Winterhaven, California, Dawn

I woke up from first night with new crowns and mouth guard.  I really was refreshed and happy. I’m feeling better with the sun and prayer. Madigan was well. He’d had diarrhea when I was out so I’ve made him rice and not fed him last night but given him several walks.  Today we had a long walk and enjoyed the sunrise.  He had an okay little poop.  I’m hopeful.  

The big questions this morning was whether to talk to the dentists about lower crowns since the upper ones make it apparent that the lower teeth aren’t as ‘pretty’. Maybe I just need cleaning. I could come back next year too.  Right now I like my smile.

Laura texted me that Ebby has told Canadians not to travel to the US because Americans don’t like us. He’s probably just trying to affect tourism but really sounds like the fool Trudeau is.  Rustad is sounding  really intelligent by comparison. The whole climate change ‘emergency’ and demonizing carbon was so artistic but scientifically stupid. Trump has returned ‘meritocracy’ and stopped the favouritism of DEI which I really like given the stupidity of having dwarf, celibate, Inuit neurosurgeon because they vote Liberal or NDP.  Such political and legal nonsense. I loved hearing that Trumps pulling the US out of the Paris treaty would save them trillions and wondered of course why ‘the budget will balance itself’ Trudeau won’t do the same.  I’m horrified at the state of the economy and the invasion of Islam young men. Trump is demanding that the borders be secured and it’s a fact that the US invasion of fentanyl and terrorists is coming mostly through Canada.  

I don’t agree with two genders but the pronouns and the entitlement went too far.  Scientifically there are 2 sexes and gender now is directly as consequence.  The ‘official’ languages in Canada are French and English despite a large number of Germans, Chinese, Indians, Persians.  So the ‘official’ genders are two.  I suspect there will need to be tweaking of this but all that nonsense of prisoners wanting sex change may be addressed more appropriately.  Pushback was guaranteed when University of Toronto wanted to fine Jordan Peterson for mistakenly misgendering a student.  I don’t know the gender of biological people but to make it my problem is grossly inappropriate. Yet there are the legitimate intersex and those who have completed sex changes.  Post orchiectomy and genital surgery I suspect there will be a place for those to be ‘female’ or ‘male’ but new definition.  This will be a scientific medical determination rather than a political legal one solely.  I will be glad to see the end of the bearded ladies. Somehow it was becoming a circus show and that was hurting those who were not into special status.  Politics.

I’m glad Trump has pulled out of the WHO.  It became a communist institution with Chinese involvement and the Ethiopian communist CEO. Truth and medicine and science are no longer at the forefront given the abuses of Covid.  

I can’t support the UN when it keeps doing shariacommunist maneuvers like calling Israel a terrorists after it is only defending itself from Hamaz and Hezballah attacks. I did see General Milley as treasonous.  So I’m glad to see him go.  

The irony is all those people who were fear mongering and doomsaying about the Republican’s last term in office turned out to be utterly wrong. Indeed Biden’s reign resulted in near WWIII many wars and major shift in power to China and the Middle East.  Russia is no longer communist but shooting missiles at Russia like Trudeau encouraged and Biden and Zelenskyy did would certainly support the return of the old hardliners.  The Orthodox Church and the middle stream have a chance in Russia without an invasion.  The Ukraine war is far more complicated than the media has portrayed it and the Crimean has been Russian since before the Crimean war so it’s no more black and white or one sided than Israel.  In fairness to Biden Syria fell on his watch and thankfully Taiwan was not invaded.  I really believe that communists don’t attack strength. That was Mao’s teaching and now with Trump a strong leader in power especially with Vance there is hope for peace , detente.

I’ve been distracted by the news so it’s all above my pay grade and wheels within wheels. The truth is all I know is today. I’m delight to talk with Laura, pray for my family and friends, glad my dog is better and thankful I have work and can be of service.  I believe in God and Jesus Christ. I pray each day for guidance.

Thank you Jesus.  

I’m enjoying being here on the Quechan Indian Reserve in their Sleepy Hollow RV Park in Winterhaven California ten minutes walk from the border of Mexico.  I really like Los Algadones.  Everyone is friendly and I’ve this new dazzling (smile) smile

Now I just need a face life, liposuction and a fountain of youth.  Thank you Jesus.

