Monday, February 10, 2014

Weekend Wandering

I’ve ‘used’ long weekends more ‘usefully’:taking trips, doing projects, you know, important stuff.
These last weekends, though,I’ve been kind of hibernating, Not actually doing much, but enjoying that.   Errands. A little tidying.  In town meandering.  A little shopping.  I got out to Langley to pick up some stuff I'd left over at the RV store, talked to the guys in parts about a ladder installation. Talked to some guys at Rack Attack about a trailer hitch.
I got to Church.  I atttended meetings.  I visitted a friend.
I’ve walked the dog, taken out the garbage, cooked meals for myself, gone for swims. I’ve been enjoying reading books.  A little reading, then a little napping.
I’ve watching too much tv.  A movie every night and usually some NCIS or the new Helix or Intelligence. I even caught a new Homeland and a new Walking Dead episode.
I've been reading a lot of Facebook too, following the fascinating links of friends.
If I was watching Sochi I could sound ‘in tune with the world’ but .....well.....I don’t tend to be that interested in ‘sports’ ,unless I’m actually playing them at the moment. Right now if they had a couch event in the Olympics, I’d  tune right in.
It kind of ruins my idea of myself as a ‘unique’ individual.  I’m mostly mundane.  My dog gives me street cred but overall I’m fairly ordinary.    I work all week, long hours, as is  typical of Vancouverites in the private sector.  We support the arrogant entitled white collar  civil service and their blue collar cronies, those on the take somehow, and city of corruption and drug criminals.  There's probably more under the table industry than above the table industry here in the wild west.  
I complain about paying exorbitant  taxes to people who consider working citizens the enemy and instead represent every wing bat special interest group with endless funds for all manner of shameful public tit sucking.  For every doctor there's a few dozen 'regulators' and 'monitors' and 'activists' and 'media personnel' and 'lawyers'. The same goes with anyone actually 'working'.  All these other groups weigh them down.  All my professional friends are overwhelmed by the demands of perfectionism from the most incompetent and corrupt in society.
Then I want a government job or corporate income with indexed pension and company car or gang affiliation and a block.
But really, I’m pretty satisfied.   When I have check my attitude  and get into a state of gratitude, I'm living in grace. This is heaven on earth, especially with a companion like Gilbert who gets me of the couch.
It’s warm and cozy in my home. The water is clean. I have working sewage and the garbage is taken  away from the nearby bins where I drop it.   My refrigerator is full and I have cans in the cupboards. There are stores nearby.
If the zombies came today I could get a good start on them.  I think one of the attractions of the zombies is that older people like me, with sore feet, and painful knees,  can envision keeping ahead of them. When we were younger we liked those fast alien monster  flicks, but now older and slower, we like the slower zombies. .  
I’ve been hankering for motorcycling.  That’s next month.   I could go hunting the month after that. The tulip festival is coming.  I could go fishing even now but I’m lazy.  Best fishing is wet and cold. It's wet and cold. But I like being inside right now.  
For a type A driven sort of person with myself as my major competitor, I’m not at all Sochi material today.
I swam and soaked in the hot tub then walked the dog for an hour.  Now I’ve been reading and napping a bit.  Seems like they go hand in hand on the couch.
I drove out to Langley Saturday on an errand.  Missed seeing Andria.  She and her husband claim to live there but I miss them every time I drop by.  Had a coffee and cookie on the street with Gilbert.
Sunday after church at St. James Anglican I visited George. He’s my jazz musician, poet friend who was on call and certainly earning his keep with multiple calls from the hospital while I was with him.  He just moved and needed assurance that there would be order from the chaos. Having just moved from the boat to the RV I was well equipped to reassure him that, yes, there is life after the disorder of a move. I'm actually no longer stumbling around boxes and my clothes are no longer in green garbage bags.  There's hope.
He’s got a spectacular view of English Bay.  I actually opened my blinds today just to get a feel for this ‘view thing’. I’ve green all around me and it’s lovely. Usually I like privacy,  thinking the neighbours are like the old lady in My Favourite Martian. They aren’t. I just think that.   I loved George’s balcony.  He's got eagles nesting nearby.
Swapping tales, it’s hard to believe I was the professional dancer in my early twenties while he was playing rock and roll bands.  We seem like a couple of respectable older gentlemen these days.  He’s got children and grandchildren he adores.  It's easy to forget.   It was good hanging put with him.  He’s got a great electric keyboard with all manner of sounds including sitar and helicopters.  Reminded me of teen age days with music and conversation.
After, I visited my boat. The power had been unplugged so I fixed that.  Bailed the little boat too. Walked Gilbert along the dog only park on the north shore.
Today I walked Gilbert in the rain along the Brunnette River.  Even the ducks looked especially wet.  He’s a wet dog now.  He did his job though.  Got me off the couch.  As a dog, he takes pride in his work.
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The Great Raid - the movie

