May 29, 2020 Covid 19, Freedom Phase 1

Covid 19 continues to spread. Herd immunity may be less than previously thought. Normally 60 to 70% needed with the exception of small pox which required 90%.  Sweden already saying they may see herd immunity at a lesser percentage and may meet 50% by summer.  The westcoast of America and Canada is already at 20 to 30% contact with young people having 1/10 the risk and old people over 65 with existing medical illness still facing 10 times risk of illness. Death is rare from Covid 19 alone.
In the US because Covid 19 deaths are paid so well and do not require definitive dx, ‘natural deaths’ stopped in February  A very funny meme shows the NCIS team noting multiple gunshots and knife wounds but concluding death by Covid 19.
Belgium and the European Union centre continues to be the greatest failure bureaurcratically in the west.  Taiwan remains the best performer.
The WHO was bought by communist China and Trudeau in Canada is working for the Communist Chinese Military promoting abortion and injecting Canadians with abortus products. Really, Truth is stranger than fiction.

I’m moseying along.  I really was afraid when this began.  Now I’m no longer afraid of the disease. The doctors and nurses in BC have been incredible. UBC is an outstanding medical university.  I used to work at VGH and truly loved the hospital and staff.  Royal Columbia is a great place as well.  So if I get sick and I need to go to hospital I really believe I’ll get the care I need here to save me. Or it will be my time.
I’ve lived a long and beautiful adventurous life beyond my wildest dreams. When I was a country GP and old people came to the hospital to die, we called ‘peumonia, the old man’s friends’.  I had very peculiar flu in the spring that had me taking time off work, fever, horrible cough and the feeling I couldn’t breathe for the first time in my life. It appeared I may have had Covid then.It’s been in North American since Jan. I may have antibodies to Covid already like so many people. No need for a vaccine if you already have had the disease.  That's the science. But politics, economics and greed may change reality. When people had cowpox they didn't get small pox.  That's all in the history of immunology but today the 'winner', the 'wealthiest' writes history.  Wikipedia is so often propaganda.  

I’m looking forward to the antibody testing that’s begun in BC.

Dr. Bonnie Henry has done brilliant community medicine and public health work. I did a dual speciality in Psychiatry and Community Medicine, completing 2 years of Community Medicine and Public Health but chose not to continue and do two residency exams, opting for only Psychiatry.  I later had the honor to work with the CDC.  The CDC has a major outreach in the Northern Marianas Islands. It’s associated with the American Military there because Asian diseases first are seen in Guam and Saipan. So when I worked with the hospital the CDC had us do various emergency scenarios. First and only time I’ve worn a hazmat suit.  Not pleasant. I cringe when I see doctors geared up these days. I’ve always wanted to be a space man but I don’t like the suits. Something light and sexy please?  

I’ve had several patients become suicidal in lockdown. A couple have become psychotic.  Major panic attacks.  Lots of worsening depression.  One case of violence.  Several family break ups.  Major relapses to alcohol and drugs. Initially the drug consumption went down because the dealers couldn’t get at their prey but they rapidly adjusted.  The ones already into delivery expanded. When the churches and schools closed and liquor stores and pot stores stayed open the writing was on the wall. Government gets a cut of the booze and pot sales but not so much from God. This government has indeed been satan’s child.  Trudeau is definitely C.S. :Lewis’s Wormwood.
I believe I'd done a lot for keeping some patients out of hospital and truly believe my virtual work has been very beneficial. I've continued medications, started and stopped medications, and made medication adjustments. Because polypharmacology is merely 'thinking' it's been easy in virtual. Also assessments have been easy. The hardest has been therapy with people I've never seen.  I have however found psychotherapy with patients I've known has been just fine.  I expect I'll have a mixed practice in the future or if I do just do virtual will limit my practice to those areas which are most amenable. There's an edge in virtual and I'm not as sure of the understanding. It's even worse where the other person is culturally different or has ESL.  People don't realize that humour simply doesn't translated culturally and loving, caring emotions are subtler.  I don't feel my warmth comes through and fear I could come across cold as people do on television.  So easy to be 'flat'.  Yet psychiatry is all about dimension.

Islam is the religion of peace when all the world is Islam.  Communism succeeds when all the world is communist.  Todays’ UN promotes Sharia Communism and like the alliance between Communism and Fascism and the Japanese Emperor and National socialism (Nazi) of Germany, the same confusion goes on to day with politics making strange bedfellows.  

Just like Justin Trudeau bought the CBC News , so Xi Jinping bought the WHO.  

Freud did say ‘maybe the paranoids are right’ when the Nazi’s came for him.  The UN continues to call for the annihilation of Israel and the death of Jews. Trudeau continues to attack Christians and countless young Christian women continue to defend him because he has pretty hair.  I am reading a thriller where the new Caliphate takes over England with all the sleeper terrorists creating chaos so the British can’t respond to the invasion.  The genocide of Tibet is never discussed today.  Neither is Culloden, nor the Magna Carta. History forgetten is doomed to repeat itself. I feel like I’m living in 1939. It really is 1984.  Trudeau a 17th century fop declared it was the 20th century sometime in ancient history before he said the balance would balance itself and people realized that he’d never learned to count.  He was busy as a teacher fondling teen girls.

I like wearing skirts. It’s Scottish or gynocentric.  I may switch to shorts.  Pants constrict. Women are all transvestites.  Men still dress for war. I wandered into the sarong as a sailor and in the tropics lived in shorts or a short wrap. I should have been a pirate. Now that summer is here I’m outside waiting for Laura to come over for the weekend and rescue Gilbert and I from the boredom of being male.  I really do seriously think of having a sex change because I'm weary of male existence.  I've been cuckolded and castratred and rape and everyone has a monopoly on suffering. I loved the book, black like me and now am enjoying reading the journey's of transexuals.  I'm glad the 72 genders disappeared overnight but while I was all male into my 40's, I've slowly got tired of being pilloried for doing characteristically male things, like sailing, hunting, fishing, caring for others.

It’s hard waiting for economic collapse, more taxes, trust fund baby palace shots and rumors of war.  The Chinese Communist Party just shot down a Vietnamese fishing boat and mock attacked others in the Chinese sea.  Imperialist China.  

I was explaining Erickson’s developmental theory to a patient this week, pointing out that young adults go through a naturally occurring ‘identity’ crisis in the 20ths century and beyond. In the past there wasn’t the freedom we once had here.  Jesus was a carpenter like his father.  But at 20 I could be anything. I was straight A’s in university Arts and Science despite being expelled from high school.  I started out in theatre and dance and ended up in surgery, then medicine then psychiatry.  It’s been a weird journey.  Three totally beautiful wife all with one thing in common, insaniety, evidenced by marriage to me.  Today I have a girlfriend of 20 years despite having had male and female friends and giving up alcohol and pot 22 years ago when my wife’s cocaine addiction turned life into a nightmare. Trump reminds me of an old used car salesman of my grandfather's era and I believe today my grandfather's would be hated as much as he was. Mr. Harper reminded me of my father and he was hated too. I've actually been as flaky and ridiculous as Trudeau when I was drunk and stoned and all the girls loved me then. Today I see the hatred of Trump as principally anti male and anti american.  I'm obviously not a full fledged heterosexual but I've watched the government chastise those I've known who were the greatest doctors and family men. I've watched Christians be crucified. I'll never forget a friend saying, 'when rape is inevitable you might as well lie back an enjoy it'.  Obviously men can't fight anymore and women won't take care generally of more than themselves and their children, men historically the protector of family and community.  But that's gone. The new immigrants and other cultures do put their colour and themselves first. I've not done that with Irish and Scottish heritage folk or with 'white' people. I've helped everyone equally and seem to lack this intrinsically beneficial tribal gene. It was noted in my residency by my teachers that I treated everyone the 'same'.  I know that's really upset the rich and I've been punished by my governmnent for not preferentially treating the wealthy and powerful 'better'.  I've been told repeatedly by powerful colleagues that I'm 'wasting' my time with 'losers'. I've wasted my life by those examples but others seem to think I'm okay and I really believe in the eyes of God I'm passing. It's not even pass fail.  But I'm passing.
  

My grandfather , a rancher and a farmer, didn’t care if someone drank in the winter but he considiered everyone who drank in spring, summer and fall an alcoholic. An alcoholic (and by extension an addict) was anyone who did alcohol when there was work to be done. Like my Vietnam vets who didn’t like people using in fox holes. They were either too stoned to hear the enemy or too panicky they shot and gave away their position. It was okay to be stoned on off base R&R time.  

All the hit men and enforcers and prostitutes I treated said they had to do drugs to do their job.  I was thoroughly impressed that Mr. Harper and Mr. Turner weren’t impaired. I did a study of dope smokers and they all thought they functioned well enough but didn’t want their pilot or neurosurgeon smoking pot. It didn’t matter that pilots and neurosurgeons don’t like their hairdressers or Prime Ministers stoned. Kennedy was on pain medication with his only peculiar physician.  Hitler was on Speed and Heroin.  President Trump was on Hydroxychloroquine. Obama admitted to doing cocaine and wasn’t in office.  

