April 29,2019 Covid 19 Quarantine

The health care systems are managing.  Businesses are opening up.  Outdoor cafes are poised for summer. We survived. Some died. It is absurd. Albert Camus and the Plague.  The WWI veteran and ‘the bullet must have your name on it.”  There’s more fear but we’re managing. Everyone imprisoned in their own home, their own bubble.  It wasn’t so bad.Good for some.

I’m working in a virtual office. Impressed by the mentally ill.  Marginal.  Yet generally coping. Some actually doing well because they are normally isolated and now share their secrets.  The suicidal have been less than I would have expected.  The psychotics few. The anxious many but the depressed not so bad. Many have had a rest.  The struggles continue. I feel empathy for some alone in families.  Some lovers in lockdown with a person they didn’t know. Some indifferent.  I phone pharmacists.  I phone doctors.  I phone government offices and insurance companies. I couldn’t do this without the phone, cellular, and internet, and computers.  ASUS, the South Korean PC I bought at London Drugs is doing fine. My Apple Workbook is back up and running. With the help of Apple Care I cleared a virus and am thankful that I was able to address the computer virus.

On all levels the Covid 19 is fascinating. More pathology. More diversity.  More variations.  30 to 40 mutations already.  The Spike with it’s affinity to ACE 2.  Lung,heart and blood and now nervous tissue.  No early psychiatric signs.  Most not even aware they had it and got over it.  There is intrigue for sure.  Politics and economics are moving centre stage.

I’m living a simple life. Working 12 hours some days, mostly 8 or more, then very interested in what I’m cooking for the dog and me.Eating and reading and watching some tv. I’m reading a very well written sci fi by MD Cooper.  Space exploration and colonization with security issues. I watched Extraction, the thriller based in Bangladesh and enjoyed it for it’s slick fast paced scenes.  It was an escape. I scroll FB for news and memes and pictures of what my friends are eating.  Then I love my bed but find it this week harder and harder to sleep. I think I am drinking coffee too late. The Ethiopian Yirgachafe I’ve roasted is delicious.

I walk the dog. I’m most happy walking the dog though Gilbert, blind and old, sometimes makes it more a sniff than a walk.

I pray each day. I meditate and do some exercises. I hope to get to the post office today.  

Praise and thanks.  Thank you Jesus. Hallelejuah. A new day.  May I be well and do well and remember you throughout the day.  It is your creation and I’m an adventurer in your life, God. Thank you. 

April 28, 2020 Covid 19 Quarantine

I reviewed the genetic information and was still not convinced that it wasn’t engineered. Truly it could be a natural virus but again, the lady protestest too much. It’s the same kind of ‘science’ that we were bludgeoned with by the UN IPCC.  Another agenda more alligned with money and power than with truth seemed to fuel the denial.  On FB the geneticists whose work I uploaded has been removed.  The explanation was simply ‘our fact checker disagrees’.

It’s frustrating. I’m a curious person and yet when there is such a massive expensive cover up which persists I am frightened.  The question raised today was ‘why was Beijing immune?”

How dare you question!

I’m reminded of my times as a child at home and at school where I corrected parents and teachers and was severely punished.  It’s not a matter of what is right as to who is saying it. Do not question the king!  Bill Gates and Justin Trudeau are Gods. Heil Comrade Xin Jinping.  The Balkanization of the world trade and corporations with politics making strange bedfellows.  The media graphs are even grossly biased.  The Goebbels propaganda techniques by CBC say 1984.

Now the virus is mutating. 30 strains.  The nervous system is being attacked.  First lungs then heart and blood and now nervous system. Children sick with new mysterious diseases.  We told them not to tamper with nature.  We will survive of course. Most of us. I once tried to eliminate rats in a chicken coup and became impressed with reproductive resilience and the adaptation of survival.

I’m happy here. Locked in my room. I’m seeing patients in a virtual reality. I’m walking the dog. I’m again testing the limits of no skin to skin contact with another human 30 plus days.  I’m assailed by erotic thoughts of all kinds and don’t believe it’s Satan talking.  The image of God and Adam from the Sistine chapel comes to mind.

Already I notice people normalizing the experience. Lovers in the time of cholera.  The reopening of normalcy is beginning.  The social distancing and masks remain but the false belief I’ve survived this long without sickness, perhaps I’m immune. Perhaps I’m immortal.  Even in WWI the soldiers talked about the sense of ‘normalcy’ in the midst of hell.

