this to their enemies. Mostly it’s been women fighting with other women and calling some Child Protection Agency to claim that they were “concerned” about the ‘child’ of their sworn enemy. This was indeed nature of the second case I heard of this week.
A false accusation was made anonymously and this triggered a public investigation of the husband ,wife, and children with neighbours and teachers being questioned. This occurred after the individual attacked refused to let their neighbour use their garage. The neighbour had drug addiction and increasingly has felt entitled to the property of neighbours. When neighbours refused to loan tools or allow party cars to park on their lawns, each one had been ‘punished’ in some such “concerned” way. The trauma to the victims is not negligible especially as the children’s teachers are questioned and the ‘suggestion’ is always left ‘where there is smoke there is fire’. Those without character are always happy to attack those with character.
The last one I heard about this week was regarding a dispute between two drivers about ‘territory’. The aggressor wanted more ‘territory’ and when they were refused, the victim had the experience of having to do an alcohol and drug abuse assessment because of an anonymous call saying ‘I”m concerned."
In all these instances the individuals and families were exonerated and vindicated. The cost however was exorbitant, the trauma likely long lasting and painful. The experience of ‘bureurocratic police violence’ initiated by psychopaths and sociopaths destroys the fabric of the social contract. Individuals need to feel ‘safe’ in society and the very bureaucracies tasked and paid outrageously for this service have become the principle threat to individuals. This corruption is what precedes and permeates failed states the likes of what is now unfolding in South Africa as it did before in Zimbabwe. (aka Rhodesia) Police states such as the USSR and China thrive on and reward the informer. This “I’m concerned’ is therefore not a laughing matter. My East European colleague did joke about the police state he escaped from saying, ‘we all knew one of us was an informer if two of us were talking and a third joined us.”
Research has repeatedly shown that bureaucratic agencies are utterly incompetent of recognizing psychopaths and sociopaths. Desperately wanting to be seen as ‘good’ and “caring’ , and utterly fearing loss of their protected cushy committee positions, they err on the side of becoming the agent of social violence in their false belief that they are ‘protecting the community’.
By contrast judges trained to address ‘motive’ and well versed in the manipulative cunning deceits of sociopaths and psychopaths commonly correct the bureaucratic errors of these pseudo judicial agencies that increasingly in such cases are little more than ‘Kangaroo Courts’. Judicial oversight unfortunately is too costly and the legal system due to the intrinsic high cost serves mostly the governemnt and the wealthy and powerful.
As the country devolves to a third world state it behooves us all to demand that these increasingly corrupted quasi judicial bureurocratic committees have their inordinate power vastly curtailed. In addition individuals who wield such power must have the training in the psychology and passive and overtly aggressive techniques of the ‘I’m concerned” aggressors. They must be taught what real justices know about the the techniques of the usually charming and seductive sociopaths and psychopaths that routinely abuse others and the community at large.
A judge knows that the “I’m concerned’ is often the opening gambit of sophisticated assault. Hitler always said he was ‘concerned’ before he invaded a neighbouring country.
Wednesday, March 14, 2018
The androgyny of Jesus and the self castration of the priests of the church was a public statement of ‘conformity’. Indeed ‘conformity’ is the central tenet of the eunuch creed. It is witnessed today in the modern eunuch equivalence of the transsexual male who voluntarily self castrates then spends the rest of his/her life wanting to ‘pass’ as the female. The argument for Identfication with the aggressor can be made clearly in some if not all.
Psychological mindedness is the tolerance of the tension of opposites.
The aboriginal ‘twin spirit’ was the ‘priest’ of the tribe. The ‘other’ was normally not accepted for its strangeness in the Traditional Society where survival depended on accepting only sameness. Racism then was a natural survival mechanism as were many phobias and taboos.
The petty bureaucrat/apparatchik is the twisted eunuch with a creepy sexual proclivity. In Armstrong’s , Fields of Blood the uncorrupted bureaucrat is a perhaps unattainable Platonic shadow given the tendency for bureaucracy to grow like cancers and individually to resist accountability and behave inhumanly in the security engendered by either the mob or lemming sense.