The Great Raid, the movie, is based on the book, The Great Raid on Cabanatuan by William B. Breuer.  Made in 2005 and directed by John Dahl it is a true to life depiction of the most successful rescue in American military history.
552 POW’s were still imprisoned in Luzon having survived the Bataam Death March after being captured when MacCarthur retreated, on orders.  The allies would focus on Europe first before turning back on the Japanese. The years between were a horror for the POW's and the people of the Japanese occupied territories.  The brutality and sickening perversity of the Japanese is legendary.  133 US Rangers and 250 Filipino guerrillas attacked 220 Japanese guards with 1000 Japanese troops nearby.  Only 2 Rangers were killed. 2 prisoners and 21 Fillipinos wounded. Nearly a thousand Japanese were killed in addition to four tanks destroyed.
The movie depicts the resilience  of the prisoners in the camp, the inhuman callousness of the sociopathic Japanese, the extraordinary bravery of the Fillipino guerrillas and the exceptional soldiery and leadership of the Rangers. In addition,  the men and women of nearby communities and Manilla, who risked and sacrificed their lives to bring intelligence and aid to the Americans was shown.  The priests,doctors and nurses were especially penalized by the Japanese.  The movie is true to history.  The action is exciting but not so distracting as the normal hollywood action thriller with modernized dialogue and innuendo.  The historians touch is evident throughout.  This required the most sensitivity and skill by director and actors.
Benjamin Bratt plays Lt Colonel Mucci , while James Franco plays Captain Prince. Joseph Fiennes plays Major Gibson.  Robert Mammone plays Captain Fisher and Max Martini 1st Sgt Sid Wojo.  Connie Nielsen plays Margaret Utinsky and Natalie Mendoza plays Mina.  There are so many stars.
The cast is large.  All the acting was first rate and moving.  The movie also had footage from the actual events.  It’s a military re enactment, really, but with an artists mind for action, romance and drama.
I’ve watched it twice now.  Each time has been a truly richer experience. First, it was a war story with lots of action and play.  This second time the characters stood out most: the people of the Phillipines, the episodes in Manilla, the guerrillas themselves, the fillipina nurses, the executions of the locals.  First time round Lt Colonel Mucci left the most impression whereas this time round it was Margaret Utinsky.  An amazing historical film with real depth.
It was truly inspiring, the story and the movie.

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Insite's "Safer" Injection Site Promotes Hoffman Heroin Death