I loved the “We’re Living in a Ghost Town ‘. song by Rolling Stones.

I miss naked bodies entwined, soft summer nights.  I miss my youth.  Yet I am safe here.  The obituary will read, he was a quiet person and he lived a safe life till the end. I know so many women living lives of quiet desperation ‘safe’ in their luxurious apartments, alone.  The men are more rangy. A bit like alley cats. The families are faring well. When I was married I needed no one but my lover and wanting nothing but children to expand this contentment. I was upwardly mobile , a bright light, outshining my cohort, but never quite right with my partners who struggled for dominance and we eventually parted because I preferred my own company. We all create myths to survive.Sometimes it was their families and friends. Once we were just going in two different ways. What we want could not be found in the same town. Perhaps my continued suspiciousNess of government stems from then.  The burocratic nonsense that separated love and made it near impossible for us to remain and work in the same city.  So many people have their jobs separating them. 

I ‘m reading and hearing now of old married couples being separated by institutions. Yesterday I learned of a 75 year old who visited his wife of 60 years not being allowed even to see her.  They talk through alien technology now.  So much tragedy and the Chinese communists are flush with the cash they are making and rub their hands with glee because they simply lack heart. It’s a developmental stage that requires freedom.  Collectively they are barbarians.  Ant hills of greed and fear.

I would be no different.  I’ve been blessed to be raised Christian in a god loving home to be surrounded by people who loved freedom.  I am a dying breed.  I’ve ridden horses and sailed oceans. My grandfather taught me about ranching and my father about machines. My mother and brother taught me to cook. There are apartments now without kitchens and few men know their way around a garage. They don’t even know what they don’t know.

I wonder how much longer I have to live and expect it’s decades. The very question of the future seems to extend it.

It’s all in God’s hands. Rejoice.  Gilbert and I had a great barbecued steak dinner last night. I loved watching his joy in chewing on the bone the rest of the evening. There are cherry tree blossoms and the gay mallards have returned with the wood duck family. Some new birds are making a nest in the tree outside my window. I must find the bird book.  In a prison somewhere a man sits watching a spider trying to remember taxonomy and phylogeny. 

Thank you Jesus for this day. May I be of service and fulfill my duties to the best of my ability.  Thank you. 

April 25, 2020 Saturday Covid 19 Quarantine

I read late and woke early and then slept in.  I love Ethiopian coffee.  It just starts the day right.  The news was as good as could be hoped for.  I loved Jackie’s posting, Joe Cocker’s A little help from my friends. “ The Rollings Stones sure do still have it. Their song, “I’m living in a Ghost Town’ definitely captures this time. I love Rojina’s paintings which are posted. So ,the artists are amazing. Ron Reed’s podcast was a delight. Lydia’s been posting great opera.  I’ve enjoyed it all.  Some mornings or evenings I just listen or watch you tube thankful for the major contribution people are making during this time.

Last night I had another Hay family favourite recipe again, Barbecued Smokies with fresh Cobs buns and Cheese whizz.  Delicious.  I watched April 9 the exceptionally fine movie of the Danish military response to the German invasion at the beginning of WWII.  Very human. A bicycle platoon facing tanks.  I enjoyed it all. Not a shoot em up but a human drama.

I did lots of errands yesterday, bank, and post office. I drove to clinics. I had patients to call. I missed my opthalmology visit.  Now I have to pay and it was a test so it was stupid. Not necessary but I thought it was May and I didn’t realize it was Friday even.  This quarantine has me not knowing dates or days. It’s a precurser of what dementia will feel like. 

I enjoyed texting with Reg and Kevin.  I’ve been reading a whole lot. Completed a western and a biography and read genetics of all things.  I haven’t seen anything I didn’t know in psychiatry but would be most interested in the community anxiety research, how everyone is affected as an organic entity. I enjoyed the research on caregivers using video chat and how this was exhausting. I enjoyed talking with Barb who was experiencing this as well. If I see 8 hours of patients in virtual the wear and tear is more like 10 hours in the office. I see the benefit of virtual of course but hadn’t factored in how draining it would be.  Talking on the phone isn’t but something about the video cam and facetime is stressful.  So Barb and I talked about that and enjoyed a paper some smart person had published discussing this.