I didn’t have my dog Gilbert castrated because I hoped to breed him. However as the majority of male dogs in the city are castrated to reduce the competition and tensions which arise in proximity to females in heat and the city females dogs are also castrated to reduce the number of puppies, my dog is not allowed in dog day care. Contrary to what one would believe that the dogs with excess ‘testosterone’ are the ‘fighter’ it turns out that the castrated dogs attack the uncastrated dogs. The low testosterone dogs “initiate” fights. The high testosterone dogs may well win because of the beneficial effects of testosterone on muscular development but it is the low testosterone dog that ‘initiates’ fights. So my dog is excluded from daycare and I am commonly being advised that male dogs ‘should be‘ castrated.
I am encouraged to conform. But I have always dreamed of my dog and a female dog with puppies in the country somewhere. As a pedigreed pure bread his intrinsic value is thousands of dollars more ‘uncastrated’ but the owners mostly of “mutts” would have me castrate him. Indeed if a dog becomes violent to humans, whether he initiates it or not, he will be castrated or killed.
Considerable evidence supports the view that females initiate violence or encourage violence between suitors and while overly complaining about violence are sexually aroused by the violence. Dr Carl Jung pointed to the persona or public conscious “face” and the shadow or unconscious or covert other self. The central feature of psychological assessment which in absent in the outdated rational court process is the idea of congruence between word and behaviour. Seductive sexual behaviour is commonly seen in court rooms coupled with inauthentic horror. Even Shakespeare observed “the lady protesters too much”
However as Christine Summers notes in Who Stole Feminism, How Women Betray Women, the “victim” can serves an ulterior purpose. Hitler invaded countries on the pretence of rescuing German victims. North American had been described as the center of “caregiver”and “victim” industry with the devolution today of everyone offended and everyone a victim.
Arendt described the ‘banality of evil’ when she studied the ‘bureaurocracy’ of the totalitarian system. The totalitarian system she studied was the Nazi beurocracy. The Nuremberg Trials only occurred yesterday but already the Nizcor Projects concerns are being realized. Without the bureaucracy Auschwitz could not have existed. As “None is too Many” by Arabella And Troper showed clearly the Anti semitism in Canada yesterday it arises again today under another Liberal government.
Erving Goffman studied the ‘totalitarian’ regime of the asylum in his classic “Asylums: Essays on the Social Situation of Mental Patients and other Inmates”. Totalitarianism is the natural consequence of increasing authoritarianism. As the insane become more out control themselves they demand increasing control of those around them in a devolving system of natural self destruction.
Dr. Jordan Peterson, in his 12 Rules of Life describes the fluctuations between the fundamentals of chaos and order. He describes order as symbolically male and chaos as symbolically female, yin and yang, or yoni and lingam, etc.
The interspace between these two , the grey in the black and white, is the ‘intersex’, an actual biological construct which exists and is considered well in Alice Dreger’s classic, Hermaphrodites and the Medical Invention of Sex. Those who would argue that heterosexuality, homosexuality or intersexuality or indeed changing sexuality is ‘unnatural’ are proved wrong over and over again by biology which is the lodestone of the natural. Indeed “civilization’ is perhaps the most ‘unnatural’ creation of the human species.
Morality is distinct from biology though Darwinian Imperialism would dictate that ‘survival of the fittest’ is the morality of all including the gene. The power of the ‘strong man’ and the ‘adherents of the strong man’ aim to maintain a mutually beneficial ‘order’ and resist change ,most often by offering the same, disguised as change, with the ultimate effect that “the emperor has no clothes’. Social Darwinism is the bureaucratic bible.
The survival of the bureaucrat/apparatchik or eunuch is dependent on the success and maintenance of the status quo. Order begets power to those dependent on the throne. “Steal a little and they put you in jail, steal a lot and they make you king , to quote Dr Johnson paraphrased by Bob Dylan.
Today’s strong man is in flux and a source of uncertainty but likely is the banker as they are most portrayed as ‘order’. Only the richest elite can afford obscurity. The Mao Jacket Sculpture of Sui Jianguo epitomizes the overt austerity of a man whose wife and he enjoyed personal wealthy and debauchery the likes not seen since the sultans while the masses were murdered and impoverished.
