Sunday, February 5, 2012

St. James Anglican Church, Vancouver, Canada Feb.5, 2012

Another great day at church.  The St. James choir was glorious as usual.  Incense and ritual.  I actually found myself making notes on the sermon. Celebration of Queen Elizabeth II on the eve of her Diamond Jubilee then discussion of obligations of Christians.  I was poking at my iphone so only got a bit of it. Not too different from my own Christian walk as a result.  If I'd had a whole keyboard I'd have got it more accurately. But then I'm a master of excuses. I'd be a better Christian....if only...space aliens hadn't abducted me the night the dog ate my home work....Nonetheless my notes give some indication of what  was going on.
What are our obligations as baptized Christians
1. Be at mass on Sundays and study the teachings and pray daily
2 live in power of holy spirit, daily examination and repentance and yearly participation in repentance service
3 read scriptures daily and live by grace
4 love your neighbour
5 be self compassionate
6 be merciful
7 give alms
8 strive for kingdom of god
Christian lead life of obligation as duty and joy in service of Christ
Obligation authenticates our promises

Mark Greenaway-Robbins sermon feb512
When I carried Gilbert up for communion I noticed the other parents babies were shaved.  Gilbert is by far the harriest one in the church besides his friend Phil. Trying to be solemn and resist dancing, being brought up Baptist, the temptation to dance in church is almost Davidic, I was amused to see that Gilbert thought the kneeling rest was a pillow for his chin. After almost everyone had gone down stairs for coffee I got a picture of the great hall.  I love when they ring the bell in the church service.  IMG 0614
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Someone's Coming - song

Someone's Coming
 - William Hay

C
Someone's coming
Em7
But we don't know when (3)
'C                          G
He's been this way before

C
We killed him then
Em7
Will we kill him again  (3)
C                                        G
Though you know he can never die

G
Immortality
C
Immortality
G
Immortality
Em7                                 C
His gift for you and me

C
Do not be afraid
Em7
Do not be afraid
C
Do not be afraid
Em7                  G
Love will never end
C                           G
His love will never end

(repeat first verse)

Canine Alarm Clock

The advantage of a canine alarm clock is it cannot be ignored. Gilbert bounds onto the bed in the morning lands on my chest and proceeds to lick my face and ears with his wet sticky tongue. If I try to push him off this is evidence to him that I want to wrestle. If I'm lucky he thinks my shoving him away means I want him to go get a ball to play with. Then a wet slobbery ball gets dropped on my face followed by more enthusiastic licks to face and ears. Clearly the canine alarm clock is highly effective. The principal downside though is that dogs can't tell days of the week. The schedule is fixed and sleeping in on a Saturday or Sunday morning isn't something that can be programmed. The best that can be hoped for is a nap after the ritual wake up and ball play with the clock snuggled close for comfort.

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Whistleblower - the movie

Rachel Weiz and Vanessa Redgrave were outstanding in this riveting thriller of human trafficking in Serbia. To protect the 'brand' the UN, private international contractors and the state departments highest officials are involved in the cover up. Whistleblowers who get close to the truth are martyred as a consequence. Those without scars are merely enablers. This movie, like art of war, and blood diamonds speaks to the realpolitik Churchill so often spoke to. It portrays well the heroic men who also helped the women at great risk to themselves. An amazing movie.

Vancouver RV Show - TRADEX - Abbotsford BC

What a beautiful sunny day for an RV show. Laura, Gilbert and I were all set to go. Then my Ford F350 truck didn't start because I'd not used it for nearly a month in the cold. With the help of my jumper cables I connected my dead battery to Laura's Honda Civic battery. It was a hard start but eventually the truck engine turned over to applause and tag wagging. We were on our way.
A short drive paying attention to the new traffic pattern for Surrey in preparation for the increased lanes and new bridge.
At TRADEX it was packed and we were routed to the overflow parking. Gilbert stayed to guard the truck.
Inside it was RV wonderland with the higher rock star homes on wheels buses running $500,000 show price normally much much more. We loved the new ultr lite car towables with toilets and showers at $15,000.
My trailer is a Rorest River Rockwood last year's model. It was great that nothing seemed better for my needs and I came away loving my trailer even more. There was a skookum toy hauler I might well have bought if it was available when I was buying my regular RV. Truly compact but really tasteful decor.
Laura and I after a year of using my trailer really could compare looking at towing weight, length, turning radius, use off road hunting versus solely highway, layout, storage, etc. It was definitely God's will I got the trailer that serves us so well knowing as little as we did. I'm thankful to the Travelhome guys for their great advice. There were a half dozen major trailer brands there with something for everyone. There were even zodiac boats and Yamaha scooters and generators along with every accessory imaginable. Shaw direct tv had a great set up and we looked longingly at that but we only came home with a load of Watkins spices and home products. I love the shows for restocking the high qualit spices, bug lotions, hand creams and such.
Rather smug that we had most everything we could want except direct tv and a skookum tire air monitor we rejoined Gilbert all excited about RVing. Riding back to Vancouver in the truck we discussed where to go for the first RV trip. There's so many possibilities in BC.