I enjoy showers more.  l love sleeping. I like waking up thankful that I can breathe.  Gilbert is a truly enjoyable companion. We have great walks. Today I enjoyed talking with Shane as a fellow had his dog towing him at quite a clip on the skateboard. The dog was in heaven.  “I don’t think Hank would like that.” I said to Shane. Hank is the Shane's most adorable daschund.
I'm so thankful for Dr. Paul Biernacki at North Road Animal Hospital. He's been treating Gilbert's cough which is getting better and he phoned me in follow up, caring.
I loved visiting , just to pick up something the Royal Columbia Medical Clinic staff where the men and women are doing amazing work. 

I was saddened by the VA study which exposed how partisan scientists can be using a retrospective study with many errors to promote a political agenda. I think they should be investigated and banned but after the WHO doesn’t tell the truth, who can one believe. I was thankful for the doctor and the head of VA for their quick analysis of the VA Hydroxychloroquine showing it was comparing sick with healthier people and that the data was manipulated.  In contrast to that shameful science episode this other brilliant ICU doctor showed that pronation improved breathing sufficiently to keep his patients off the respirator , an end stage measure.  

My colleague has been concerned about the make up of some of the controversial modern vaccines. I’m old school and loved the old vacccines but since the politicization of the flu  vaccine and the major profits for limitted success I have wondered too so was interested to see that mice were incorporated. While that’s concerning. It’s like the OJ trial where the police simply didn’t understand DNA (75% of human DNA is in the fruit fly) so they contaminated everything thinking it was like a ‘fingerprint’.
Now the modern vaccine isn’t taking into account the learning from genetics. I can only guess that we lucked out with the conventional vaccines but must now in rethink things anew in  light of new genetic learning about recombinants. A world vaccine at billions of dollars is the next step so it's not surprising people are concerned about the safety even if it doesn't include a microchip and exposive nano device.
It’s actually somewhat less scary to consider Covid 19 t may have been a product of lab work which could be contained than to think that diseases are randomly jumping from animals to humans.  Because of parasites in pigs and lack of refridgeration in hot climates the Jews and others didn’t eat pork.  Now we’re faced with wondering about virus and virus spread animals to humans.  Are we becoming softer than our ancestors. Lots more questions than answers.  

I am thankful. I’ve been praying and thankful that this stop and reset has people generally in my sphere acting more kindly and slowing down to actually smell the roses. We’re getting by and looking forward to more stores opening.

I’m really looking forward to the hair salon. I decided to colour my hair just before the quarantine, the grey having got to me again. I’ve done this every few years and now I’m all roots and wanting to be cared for.  

Laura and I text each other all the time about what we will do when the lock down lifts.  

Thank you Jesus. Thank you God. Thank you saints of all religions.  Thank you,all the remarkable men and women who are doing so well in these trying times.

April 24, 2020, Covid 19, Quarantine

The denominator is critical in the death toll. Morbidity and mortality statistics have always been a per cent age of population.  This putting the deaths and testing together as somehow related is confusing the reporting.  The deaths are important and thankfully there have been fewer than feared thanks to the measures taken.  The testing merely tells us how many tests we have and how much testing is being done. We must then extrapolate that number against the known numbers in other systems.

Iceland and Quarantined cruise ship data cause us to believe that 50% of the population who get Covid 19 will not know it.  Already we knew 70% of cases would be mild because the under 65 group is more immune.  Now we have data out of California suggesting maybe 20% of the west coast population have already come in contact with the virus.  Covid 19 is probably 10 x more deadly than the average flu. 

It will spread through the community until everyone has had it or we have a vaccine which will cause the body to believe it has had a mild form so that it will create protective antibodies.  The lockdown was only to slow the spread of the disease so we could ensure the health care system was not overwhelmed. Without hospital beds and resources the death rate jumps 5 to 10 times greater in risk populations.  Instead of 1 in 10 over 80’s dying , 5 to 7 over 80 die.  Now we’ve had the resources.  Amazing measures have been taken to meet the crisis in the west and we’ve succeeded.  The third world remains at risk because of bad government, war, lack of education and scarcer resources.

Here we are over the crest in the wave. Deaths over time are declining. The long stretched terribly depleted and miserably managed health care resources have been bolstered.  Never again should the government steal the health care resources from the citizens to have party money and use the money taxed for health care be moved to to vanity projects.  