President Trump’s Inauguration

I am a Canadian here in the USA, Yuma Arizona, on the border by Los Aldagones.  I was glad to be able to watch the inauguration before my virtual work began.  It was more like Buckingham Palace events. Very regal and impressive. I loved the tenor and the band.  Great to see the previous president’s and their wives.  Michelle Obama was absent. Certainly that suggested some her lack of First Ladyship quality    Jill Biden did look good.  Melania was magnificent. Her outfit and carriage were reminiscent of Jackie O.  Vice President Vance’s wife was darling, so beautiful and so good with the kids. I loved watching the interaction of the various outstanding men and women. Baron Trump and Ivanka. Elon Musk, the who’s who of America. Truly a great event. Melania’s hat interfered with Mr. Trump’s attempt to kiss her cheek. A human moment. His presentation was awesome though I couldn’t stay for his speech.  His policies will unfold now. 

Politics is choosing the least bad alternative. Frankly having the FBI go Stazi like  made Trump the only choice. The so called ‘swamp’ was indeed  intent on making the USA a third world shit hole country. What was all that refusal to have election identification?   Trudeau was doing the same Maoist shit in Canada.  Soros depravity, Floyd a hero  and finally the assassination attempt made  it all look like time for a change before the world went Sharia Communism.  I really  hope for something less corrupt than the police state the US was becoming.  Certainly I don’t want to see either Canada or the US become like Britain.  I’m libertarian leaning and support free speech.  I simply don’t like the absolute attack on the conservative middle class or the ageism.  

I confess a part of me was watching fearing an assasination attempt .Democrats who want to ban guns  sure are pro war and  violent. .  I was hopeful the transition would be peaceful.  As it was with Biden and the Democrats passing power to the Republicans stopped the one party state they had been pushing for as Trudeau has been doing in Canada.

I truly hope that Trump’s presence will hurry the Liberals in Canada out of power.  a Trudeau and the Liberals have done so much down right evil and corruption. Third world shit hole politics.

Mr Trump was in 4 years and the destruction of the world didn’t occur as claimed by the left.  The celebrities who said they were moving to Canada didn’t.  I can hope for better things. We tend to vote people out rather than vote people in.  I’m glad Mr. Trump survived.  It waits to be seen what his policies turn out to be.  He’s like an old time businessman, say anything before the deal but what’s written in the contract is what holds.  I enjoyed the prayers of the Archbishop and the Minister.  In God We Trust.