Veblen by contrast mocked the outward appearance of the American businessmen in their suits of Puritan simplicity while their treasure horse wives staggered about under the weight of gold and jewels and minks expressing the “conspicuous consumption” of the rising consumer cult.
They are the Straw men of T.S. Elliott. Money as a ‘construct’ is most controllable with the immediate value independent of it’s inflation peculiarities of confidence. It is one thing to forego the “gold” standard which the new Chinese currency wishes to restore as compared to Canada’s Decadent PM Trudeau who would have no standard and declare the “budget will balance itself”. Marx, the world’s greatest Kafetch, biting the hand that fed, proclaimed, “money is the God of the jews” and “religion the opiate of the masses”.
The strong man once was the warrior but war today is commonly fought in board rooms and lawyers and corporate leaders are the new knights of the realm. If they succeed they in turn share the spoils of females and gold. War is the failure of diplomacy but equally its own business. The principal role of the UN is to maintain the order brought on post WW2. The “security council” of US, Russia, Britain, China, France are the principal arms dealers of the world and compete routinely in “dry” or “wet” wars to compare advances in technology and a more intimate Olympic competition for humans.
Hitler was the ‘strong man’ whose existence depended upon his Goebbels and Himmler, the most powerful of his inner circle being the sole female, Eva Braun. Lenin’s circle was Stalin, Trotsky, Molotov and Krupskaya and Armand the wife and mistress of Lenin. Even Jesus had his Mary Magdalene, portrayed ironically as celibate though it was known that Jesus surrounded himself with ‘fallen women ‘as well as the most upstanding women like Mary and Martha.
To gain real loyalty the strong man in the Hell’s Angels ,kills. Stalin and Lenin and Molotov were the killers , and being willing to kill and steal, these ‘bolsheviks’ overthrew the moderates’ mensheviks’.
So the Hell’s Angel Strongman kills himself without witness then witnesses the killing by his second in command and so forth. Today the binding in the elite may well be with pedophilia of as the author Patterson suggested cannibalism. Reality by comparison is often stranger than fiction. hiaasen the great southern novelist perhaps outdated said “the only thing a southern congressman can’t do is be caught in bed with a dead woman or alive boy.” That’s the elite where there is a “free press” but in Muslim countries such as Saudi Arabia or Buddhist countries such as Thailand where any criticism of the elite leadership is prison or death all bets are off.
In the Abrams history, Pink Swastika, Homosexuality in the Nazi Party, homosexuality was rife in SS. The gay men gassed in Auschwitz werehowever the “queers” and the most ‘effiminate’ , the ‘bottoms’ as opposed to the ‘tops’ . The passive is considered ‘effiminate’ so that in the lesbian culture the ‘butch is ‘dominant’ aggressive and most likely ‘top’. In domestic violence. Studies lesbians were the most violent followed by gay male couples followed by heterosexuals. There is no comparable data on the intersex as yet. Domestic violence against children is mostly done by females which follows the standard abuse of power where power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely. While the negatives of single parenthood are flaunted the lust for tyranny is rarely addressed.
The ‘strong man’ is commonly coupled with the ‘priest’ or ‘medicine woman’, both being ‘aserxual’ or at very least not a threat to the power of the strong man. Historically the survival of church and medicine , scientists, physicians etc depended solely on their abject agreement with the ‘strong man’. If they ‘disagree’ they die. History records the carnage of the threats to the strong man. Stalin’s wife suicided. The great play of T.S. Elliott, Murder in the Cathedral starring Thomas Beckett is perhaps the best example and indeed, object lesson. Bonhoffer’s tale of morally standing against the Nazi and Lutheran church is just a more recent example.
Herod of the Great of Biblical times got the gold and became the prototypical strong man mall developer and the harem of wives who produces the incestuous daughters including Salome who made John the Baptist’s head her jewelry box, Thank heavens for the the Salome opera. Despite Herod’s evil which might well have been explained away in Job, this strong man tyrant of Roman Empire appears outwarded to have got more John the Baptist or Jesus or the massacred innocents. Christians might not get the virgins of the Muslim conformist followers of the the strong man of Islam but at very least Anglicans talk much about the mansions they are promised in the afterlife.