When I meet St. Peter I’m going to watch a whole lot of reruns of world tv in heaven with people much smarter and in the know than me telling me who was paid by who. They’re going to have politicians and scientists colour coded with which corporation was paying them how much.  Canada’s elections were heavily influenced by foreign money.  

It was once good enough for a politician to be paid by the salary.  Obama though entered with 1 million dollars and left with 100 million dollars.  Today politicians see their salary as the wage the waitress gets. The real money is in the tips. It’s all institutionalized baksheesh.  

I’m paying the rent.  I’ve clean clothes en femme and au homme. I would live a whole lot cheaper if I was in the south where all I needed was shorts or a rwarp. I miss my sailboat and tropical winds. I’ve got all the electronics I need.  My dog has a heart condition but meds are keeping him going. My back always hurts but a whole lot worse since I stopped NSAIDS. I was so thankful for the adjustment I got last week. I think I experience tension in my back.  We have places where we somatize.  For some it’s headaches. Some it’s necks. Some it’s bellies. Mine is my back. I carried so many people and so many people’s shit when I was young and naive.  Now I don’t do any lifting. I’m trying not to crash any more vehicles which I really can’t blame on anyone else much but myself. If I’d walked and avoided the first bicycle I’d probably have no back pain.  But I love speed. Looking forward to riding the harley around on errands later today.

Life is good really.  It’s all about seeing the glass half full. I pray and meditate and try to exercise. The greater my faith the better life is. I’m also good if I live in the day. I don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow. I don’t know what’s happening in a week or months. The weather man is no better than my own predictions.  Al Gore sure knew that the Arctic Ice Cap would be gone and he’s a multi millionarie today. Maybe I should say that the Toronto Maple Leaf’s will win the next NHL and I’ll become a millionaire. I don’t know what the formula is.  

I’m continueing to try to do what is right, help people and work with my community.  I’ve always been a good citizen even if I did party hearty when I left the front and had vacations. i wasn’t impaired at work and certainly was more present than so many in my day.  I have been shamed and humiliated. I was punished the most for doing the right things. I have been beat up falsely accused lied to and true sociopaths in the governmnent and in my leadership have literally got away with murder.  I have also seen that the most of the people I’ve known have been pretty amazing. So why do I have this kink in my neck that holds onto the resentments. I’d rather be pollyanna and have cherry glasses. I want to know joy. I want to see the past as lessons and I know that God was always there with me.  I have to trust God more  I have to love more. I have to dance more and maybe then my back would feel better.I’ve got to relax. I”m really looking forward to camping and swimming and fishing.

I love the sun today.

Thank you Jesus.  Hallelujah!

May 26, 2020 Covid Questions

I don’t know much more today than I did yesterday.  We seem to be moving further and further away from science and more into politics and hidden agenda’s each day. I don’t know why we still have a state of emergency here. I believed that business could open up and government could step back May 1 but no.  The government hovers like Big Brother.

The UN is not my government. It is a body of men who are mostly dictators and have demonstrated their intrinsic evil in their repeated calls for the death of the Israeli state. I don’t like the beheadings or the terrorist attacks or the rapes and yet the UN doesn’t really seem to care much about human rights. 

The WHO is no longer the organizations of mercy it once was. It is as corrupt as the Canadian government has become.

Every where I look I see bullies and the elite. I feel small and vulnerable and afraid.

I pray and meditate more because I don’t feel those around me are awake or aware and that they are out of their own fear trusting authorities which have proven themselves self serving.  

I think Justin Trudeau is a traitor to Canada and feel what I think Germans felt watching the rise of Hitler and his browns shirts. Trudeau is a pretty boy red  shirt thug.  It’s terrible to be born and lived in Canada and participated in politics and see the utter travesty of justice and mockery of all the traditions and conventions that were part of my upbringing.It’s like having a mad man decide that all the beavers must be killed, all the maple trees must be cut down, and all the ideas of freedom sacrificed to encourage the Sharia Communist rise in power.  I’m looking about and seeing that all the hard working responsible middle class folk I know will be like me ruined in the coming months. Already the price of food has doubled. Taxes have increased in everything and I’m working twice as hard for half what I did when I began. I see the lowest idea of ‘give them cake’ being perpetrated daily and all at a time when we know the virus is passing and herd immunity is taking place. 

We need to be cautious, us older and the sick but it’s time for the young, the under 60 year old crowd to gather outside and party hearty. Let there be love in the streets.  Camping, beaches , street festivals. They should be resuming.  That’s science and medicine.  This other thing is wrong.

But I don’t know so I’m attending a webinar with the leading minds and I’m going to listen. I’ve read all that I could, studied all I could, and I just don’t see them listening to the genius of Taiwan because of the lies of CCP and especially the dirty dinosaur WHO.  Taiwan and Iceland, Stanford and Singapore are all on the same page. Yet we seem to be listening to Brussels and Belgium, the EU, and UN yesterday news folk.  Brussels and Belgium and the EU had the poorest showing in the west. The Communists, continue to lie and cheat and war.

I’m flummoxed.

I pray. I meditate. I walk the dog. I don’t like the rain. I want to lie in the sun.  I want to hold my girl in my arms and believe in a future that is not more rape and pillage by the elite. I want to trust that Canada is my home. I have nowhere else to go.  As a third generation Canadian and a Christian and white I’m constantly being bullied these days by people who insist that it’s okay because someone somewhere in their groups past was but I’ve not done it. I’ve been a good guy and I’m being walked over and I’m tired. I’m really tired of the constant abuse by people who claim the right to abuse because they were abused. Well, I think they should have learned. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. But that’s now the elite that are coming here. It’s the survival of the fittest crew, the rich and privileged who ruined their own nations and now come to ruin my country with their love of terrorism and world domination. 

Justin Trudeau gave us Islamaphobia.  Now we’re going to have Communistphobia and it will be hate speech to speak out against the Godlness murdering Communist Chinese Party just like it’s now hate speech to complain about Islam mutilating little girls before their marriage to old men at the age of 9.  I don’t want Sharia Law. I don’t want Marx. I don’t want any of that.  I’m tired like John Cleese described his feelings of watching his city deformed from a place of welcome to one of no go zones and terrorists with trucks and knives.

I’m meditating and praying and trusting in God. I’ve no faith in the government. I’ve no faith in politics. I’m ready for the inevitable war that Trudeau is creating with his divide and conquer and playing everyone against each other the exact way the Communists and the Fascists have always done.  It’s evil and satanic and yet this is the world today.  No mention of Jesus. The closing of the churches and schools while the liquor stores and pot shops stay open. It’s weird and bizarre.

I will spend the day reassuring people and telling them not to kill themselves. I will calm them. I will note that the relapse rates and suicide rates are skyrocketing while the hysteria about the virus has replaced last weeks hysteria about the planet dying. The arctic still being there hasn’t resulted in Al Gore having to give back his millions made from lies. Obama has a beach front palace despite telling us all the world is at risk of inundation by climate change. Now Bill Gates is bound to make a fortune off vaccines and Trudeau and Clinton and everyone else has tax shelters called ‘Foundations’ . I just learned that when I die Trudeau just raised the estate and death tax from 30 % to 50% . I was kind of going to work thinking that I’d leave something for my nephews and great nephews. Instead I’ve a lifetime of work that will go to a sociopath and his criminal friends.  I have lost all faith in this government.

Steal a little and they put you in jail. Steal a lot and they make you king.  Where are you now William Wallace!  Fuck Joe DiMaggio.

Alright.  Just for today.  Emotional sobriety.  All shall be well. All shall be well. All manner of things shall be well.  

Walk the dog. Make gratitude lists. Stay calm.  It’s all above your pay grade.  Jesus loves you.  Just for today.  Get through this 24 hours.  You’ve had good coffee. You have indoor plumbing, soap and shower. Be thankful. Right now it’s okay.  I will do my best today and do the work I’ve trained in and will continue to do my best.  

All shall be well. 

May 25, 2020 Covid Times

Thank you Lord for this morning. Thank you Lord for the fresh smells and the rain. Thank you Lord for Laura and Gilbert. Thank you Lord for the coffee, the cream, the honey, the egg, the granola and the yogurt. Thank you for my ability to exercise no matter how much pain I feel. Thank you for stretching and Dr. Jung’s exercise regime. Thank you for work and mail and internet. Thank you for meditation and prayer. Thank you for beds and couches. Thank you for warmth and propane. Thank you for clothing. Thank you for running water and soap. Thank you for spring. Thank you for the fresh leaves and spring wild flowers. Thank you for all the birds. Thank you for babies and family and the god kids. Thank you for air. Thank you for breathing. Thank you for hearing and sound. Thank you for feelings. Thank you for friends. Thank you for locomotion. Thank you for thermodynamics. Thank you for the Krebb cycle. Thank you for my Harley. Thank you for Ford. Thank you for campers and RV’s and travel. Thank you for dreams. I dream of travel again. Thank you for the outdoors. Thank you for romance. Thank you for perfumes. Thank you for books and reading and right now thank you for westerns.  Thank you for guns and horses and the history of this wonderful west. Thank you for my childhood, the ranch and the cattle and the trees and logging. Thank you for fishing and hunting. Thank you for libraries and laboratories .Thank you for bush planes and jets.