Dreams

I believe dreams are a special reality. Dr. Carl Jung called them the "collective unconscious".  I believe they are this and more, as sometimes my dreams show me what I believe is heaven.  The best of dreams include my former dogs returning to visit and visits from deceased family members.  Those are most comforting. I've always loved Robin Williams movie, "What dreams may come." Our sense of linear time is illusion like so many of our other subjective perceptions.  Working as I have so long with mental processes and the so called mentally ill I've gaine a fine appreciation for the diversity of possibilities or potential of experience.
This morning I woke from the deepest of dreams.  I didn't know what the sound of the alarm clock was.  It took me time to find it and turn it off. I was only slowly coming to my awareness in this present state. it's like that sometimes, like I've cross over into another life or a different dimension.
I was so engaged in my dream.  I remember flying with explorer Anthony in his white experimental plan. He aimed it first for what looked like a round rifle sight. We were literally skimming flat over the surface of this peninsula with me fearing we'd crash only to lifted upwards when we passed this little peak the height of a house and then we were aerobatic.  We shot straight up at incredible speed and the ride was a sensational rush.  I remember trusting Anthony and thinking I'm glad that I do.  There were a couple of others in this incredible machine with me but I don't remember who.
Then in another fragment I was at a conference in Turkey with an old gay friend, all of us researchers and doctors.  I was interested in a pamphlet which disappeared.  I was thankful to be with this old school friend but feeling he'd changed little and glad to meet two friends I suspected were gay though frankly I never knew, only I felt safe in their company and appreciative of their wisdom and life experience. One was Dave. I had that sense of being in a socially awkward moment in a foreign country feeling lll at ease and there was Dave smiling and so trustworthy. I remember relaxing but then going into the scientific conference and seeing that the pamphlets were now no longer in the lobby but under view in the main room.  A rather suspicious little man suddenly thrust a red and black poster in my hand saying this was the one you wanted.
The poster was like those I'd seen from the old Soviet era in Ulyanovsk in the Lenin museum.  Black and red and loud. I'd just been telling someone how Lenin's house was the ultimate in beurgeosie and his family socialized with the czar.  I remember rolling this poster up and fearing that if I were caught with it I'd potentially go to jail. It was some 'radical' , an intellectual I didn't know. But there was so much intrigue and espionage in the air and people about were so thrilled. I was somehow caught up in this fervour.
I remember a girl too, pretty and warm.  We were walking and talking near the water.  I felt safe in her company too.
Then I was in a drawing room and the men were discussing Donald Trump in lowered voices not quite whispers. The gay men were welcoming him as the only force which would still the jihadist forces that would kill them.  We had to remember this was in Turkey where the leadership longed for return of the Ottoman Empire. All over Europe there were these individuals from the upper classes who wanted the 'old days', the French their Napoleonic era, the German's the days of Bismarck, the English , their days of Victorian Empire.  It was a heady place with all the competing elements and these extremely worldly narcissistic fiercely nationalistic voices all threatened and overwhelmed by Trump. America was number one in the world and no one wanted diversity or democracy or any such public consumption idea, they all just wanted to be number one.  They wanted to have their old glory and to take back the position of leadership from Trump. Quite in contrast to the views of opposition forces at home he was considered in this discussion a genius and greatest of leaders, a regular Washington, de Gaulle , or Churchill or Bismarck.  The views were those of leaders who merely admired greatest, like a collection of Martial artists standing about after the world champion has been declared, discussing his attributes.  There was an element of the Hessian Glass Bead Game in that room, something of a library, where men through the ages had discussed kings and queens like one might football or hockey or soccer coaches.  There wasn't any of the partisan stupidity but simply admiration and a lack of speculation about where he was going. The future was unknown just as it had been when Stalin and Monty and Patton had been walking on the face of the earth.
Because this was Turkey and so many old communists were among the jihadists I felt they kept their voices low and I was a listener but just by being there caught up in the intrigue and knowing that outside of America and indeed in fewer places even in the west this conversation that was so original and pragmatic could not go on without risk to the lives of the individuals. I loved these men talking openly among themselves knowing that they so wanted freedom and yet here we were all potentially facing jail for just participating in discussion.
Politics and religion are topics that are taboo in most of the world.
I thought fondly of my friends and found myself walking down corridors in this grand old hotel where the conference was occurring.  I was carrying this poster and didn't even know the man and had been involved in a political discussion and I had openly gay friends and had myself such history and now was in a country where I could be arrested and tortured for my sexuality, my political belief and my Christian faith.
I awoke from this exciting heady dream and felt youthful again, like I had when I'd left home and gone to Europe and encountered so many ideas and later studied at the university.  I laught when I think of the abuse of the word 'diversity' by those who fear anything but their own echo chambers.  White is black and black is white in the midst of change. The adage 'confusion is the harbinger of change' goes right along with 'cloud of unknowing' and 'fog of war'.  The present media favourites speak with a certainty that shows the limits of their exploration. Always there is uncertainty and fear with such uncertainty. The ancients spoke of 'awe' with talk of God and change.  The silly think they want change but mostly they just want dominance and escape.  The Chinese blessing and curse is , "may you live in interesting times'.
I'm in an unsettling move.  Kim Jong sun is shooting nuclear missiles over Japan.  China and Russia seem still allies despite one being Christian and the other aetheist.  The Middle East is ever uncertain with Israel the only sanity in the region and increasingly Canada joining with blood thirsty monarchs over the friendship of Jews increasingly persecuted as Christians are in this new 'progressive' and 'tolerant' society of increasing hate and violence within.
I was comforted by my dream.  I thought of my friend Anthony flying that plane and Dave being at the conference and the sweet girl by the sea. It was all reassuring but fascinating and full of intrigue. I felt was an observer in a James Bond movie though more likely I'd be in a Flashman novel somehow.
Now I'm coming into this world and have to face those in the downtown epidemic, helping and cajoling and begging and selling sobriety and abstinence. I'm invested and present. I want my patients to live. I know it's the de rigor to be detached and cold , just giving out the medication. But I've been through watching my brother sick and dying with his doctors and those I most admired and those he most was enliverned by were terribly human as I am.  I am dominated and ruled by cold Confuscian beurocrats who make rules and stay as far from reality as their desks can place them but they are ego driven and demand we all mirror them.  Some colleagues dress like government beurocrats and lawyers.  Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery. I fear I should cut my hair and forego my sandals but take comfort in my colleague who comes to work in shorts and my other colleague who has such a sense of humor having escaped from a country which was like ours is sadly becoming. Her charm and wisdom comfort me.
This world is as exciting as my dream. Yesterday the ride to work on the Harley was exhilarating. Today I've got to drop off the laundry so much take the sports car. Gilbert my dog will enjoy coming along.  Soon he'll have George as company and I'm looking forward to the weekend with Laura.  Both our homes are in dishevelled disarray as we're both moving.  I'm making major headway on the clutter and now just must discard more and more to make my place simpler.