The eunuch is the symbol of ultimate conformity. Whether Origen self castrated or not, the strong man wanted the priest celibate and the bureaucrat castrate by conformity so as to not be a threat to himself or his harem.
Loyalty to the leader is all that is necessary , hence the strong man quote goes, goes “I don’t need your loyalty when I’m right. I need your loyalty when I’m wrong.”
The petty bureaucrat makes ‘conformity’ not ‘truth’ or any other ‘virtues’ , but “conformity” his Perverted Virtue. Living in fear of the ‘strong man’ he or she self castrates or actually castrates.
In the modern world this would suggest that the ‘outed’ trans sexual would make the best prime minister or leader of the government bureaucracy. The argument here being that the modern day politician is no longer the leader themselves but a kind of ‘mascot’ for the power behind the throne. Recently Canada’s prime minister returned from India having given Indian business men hundreds of millions so he could use their country as a back drop to his photo op, only to be followed by the French Prime Minister who returned from India with nearly 20 billion in bullion from his trade visit.
The leaders of the UN, the Security council of China, US, England, France, and Russia are the only ‘strong men’ in the mix, perhaps the other ‘politcians’ which are not ‘mascots’ but weld real power themselves. In the US the politician leader is the supreme commander in chief and in the past the George Washington presidential typeswere formally military leaders. The epoch of lawyers in America ended with the Clinton, Bush, Obama lawyer schemes floundering with lawyer Hillary’s failed bid. Now a businessman is in charge reflecting a shift in the leadership and of the beurocracy.
It is always to be remembered as Robert Graves so clearly showed in Golden Bough that the role of all leaders to the greater group is as potential sacrifice if things don’t go right.
The Eunuch remains male or female as the Confuscian goal. Without children they are less likely to be controlled by the traditional threat to the competitionof that the killing of killing of the children imposes. Lenin killed the children of the Czar to show what he would do to his followers, more than for any other reasons. The ruthlessness of the ruler is the morality of the ‘strong man’ in comparison to the’conformity’ ‘truth’ of the eunuch beurocrat. A woman might better be manipulated through threat to her children,
The ‘outlier’ is like David to the paranoid and later certifiably insane King Saul. The more insecure the strong man the more they cannot tolerate ‘difference’ as the traditional socitety tale of anthropologist Diamond of Guns Germs and Steel tells. Difference is cause to kill. The thug is threatened by the creative. Creativity is the most feminine bottom passivechaotic position as compared to the agitated desperate order.business of the rutting monkey order.
The ‘reformer’ is the enemy of anyone who benefits from the status quo. Bureurocrats live lives of quiet desperation. As Victor Frankl learned from his up close view of the bureaurocracy of Auschwitz his life was meaningful in comparison to the meaningless of the butchers of the camps.
If Joseph Conrad were alive today he would indeed shout again, “the,horror, horror” all the while the chief paediatric surgeon of Milan Kundera’s the “Unbearable Lightness of Being” made the best of window washing.
Sunday, March 11, 2018
Spring Forward. I lost an hour. No doubt the dog or cat took it. They are definitely the usual suspects. Came in last week and all the pillows and rugs were off the couch and all the books and such were off the table. The dog and cat look innocent. They definitely stole the hour.
Laura and I watched Murder on the Orient Express. Loved it. Loved the great actors and actresses. Kenneth Branagh was perfect as Hercule Poirot and I so loved Michelle Pfeiffer as Mrs. Hubbard. Penelope Cruz and Johnny Depp were incredible. Willed Dafoe, I didn’t see his disguise. Judi Dench was all the princess, truly regal. The plot was Agatha Christie but the filmatography was the best. I loved the lighting and the train. After that I loved John Travolta in From Paris with Love, a fabulous shoot em up 007 anti terrorist thriller with humor. Late night.
I woke late too. No church. Hadn’t planned on church this morning. Wanted more of the sun. Sitting outside at the picnic table. Walking the dog. Tic season and he’s to be groomed next week. Sticking to cement. Next week we’ll be out in the woods.
Harley Davidson coming back. I keep lusting after a Honda African Twin, 1000 cc “Adventure Bike”. I don’t need two bikes, (but I want them. Meditating today God didn’t free from moksha. I had a cat and a dog lie on either side of me. Breath is special. We take it for granted. I find long stretches of time have gone by and I’m not cherished my breathing.