Thank you for the day Lord. Guide me in all I do and say Lord. Show me the way.  May I serve you and be of service to my fellow man and woman. Thank you Lord.  Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, Have mercy on me, a sinner. Thank you Lord Jesus Christ.  

May 24, 2020 , Covid 19, Sunday

I listened to some praise music on a Facebook feed. That was uplifting. Normally I’d be in church. I am a Christian. I like church services. I’ve attended church since I was a child with a decade of C&E Christian attendance as an adult in my early 20 ’s and 30’s.Then I’d go with my mother or aunt and on special occasions like my various marriages.  

The last 20 years have been different. With my third divorce and my life apparently finished, my ex lying, my colleagues lying, and my so called friends lying, well I felt seriously like I’d gone wrong somewhere. There was no coat of many colours but I was ravaged by poor choices and misplaced trust.  

I went back to church remembering that that was where I felt truth.  I returned to Biblical Studies I’d begun decades before at University of Winnipeg, under Dr. Carl Ridd. I listeened to Christian psychiatrists Dr. Willie Gutowski and Dr. Phillip Ney and attended Dr. James Houston courses with Dr. John Christiensen.  I had stopped drinking and smoking marijuanis which all those “liars’ had done. Without that in common , we didn’t have a lot in common.  I made a whole lot of new sober friends and reunited with some old. I liked church.

I’d taught Sunday School and had a calling into Medicine. The local College of Physicians assistant registrars called being a physician ‘just a job’ and referred to us today as ‘health care workers’, a communist comrade type depiction.   I’d married two doctors who were also secular and I’d enjoyed drugs and alcohol with them but found that the ‘yuppie’ life was hollow.  It didn’t help me when my wife went psychotic and the authorities covered up killers and rapists if they had sufficient influence or money.  I was faced with incomprehensible demoralization. My idealism was shattered.  I had thought I’d lost my idealism in my 20’s and 30’s but once again in my 40’s I had an epiphany, that rabbit holes could go down even further. 

I went down on my knees and have remained there ever since.

This whole political Communist Chinese Virus  time seems decidedly ungodly. The UN and the WHO have that ungodly flavour I smelled it like sulfur 20 years ago when I returned to church full time.  Nothing like reading the bible cover to cover a few times to ground you. Nothing like being around the stirling characters that make up the Christian Medical and Dental Society. I’m not a very good Christian.

I’m divorced.  Christianity is mostly a family religion. It’s family or monastery preferably I’ve been single and had woman and male friends as sexual partners. I like wearing women’s clothes and I’d rather be on an adventure than hugging and singing kumbaya. I seem to know what to say and do to help people who are insane, sick or addicted .I’ve a usefulness that keeps me serving. 

This Covid 19 has sent me to my room becoming a virtual psychiatrist and addiction medicine specialist. I do motivational interviewing and 12 step facilitation psychotherapy with psychoeducation and psychopharmacology.  I miss the clinic people, so expect one day I’ll have to do a half day or so every few weeks to keep in touch.

Today I’m waiting for my Zoom meeting to connect with a group of likeminded colleagues.  

Laura is over. Gilbert and Laura and I are happy together.  I used to have those creche like feelings in my former marriages. We didn’t need anyone.  They had sick family relationships and kept those going. I remain connected with my remarkable family. Over the years friendship networks have become less involved. I used to have every other weekly dinner parties of a half dozen to a dozen people. I”d have parties on my boat.  I’d play guitar. We’d sing. We went to dances.  We had all that young social experience. The last 20 years I’ve been going to meetings and church and off with one or two others to attend conferences, go hunting, fishing or boating. I no longer am at these big events like dances and festivals unless they are work related conferences or something to deal with church or recovery. I don’t miss them. I’m happiest in my camper with Gilbert and Laura by the side of a stream. I’m really happy alone on my motorcycyle whichever one,  or in my boat, whichever one.  If I were independently wealthy I’d not do anything differently right now though I’d like it if Laura lived next door. Our relationship has always been ‘the girl next door’.  We each like our space but I’d like her closer.  Gilbert would too. When the Covid lightens up I want to drive for a few months about with my camper on an north american adventure, up to Alaska, across Canada, down to Louisiana.  My parents were Good Sam members and I’m liking the RV life.  Like father and mother, like son.  For now I’m happy here. I’ve got friends here, a couple of guys and their dog, peopleI know and like.  Several acquaintances.  It’s a mobile community.

I miss church sometimes. I pray everyday and meditate. I don’t read the Bible as much as I would want. I’ve so many books to read and after a half dozen research papers I am down to reading westerns.  I like westerns these days. Sometimes it’s sci fi. Sometimes it’s thrillers.

Life is good. God is good.  Now I must get to my Zoom meetings.  Say hello. Suit up and show up.  

May 22, 2020 Covid l9, Vaccines

It’s increasingly clear, with a hundred governments around the world in agreement, Communist China purposefully, with the aid of the WHO ,lied about the virus, tried to cover up their involvement and promoted it’s spread.  The reason most argue they did this was to stop the Hong Kong million strong freedom movement. Further by attacking the economies of the west they were able to foreclose on loans to third world countries taking over their infrastructure, ports and cities they’d invested in.  Further they could undermine the Republican US election bid in the fall and return the Democrat China friendly folk to power. So many of the latter have invested financially  fully in China and agree in principle politically  with Communism and Dictatorship.

Now we have survived the initial attack and even the initial lockdown treatment.  The world returns to business as usual despite the costly defence.  

Hydroxychloroquine has protected thousands.  Remsifer is now saving loves too..  Placebo has always favoured healing to a rate of 30% success so prayer and faith and meditation,exercise and optimism are all as usual doing their miraculous good.  Vitamin C. Vitamin D. Zinc. All help the immune system. The outdoors are especially healthy and thankfully parks and campgrounds are reopening.  I loved camping last week.  The mountain air was exhilarating.  I felt cleansed by my time in the forest. The anthill buzz of the overly dense city insanity was far away. I was for a time far from the maddening crowd.

Now vaccines are all the rage.  The vaccines of yesteryear were all life saving.  Polio, measles etc.  My missionary doctor friend said when he first worked in Africa the death rate from measles was 3 children in 5. He vaccinated thousands and thereafter no children he’d vaccinated died from measles.  I remember vaccinations as a kid. I loved vaccinated children as a family physician. Travelling to tropical countries I was vaccinated against true killers, like taking mosquitos spray on the inside. There’s nasty stuff out there. I read Facebook sometimes and realize that many of the Arts students have never looked in a microscope. That was one of the most moving moments of my childhood. Getting my microscope and looking at pond sludge to see all the invisible organisms in this other world. My wonder didn’t cease but got even greater when I looked in my first electron microscope at university.  

Now there’s bugs, bacteria, viruses and probably other tinier entities everywhere. Some are friendly and happy to share in the life like the gut bacteria that make us live as they work with us to devour food.  

People too long in their minds are disconnected from the interconnectedness of nature.  

Vaccines are like giving an airport dog a sniff of heroin. The dog now can identify the heroin and find the mother load. Vaccines are like night vision googles. The personal immunological system lacks the capacity to identify the latest development in a nasty bug or pathogen.  It’s always survival of the fittest with bugs and species developing camouflage or nuclear weapons in a bid for survival. The spike on the this coronavirus is particularly good at grabbing on to an ACE 2 receptor.  Now vaccines are being developed to specifically teach the body to quickly identify and reject Caron a virus.

Immunology is simply a matter of  Me/Not Me. The body rejects the alien. Viruses invade the cell and take over production for self service. Our defences  don’t recognize them fast enough.

The vaccine gives a teeny bit of a part of the intruder and body identifies it and kicks into armies that respond and exclude the intruder. Mostly vaccines stop the Blitzkrig.. The body recognizes the intruder before it gets established.  

Moderna Pharmaceuticals has the sweetest 21st century vaccine that actually targets a bit of code for the spike specific to Covid 19.  It’s NASA science.  Really , the inside show. I’m so impressed when I read the biochemistry like looking at the inside of a Ferrari engine or seeing the first jet fight. Gilead Pharmaceuticals is this other truly incredible research corp developed Truvada the medication that protects against HIV.  Remsifer is their anti viral drug which successful treats Covid 19 reducing the illness to manageable proportion. They have a vaccine in development which is also light years ahead.
Astra Zeneca has a vaccine developed at Oxford University which is questionable in performance as yet but holds a lot of promise. I’m rather partial to Oxford because it was staying in our Oxford Medical Student Quaker’s friends rooms in St. Mary’s that I had the calling to go into medicine. I left the world of dance and theatre and began the Himalayan trek into the Hessian Glass Bead Game of science.  These are the people that bring us internet, satellites, transplant surgery, electric cars, solar panels, nuclear energy.
 Universities like our own UBC are truly amazing and what we lose when we descend into barbarism and tribalism. I know the most amazing behavioural neurologist, a gentle genius,who needs protection from the desperate masses, as he finds disease cures here in Vancouver. Because he has safety and food he has specialized in this peculiar little research area doing what only he is capable of . He’s like so many of the UBC Department of Medicine researchers studying the effects of antibodies and antigens and searching for cures as a result of his childlike curiosity.