Heroin use is on the rise.  This is true especially among the young.
There is a new ‘attitude’ to heroin which is fast replacing the one that came from long experience.  Needles brought the western world widespread AIDS.  The most “unnatural” drug is the injectable drug where there is no ’safety’ known.  Injection is used in hospital, like surgery, with a cost benefit analysis, where the pros of lifesaving offset the negatives of injection.  The ‘pros’ of causing brain ’toxicity’ for pleasure simply don’t justify injection especially at the cost to society.
Promotion of heroin use that has come with the ‘branding’ and ‘marketing’ of ’safer’ injection sites.  There’s a whole new ‘culture’ of ‘drug use’ which aims to make it as safe as ’snowboarding’.  Yet, somehow, those not on drugs, see the difference between ’safer snowboarding’ and ’safer heroin use’.  Drugs impair judgement and impaired judgement sees that Insite is a ’success’ because their small coterie of regulars who ‘mostly’ use Insite aren’t being included in the stats of those who are killed by the idea of 'safer' drugs.  These kids weren't raised on the Peacemissile promotions.  I"m sure the marketing agents todays lethal drug promotion got their spurs selling 'safer' weapons.
An addict I know immediately said, “What can a doctor or nurse do safer than me? I inject better than they do." and  “I’d rather have my friends watching my back if I overdose, than a some guy in a white coat.”.
Addicts will go to Heroin Central (Insite) to score.  New time users the world over know that's where to find Heroin in Vancouver. Fo have a change from the back alley, an addict, might go to Insite .  The dealers are protected from the police in that area.  Kids hear “safer” and think ‘yea, now I can inject drugs……they’re safer."
Cory Monteith is dead. Did Insite accept any accountability?  Now Hoffman is dead.   I haven't heard Insite doing their normal horse and buggy dance. What about all the nobody’s.
Why isn’t Insite reporting the only valid research, which is how many people who have injected in Insite have died since it’s opening onslaught. How many hundreds or thousands or tens of thousands of years of life has their advertisement of safer heroin harmed?
The lie of their research is that they claim no one died on their premises. No one has died in my office in 30 years.  That’s not research.  That’s cover up.
Does the recovery community want this multimillion dollar palace to drug abuse to take money from real treatment.  Let the Heroin industry pay for it’s own drug pubs.
How many people have been killed by the idea of  Insite. How many more ‘famous’ people will have to die before Insite has OVERSIGHT. Their license is up for renewal.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

What is truth?

Truth has taken a very rough beating from the dope addicts and deconstructionists.  It's popular among a certain group of "flatkes"  to say. "My truth."
"Your"  truth and "my" truth refers to 'perception'. Changing the language doesn't make something other than what it is.  Unfortunately some people don't get out much.  Their approach to language in the safety of academia is clearly idiosyncratic at times.
Truth, traditionally, historically, and still for 99% of the world represents the 'agreed' 'perception' about a 'thing' or situation.  Just because you and your friends like to say "my' truth and 'your' truth, doesn't make it true.
In 'reality', see - outside the classroom and academia and the coffee shop, truth is an 'objective reality' not a 'subjective reality'.  My truth refers to 'subjective' reality.  Narcissists like the idea of 'my truth'.
When Queen Victoria said 'we are not amused', as Queen she spoke for the nation. Every petty tyrant and narcissist wants to be Queen.  Queen Victoria got that privilege by tradition and war.
What is subjective - is what 'you' or 'I' or even 'they' believe but what is 'objective' is what 'we' agree.
Increasingly with the 'culture of individualism' and the notion that 'perception is truth' every one narcissistically believes they are the centre of the universe but can't actually offer any evidence beyond their personal belief that they are indeed that 'special'.
Everyone is special, sunshine.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Literary Evening with Pandora's Box Collective, Renee Sarojini Saklikar and Dennis E. Bolen

Cafe Bistro, on Main Street at 29th was a perfect venue for the poetry readings of Renee Sarojini Saklikar and Dennis E. Bolen.  Always glad to hear Dennis read, loving my copy of his poetry book, Black Liquor, it was my first time hearing Renee Sarojini Saklikar . I entered as she was already standing, reading from CanadaProject, her life long poetic chronicle.  Her ‘children of air india’ Oolichan press, was haunting.
Dennis followed with beat poetry, working man verse, to audio stylings, firmly planted in the fabric of BC.  Both poets writings were so local, words, phrases, places, all northwest coast particular, but with themes universal.
Renee from India to Canada, Dennis from Vancouver Island, the two read each others works, before answering questions from the audience
All the while I ate Halibut and Fries, then pecan pie and ice cream, a regular philistine, savouring the Cafe Bistro dilectables while thoroughly enjoying the performance of these two captivating entertainers.  Dennis actually sang a refrain in the middle of a hard hitting poem.   I love the cadence and inflexion of Renee.
Between acts I talked with my CAA friend Lilija, another poet, whose enthusiasm for the Vancouver ‘poetry scene’ inspires.  I was glad I left my comfort zone of home and office.  Though, I'd bundled my hairy little dog in a sweater with a blanket I couldn't leave him longer in the car, this cold winter night.  I was sorry to leave early but glad to find my little friend unperturbed by weather but glad to be reunited with his human. Thanks Dennis and Renee.