I made coffee and bacon sandwiches for Laura this morning. We’re spoiled.
I shaved. Laura has showered. I’m planning on that. The big event of today. I’ve got smokies to barbecue and Cobbs hot dog buns. We were at the mall yesterday. Laura renewed her driving license and I got some summer closed toe sandals. Aging footwear is not longer anything off the rack. The orthotic folk would like these. It really is spring with summer panting behind when I can get out of clogs into sandals. I wasn’t meant for winter clothes. Sailing shorts, tshirts and sandals is what I was born for. I wear jackets and vests in winter for the pockets. I saw a police man with the weight around his waist and thought he’s going to regret that when he’s fifty. The older girls like their ‘comfortable shoes’. Milenia is a trooper.
- I’m often overwhelmed by the ‘free choice’. I could go to the beach in Vancouver. I haven’t scuba dove in 2 years. It’s been too long. There’s a horse riding place near by and that’s been too long. It’s been three or four years since I was riding in the mountains or in the desert with friends. Time flies. There’s the ATV and I could be in the woods in an hour or two. I never made it to Whistler for skiing. It’s been several years now since I was down hill or ever cross country skiing. It’s as long since I was snow shoeing and even longer since I was on a snowmobile. Yet each of these things I did intensively weekly for 10 or more years at a time. I gained proficiency and then wondered off to something else. Now I always love returning but never seem to have the ‘time.” I’ve not been dancing in years. Other than working and meeting the infinite demands of the increasingly bullying and terrifying government hacks and wannabes I fear my life is ebbing away reduced to a number in a beurocratic office. I then think more clearly and realize with gratitude I’m living but have given far too much to the ungrateful company store who sucks the soul out of people and claims they ‘volunteered’. I came to serve people not fascist communist corporate sociopaths.
I’ve not been sailing. I was biking. Bear hunting season opens soon. The cure for cancers still awaits someone. The great Canadian novel has yet to be written though Robert Davies and Margaret Lawrence came close. The great exposee of the criminal corruption of Government has yet to be done showing the influence of Mafia, Biker Gangs, Drugs, Pedophilia, Saudi Arabia and the Communists are all involved has yet to be written, a kind of Canadian Dream to match Tom Cruises American Dream. The difference would be that we’d given our water to Nestle for free and were trading bear gall bladders and marijuana for politicians on prime time with American comedians.
There’s just so much to be done and I’m doing nothing here but bitching , complaining, whining, and procrastinating Elon Musk is working on a space ship but what’s am I doing today to get myself to Mars. I’m really lazy. I’ve been reading Jordan Peterson’s 12 Rules of Lifea and a generic espionage novel with some good insights but overall a bit low brow. I do like how these characters in novels solve their interpersonal problems with bombs and poisons and seem to get away with it. Somehow the ‘ends’ justifies the means’ . Not in my world. That’s the fantasy. I need an alien ray gun and hearing of radioactive hits in London wonder where I could get some of that ‘good stuff’.
I ‘m been fantasizing sailing the Atlantic and instead moving along towards the northern canada RV trip or southern US RV trip. I like land RV and hanging out as much as sailing expeditions. It’s the easiness of it. I love the woods and wilderness too. I do long to be before the mast or anchoring in a distant bay. I could be fishing. But with only a day to do things I’m not likely to get a spacecraft out of the galaxy and back before I have to go to work tomorrow. I think of retirement as a time for longer projects. I miss wood work. I haven’t played my guitar and sung the old songs and those uplifting Christian songs I love. It’s been a while.I could do that. I’d love to find , Be Thou My Vision and belt that out for the song birds about here. That’s an achievable project. I probably should stop this pathetic whining journalling or blogging and do something godly like bathe. Laura’s smelling better. I could follow her lead. The shower is free. The dog certainly isn’t going to compete with me for that. After a shower I might get a spaceship to tour the galaxy just so long as I get back for work in the morning.
Some one really should find where that hour went. It’s probably with the missing socks.
Saturday, March 10, 2018
I have a new Sealy Posturpedic mattress. Laura’s hot menopausal body was beside me. I didn’t even need the electric heating blanket. Eric fixed the furnace after a few days of dysfunction. The snow is all but gone outside. I’ve lots of propane and had just changed the tank the night before.