Meanwhile Trudeau has joined with the Chinese Communist Party to put a ‘made in Canada’ brand on a aborted baby adjuvant vaccines which suddenly appears out of Wuhan. This disgusting vaccine which seems too conveniently like the’antidote’ sold to the world after the poison has been given in the form of Covid 19 is being made here in a Sino Canadian project not voted by parliament but executive mandated by the most unethical impaired PM in the history of Canada. Everything he says and does is Pro Communist China and anti Canadian.  Communist China has millions in Gulags, no human rights, more surveillance of their own country men, and routinely harvests the organs of the Falun Gong prisoners. Xi Jinpeng has the eyes and liver and scrotum of dead prisoners but no heart. He’s a cyborg creation thanks to the other experiments in Communist Chinese labs , making pig monkey and monkey pig combinations.  These are the same as the Nazi Joseph Mengele and Eichman. Trudeau now works for them and this abomination of a vaccine is being developed here.  WTF!

I’ve taken vaccines.  I don’t think the flu vaccine was worthy and I was very disturbed and the political menace associated with its use. Healthcare workers were told they’d lose their jobs if they didn’t take the flu vaccines. Given the dictatorship and money to be made by Ottawa greed the prospect of having a deeply evil dangerous cancer associated vaccine forced on us by an out of control government with no respect for the law is frightening.

I’m a doctor, with 2 years speciality training in Community Medicine and Public Health.  I did a combined specialty in Community Medicine and Psychiatry after family practice. I actually had the privilege of working with the American CDC in the US when I lived there. The BC CDC here is stirling .
 Our Dr. Bonnie Henry in BC has done as incredible a job at protecting our province as the Taiwan government did for it’s citizens.  Premier Horgan and Health Minister Mr. Dix have really been amazing leaders. Now that restrictions are easing up and freedoms return it’s good to be thankful.

When it all began we thought it was a bioweapon developed by China to use against the US.  It wasn’t a bio weapon. The Covid 19 bug prefers asians, then blacks, then whites, and least likes Latins.  If it was a bioweapon it was developed by a Mexican. But still two Nobel prize winning scientists say it was made in the Wuhan lab and two say it wasn’t. China just bought the WHO for 2 billion dollars and agreed to have them adjudicate. So far several of the most outspoken scientists including the leading expert on Corona virus have been caught taking literally millions to lie on television about the origins of the virus.  

I look forward to taking a vaccine. Especially one from Moderna or Gilead.  The BioNTech vaccine out of Germany backed by Pfieser is equally attractive. The key though is antibody testing to see if I’ve already had the virus and don’t need the vaccine.  The business of the vaccine would have everyone using it. But Stanford studies show 20% of the Westcoast has already had the virus.  Iceland studies show 50% who have the virus don’t know they had it.  Having the virus and developing antibodies confers immunity.  I don’t need the vaccine if I’ve had the virus.

 Hence the press to produce a vaccine in time to actually sell it before it’s past its’ half life. Herd immunity in Sweden is nearly 60% .  70% is key herd immunity figure to date with smallpox, the outlier, requiring 90% herd immunity. 60% might be sufficient. The trouble with herd immunity is that vulnerable and old may have died before the herd protection sets in and frankly they can still die. But if I was 20 to 50 I might simply not want the vaccine.  I get tattoos so a vaccine is little different.

It’s not a microchip and the nano chip science fiction stuff isn’t mass producible yet.  This is more about money. I worry about the UN, a truly diabolical entity today and their Agenda 21 and Agenda 2030 plan with its mass annihilation and herding people into cities. Bill Gates could be an Eichman but more likely he’s just a good businessman who saw that the opportunity for vaccines and pandemics was the future financially.  Bill Gates said the profit in Vaccines for a pandemic could be 400 billion dollars. Good gig if you can get it. Saying Bill Gates is a smart businessman doesn’t mean he convinced the Communist Chinese and WHO to let it spread.

In the mean time I’m social distancing, washing my hands and wearing masks when I’m around people. I would take Hydroxychloroquine again if I was working with Covid 19 infected people as thousands of frontline workers in various international studies have been saved from infection or hospitalization thanks to this medication.  I will get the vaccine too if I don’t already have the antibodies.

The exciting news is that the Vancouver test. antibody company has combined with Lilly pharmaceuticals to develop a really good test. The previous tests except for the one in South Korea have had too many false positives.  The Vancouver test is the one I’d like. In BC we are testing for antibodies finally with another test, not as good, but federally approved.  I wonder.

I just had some local carrots from the Yellow Barn and some Chilliwack corn. They were the tastiest. 

May 20, Covid 19, The Medical/Scientific Emergency is Past, Bring on the Clowns

Chinese Communist Party released Covid 19 on the world. A pandemic ensued.  A lockdown occurred in hundreds of countries.  Taiwan continued to work with incredible conventional public health measures and has had the greatest success of all despite the failure of the WHO.  Singapore, South Korea and Japan all did variations on the lockdown.  Belgium the seat of the European Union had the most deaths in the west. It did worse than Italy and Spain.  The Mainstream Media was the greatest loser.

Most thought the US did poorly but it out performed Europe. Indeed the New York deaths, a consequence of the elevator spread, large black population favoured by Covid and Govenors’ Cuomo’s requiring nursing homes to take Covid 19 positive patients, turned out to be inflated because insurance companies paid three times a regular death.  Confirmatory testing was not required. The meme on Face book said, ‘suddenly no one died of natural causes in New York’.

China having used all the ammonium in the country, killed off all the witnesses, and destroyed all the documents in the Wuhan lab has agreed to allow a WHO independent investigation. It just bought the WHO with 2 billion dollars. The question remains which body parts of Xi Jinpeng come from the murdered Falun Gong, his eyes, his liver but definitely not his heart.  Meanwhile the Made in China brand is gone so Xi Jinpeng made a dirty deal to market their surprisingly quick dead baby stem cell vaccine as Made in Canada. The economic fall out of this is just one more clear evidence that trust fund junkie Trudeau really has no clue about money or respect.  

Meanwhile Moderna and Gilead labs are producing vaccines and treatments which really are 21st century scientific miracles.  

I’m feeling people I talk to are indeed at the end of their rope.  Suicidal ideation. Anxiety.  We had one Covid Lockdown fellow kill 22 Nov Scotians in his cabin fever rage. The deaths caused by lockdown now are surpassing the potential prevention as the peak of the Wave has passed and the curve has flattened.  

Israel epidemiological mathematician says that the virus passes through community in 8 weeks peaking before the trough and moves on.  Immunity is established by infection with 50 % of people unaware they even had it.  Altogether 80 % are mild.  Sweden has had relative success with some traditional quarantine and no lockdown. They are approaching 60% immunity, the point at which some herd immunity begins. Generally herd immunity occurs with 70% but the worst case scenario was Small Pox which required 90% herd immunity. 

 South Korea with its social distancing, hand washing and masks has ensured that only 1. 5  people are infected before the contact person is contained. By contrast in Communist China the rate was greater than 7 infected by one person before that person was infected. .  11 infections from a single contact was apparently the highest.  On the west coast the virus has probably spread to 20%

Hydroxychloroquine continues to be the treatment of choice but Remsifer is also now available.  Major improvements in treatment have reduced risk of death in all populations.  These include the simple pronation positions which had allowed people to avoid the need of respirators.

The secondary infections were a product of ‘false positives’.  Communist chinese test kits were almost as poor as their personal protection equipment. So much was faulty, 90% of the PPE supply for Netherlands, 250 resperators bought from China by Canada. With  that,  quite frankly , not only did China release the virus but it appeared intentionally to promote it’s spread. To insiders at risk it appeared to be trying to kill health care workers like the classic ‘second terrorist bomb.’

As people collectively stagger out of their shelters, stores, restaurants, hair dressers are opening. Dr. Bonnie Henry in BC continues to be a calming guiding light.  She has been nominated for the Order of Canada.  For unknown reasons Premier Horgan has extended the state of emergency.  The medical and scientific crisis over ,with a win collectively, as deaths have been minimized by great science and care, the politicians, military and economists take over. 

I liken these all to clowns of politics. It really is a circus especially in Ottawa where PM Justin Trudeau has formed alliances with Communist China’s Hitler Jin Xinpeng and boy leader Kim of North Korea turning his back on both America and the Commonwealth. The UN continues to be ruled by dictators of the Middle East.  Draconian attacks on freedom of speech increase in Canada, which rapidly is descending to third world status ,despite another 14 billion arm sales to Saudi Arabia.  A billion dollars has gone missing again in Pakistan.  It’s a circus at the top from my perspective, seen through the biased impaired vision of the greed driven journalists.

Way above my pay grade. The fog of war.

I prefer to consider the Cloud of Unknowing.

Thank you lord for waking me in your playground today. Thank you for the pleasant dreams and good night’s sleep. Thank you that my dog Gilbert who seems to be getting better, his congestive heart failure clearing with the medication. Thank you that my family remains well. Thank you that my friends are well. Thank you for Laura. Thank you for this home. Thank you for technology and virtual and computers and iPhones. Thank you for the refrigerator and food and the expresso coffee machine. Thank you for comfortable clothes and walks in the woods. Thank you for the beautiful spring. Thank you for the migrating birds and wild flowers. Thank you Jesus for your love. 