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Gratitude Februrary 2014

Thank you for the day and the night. Thank you for the similarities and differences. Thank you for the soft and the hard. Thank you for the longing and the indifference. Thank you for the colours. Thank you for the emptiness and the fulfillment. Thank you for the misery and the love. Thank you for the bland and the exciting. Thank you for the vanilla and the chocolate. Thank you for the sun and the moon. Thank you for the past and the future. Thank you for the present. Thank you for all the possibilities and the potential. Thank you for the limitations and the strengths. Thank you for the meaning and the meaninglessness. Thank you for the me and the you. Thank you for the music and the silence. Thank you for the intelligent and stupid. Thank you for the leader and the follower. Thank you for all the wonders of knowing and unknowing. Thank you.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

F.A.T.

F.A.T. - Food Addiction Treatment
Obesity is at epidemic proportions in North America.  Obesity is certainly not good for morbidity or mortality. The fat we see on the outside is also surrounding and clogging all our internal organs. The heart is constricted with fat. The weight of the body is destroying joints.  The weight of the chest is obstructing breathing.
All manner of illness is more prominent among fat people.  Obesity is roughly 50 lbs over what one’s projected normal weight to height should be.  In the past this was done with routine height and weight charts. I still prefer this to fancier (Body Mass Index) but more complicated methods of assessing how fat one is.
The worst indicated is the pear shape at the middle. This is associated most with development of disease.  Diabetes, hypertension, just another couple of examples.  Success is reducing waist size.  Being tall I hide that I really 'should' be 4 to 6 inches less at the middle.  I love to kid myself, that it's posture. I can 'suck it' in the belt is supposed to be 'straight' not curved at the front.
Obviously it’s a black box equation.  Too much food in and not enough exercise out.  There are those who say they have ‘slow metabolism’. Maybe, rarely. There are countless excuses.  The fact remains, obesity is unhealthy. Fat is unhealthy.
See your family physician and get a complete physical to make sure you're not fat because you're suffering from some disease like hypothyroidism.
I recommend Overeaters Anonymous. There are a variety of self help 12 step programs. They are all beneficial.  Mostly they focus one on being ‘honest’ and ‘accountable’.  They recognize that food addiction, overeating, is done for emotional reasons, to stuff emotions, such as fear or resentment.  Expectations are pre formed resentments. Fat people are commonly passive aggressive, angry on the inside, smiling on the outside, people pleasers.
The most common mental illness associated with fat is depression.  Unfortunately a lot of antidepressants cause increased weight.  Wellbutrin and Cymbalta are neutral medications that are least likely to cause weight gain. If you do gain weight with an antidepressant this can be counteracted by the addition of dexedrine to treat the 'side effect' of therapy. Other psychiatrists would add synthroid to counteract the weight gain effect of those antidepressants that cause weight gain in susceptible populations.
Often fat people are bipolar too.  They've not uncommonly had a lot of trauma.  More often than not a lot of it's been sexual.  Since sex is an athletic activity fat people aren't very good at it.  They don't like being on top and might crush their partner if they were.  They can be loving but are often hurt and hurtful lovers.
There are very important ways to reevaluate one’s life and ambition and look for more positive ways to achieve realistic goals without becoming the Michelin Man in the process and having an early death.
I recommend Fat is a Family Affair by Judy Hollis.  Excellent book. Good ideas and tools.  There are other good books out there.  Therapeutic reading is helpful
Fasting at least a day a week or by missing meals with good education and therapeutic plan is a great diet approach.  If one is on medication discuss it with a doctor knowledgeable of fasting. The principle problem is that people don't drink enough fluids when fasting. It's amazing how much fluid one gets in food so this has to be compensated for by literally forcing down a couple more glasses of liquid than one feels they wants.
There are a variety of diets. None of them is good enough alone. They must be coupled with a whole change of life and lifestyle.  People usually diet like drunks change from drinking vodka to beer without really addressing the problem.  Fat and obesity are life long problems.  The failure of diets is that one doesn’t follow them or returns to previous behaviour the first stress one encounters.
I recommend 500 calorie diets. In my obesity clinic, everyone lost 50 lbs or more in a matter of months to a year.  However, though I recommended 500 calories everyone cheated . When I had a sweet little silly headed nutritionist come in and recommend 2500 calorie diet all my big boys and girls took that to mean 5000 calories. People lie and cheat with diets.  Best recommend 500 and be done with it.  Aim for perfection and be thankful you hit the target even if you’re way off the bull’s eye.