Some asshole called at 7 am. I wake normally at 7 am but it’s Saturday and I had hoped to sleep in till 8 am. The caller didn’t respond. “This is Dr. Hay. Yes?” I didn’t wait. I hung up. Years of the trauma of being on call. Wee hour calls to deliveries, trauma or people suicidal or even drunk and family members of the above. Nurses, doctors and northern or folk at sea in desperation seeking help. And this ass hole calls at 7 am. Might well be a family member or friend just not thinking. Like the telemarketers who more often call when I get home from a long day and want to eat.
With the phone ringing and master moving ,Gilbert began hrrumfffing, wanting up on the bed. My bladder which had not been awake suddenly demanded attention. Laura had rolled over. George the Cat was just beyond Gilbert. I think George had already run across my legs. I got up.
I love indoor plumbing but I really wouldn’t mind stepping outside and hosing down the street if it wasn’t a municipal offence. When I had my acreage in the country the dog and I would often happily wander outside to water the trees and look at the stars or watch the sun come up at dawn. With men as persecuted as Christians in Canada it’s good to reflect on the benefits of external plumbing. Now in the urban centre of offence and rules and regulations I am truly thankful for indoor plumbing. Ah.....Relief.
I am back to meditating. After I feed the cat and dog I sit cross legged focussing on my breath. I used to do this for days. Now I’m good for minutes. The dog and cat think my being down in their territory is invitation to play. It’s never long before one or the other is curled up in my lap expecting a scratch. Maybe this is what Nirvana or Samedhi is supposed to be.
I do sit ups. I’m pear shaped. I’ve used the excuse of accidents to explain my sloth but the fact is I watch crime drama and war thrillers and binge eat. Without late night tv I’d be evacuated. But last nights Ghost in a Shell Japanese futuristic movie with Scarlett’ Johanneson just demanded chips and cheese and a peanut butter sandwich. When I’m on top of these things I have carrot sticks and butter less pop corn. Kind of like packaged blood products for a vampire desperate for the real thing.
Laura and I watched the Netflix “Churchill” not realizing it wasn’t the “Darkest Hour” Churchill movie
“Everyone said how great it was, but I didn’t think it was that good,” Laura said.
“It’s all PC nonsense with revisionist American Hollywood and feminist crap. Churchill wasn’t a nincompoop before D Day. His wife certainly wasn’t an airhead like Justin’s Sophie. People yelled at each other back then. It wasn’t called bullying. Mistakes got everyone killed. Just as much as ‘loose lips’. I hate this retrospective falsification aimed at tearing down the greats of western civilization. The same violent barbarians are tearing down the George Washington statues. “ I eloquently bitched.
“They portrayed him as having PTSD because of the Gallipoli and WWI experience.” She said.
“It was a wonderful soap opera, and really I loved the acting and the scenery and everything but it would be no different than showing Stalin murdering the millions he killed portraying that great warrior killer sociopath as a kindly old man who wasn’t breast fed enough. It’s great Hollywood tv drama but it’s not true. I’m surprised they didn’t have a Kardashian having an affair with him to the music of Justin Bieber. No wonder young people are ignorant and fatuous with the shit people put in their brains.”
“I just can’t understand why my friends who are really smart liked it.” Laura kept saying and I kept thinking her friends must be mentally retarded Communist whackjobs. “They said the film showed him drinking all the time and he wasn’t drinking that much.”
Thank God for Internet. We sorted it all out. Before we had a major argument between us we learned that this Churchill movie, really a parody with all it’s American Arrogance, ( to hear them speak of WWII they won it single handedly and didn’t need the Allies or Russia) was not ‘The Darkest Hour” movie
In Instabull they have magnificent large scale model of the British Turkish encounter and the errors made by Churchill. It really is a incredible exhibit that shows how sly the Turks were and how duped the English were leading to one of the greatest defeats of all time. The Ottoman Empire lasted 700 years and was not the ‘sick man’ that it was portrayed as by Europeans who underestimated them to their detriment.