Hallelujah. God is good all of the time.  

May 17, Contined State of Emergency, Politics versus Science

My mother always taught me there were people who if you gave a little would want it all. There are takers and there are givers. There are well manner people and there are bullies. The state of emergency is past but government always, reasonably suspect given the abuses of power through history,just doesn’t seem to want to let a crisis go to waste.  Sad.

I’m here in an act of ‘civil disobedience’.  I’m camping this weekend. I have a camper with it’s own bathroom and Laura is the only other person I have physical contact with. Gilbert and I have been socially distanced for two months from her, reunited last week. I’ve continued to work virtually. The forest or ocean has been my medicine.  

I’m denied groups hugs and coffee shop discussions.  Too many FB people are too quick to take offence, looking for a fight, name callers or self proclaimed sheriffs. They don’t know that discussion is like a game of ping pong, or perhaps tennis. Love One.  Even debating is beyond them because they don’t have the least knowledge of ‘proof’ but instead consider the ‘mob cry’ as appropriate statement of ‘opinion’.  

Sadly watching parliament I’ve seen a whole lot of adolescent behaviour from the Prime Minister with his ear fob directing him.  I watch Pierre ask him appropriate questions or counter his arguments and then the PM rants tangentially or circumstantially gaslighting and generally being an uncivilized boor with pretty hair and lots of virtue signalling and posturing.  

I’m weary. I did nothing yesterday. I’m reading an excellent Western, Bunnell’s Stonecraft saga of two men with flintlock weapons and bows exploring the Wild West.  Lots of good history and even bible passages as that was the common language of the day and the author is a pastor.  Great period writing. 

But then I’m looking over at FB hoping for some of the really good intrigue about this Covid 19.  Why ever are they continuing states of emergency, outrageous police powers, dubious fines, and all in name of the Nazi creed “its for your safety’.  

Unlike others I accepted the lockdown. I believe our leadership knew it was from a lab and it was possibly a bioweapon experiment gone awry, released intentionally or unintentially but certainly not stopped when it could have been.  It was also associated with a major cover up and massive deaths in Wuhan.  What to do in such a situation.  Retreat!  So we did and we learned an immense amount of information in 2 months.

It’s not a bioweapon.  The virus likes asian and blacks most, whites next but doesn’t like Latins. If it was a bioweapon it was developed by Mexicans.  Not the Communist Chinese. It was likely an lab error, like Chernobyl and countless other examples of experimental errors. The Iranians last week shot one of their ships with a mission Maybe it was just religious Islam stupidity that had them shoot down a commercial flight only months back. 

The Wuhan Virology Lab had a history of errors.  The WHO lied. Like the Communist Chinese who knew better they said it didn’t spread human to human.  My friend was in Wuhan and had pneumonia and everyone knew this flu virus spread by coughing. Why would the Communist Chinese and WHO lie if everyone knew and by January even the western intelligence agencies knew they were lying. So unconventional warfare had begun and the lockdown began. Nobody wanted to have their health care resources overwhelmed.  

Other than in major cities people were not particularly at risk. In most cases the people who died were old and sick in nursing homes.  When I was a country family physician we quipped that ‘pneumonia was the old man’s friend’.  It was a relatively easy way to die and  a principle cause of death in the very old.

I researched masks again when I heard that Dr. Fauci like Dr. Tam had said , against all medical evidence, against all scientific evidence, that masks in the community shouldn’t be worn.  Both reversed their positions but the data proving that masks protected communities came from the SARS and MERS epidemics.

 All the leading Virologists in the Asian democracies recommended masks. So were Dr. Fauci and Dr. Tam racist.  I know that at international conferences I have encountered the rare arrogant western physician who belittles the excellent work of Third World Nation Colleagues. But the head of public health from Taiwan and from South Korean aren’t Third World. Why doesn’t the WHO acknowledge Taiwan who has to date done the best of all. It’s like having a hockey all star team but refusing to let Goretsky play.  The WHO has become a horribly unscientific political body just like the Red Cross became in the Aids Epidemic. 

Now I’m sitting outside at a picnic table. The wilderness campgrounds were closed but this set of spots was open along the river. We’d hoped to go to our favourites further out but they were closed .  There were a half dozen campers here and no sign, the entrance open.  The other campgrounds had gates and saw horses. This didn’t. Laura was concerned we were 2 and a half hours away from my place . I drove slowly.  She’s never had a speeding ticket. She is a really good girl.  The private campgrounds told us they were accepting RV’s and campers but no tents because their washrooms were all closed and there was no use of public community services.  

We’d planned weeks ago.  Then suddenly after being told we could travel in BC we were told we had to go only 2 hours and that day camping was okay but no overnight camping. It made no scientific or medical sense.  Political and military.  The dictator always takes away little things and torturers play similiar dominatrix games.  No warning.  I give. I take away.  I am your Queen.  You peasants have no rights.  

I just had a hunting rifle I bought legally and owned for years suddenly declared a military assault rifle by a PM who couldn’t find his ass with both hands and knows nothing about the guns that surround him protecting him and his arrogance.  

I’m a good boy. Not like Laura is a good girl. But I’ve lived a righteous life. Not necessarily sexually. I’ve a number of divorces and I swear. I have a penchant for the word ‘fuck’ and wonder if it’s my own personal canary in the mine. If people don’t like the word ‘fuck’ they’re going to find a lot more they don’t like while turning a blind eye to worse behaviours that they themselves do but don’t own.  Passive aggressive, covert aggression and negligence are the principle failings of the politically correct. 

I am a good citizen. I’ve carried wood and hauled water for years. I’ve served on boards and manned soup kitchen lines, volunteered to serve at high cost and high risk in the worst of areas. I’ve served my fellow man and God and I’ve respected my government and participated in it. I don’t break the law normally and don’t like breaking the law.  I think too if someone who is as ethical and moral as I have worked to be is having a problem then frankly the majority of people might well have cause for concern. 

But I’m here and what have I done. Nothing. I’ve sat inside in the rain and read a western. I’ve even engaged in a few political arguments on facebook.  It’s deplorable.  I don’t do it normally because I’m working 10 hours a day debating with someone who wants to kill themselves or others or drink or drug. I’m presenting pros and cons and doing literature searches. I read a half dozen scientific papers yesterday, a few hours of worthwhile work. I was curious about what the CDC knew.  Marvellous organization in my experience. Love reading what UBC is doing.  

Loved Dr. Bonnie Henry and thought so well of Mr. Horgan until he extended the State of Emergency. Now that was scarey.  The emergency is past. With all the stress I feel I’ve been working harder. Now obviously people like Trudeau have been on a long vacation coming out for little posturing  in speeches and refusing to open parliament while spending a lifetime of money on cronies and giving a bit to the people to keep them in rapt adulation of his hair.  

I’m losing my hair.  Laura is beautiful. Gilbert is a gift. He injured his back, lost his eyes, has a serious heart murmur and is now taking treatment for congestive heart failure but he just keeps on. 

I really should be more grateful. I’m nit picking this government.  They’ve done so well. My natural and very healthy fear of government has stepped up.  The communists have invaded Canada and we’re rapidly on the way to a police state.  Civil war has already begun.  Montreal and Toronto versus Canada. 

It’s all above my pay grade. I watched a stellar jay a moment a go.  The sun is truly lovely. An ant has come  to visit.  There’s something comforting about old picnic tables. Takes me back to the best of times camping with my family.  I also liked the Boy Scouts, Cub Scouts and Church and YMCA camping  experiences.  The picnic table has so many fond memories.  

Random thoughts from a mind that is winding down.  I slept so well. I actually dreamed of holy men and lakes.  Gilbert woke me early. He loves to be helped up on the bed so he can get Laura to give him a morning tummy rub. I went back to sleep only to have Laura wake me thinking there was a bear outside. I think it was a crow that got into the green bag of garbage I’d hung at the back of the camper. I cleaned it up and took Gilbert for a walk. He’s on furosemide and peed longer than I’ve ever seen him pee.  He’s been enjoying drinking more water so the meds must make him thirsty. He’s such a happy little dog. An example to me. I’m more dour. I enjoy life and am happy but he’s much more ready to play and I am slow to play. I miss the puppy some days. We are both a whole lot slower. I’m old like my grandfather and don’t feel it except in the aches and pains.  

I used the generator yesterday to charge all the electronics but today I’ve just run the truck.  

Hallelujah Praise the Lord. Thank you Heavenly Father for all your blessings.  

May 16, Covid 19, Camping

Covid 19  came from  a leak (a virus spill) during gain of function experiments in the Level 4 Communist Chinese Military  Virology Lab in Wuhan. The unusual genetic sequencing shows unusual fucin insertion that have Nobel Prize winning scientists convinced that it did not develop naturally.  The Communist Chinese Party tortured and killed whistleblower doctors and continue to refuse to share patient zero, ‘bat girl’ information.  A lab assistant working with the horseshoe bat virus has been mysteriously missing along with others since late November, early December,  2019.