To understand the principles of what is 'good nutrition' understand the Mediterranean Diet and the Zone Diet. All the rest is gooblygook and confusing.  There are no obese people over 100 and the diets of longevity are in the long run the best diet. If you are rich you can be a vegetarian. Rich vegetarians live long but poor vegetarians die young.  Being rich is more associated with longevity than diet. But fat rich people die the same horrible deaths that fat poor people do.
I knock 'fad' diets but there are good people out there like the Jenny Craig folk and others. Check them out and do something.
Obviously seeing a psychiatrist is a good idea.  I’m a psychiatrist and a whole lot of my obese patients had underlying ‘issues’ which had to be  addressed for the various other tactics and strategies to work.  I don't think seeing a slim counsellor is that helpful unless the slim counsellor used to have a problem with fat and now is and remains slim. Ask to see their fat pictures.  Given counsellors have the least education it's best if they have the most experience. I've got the most education and it helps that I have a little of my own experience.  I've seen too many people talking about things which never came hard for them and what they're saying only works for others like them. It doesn't work for the obese.  Obese people are resistant to learning. They're not stupid. They 'know' what's good for them. They just have difficulty 'doing' what's good.
Exercise and coaches and physiotherapists are all very helpful.  Aquafit exercise program is the best program for the really obese.  Obviously jogging is great exercise but if you're five hundred pounds and start jogging you're going to cripple yourself.  Start slow , go slow and don't hurt yourself with whatever exercises you under take.  I like martial arts. Tai Chi is great. Yoga is good for flexibility but not that good for losing weight.  Group therapy, some kind of group exercise program, is the least expensive but also the most effective long term.
An american military study showed that once a certain level of exercise was achieved, a few hours  on the military obstacle course for instance, then force feeding wasn’t associated with weight gain. This study showed that diet came second to exercise.  Most people are too fat to exercise or like exercise hence the benefit of personal coaches and beginning in the safety of ones home only to progress to the group experience.
When you lose weight, 10 lbs or 20 lbs, a size or two, then buy new clothes and burn the old ones, or at least give them to the Sally Ann.
Now having done all this there are medications which help.
First and foremost consider what medications you are taking that might be adding to the problem. High dose antipsychotics, like seroquel, often used for sleep  or anxiety often increase appetite and put on weight.  Discuss medications with the doctor and make sure if possible you’re not on anything that will be complicating matters if possible. Don’t stop medications just because they can cause weight gain by affecting appetite.  The worst medication for obesity is so called 'medical marijuana'.
Don’t drink or smoke dope.  Face it, alcohol is empty calories, leads to poor judgement and marijuana, especially ‘medical marijuania’ causes the munchies.  We used it with AIDS patients to improve their appetite and increase their weight,  for that reason.
Xenical is an interesting and relatively safe medication. It works by reducing the absorption of fats. Several of my patients swear by it. The only side effect they noticed was a little bit of loose stool and they had to be more careful about farting in public, not because of leakage but the smell was noticeable or something like that, as I remember. Didn’t stop them from using it.  There’s a whole list of side effects but compared to obesity they’re all minor.
Dexedrine and other appetite suppressants are what the models and such use. These are essentially ‘prescription’ speed.  They are excellent for appetite suppression however they are also highly addictive. When I ran an obesity clinic I used them for 6 week bursts , when people on a regular exercise and diet program got ‘stuck’. Weight loss tends to go in steps and sometimes the use of an appetite suppressant helped one over that ‘hump’.  The critical factor here is that the doctor be working closely with you and also be monitoring your weight. No sense taking these if there’s not significant weight lost. The cost of addiction then outweighs any benefit. Further the risk is that people will continue them and want increased amounts. That’s a danger sign. Further they shouldn’t be continued if they cause sleep problems.  However if a person is already on sleep aids they can be tried because they won’t necessarily be making a sleep disorder worse if taken early in the day.
I don't think it's a coincidence that a whole lot of people who got fat suddenly got 'adult attention deficit disorder and got their hands on medical speed for appetite suppression.  The tragedy of this approach is that it means the doctor isn't working with you on the obesity problem and merrily going along with the idea that you can't concentrate.  Which might be true, given how distracted you are by the munches.