Only because of the extraordinary efforts of the greatest men and women have we been able to get through this initial onslaught. The problem will continue and the second wave of disease in the autumn will need more hospital beds, more ICU beds, more essential personnel, less management, less talkers, less marketeers, more doers, more asylums, more treatment centres, and better safer elderly care.  If not, like the swine flu in the 30’s the death rate will be 10 times what this is now.  If our government which has locally been incredible and nationally incompetent rises to the occasion  we will fare well in the coming year of continued Covid 19 disease, social distancing and facial masks.  Herd immunity will come in 1-2 years. The only guarantee that more such ‘virus spills’ from errant labs and lying countries don’t occur will be holing the culprits accountable.

The scientific and medical emergency is passing and nearly past.  This is an ‘emergency’. It has a beginning and end. It’s occurred in the present. The problem with the politico’s was that they were ‘crying wolf’ for funding all manner of nonsense with increasing hysteria,hyperbole, egotism and emotional bullying. Claiming  a ‘climate emergency’ and demanding a gouging greedy carbon tax as a never ending demand for more and more money for a speculative threat that would cause death in a hundred years time has done its damage to the credibility of scientists. Claiming more and more natural phenomena were a product of their cult non specific formulations was increasing ridiculous..  This disease has come and will continue but the emergency is passing. It will be done in days or weeks. We’ve crested the wave.

Now the issue is increasing health care resources while returning economies to peacetime war preparedness footing. It’s no use to save everyone this week if they are going to die next week from poverty, suicide,other diseases, and even war. Already China is eying the weakness of the western world and offering loan shark loans which if not paid at exorbitant interest then allow these gangsters to take over ports, towns and perhaps countries. Australia and New Zealand and other neighbours of the communist aetheists have stopped allowing them to gain ‘controlling interest’ in anything they buy.  Everyone should do it because China long ago declared ‘unconventional war’ on the Pacific Rim and wants to be the leader and controller of the Pacific Rim.  It doesn’t matter to them that Taiwan, Singapore, Japan, Australia and New Zealand, and even SAN Francisco and Seattle SAN Diego, and Vancouver might have other plans.  Communists have never been accused of sensitivity.

My patients with cancer need to have the oncology and palliative care beds and surgical ICU’s restored so health care for the rest of the community, not just those with Covid 19 can progress.  We need manufacturing and saniety in the community. Quarantine has already caused a man who was prepped to kill to go over the edge and go on a killing spree in Nova Scotia where lock down of the unarmed made them sitting ducks. More of this is to be expected. Already criminals have rampaged through cities stealing from business and like the wild animals that have come into the city these creatures have thought they can take over. Downtown is boarded up because government has stopped tasking tasking police with catching criminals and increasing used them to harrass law abiding citizens over all manner of silly autocratic legalism. It’s simply time to regain the city and for the government to step back despite the lust for power that leaders like Trudeau feel and desire.  Government must be contained.  Government is essential but it’s also potentially cancerous.  

We sacrificed our freedom and we did well.  Now it’s time to prepare to go shopping and camping and get back to work.  May 1 or May 15 are dates for the expansion of the population that can leave their homes as the end of lockdown and quarantine begin. The social contract wasn’t a carte blanche ticket for megalomaniac leaders to run roughshod over provincial and individual rights. I think there’s a lot to be said of the tunnel vision folk who say not till June or July or September or worse until a vaccine is developed. It’s not all about Covid 19. Reality bites.

Communist China’s war factory has not even slowed down.  Iran is threatening allies and moving forward with its goal to destroy America and Israel. Terrorists continue to murder Christians, Jews, Hindus, and Buddhists.I China is putting out new air craft carriers and rocket launchers on schedule. The hawks are waiting for any weakness to exploit.  China used the good will and nativity of the West against. It feigned social development while gaining material wealth for a few stripping the poor of more not less freedom and dignity.

Now it’s time to show our strength as we have faced this crisis and shown our strength of heart. Now it’s time for resolve and also to accept that all levels of our burocracy and government have been infiltrated by foreign elements and communist forces that would see Canada enslaved. No longer the true north strong and free but the branch plant of the Communist Borg.  

In medicine we heal a body and return it to health and function.  We have gone along way to healing the horribly broken health care system in Canada. Too much good of the world has been taken by government for greed,  nefarious deeds and corruption. The hard work of Canadians shouldn’t go to funding scab voters,  terrorists, supporting dictators and building partial residences for nepotistic rulers. We need to focus on home and getting it in order.  