December the CCP knew a deadly human to human transmitting virus was lose in Wuhan, did not stop planes leaving the monstrous Wuhan festival.  These people flew to all corners of China and on to the rest of the world.  The CCP capitalized on the condition locking down Hong Kong, stopping the million strong revolt of leading citizens and subsequently arresting millionaire Hong Kong business who are now also missing. 

 In the Chinese Communist Party papers on ‘unconventional warfare’ they state the need to destroy the US and other Democracies by internal division and conquering and the use of propaganda and disease to gain ascendancy. The end of communism has always been perpetual war till the communists triumph.

The WHO was coopted to support the Communist Chinese Party narrative propaganda.  Suddenly a ‘wet market’ which never sells bats was implicated in the origin of a virus which oddly required a pangolin to explain it’s peculiar lab created appearance. There is absolutely no evidence that the virus originated in a wet market or could not have been in the Wuhan lab.  

Millions of dollars of funding was given to scientists who insisted they knew with 100% certainly that the virus  came from the wet market. Only 97% of the genetic make up was ‘normal’. 3% was highly suspicious but anyone who questioned the Chinese Communist Party narrative was mocked and ridiculed or disappeared. A massive, millions of dollars, Communist propaganda  campaign began while dozens of countries sued China for financial damages and loss of life. 

In the January, the fog of war, with China denying the million deaths and WHO downplaying the danger, Iran lying about mass graves,  the west was un prepared for the onslaught that killed so many in Italy as the virus spread in a huge wave around the world.

Lockdown ensued. If the health care systems, ICU’s and respirators were overwhelmed deaths multiplied 5 to 10 times more.  The disease lasted 3 weeks. An Israeli scientist charted its spread as 8 weeks to peak and trough, apparently most unusually independent of the response. Sweden took the unprecedented approach to encouraging early herd immunity to reduce the overall long term morbidity and mortality.  At risk people remain quarantined. Their excellent health care system wasn’t overwhelmed and their numbers are still far better than Belgium. Brussels the seat of the European Union has had the most sickness and death, Italy, Spain, France, Britain all doing more poorly than America and Canada. Taiwan, Japan, Singapore, South Korea all have done better with their early closing of airports, aggressive quarantining of migrants, social distancing and masks.  

Antibody testing in Iceland showed half the population is infected but shows no expression of disease. Of those who express the disease 80% of cases are mild. 

Mainstream media, continuing to use arts students ignorant of science and statistics almost universally fail by constantly reporting deaths as absolute numbers rather than numbers per hundred thousand or per million which is the correct and useful way to present scientific data rather than the fear mongering and emotive manner used to fan the mass hysteria which sells news and gives politicians unprecedented peace time power increasingly abused.  Stanford Studies show that positive tests are over reporting disease rates by hundredfold. Perhaps 20% of the west coast are already infected. Cruise ship data confirm all the evidence that the virus is 10 times deadly in susceptible populations, old and sick already ,but 1/10 as illness producing in 20 to 50 year olds. The computer projections have been off again most likely because of the amazing response of doctors and nurses and the cooperation and work of billions under attack. 

Taiwan the most successful and best of all has like most of the eastern democracies maintained work and managed the economy to the best of their ability. Lockdowns in Singapore and elsewhere have varied with close adherence to social distancing and safety. China has ramped up production in a further attempt to gain economic dominance over the west already foreclosing on the massive loans that they had extend and acquiring property thereby.  China’s neighbours, used to her aggression, see little doubt that she is in an all out economic and unconventional war.

What I was taught in urban combat military training was that the first terrorist bomb is for the civilians and that the second bomb or sniper attack is for the first responders, doctors and nurses. China’s personal protection gear, according to the Netherlands was 90% defective.  It has killed care workers surely.  250 respirators were defective and would have killed patients in Canada. Thermometers under registered temperature.  Trudeau gave 16 tons of high quality personal protective gear in exchange for China’s deadly returns. 

CSIS , the Canadian spy agency said that Chinese Communist Party had infiltrated government, media and universities to the highest level.  Left leaning politicians and others from the west have had unprecedented investments and special back room sweet deals that have made them millions of dollars and helped them become what Lenin called them, ‘useful fools’.  Only when their ‘conflicts of interest’ and investments are exposed does the truth come out. 

Even now the Canadian government is in league with the Chinese Communist Party in testing a vaccine, not surprisingly made for this specific virus and ready to roll before all the competing vaccines are coming out.  Vaccines are a many billion dollar business. They have attracted Bill Gates the greatest financial shark of the era who has committed billions to the production of vaccines in China.  

The flu vaccine, unlike previous vaccines before it, was of highly dubious value.  Yet it was associated with draconian measures of enforcement and indeed threw into question the previous successful vaccines that saved so many lives. 

Today some are encouraging fascist tyranny and totalitarian state power in keeping businesses closed and people out of work until a vaccine can be developed. People now must  remain prisoners at the whim of governments indefinitely.  They  claim that a vaccine and social chipping are necessary. Social chips are mandated in China, tracking and monitoring at it’s finest and increasingly celebrated in the mainstream .  ‘Chipping’ is celebrated in the west by those who prefer it to carrying credit cards.  My dog has such a chip.  Cattle and slaves were branded. It was called the ‘mark of the beast’ . 

Democrats have said that they would rather America die than the Republicans remain in power.  Liberals in Canada have all but erased democracritic gains of a century. Free speech is gone with Comedians fined, broad definitions of ‘hate speech’, censorship in social media and increasing censorship with words like Islamophobia and ironically Homophobia and now Racism. Meanwhile the Climate Change Cult had also used computer ‘projections’ which wrongly overstated their concerns by a thousand fold suggesting that tomorrow the end would be nigh when indeed the computer errors were in numbers of zero.  The Climate Change fear mongering  prophecies were for a hundred years or a  thousand years hence.  I never mattered that their prophecies like the disappearance of ice caps never occurred because all that mattered was the brand. .  

A great spiritual war of the profundity of Revelations is waging.  Godless aetheist communists and dilute Christians and greedy Jews and Ferrari driving Buddhists and Hindus who have rejected family all are vying for cosmetic appliances and surgery in the greatest ‘denial of death’ movement known.  If I keep my head in my ass I may not die, ever, the adherents argue, screaming on social media from inside their prisons. Never before have so many had so much and now they are imprisoned in guilded cages while the Third World citizens begin  to starve. HIV killed a few million in the west and hundreds of million in the Third World. Well the west is on holiday the third world dependent on commerce, trade and travel slowly dies.  We were bloated with cheap trade with Communist China which arrested a million spiritual Falun Gong to steal their body parts for the extension of life of the leading CCP members.  Millions of ethnics in Gulags.  Slave labour and poverty all contributing to Amazon owner Jeff Bezo’s becoming the worlds first Trillionaire. It’s just business.  Virtue signalling girls and boys in downtown Toronto and Montreal flouted their latest blood stained garments from Wish and showed off their blood diamonds. 

Meanwhile leaders like Trudeau flip their pretty hair and virtue signal and put another wing on their palaces.  In face of plague, the world descends into medieval’  as criminals stockpile weapons, militias acquire military hardware and common hard working citizens are taxed to pay for the increasing legions of criminals and unemployed. The good citizens are disarmed too for the benefit of the evil and bad.  Disarmament has historically always been a precurser  used by dictators moving to all out war on the citizens.  Like the Nazi’s they insist everything is done ‘for your safety’.  

Thèse are strange times.  In the Bhagavad Gita the boy king Arjuna objects to Krishna that the war is between his family members and Krishna says that is always the way with war. The only question is whether to join in or not. To be a monk and isolate or not to be a monk and participate.  Even that choice is taken from us in Hotel California, ‘We are all just prisoners here, of our own device.’

People are so scared and unwilling to admit it, the media fanning fear to the level of 1984 group speak and mindless parroting of propaganda catch phrases.  They even trust the government.  They would rather  Communist China’s Xi Jinping than America’s Trump. Meanwhile Trudeau calls for another bong and party goes on. 

 It’s 60’s psychedelic with China providing fentanyl killing hundreds more than their other favourite export Covid 19.  

I simply don’t know. I calm psychotic people. I reassure the anxious.  I agree with the paranoid and they are comforted. I recommend Monty Python’s « Look on the Bright Side of Life Utube Clip ».  

In an act of civil disobedience I’ve driven off into the wilderness, like the dessert father’s before me. I hope to survive longer than the Mad Trapper of Canada the last hermit, killed for wanting to be away from the maddening crowd.   

Maybe in solitude with healing nature I will be able to return to the city, where the lemmings crowd desperately together rather than live freely apart and face the absurdity of life Camus so well described in his classic, the Plague.  

I remember my WWI patient who survived 4 years of trench warfare telling me. ‘The bullet must have your name on it’.  Go ahead, sunshine, if hiding away helps, hide away.  The generation of « Carpe Diem! » has come full circle to the generation of  « Be safe. »   No wonder the young never listen.

Somewhere a couple is loving against the law, a modern day Romeo and Juliet. . 

