May 29, 2020 Covid 19, Freedom Phase 1

Covid 19 continues to spread. Herd immunity may be less than previously thought. Normally 60 to 70% needed with the exception of small pox which required 90%.  Sweden already saying they may see herd immunity at a lesser percentage and may meet 50% by summer.  The westcoast of America and Canada is already at 20 to 30% contact with young people having 1/10 the risk and old people over 65 with existing medical illness still facing 10 times risk of illness. Death is rare from Covid 19 alone.
In the US because Covid 19 deaths are paid so well and do not require definitive dx, ‘natural deaths’ stopped in February  A very funny meme shows the NCIS team noting multiple gunshots and knife wounds but concluding death by Covid 19.
Belgium and the European Union centre continues to be the greatest failure bureaurcratically in the west.  Taiwan remains the best performer.
The WHO was bought by communist China and Trudeau in Canada is working for the Communist Chinese Military promoting abortion and injecting Canadians with abortus products. Really, Truth is stranger than fiction.

I’m moseying along.  I really was afraid when this began.  Now I’m no longer afraid of the disease. The doctors and nurses in BC have been incredible. UBC is an outstanding medical university.  I used to work at VGH and truly loved the hospital and staff.  Royal Columbia is a great place as well.  So if I get sick and I need to go to hospital I really believe I’ll get the care I need here to save me. Or it will be my time.
I’ve lived a long and beautiful adventurous life beyond my wildest dreams. When I was a country GP and old people came to the hospital to die, we called ‘peumonia, the old man’s friends’.  I had very peculiar flu in the spring that had me taking time off work, fever, horrible cough and the feeling I couldn’t breathe for the first time in my life. It appeared I may have had Covid then.It’s been in North American since Jan. I may have antibodies to Covid already like so many people. No need for a vaccine if you already have had the disease.  That's the science. But politics, economics and greed may change reality. When people had cowpox they didn't get small pox.  That's all in the history of immunology but today the 'winner', the 'wealthiest' writes history.  Wikipedia is so often propaganda.  

I’m looking forward to the antibody testing that’s begun in BC.

Dr. Bonnie Henry has done brilliant community medicine and public health work. I did a dual speciality in Psychiatry and Community Medicine, completing 2 years of Community Medicine and Public Health but chose not to continue and do two residency exams, opting for only Psychiatry.  I later had the honor to work with the CDC.  The CDC has a major outreach in the Northern Marianas Islands. It’s associated with the American Military there because Asian diseases first are seen in Guam and Saipan. So when I worked with the hospital the CDC had us do various emergency scenarios. First and only time I’ve worn a hazmat suit.  Not pleasant. I cringe when I see doctors geared up these days. I’ve always wanted to be a space man but I don’t like the suits. Something light and sexy please?  

I’ve had several patients become suicidal in lockdown. A couple have become psychotic.  Major panic attacks.  Lots of worsening depression.  One case of violence.  Several family break ups.  Major relapses to alcohol and drugs. Initially the drug consumption went down because the dealers couldn’t get at their prey but they rapidly adjusted.  The ones already into delivery expanded. When the churches and schools closed and liquor stores and pot stores stayed open the writing was on the wall. Government gets a cut of the booze and pot sales but not so much from God. This government has indeed been satan’s child.  Trudeau is definitely C.S. :Lewis’s Wormwood.
I believe I'd done a lot for keeping some patients out of hospital and truly believe my virtual work has been very beneficial. I've continued medications, started and stopped medications, and made medication adjustments. Because polypharmacology is merely 'thinking' it's been easy in virtual. Also assessments have been easy. The hardest has been therapy with people I've never seen.  I have however found psychotherapy with patients I've known has been just fine.  I expect I'll have a mixed practice in the future or if I do just do virtual will limit my practice to those areas which are most amenable. There's an edge in virtual and I'm not as sure of the understanding. It's even worse where the other person is culturally different or has ESL.  People don't realize that humour simply doesn't translated culturally and loving, caring emotions are subtler.  I don't feel my warmth comes through and fear I could come across cold as people do on television.  So easy to be 'flat'.  Yet psychiatry is all about dimension.