I’d been in Moscow where their War Museums have real life Tussaud type exhibits with maps and the numbers of Russians who died to throw back Germany. I’d seen just how much they sacrificed, how much Germany lost in men and equipment, and what Stalin’s strategy had done to defeat Germany. The Allies contribution was more a mopping up after the carnage the Russian wrecked on Hitler.
The Americans acted more like mercenaries holding out while the British and Europeans fought among themselves so they could get the best financial deals. Hollywood portrayed the Americans as high minded but Roosevelt and his cabinet acted like regular low life horse traders rather than caring about saving Jews or democracy. The American for years were just bankers and extortionists and then when the Japanese attacked them and Germany declared war on them, they got into the Atlantic war. Very slippery characters. Not at all like the greatest people of the world, us Canadians, who won the war single handedly (just ask our Minister of Defence who also apparently won the Boer War, 30 year War and advised Napoleon).
No doubt the Americans more or less won the Pacific war with the help of Britain and the Aussies but their grandiose portrayal of themselves in all their Hollywood propaganda movies has been as far fetched as this comic book Churchill presentation. Probably this is not a reflection on the American military but more a reflection on the draft dodging drug addicted sex addicted Hollywood producers of the Harvey Weinstein ilk.
Anyone who knows history knows Churchill’s wife wouldn’t be phoning the King and tattling on her husband or that Churchill’s wife would be considering leaving on the night of D Day. Gloria Steinem and Jane Fonda would be doing that for sure. But not the Clementines of the world.
Well it wasn’t Darkest Hour. “Thank God for that,” Laura said. “Now I really want to see Darkest Hour.”
“Me too,” I said.
Now she wants to go renew her Smart Car insurance at the mall. I’m going to finish this up.
I’d actually started a report I planned to finish this weekend , long over due, but it turns out I don’t have the notes I need. Being in different clinics with records dispersed in the clinic computer systems doing medical legal reports is a major challenge. It was so much better for the report writing when I had all the information on my own computer.
The trouble with the keeping of my own notes is that the fat cat lawyers and their beurocratic Greek Chorus have made the statue of limitations for doctors eternal. The College of Physicians and Surgeons is calling back doctors from Heaven to accuse them of touching female patients 500 years ago and insisting that they publicly produce records saying where their hands were during deliveries because anesthetized patients remember themselves being touched by the Obstetrician during the delivery in the genital region and their unborn babies are complaining that a lawyer wasn’t present when the ultrasounds were done which ended up on Facebook without their written permission.
I wouldn’t have taken notes all these years if I knew I had to keep the records for life and multiple reincarnations after that. I’ve got a storage locker full of files and the cost of digitalizing them would be $10,000s and they say there will be help for this when I retire but I can never afford to retire because of the threat of new rules and new threats as beurocrats and lawyers create millions of new regulations by the second just to keep themselves in business. Meanwhile Trudeau and the government have sold all Canadian grandchildren into slavery with a debt load rising daily by tens of millions just the same as his father did who put the country in debt till Alberta oil saved Quebec ass.
Oh well, it’s a sunny day. I can’t do the work. God loves me. Instead I get to play. I wanted to get out in a boat but that will have to wait. Motorcycle comes home next week. I rode my electric bicycle strenghthening my injured knee along the horse trails yesterday It was great to see the horses exercising.
God I love this spring air. Sweet scents on the breeze. Gilbert napping beside me, his ball securely under his nose.
Thank you Jesus for this glorious spring day. It’s a great day to be alive. Hallelujah. Halleljuh!!!!!
Thursday, March 8, 2018
I needed a new mattress. . Even if it was placebo I ordered a Sealy Posturpedic Mattress from the Bay . It arrived before my birthday. I love it.
I think my parents died because they just became tired. A new mattress can stave off fatigue. Extend life. The flowers of spring also were kind enough to appear with renewal of hope and increased faith despite a last ditch dowsing with snow.
I also have the capacity to ‘write off’ as a business expense new technology I use predominantly for work. So this year I upgraded my iPhone 7s to the iPhone X with faster processing and more data space. Having closed my office where the computer was the principal tech I’m working out of three clinics, carrying much more about, and depending more on my iPhone. Laura gets my hand me down phone.