Wednesday May 13, Covid 19 Another day

The days run together. I am looking forward to the weekend. Laura’s visit made the weekend a special time again. Gilbert and I were happy with the change. The days run together otherwise.  Work. Tiring.

 It’s good to work.  I feel and hope I’m contributing. Every day there seems at at least one life I touched but I feel so inadequate before the whole mystery of the thing. Anxiety is high.  I know anxiety is a harbinger of change and that band aids just delay and make things worse. So many have already tried to put their head in the sand and now they don’t know who kicked them. Drugs and alcohol and other addictions.

I’m praying and meditating. I’m feeling forced to ask what is essential. What do I want these days. I’m afraid.  I have faith to balance it. In the morning I meditate and like Bernie taught me, say ‘Holy Spirit Come”.  Today the prayer that comforted me began. “God I offer myself to you ....”.  I’m enjoying reading the Bundell Western. The young men are talking about the Bible as they adventure in the west. It’s historically true.  Not like so many revisionist writings that forget Christianity came before Hollywood. Joseph Campbell’s Hero’s tale has been usurped by comics.  

I’m walking the dog.  We enjoy going outside, seeing the green, the birds and spring flowers. I carry a camera.  I’ve had my second up of Ethiopian coffee. I roasted the beans last night. Granola and Cobs scones for breakfast.  I have to shower and dress.

Another day of virtual office. It’s still west coast cloudy and rained heavy. I like the sunny days with blue skies. My mood is influenced by the sun and the moon. I was irritable yesterday in the evening. .  Just weary.

Today I’m rested and that’s usually the way it is. I enjoy my mornings.  But by the end of clinic I’m sometimes exhausted, hearing the pain and all the expectation and unfulfilled desire.  I am anxious about strangers now in virtual. Not knowing them as I do those I have met in person.  I worry too much.  I’m old. Never before have I had so much education and experience.  Perhaps that’s why I doubt. When I was young and inexperienced I thought I knew. Now I know more what I don’t know. The mystery invites.

Time to go.  Thank you God for  another day. Please help Gilbert to be healthy.  Watch over my family and keep them safe. Help my friends in this time of trouble.  Help my patients. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil for thou art with me. 

May 10,Happy Mother’s Day, Covid 19, Lightening up

I was truly blessed to have the most incredible mother.  She was amazing.  She’d do so many special things for my brother and I.  We were always cared for, food, clothing, shelter. She was so loving to my father. The dog was another member of the family. She loved her boys, her man, her garden and the dog. She loved her mother and we cared for her in the last years of her life. She was a Christian woman, a Baptist and the church meant so much to her. She loved her sister, Sally and her other sister Hannah. She loved our cousin, Ruth Anne and the extended members of the family in Scotland  and the US. She loved my father’s northern relatives, especially, Annie. She made a point of keeping in touch and making sure we knew as children we were interconnected with a huge family and clan.

She fed the birds all winter at the feeder outside the kitchen.She knitted but loved to crochet. She played organ and sang hymns.  She loved to camp and helped butcher the game Dad brought home. I was tasked with plucking the ducks and cleaning the fish I caught but she cooked them all and accompanied my dad and us boys on all our fishing trips.  She spent hours untangling my fishing line when I was at a child. 

She cheered my brother and I at our games. She encouraged our school work and insisted we complete our homework. She was intimately aware of our lives and listened, taking a special interest in us whenever we were happy or sad. She laughed. She had the sweet laughter of an Irish schoolgirl and Dad and her kibbitzed all the time making the dog bark and us kids laugh.  When I came out of a trying adolescent I became close to my mom again admiring her love of God, her home and her garden and their motor home, the long trips they took to Good Sam RV sites and all the cruises they took in later years.  She and Dad were always busy, always working on some project, always there to help us kids.  She was amazing.  I love her.  I pray for her in heaven.

Now my sister in law Adell is the other greatest mother I know.My nephews are the most amazing men, so kind, intelligent and accomplished with great senses of humor. My brother was so loved by Adell and the two so loved their children. I’m so in awe of Adell’s love for her sons and now her grandson.  What an amazing woman. She is so thoughtful and caring, intelligent and talented.  Her voice is truly that of a nightingale and her mind is wonderful. She has the biggest heart and my brother loved her truly knowing the depth of her love and remarkable ness of her person. And now Tanya is the great mother of my great nephew who melts the heart of anyone who sees him. He is so special and so loved by his mother, grandmothers, and aunts and all of us.

My dearest friend and love Laura is a grand mother several times over and so cares for her children and their children.  She also loves her niece Robin.  She suffered through her husband ‘s terrible illness and continued to work and care for her children. Today they are still her true love.  My dog, Gilbert gets all the spoiling they would get if they were near. She works in the city and they all live in the country.  The families get together as often as permitted. I’ve seen her light up with good news of her son and daughters. She’s forever praying for them. Meanwhile Gilbert gets back massages and the best treats from her own plate of food. Gilbert, her fur baby, adores her. 

And thanks for Anna, the great mother of the god kids, she is so sweet and caring and with Kevin are another loving family.  I love that the mother and family are at the centre of the church. Creativity.  

Mother Mary.  In Christianity we celebrate the Mother of Jesus, lifting her up to the highest level of reverence.  The Church so admires women and motherhood. Even now I’m wearing a mother and child pendant from a St. Petersburg Orthodox Cathedral.  Hail Mary, Full of grace, the Lord is with you, blessed are Thou among all women and blessed is the fruit of your womb, Lord Jesus.  

I have been blessed to work with the finest women in medicine, so many of them mothers as well as exceptional humans. I love my friends who care in all aspects of their lives. We grew up in the Game and Fish Clubs with wild game banquets and now I know mothers who shoot with their families and hunt with fathers and sons and daughters. I also know mother who sailed with their families and adventured across continents with their husband and children.  It’s a whole new era of accomplished women. 

When I was in Israel I was so impressed with all the Jewish mothers who’d served in defence of the country and were down to earth no nonsense women so atypical of New York stereotypes.  I loved all the European mothers I have known their pride in their family and heritage. The women so commonly kept the culture alive. The Filipino mothers and Thai mothers and Chamorro and Carolinian mothers I knew in the islands loved to cook and loved to dance. There love of their children was a wonder to behold.  In the north the aboriginal mothers all cared for and loved their children and grand children. The South American, African mothers, Asian mothers were all the same, immense love and pride in their children and great joy caring. 

Life was children to all the mothers I’ve known.  The world of creativity is definitely female.  Boys and girls destroy, men and women create.  I am so blessed to have known so many incredible mothers.  They are connected in a special way with the Creator God and all Creation. It shows in the sensuous confidence in the way they walk, life’s great dancers, hips swaying, 

Thank you God for mothers. Thank you God for my mother. Thank you Lord for all mothers. Hallelujah! 

May 9 Covid 19 Letting up the Lockdown

The Monday Morning Quarter backs are at it big time. « It was just a flu, » they say.  What we didn’t know then, we know now.  The American military has ‘permanently disqualified’ anyone who has had the pneumonia of Covid 19.  They don’t know if the fibrosis of the lungs will interfere in future exercise. They don’t know if this virus is like Dengue, the mild form first but next infection worse.  The American president has called this an ‘attack’.  

The Chinese Communist Party made a clear decision not to contain it and killed the doctors who were whistleblowers and tried to warn the world.  They then arrested and jailed the leaders of the Hong Kong revolt, not students, but millionaire businessmen who had lead the million strong movement.  Trudeau uses this opportunity to give himself a raise, release prisoners, protect prisoners and take the legal hunting rifles from conservative citizens after trying to spread the disease by destroying the personal protection equipment of the doctors and nurses.  The first bomb of terrorism is for the civilians and the second bomb is for the first responders.  Trudeau continues to send tax payers money to China and give them land to build in Canada.  It’s so peculiar. Such intrigue. Trudeau really should get rid of the sharia compliant beard and sport a paper thin moustache.

The first viral  wave has peaked and is passing.  There is little doubt now that the virus escaped from the Wuhan lab.  It wasn’t meant as a bio weapon.   Whether it was man made remains to be seen.  Several Nobel prize winners for HIV research and genetics say it was.  The Chinese paid media says it couldn’t be. The lady protestest too much.  The French who designed the lab say the Chinese refused to follow their specs.  There have been several breeches but the media insists a virus that last 5 days on a metal pen could never have escaped from a lab.  That’s what they said about Chernobyl.  It could never happen.  China pays big money for big propaganda.  Goebbels taught make the lie unbelievably big and tell it over and over again. People have always prefered stupidity to truth. Stupidity is cozy like sitting in your own soiled diapers and waiting for mommy. The party girls are already gearing up to switch allegiance to the winners.

There is no compelling proof to the contrary Covid 19 didn’t escape from the lab.. The Chinese cover up , destroying research documents, killing people who working in the lab, and continued refusal to release ground zero documentation, points directly to a lab experiment gone wrong. That ‘s what Intelligence says. Not just American. All Intelligence except China’s. That also justifies the massive economic loss as the lockdown took place. If Frankenstein is lose and the leaders of the world believed that might be true on the evidence then it’s batten hatches time.  Especially since the continued behaviour of the Chinese is aggression, 250 respirators that are defective, thousands of thermometers that register 36 degrees not 38 , and masks that would ensure wearers get the virus. 