Now I’m going to dress, makemy bed, and walk the dog.  Notice, as an adult I’m taking care of myself and my home, then I’ll branch out and help those around me. For too long we’ve allowed adolescent thinking to prevail, people who can’t even hold a job have been telling everyone how to live their lives. All manner of people who wanted to be leaders and critics without any practical experience or training. Now we may see these Hitler wantabe’s moved to the back shelf while more reasonable and responsible adults have prevail. 

I’d like to thank our Premier Horgan, Health Minister Dix, and Chief Medical Officer Bonnie Henry again for their remarkably competent and enlightened service and at times true genius. I’d like to thank UBC and the great minds in the Department of Medicine. The College of Physicians and Surgeons and other Colleges of professional groups have been amazing too. We are truly blessed in BC for our caring competent leadership. I am truly thankful and hope our local governments continue to protect and raise us up in the coming weeks when the new crisis of politics,  economics and unconventional war move to centre stage.  

Thank you Jesus Christ for being a light in the darkness and showing by your sacrifice and service what humans are truly capable of. Thank you for all the saints of all religions and all the hero’s , those unsung most because in every neighborhood there have been those who have carried the load and volunteered without orders to do what was needed. Thank you for the plumbers, the grocery store staff, electicicians, truckers, internet technicians, bus drivers and of course Doctors,nurses,pharmacists, and researchers. I’m thinking too of the parents homeschooling while working from home, all the young people who have got groceries for the old and left them on their door steps, all those wonderful essential workers who have risked disease and even death and all those who have stayed at home for the sake of community and the vulnerable in our midst.  It’s truly amazing to be old stock Canadian and see the new growth in our ideal of compassion and strength take root.  Hallelujah!

April 22, 2020, Covid 19 Quarantine

Gilbert is such a comfort. It was a wake at 4 am kind of night.  I see and talk to so many people and training, experience, lets me ‘teflon’ the pain.  It passes through me and I like to think I channel love.  We call it ‘lending our ego’.  We still the hysteria. We calm the soul. There’s a name for it. Lending a hand emotionally.

But then at night I awake some times and I’ve not banished the demons. It’s like I awake in another persons dreams. This one was the girl in the crack house and she’s trying to get out, sort of.  There’s no white cape and no great steed.  It’s all about whispering. Come this way little girl. Those aren’t your friends.  Her doctor and family want here in a treatment centre.  She’s one of the vulnerable for Covid 19. Another medical condition plus addiction.  

I’m thinking of work at 4 am and this little ball of love climbs up on the bed and cuddles next to me, licking me.  He senses sadness. Animals are emotional beings. I fall back to sleep and hit the snooze button three times. The second alarm awakes me.

It’s raining outside.  The sun left. No fair. 

She wrote me saying “I feel like I’m in a sci fi movie”.  I text back, “Surreal.”

It’s another day in this alternative reality.  

The Communist Chinese Party and the Iranian Religious Guard are really not popular with their people and the leadership are naturally afraid of losing power.  Iran attacked the Iraqis and shot down a commercial airline and sent their gun boats after allied ships. Now they’re at it again. Threatening shipping and swaggering because they’ve gained the support of the U.N. The UN named them the leader of civil liberties for women. 

I’ve talked to too many women who were constantly raped in Iranian prisons. I’ve seen several with the scars of whippings because of Sharia.  So sad when the Persians were such a sophisticated people and now a backward bunch of thugs alligned with their communist thug allies want women to have no education.  It’s a religious offence for a women to have more than gr 7 education.  The elites are educated but then there’s such a three way power struggle going on in that country with the poor so downtrodden.  The lies that are coming out are disheartening too. 

It really is true, Freedom is just another word, for nothing left to lose.  When the government takes freedom of speech and freedom of expression all the slavery mechanisms have already been in place.  We need to pay attention to history.

I was bone tired last night. Exhausted.  The confusion people are experiencing is worsened by all the mixed messages and misinformation. I loved a clip of a girl repeating all the competing slogans that various ‘authorities’ have been putting out.  There’s truth in the midst of all of this.

I’m looking forward to camping. A few more weeks.  The medical emergency locally is cresting. We’ll be out of the scientific emergency in another week or two.  The controversy is May 1st or May 15. I loved the article that said would New York stay shut down if a town in Missouri had a number of deaths.  

Western Canada has managed the crisis well.  Quebec has been troubled by poor government and Ontario has had population density too. Here we are blessed with good leadership and a responsible population.  We deserve a break.  We are winning in all ways.  