Friday we were at one of my favourite places, Apple Centre . Pacific Centre. I now have a new phone. Laura had my iPhone 6 and now has my iPhone 7s. Nonetheless I really like the iPhone X and Laura loves the iPhone 7s mostly because it’s rose gold (ie pink).
At the BC Sportsman Show I bought the real "toy", the adult 'boy toy". Porta Bote folding boat which I’ll be able to attach to the side of my RV to free up storage. My kevlar canoe is in consignment and will pay half the new boat. I love the ‘trading up’ capacity which comes with aging acquisition, being able to have something to ‘trade’. I remember the raw expenses of younger years.
Laura bought us Han’s Chinese take out and we had terrific time watching Miss Congeniality with Sandra Bullock at home. Gilbert and George were delighted with the company and the treats.
Sunday morning was special. My friend Barry plays organ at the All Saints Anglican Church. I’d missed his organ concert at Christ Church so was pleased to be able to hear him play piano and organ in church.
Laura and I met Kevin and Anna and the God kids there. We all enjoyed the service. The minister is a godly man. He reminds me of Dr. Lam the EMAS colleague who was always so kindly and caring. I love Christians for reminding me of ‘my utmost for his highest’. There’s a humbling aspect to their presence.
It was all round a positive experience. Even better was coffee after and meeting Barry’s psychiatrist mother in her 90’s and a friend of Dr. Willi Gutowski, my admired Christian psychiatrist mentor. We had cake and coffee chatting while the kids crayoned. Everyone was terrific. Jesus was happy there.
After it was a great time with the god kids at Swiss Chalet at Lougheed and Boundary. The restaurant and staff were welcoming of the little munchkins. Kendra is so sweet. Alex and Isaac and Kendra were listening to their mother which made for a good time for us adults. We could chat about plans and futures. Kevin’s father is dying. Hee had been back to the maritimes and would be returning in the coming week with Anna. We talked of family, death, God, photography and our choice in cars. A regular mutual appreciation society.
Laura and I spent the afternoon at home. I walked Gilbert along the trails. Later she walked him on the cement walk. We watched more movies on tv and read books. I”m enjoying Orphan X and a Jordan Peterson book I ordered from Amazon.
Laura liked my new mattress.
She gave me chocolates too.
On Monday night Dave, Mack, Shane and I took the sky train to BC Place. I”d got tickets for the Canucks versus the New York Islanders at the Simon Frazer Pipe Band Robbie Burns Dinner gala and fund raiser. I love supporting these incredible young people. We were all delighted with the seats behind the goal.
It was 4 to 3 with the Canucks winning in overtime. We got to see that goal up close , along with other. Markstrom is a great goalie.
Mack had got me a foot long hot dog. Dave had got us white spot chips. It was great game night with a feast included. I loved the Zamboni machine. The anthems and hostess and music and wave were all fun. I was reminded of the days as a kid in Winnipeg shovelling the snow off the rink in 40 below before playing a game out doors. Several of us had known that experience between 6 and 12 years old. I played pick up til 16 or 18 and ‘old timers league’ in my late 30’s. I actually skated last a few years back. That night I dreamed of scoring the winning goal, stealing Liepsic’s glory, a legend in my own mind. I also fell in love with the young ladies who skate on the ice pushing shovels. Somehow in my dream I was a young guy again and they were admiring me as I drove a big zamboni machine. I can't remember a dream like that in years but it really was something to see that overtime play off and watch that incredible score.
I know the guys through our dogs. Gilbert’s friends. Emory is Dave’s dog. Max is Mack’s and Hank is Shane’s. Mack had been driving the snow plow the week before. Shane drove a truck starting work at the ungodly hour of 5 am. Dave works heavy machinery. But we all like the Zamboni. What a wonderful machine.
All that was missing at the Hockey game, our best friends.
I like the sky train too having never taken the new Burnaby line.It really was impressive. No sense taking a car down town for concerts and shows and games. The sky train was perfect.
At Royal Columbia clinic Dr. Waterson, Belinda and Karen gave me a fruit cake and at Docside Clinic , Dr. Horvath, Mari lou, Judith and Jerry gave me a chocolate cake.
My nephews and sister in law sent cards and phoned me to wish me well. I got great emails from so many friends. I felt loved.
Thank you Lord.