Islam is the religion of peace when all the world is Islam.  Communism succeeds when all the world is communist.  Todays’ UN promotes Sharia Communism and like the alliance between Communism and Fascism and the Japanese Emperor and National socialism (Nazi) of Germany, the same confusion goes on to day with politics making strange bedfellows.  

Just like Justin Trudeau bought the CBC News , so Xi Jinping bought the WHO.  

Freud did say ‘maybe the paranoids are right’ when the Nazi’s came for him.  The UN continues to call for the annihilation of Israel and the death of Jews. Trudeau continues to attack Christians and countless young Christian women continue to defend him because he has pretty hair.  I am reading a thriller where the new Caliphate takes over England with all the sleeper terrorists creating chaos so the British can’t respond to the invasion.  The genocide of Tibet is never discussed today.  Neither is Culloden, nor the Magna Carta. History forgetten is doomed to repeat itself. I feel like I’m living in 1939. It really is 1984.  Trudeau a 17th century fop declared it was the 20th century sometime in ancient history before he said the balance would balance itself and people realized that he’d never learned to count.  He was busy as a teacher fondling teen girls.

I like wearing skirts. It’s Scottish or gynocentric.  I may switch to shorts.  Pants constrict. Women are all transvestites.  Men still dress for war. I wandered into the sarong as a sailor and in the tropics lived in shorts or a short wrap. I should have been a pirate. Now that summer is here I’m outside waiting for Laura to come over for the weekend and rescue Gilbert and I from the boredom of being male.  I really do seriously think of having a sex change because I'm weary of male existence.  I've been cuckolded and castratred and rape and everyone has a monopoly on suffering. I loved the book, black like me and now am enjoying reading the journey's of transexuals.  I'm glad the 72 genders disappeared overnight but while I was all male into my 40's, I've slowly got tired of being pilloried for doing characteristically male things, like sailing, hunting, fishing, caring for others.

It’s hard waiting for economic collapse, more taxes, trust fund baby palace shots and rumors of war.  The Chinese Communist Party just shot down a Vietnamese fishing boat and mock attacked others in the Chinese sea.  Imperialist China.  

I was explaining Erickson’s developmental theory to a patient this week, pointing out that young adults go through a naturally occurring ‘identity’ crisis in the 20ths century and beyond. In the past there wasn’t the freedom we once had here.  Jesus was a carpenter like his father.  But at 20 I could be anything. I was straight A’s in university Arts and Science despite being expelled from high school.  I started out in theatre and dance and ended up in surgery, then medicine then psychiatry.  It’s been a weird journey.  Three totally beautiful wife all with one thing in common, insaniety, evidenced by marriage to me.  Today I have a girlfriend of 20 years despite having had male and female friends and giving up alcohol and pot 22 years ago when my wife’s cocaine addiction turned life into a nightmare. Trump reminds me of an old used car salesman of my grandfather's era and I believe today my grandfather's would be hated as much as he was. Mr. Harper reminded me of my father and he was hated too. I've actually been as flaky and ridiculous as Trudeau when I was drunk and stoned and all the girls loved me then. Today I see the hatred of Trump as principally anti male and anti american.  I'm obviously not a full fledged heterosexual but I've watched the government chastise those I've known who were the greatest doctors and family men. I've watched Christians be crucified. I'll never forget a friend saying, 'when rape is inevitable you might as well lie back an enjoy it'.  Obviously men can't fight anymore and women won't take care generally of more than themselves and their children, men historically the protector of family and community.  But that's gone. The new immigrants and other cultures do put their colour and themselves first. I've not done that with Irish and Scottish heritage folk or with 'white' people. I've helped everyone equally and seem to lack this intrinsically beneficial tribal gene. It was noted in my residency by my teachers that I treated everyone the 'same'.  I know that's really upset the rich and I've been punished by my governmnent for not preferentially treating the wealthy and powerful 'better'.  I've been told repeatedly by powerful colleagues that I'm 'wasting' my time with 'losers'. I've wasted my life by those examples but others seem to think I'm okay and I really believe in the eyes of God I'm passing. It's not even pass fail.  But I'm passing.
  