The problem is the economic and political crisis with it’s attendant threat of war.  Dictators and communists don’t take well to overthrow especially given all the people they killed and tortured have relatives who want revenge.  The superiority of democracy is that despite our loathing of a leader or party we aren’t likely to hunt him or her down and kill his family for his errrors of judgement in leadership.  That’s the natural outcome for communists and dictators.  Xin Jinping and the Iranian leaders aren’t going to step down easily. They’d like a war to get more power and distract their people from their endless litany of abuses. 

Even now during the Covid 19 crisis Quarantine , Xin Jinping used the crisis to arrest all the leaders of the Hong Kong revolt.  A million Hong Kong had stood up to the tyranny. Now Tyranny loves an order that says no assembly of more than fifty. Easy way to kill all your enemies with fewest loyal police needed. I don’t envy the political leaders in the west dealing with these wild dogs threatened by the poverty and chaos the disease has done.  Dictators and communists are paranoids and trapped paranoids lash out.

Let’s hope the western leaders can manage the economic and political crisis as well as they’ve handled the medical and scientific crisis.  Canada didn’t do as well as other countries in it’s management as a whole but thanks to the premiers they have faired okay. The fact is all the western and eastern democracies have done surprisingly well faced with an extraordinary threat not seen since the Spanish Flu,  It’s hard but given how well the world leadership has done they continue to have my faith and trust in these troubled times to come.

I really love seeing the Queen and knowing all she’s seen. She is still there standing stalwart and waving.  I think of the Beatles, “Our queen is a very nice queen but she doesn’t have a lot to say.”  Her presence is the best statement of all.

I think it’s hopeful too that researchers are thinking Of asking Keith Richards and other rock and rollers of my generation for samples of their blood. There is a cure for all that ails you and a sure source of immortality.  

God is still with us . Holy Spirit Come. This too will pass. Hallelujah!

April 21,2020, Tuesday, Sars-Cov-2, Covid 19, Quarantine

Thank you God for the blue sky and sunshine. Thank you for this cozy home. Thank you for my friend Gilbert.  Thank you for improving his cough. We both sound like old men in the morning. Thank you for clothing and fashion and style. Thank you for hair stylists and nail salons. Thank you for factories and warehouse and truckers. Thank you for space ships.  Thank you for planets and stars.

I am blessed to know you God. Unseen miracle of grace.  I am the bubble make me the sea. You are the potter I am the clay. Thy will be done not my will. May my will grow in wisdom to be your will.  Guide me. Holy Spirit come.

Help family and friends be safe. Let us all know the glory of this story. Let us all laugh together one day in a green room. Thank you for the movie. Thank you for the adventure.  

This Covid 19 intrigue gets better and better. Why did Cuomo ban Hydroxychloroquine? What is the deep state? Why does Trudeau hate Canadians and the west especially so much.

What can I do today to forgive more, Lord. Help me to love not fear. Help me to know you more dearly, see you more clearly.

May the long time sunshine always surround you and The pure light within you guide your way home?

Communism ,the religion of godlessness and atheism is a gangster thing, a throw back to feudal times. There’s Islam too a religion of a warrior god with a history of constant war and jihad celebrated by all.  These two have linked arms and embraced in the U.N. and WHO.  What of liberty and democracy and the God of Love.  Where is there ‘forgiveness’ in either?
Why does Trudeau hate me. I don’t like him. Is that sufficient explanation? Perhaps. He remains my nightmare, the elite, privileged, stupid, grandiose, ignorant, hedonist, selfish, lying, drug abusing, hypocrite.   

Where is my Christian faith when I look at him, today’s Mussolini type reincarnation to the Xi Jinping Hitler reincarnation in some bizarro Joseph Campbell recurring myth of forces of good and evil. What am I doing other than observing and criticizing. Politics the intellectual sports match.  This side and that side. Quebec versus the rest of Canada. Republican and Democrat dichotomy in the US.  

What would Jesus want of me. I do care for the little one. I do daily acts of good will. I am caring and loving in my personal life. But what of this Kardasian reality TV show the media has twisted and thrown up portraying the Trump father figure as evil, the drunken unforgiving Pelosi as wise and Trudeau the deviant child as somehow ‘cute’.  These people are like the gods and goddesses of the Greek and Roman era. All above my pay grade. All horribly affecting me personally with their moodiness and insanity. Why did Cuomo ban the penicillin of this Covid 19 pandemic.  Hydroxychloroquine is proven to be the miracle drug and the Democrats ban it despite it saving the lives of tens of thousands.  What is this Agatha Christie plot.