Revia is a novel medication with great promise. I’ve had success with this and really should use it more. It’s not a cheap medication and I’ve thought about cost prescribing it however when I consider the fortunes that people use on unproven alternative health aids and silly fad diets, Revia is far superior. It was found that it reduced craving in alcoholics and addicts. From that it followed that it might reduce food craving. And that’s what it does. Reduces craving for foods by 50% .  It’s a relatively safe drug with great benefit .It’s really worth a trial with any obese people where the safety is assured.  It’s benefit is seen in a 3 month trial for instance and the potential of negative side effects aren’t as bad as the hazards of obesity in general.  My patients haven't had negative side effects to date.  Everyone knows about 'negative side effects' these days because it's a lawyer thing and it's out there for the ambulance chasers and as a medical disclaimer for the manufacturer. In a lot of cases these long lists are about as useful as coffee cups which say on the side ,be careful ,cup may be hot.
If these don't help really consider boot camp and a 1-4 week treatment spa where one goes for the sake of losing weight and getting healthy.  Alcoholics have embraced Betty Ford so I don't know why the fat church ladies aren't getting on the wagon too. There are many out there and they do work.  So if one remains obese for a year or two, think of the drunk husband who keeps falling off the wagon, then consider the fat farms.
It's easy to treat obesity earlier than later.  That's the case with all diseases.  Nipping them in the bud is what one does before consider nip and tuck.
After one has failed with exercise and diet and programs  one really should consider surgery though. 30 years ago I was assisting a surgeon doing stomach stapling.  It was relatively experimental back then but today it’s fairly routine with the safety of the surgery pretty much overall established compared to the risks of gross obesity.  The first step is to talk to your family physician about surgery and get a consult to a surgeon who does surgery for obesity.  You don't get the surgery that visit. He tells you about and assesses your risks and lets you know if surgery would be for you.  You don't have to decide then.  But now you know. If you're grossly obese and have been for awhile then you're kidding yourself if you haven't talked to a surgeon. It's like a person who complains about having to walk to the bus who has never even talked to a car dealer to see if there might well be a car they can buy.
I’m a little overweight. I wouldn’t mind a little liposuction but I’m not planning on stomach stapling. But if I was a couple of hundred pounds overweight and had failed at a variety of approaches I’d certainly give it a go. Several of my patients have had long term benefits from it and I’ve seen them and been surprised to hear they once were grossly obese. Their lives are going well today only they can’t gorge on food. Regular servings is as much as they can take.
The key is to get a ‘plan’ and go with it. Don’t do it alone. Work with your doctor and better still surround yourself with a ‘team’ of people including family and friends who are on board with your plans and know your goals.  Imagine how stupid the world would be still if we didn’t have schools and take a regimented approach to learning.  Stupidity can be ‘cured’ . Education even treats arrogance because the more you learn the more you realize how much more there is to learn.  Sloth and gluttony are treatable.  You don’t have to be ashamed.  It’s a life long process with no easy quick cure. Plans involve life style changes that occur for years even after making the ideal weights. My patients commonly tell me of ‘relapses’ that occurred after five or ten years of maintaining a healthy weight.  Then they go back to basics and progress through to advanced weight maintenance learning all over again.  Success is normal if you follow the steps.
With an aging population and the improvement in the comfort of the couch and the advent of the tv channel changer we’ve got more to face than the previous generations that had to chop wood for their heat and use a pump to get water.  We’re adapting as a civilization to the digital age.  And yes, just like we know that Goldman Sachs were developmentally challenged as human beings so are the folk that produce those disgusting fast food vending machines for schools.  We collectively dealt with the tobacco companies and the psychopathic CEO and their vampire disgusting children and collectively we’ll have to eventually deal with the folks ‘pushing’ sugar salt fake food substances on us and their degenerate young.  That comes later.
Before we can kick ass we've  got to deal with our own lard asses,  get out and exercise, ask for help, network, plan, strategise, and lose weight and get healthy.
What use are you going to be to the rest of us when the zombie wars start. We’ll be dragging your ass and the zombies will be charging for the greatest mass of flesh which is you.   If you want help then start helping yourself now.

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