The Communist socialists continue to lie and cover up. Thirty countries lead by Australian have demanded the Chinese Communist Party tell the truth for once in their lives.  Instead they attack Vietnamese fishing boats taking over the China Sea all the while they imprison millions in Gulags and do medical procedures the likes the world hasn’t seen since Josef Mengele.  Trudeau continues to sing the Communst Chinese Party’s praises.  Even Merkel is appalled at their behaviour.  

Why are we trading with Hitler and Lenin? Why are we trading with a regime that is the principal polluter on the planet? Why are we trading with a tyranny that harvests body parts from prisoners?  Why are we trading with the mass murderers of the Tibetans? Why are we trading with the most racist nation since the Nazi? Why are we so greedy that we will do deals that will allow the subjugation of millions and corruption by thousands to persist in a country that has now unleashed disease and economic destruction on the rest of the world. This is the country that kills all the endangered species. These are the people who are behind the destruction of the environment.  The Chinese Communist Party are aetheist who have reigned terrror on Christians, Muslims, Buddhists and Hindus.  Communists are the most deceitful people whose core belief is perpetual war and world domination.  Has everyone forgotten John F. Kennedy!  He would be rolling over in his grave today to see countries like Canada celebrating communism.  Was the death of JFK for nothing?  

The lockdown is letting up.  We are getting together again with lovers and family.  The economic crisis has begun.  Highest unemployment since the Great Depression.  Trudeau continues to give away millions.  Quebec corruption is at an all time high. Biker gangs and mafia rule. SNC Lavalin gets military contracts despite the greatest scandal in Canadian history. The attorney general would not countenance the criminal deeds so Trudeau threw her to the wolves.  She rose and came back.  Aboriginal posses war throughout the praires. In Surrey the UN Gangs shoot each other with illegal weapons.

I am talking to anxious people. I’m writing lots and lots of prescriptions for antidepressants and anti anxiety medications and in some case antipsychotics. I’m continuing to help with harm reduction programs as the Chinese Fentanyl épidemic of overdose reaches an all time high. One hundred deaths per month in DTES. Despite constant diplomatic pressure from America on the Chinese to stop the flow of fentanyl into North America nothing was done.  Trudeau gives the Chinese Communist Party  money but their victims in the DTES still go without housing and medicine. There is no federal assistance of note for building a long overdue asylum  or providing the long overdue psychiatric and addiction medicine monies for doctors and programs.  It was just announced that Trudeau is giving more money to ISIS.

Reality is stranger than fiction.  The PM started out on marijuana but it sure seems he’s moved up to LSD and mushrooms.  Whatever he’s smoking is not good for the country.  

I’m walking my dog. I wear women’s clothes like KLINGER on MASH and don’t want another war but everyone forgets Chamberlain and hates Churchill.  History repeats itself.  It’s always about timing.  Taiwan and India and Singapore and Australia, the closest neighbours of this violent aggressive dangerous government of China are saying what Eastern Europeans said when the National Socialist Nazi’s invaded only to be followed by the International Socialist Communists.  Immigrants came to Canada to escape totalitarians and all my friends now say they are terrified that Trudeau is turning Canada into the countries they escaped. The wonderful Vietnamese people and the boat people know too well what the Communist Chinese will do. 

 No freedom of speech, Islamaphobia laws, hate laws, anything you say can be held against you,  comedians fined for political incorrectness, the CBC news bought and sold as a Trudeau newsletter, everyone who disagrees called racist, no democracy, despite being a minority government wide sweeping laws unrelated to the pandemic, but the old saws of the party, suddenly imposed.  

I love the flowers of spring. I sit and meditate and consider death in time. I re read Camus, the Plague and appreciate the absurdity.  The latte drinking girls doing their make up celebrate Trudeau because he has nice hair.  Ther sisters and mothers question why women got the vote. Meanwhile latte drinking men like Trudeau  because he’s given them money not to work. They just worry they’ll have enough money in their basement suite for their wine and their dope. The government Is even supplying marijuana as edibles as Sophie Trudeau and Maggie Trudeau laugh, saying, Let them eat cake! Never before have more video games been played.  More children move home to their parents who voted Liberal.  He has such nice hair and his father was a Nazi/communst celbrity.

I’m condemned for being critical of Dr. Tam ,the WHO flunky , whose errors are obscene.  Thankfully I’m in BC.  Premier Horgan and Health Minister Dix have done incredible jobs.  Dr. Bonnie Henry is a doctor’s doctor.  They represent the good people in the world and when  Trudeau and Tam were still doing China’s work of destroying the country, in addition to lying,  Dr. Henry pointed out that there were more deaths due to the lock down than due to the Covid 19. Premier Horgan and Dr. Henry are building the province up after the destruction that Chine wrought.  I’m looking forward to a weekend camping soon.  I’m tired.

It’s a terribly stressful time and everyone is acting as if it’s ‘normal’. It’s not.  We are in an unprecedented unconventional war with disease and economics as the weapons. We survived oil spills and we will survive virus spills. New Orleans rebuilt. People are resilient. We have the greatest scientists and doctors ever known in the world. Locally we have the best leadership. Internationally American, Britain, Taiwan, Australia and France and Italy and Germany and India and the nations of South America are all working to restore society after this terrible and tragic attack and horrible scare. Who doesn’t recognize Frankenstein! Who, when Frankenstein is lose , says let’s see if we can capitalize on this. Maybe if we let Godzilla lose we can get more building contracts. Psychopaths and sociopaths.  

God is good. God is good all of the time.  Thank you Jesus. Thank you spiritual saints of all religions.  Thank you good people. Thank you for those who are providing wisdom and heart in tough times and are being adults when maturity is needed.  Thank you for all my friends and family for their love and care.  God bless the good!

May 3, Covid 19 Quarantine

We are still here. Alive. Breathing fine. Gilbert has a cough but even that’s getting better.  He had antibiotics and de worming. I’ll see. May need another trip to the vet to follow up. I’d like to get him groomed. The last time he coughed like this he was getting burs in his throat and needed steroids.  He has a heart murmur too. This has come and gone for years.  That and the bad back and blindness. He’s a real trooper.  We sure do a lot together. Now that I’m home working in the virtual clinic he thinks I’m here to throw the ball and get him treats. He used to come to the office but he just slept there. This is his home and I serve him here.

Not much new on the Covid 19 front. Dr. Bonny Henry said they were loosening restrictions. That’s the right move.  Parks and camping opening up.  I’m looking forward to getting away camping. Laura and I talk about it most every night.  I’m pretty satisfied here but getting out by a lake or stream away from the city is always a joy. 

I’ve been bad ordering off Amazon.  Just clothing and books but there’s that impulse element. I can’t deny it. I see something advertised on Facebook and check it out on Amazon. It’s only $20 and then it’s only $20 again.  I don’t need more underwear but it’s coming. I did appreciate the alcohol wipes and masks.  Now I’m waiting for the cloth masks. Going to the Post Office is always a treat as often there is something I ordered a month back. Last time it was the liquid soap.  They’ve got all kinds now at London drugs but it was looking grim a month ago.  I love that supply lines are still going. Some delays but things are still moving.  I was sorry to hear about the back ups in the agricultural industry.  

Everything was so simple and now thanks to China and the WHO and some say the Democratic Media is to blame as well, we have this economic crisis now coming after the extraordinary viral panic.  I still believe with what we knew due to the corruption in the Communist China and WHO a lockdown for three weeks was essential.  The health care system wasn’t overwhelmed thanks to the likes of Mr. Horgan and Aidrian Dix.All around the world, good men and women rose to the occasion and doctors and nurses made amazing sacrifices on the front lines.  Now we carry on.

I’ve been working virtual and it’s quite exhausting.  They say that in video there’s a lack of cues which makes the interview more stressful. It’s been good. Everyday I’ve felt like I’ve helped people who needed help. A lot of the unessential visits seem gone.  So many people feel they need to see a specialist to satisfy some third party agency.  I see the need for the assessment and follow up but there just got to be so many forms and requests for interview data. Now it’s much more focussed and important. I like that.  

I’m actually pretty thankful for everything. I like wearing skirts and kilts and shorts and sweats and that’s all possible in virtual. I felt I had to ‘dress up’ for work. Old school. Now I have to have a shirt on. That casualness is more appealing with some. I’ve enjoyed seeing people I know in their home environment and seeing them more relaxed sharing.  It’s safer and less formal and that’s good.

I’m still struggling with getting through to pharmacists and wish there was an email or texting equivalent to the fax machine. I once used online fax but that was too cumbersome. I’m thankful for the clinic staff who are staying on top of everything, making appointments and getting charts ready and making sure the patients are notified and the billing goes through..  I’m amazed at how much I have to do just keeping to schedule with all the incoming emergency phone calls. 

Still, I’m blessed. I’m well. I »m helpful. I’m serving. I’m working. It’s spring in BC.The weather is mostly incredible. Sunny sky with a mid day downpour and now more sun again.  

Thank you Jesus. Thank you Lord. Thank you.