Communist China releases a virus from the Wuhan lab by stupidity or intent and then lies and cover ups and with the complicity of the corrupt WHO unleashes this pandemic on the planet. Is this really an ‘unconventional war’ like the communists have always waged?  Their own release, the fentanyl epidemic making the communists of China rich. The crime boss of Communist countries is the Central Communist committee

What am I supposed to figure from this mystery?  The atheists question our faith in the mystery but they accept the ‘saniety’ of these story called politics in which Virtue Signalling Trudeau condemns hunters and women who own guns while the day before selling 14 billion arms to Saudi Arabia after giving the Wuhan Lab which killed Canadians so many millions. The ISIS terrorists find sanctuary here after killing our allies and we as a country thanks to Quebec and the scab voters are now aligned with China.

Does it matter Lord. Should I care?  Even my own family supports Trudeau because he pays more to the east. If I was in the east I suppose I’d support this silliness too. The unions supported the NDP because they paid the Union. Politics always a matter of strange bedfellows.

I talk each day now to people going crazy alone listening to the CBC, People’s Daily propaganda channel and not making any sense of what is being told them because George Carlin was right, we are just owned and we’re taught we are more than peasants. Some of us are a better class of peasant.  But our leaders vacation with helicopters on lavish islands surrounded by guns and easy women who give their children for the sexual pleasures. 

Intrigue and more intrigue. 

It’s a mess.

Now you Lord are pure and light. I look to you and there is only one way. You are one. The one becomes many.  All the bits of the universe come back to The young Big Bang creator, hallelujah, joy and wonder and all.  Never let me forget you. Help me always see you as my lighthouse, my lodestar.  May I lift my head high and not get lost in the maze of myriad muddle.  The lies of diversity. The slogans of running dog hypocrites. How funny their language is.  I love  dogs but ‘running dogs’ is such a metaphor to a people who starving and poor were set on once by packs because their leaders didn’t feed them.  Now my leadership doesn’t give me an xbox.  I want a spaceship. I need to get off this planet.  But I’ll settle for going outside.

We are in prison and the warden isn’t even letting us walk in the yard. There are two groups now. Those who want this quarantine to continue till fall and see the death and disease of poverty destroy the west with greater destruction than this disease threatened and those who want to go shopping, work and camp and lie out in the woods listening to crickets.

It’s a strange time. I don’t know. The thing could have been written by Tolstoy. So many characters and a stream of consciousness twitter plot right out of sci fi. I imagine that the last crisis of the banks was cocaine and escort driven, the great Goldman Sachs orgy and government bail out but this is more LSD. They are doing hallucinogens in Washington Paris, Ottawa and Beijing.  Everyone getting together and dropping acid.

Joe Bidden is groping another child and I can’t say the word ‘fuck’ without paying a millions dollars and having my precious time stolen by the Borg .  I must love more, resent less, and be thankful. Yes God, you are good. And this is just strange.  Thank you Jesus. I certainly can relate to a carpenter who got it in the neck for talking love and peace around the Romans.  The Romans of your day were like the Communists of today.  Military tough.
 I’m Klinger. I want to wear dresses and lingerie.  I’m old and soft. I play the Monty Python sketch over and over again, “Always look on the bright side of life”.
I’ve fought bullies all my life and now I’m just waiting to die.  I don’t think this was a good movie. I think the plot and characterization were muddled. Too much reactive acting and too much knee jerk and panic.  I with I had the time and budget but the elite have the time and the budget and they’re creating B grade porn.  Help me write a poem I can be thankful for.  Let this day be a good day and help me to channel thy love and peace.  

Hallelujah. Thank you Jesus. 

Monday, April 20,2019 Covid 19 Quarantine,

It’s another day in paradise. Spring is certainly beautiful here this year. Never have the flowers been so intriguing and delightful. Each day walking the dog I have enjoyed watching the buds blossoming. It’s like being a kid again with my mother who had a famous green thumb and loved to point out each plant and flower as it opened itself to the new year.

Life has slowed down in so many ways.  Less rush.  Waiting. Like the experience at sea.  The weather often decides the set of the sail and the angle of the tack.  So Dr. Fauci told us all the virus has it’s own time.  But now the juggling has begun again in earnest.  The commander must decide what is the risks of boat failing, wind pressure, seas, experience and tolerance of his crew.  Each person has there own concerns and perception but the balancing and juggling act is far beyond the parts that make up the whole.  