My grandfather , a rancher and a farmer, didn’t care if someone drank in the winter but he considiered everyone who drank in spring, summer and fall an alcoholic. An alcoholic (and by extension an addict) was anyone who did alcohol when there was work to be done. Like my Vietnam vets who didn’t like people using in fox holes. They were either too stoned to hear the enemy or too panicky they shot and gave away their position. It was okay to be stoned on off base R&R time.  

All the hit men and enforcers and prostitutes I treated said they had to do drugs to do their job.  I was thoroughly impressed that Mr. Harper and Mr. Turner weren’t impaired. I did a study of dope smokers and they all thought they functioned well enough but didn’t want their pilot or neurosurgeon smoking pot. It didn’t matter that pilots and neurosurgeons don’t like their hairdressers or Prime Ministers stoned. Kennedy was on pain medication with his only peculiar physician.  Hitler was on Speed and Heroin.  President Trump was on Hydroxychloroquine. Obama admitted to doing cocaine and wasn’t in office.  

When I meet St. Peter I’m going to watch a whole lot of reruns of world tv in heaven with people much smarter and in the know than me telling me who was paid by who. They’re going to have politicians and scientists colour coded with which corporation was paying them how much.  Canada’s elections were heavily influenced by foreign money.  

It was once good enough for a politician to be paid by the salary.  Obama though entered with 1 million dollars and left with 100 million dollars.  Today politicians see their salary as the wage the waitress gets. The real money is in the tips. It’s all institutionalized baksheesh.  

I’m paying the rent.  I’ve clean clothes en femme and au homme. I would live a whole lot cheaper if I was in the south where all I needed was shorts or a rwarp. I miss my sailboat and tropical winds. I’ve got all the electronics I need.  My dog has a heart condition but meds are keeping him going. My back always hurts but a whole lot worse since I stopped NSAIDS. I was so thankful for the adjustment I got last week. I think I experience tension in my back.  We have places where we somatize.  For some it’s headaches. Some it’s necks. Some it’s bellies. Mine is my back. I carried so many people and so many people’s shit when I was young and naive.  Now I don’t do any lifting. I’m trying not to crash any more vehicles which I really can’t blame on anyone else much but myself. If I’d walked and avoided the first bicycle I’d probably have no back pain.  But I love speed. Looking forward to riding the harley around on errands later today.

Life is good really.  It’s all about seeing the glass half full. I pray and meditate and try to exercise. The greater my faith the better life is. I’m also good if I live in the day. I don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow. I don’t know what’s happening in a week or months. The weather man is no better than my own predictions.  Al Gore sure knew that the Arctic Ice Cap would be gone and he’s a multi millionarie today. Maybe I should say that the Toronto Maple Leaf’s will win the next NHL and I’ll become a millionaire. I don’t know what the formula is.  

I’m continueing to try to do what is right, help people and work with my community.  I’ve always been a good citizen even if I did party hearty when I left the front and had vacations. i wasn’t impaired at work and certainly was more present than so many in my day.  I have been shamed and humiliated. I was punished the most for doing the right things. I have been beat up falsely accused lied to and true sociopaths in the governmnent and in my leadership have literally got away with murder.  I have also seen that the most of the people I’ve known have been pretty amazing. So why do I have this kink in my neck that holds onto the resentments. I’d rather be pollyanna and have cherry glasses. I want to know joy. I want to see the past as lessons and I know that God was always there with me.  I have to trust God more  I have to love more. I have to dance more and maybe then my back would feel better.I’ve got to relax. I”m really looking forward to camping and swimming and fishing.

I love the sun today.

Thank you Jesus.  Hallelujah!