We had a lock down and quarantine to delay the rush on limited health care resources.  We needed time to get labs up and running to speed. We needed to train personnel. Here the College of Physicians and Surgeons brought back retired doctors at lightning speed. In the US when hydroxychloroquine was found to be a miraculous cure ,the FDA burocracy which normally would take a year to repurpose a drug, did it in weeks at presidential order.  Countless lives have been saved.  Locally Mr. Horgan, BC Premier, found 140 respirators decommissioned and set the amazing engineers and technicians to refurbishing them. It’s been a race against time.  The BC CDC has reported all the breakthroughs on it’s wonderfully researched pages. Dr. Bonnie Henry, our incredible Chief Medical Officer,  has daily told us exactly what we needed to hear.  Locally the response has been an overwhelming success.  

China’s lost millions and lied again and again about the disease and about their response. As did Iran with their mass graves, denied, but showing to the overhead satellites. Here we have been blessed with great leadership and some luck as well since ,we’ve missed a very big bullet. In New York it struck with a vengeance because of elevators railings and buttons. In Japan they had to early recognize the trains as vectors of spread. In Italy it was the close family communities and vulnerable eldersly. But everywhere in the west, as had been done in the Asian democracies ,people rose to the occasion.  Authoritarian and malevelent forces tried to carry out their own agendas without consideration of the whole. Despite all this the good prevailed. 

Despite the corruption of the WHO ,so reminiscent of the failure of the Red Cross in Canada when the AIDS epidemic struck, wiser minds ,less greedy and self seeking moved, forward and filled the horrible gaps.  

My young schizophrenic patients began to do the shopping for their elderly neighbours and family members leaving groceries on the doorsteps and saving them from going out into the the temporarily hostile world.

It’s a marathon. Social distancing, hand washing, masks.  But now we’ve businessess preparing to return to working. In weeks more and more people will be back to work. There’s a light at the end of the tunnel. The weather is increasingly warm.  The sun is shining.

We have every reason for praise and thanksgiving. Thank you God and thank you all who have done so much good to bring us through this first phase of such a wantonly unnecessary crisis. Now the economic restoration begins.  The anxious shouldered the heavier load while the depressed more often than not were lifted out of themselves seeing that others needed them and finding health in purpose.  

I’m enjoying walking my dog. I’m enjoying the morning commute from bedroom to living room. I’m loving the slower pace. I’m glad to be over that initial terror, those early days of uncertainty and fear.  I feel sad for the third world and the dictatorships where human life individually doesn’t count. The illness and death will persist longer there whereas here we’re already crested the wave. Local companies are making more masks. Pharmacies are finding more hydroxychloroquine.  Pharmaceutical development is shifting from untrustworthy China to Israel,the recipient of so many Nobel prizes for research and manufacture. More lab agents are being manufactured and testing here has surpassed South Korea. We know so much more thanks to Italy and Spain and Iceland and those stalwart souls trapped in cruise ships for the duration.  

We are past Easter, a time of renewal and resurrection. Today is 4/20, the time when Willie Nelson appears to so many .  The saddest part of this all has been  we can’t hold hands or hug in circles. The saddest are the family members separated at the time of death.  The loneliness has been heart rending. 

 I miss my dear friend Laura who continues to work in close proximity with high risk patients. I have friends who I’ve reached out to but have yet to hear back from. I’m so thankful my family has been well and safe.  The immunosuppressed, the elderly and those with heart and lung disease all suffered most from the fear that if they became ill there might not be a hospital room or a respirator.  That’s how fortunate we’ve been here. No hard choices like they made in Italy or Spain.  I’ll never forget the older priest who died having said that the young man could have his respirator. I’m so thankful for the pregnant women with Covid 19 who survived the disease and now are reunited with their new born babies well.

It’s been an emotional roller coaster with the wonderful reprieve of great humor and great funny songs.

A couple of weeks more or days and we’ll be safer as the economic risks increase and threaten us as once the disease itself had.  I remember sailing through hurricane force winds. I’d pass through the eye of the storm and the confusing seas get hit again by more winds before the winds would die.  The winds would die and tthe seas would be churned up for days would remain high for another day before the calm of wind and sea returned. .  Even though the ultimate dangers of high winds and terrible seas had passed it was a day or two before the seasettled.

Fair winds and following seas, I wish my family and friends today. Thank you God for grace and kindsness. Thank you all for love and humor and joy.  Hallelujah!