Saturday Morning

When I sleep over at Laura's I'm first visited by my Siamese calico cat Angel. She's my snooze bar. She snuggles into my armpit and purrs in my ear. If I have woken with pesky fearful frightening morning thoughts her purring blocks these. I am comforted and fall back to sleep. Angel snuggled next to me through many dark crashing offshore sailing stormy nights when all I could was pray for morning light. She's a sweet longtime companion. Not much later Gilbert my now 2 year old cockatoo will bound onto the bed place his paws on my chest and lick my face. Now that really is an alarm clock. Laura is usually up and having a bath when Gilbert decides he's waited long enough for his morning belly scratch and ball throw. Gilbert always figured its time to play. Not trusting you to have a toy or ball he's always got one ready on his mouth for you. When I stumble to the kitchen to start my expressio coffee machine Angel accompanies me. I sometimes feel her brush past me as she beats me to the cupboard where her wet food is. I put down a can for her. Laura has given Gilbert his morning Little Caesar wet food but now he watches for his chance to steal the cats can. While making the coffee and eating my blueberry or vanilla yogurt I have to be ready to scoop up the cats remaining food when she deigns she's had enough of a nibble. She's a very dainty eater compared to him. He wants to get the scoop on the can and woof it down then he gnaws an the can itself. Laura's cat black and white cat Tiffany who Laura has fed by spooning out wet food into a tiny bowl for, watches the antics of Gilbert and Angel. She likes the perspective of high ground. With the fur babies all taken care of I can settle down to enjoy the morning coffee. When Laura exits the washroom I utterly amaze myself shaving and showering. Even more astonishing to myself I follow that truly miraculous feat by dressing. When I actually have shoes on I am ready for facing the outside world. I find Gilbert's leash and my jacket and we head out the door. Laura in parallel and harmony has usually be moving right along with more underwear and mirror time. The cats have gone back to lying about while Gilbert begins his runs to and fro and about the door about the time I begin to pull on socks and shoes. This is his sign that the day is about to become a truly grand adventure. Just outside the door there is all this territory to be marked with piss and a whole range of new butts to be sniffed. His enthusiasm is infectious. Laura and I take turns holding his leash and letting him drag us through the door into a new day. The cats will be waiting our return to hear all about the adventures of the day.

Somatization and Chronic Pain

People don't like to hear that their pain is 'all in their head'.  Rarely do people say this but those with issues almost invariably translate that 'some' of their pain is 'mental' as 'you don't validate' my pain.  This merely confirms that a lot of people with 'chronic pain' have a dual diagnosis a) they have pain b) they are crazy.
The fact is, without a head, a person would not have pain. The brain is the central processor of pain.  When I had the pleasure of assisting neurosurgeons with the skull cap off the patient anesthetized and awake I witnessed the surgeon touching various structures and the patient reporting pain in different parts of their body.
When I hypnotised patients who had pain or didn't have pain I could alter their perception of their pain by my hypnotic inductions and suggestions. I actually did surgery on people I hypnotised so not only could a person's pain be affected by their brain their perception of their pain could be greatly modified by their mental state.
A classic study done in the Vietnam era was a comparison of young men in the field who lost a leg by stepping on a grenade versus young men in New York who lost a leg by a sheering injury in a car accident. Theoretically if pain was external in the limb the grenade wound would require more pain medication to address it than the sheering car injury wound.  This was because grenade explosions creating 'dirty wounds' involving far more nerve endings and far greater trauma than the slicing injuries of motor vehicle accidents.  As it turned out the young men in New York required a quantum factor more  pain medication, for argument sake say 10 x more, than the Vietnam soldiers. It was highly significant and very dramatic and not what people expected and not because soldiers are tougher.
People experience dependent on a variety of factors and a major one is the psychiatry of the pain and the belief associated with the pain.
Further people who have difficulty expressing their feelings, those who have hidden trauma and a variety of other psychological constructs will often experience pain greater than those with less complicated lives.  Men who were physically abused as children taken much longer to heal following back injuries.
There's a matter of secondary gain. If a person is paid for being unwell they may in fact take the 'sick role' for a long time. This is overt secondary gain and may give rise to 'malingering' where a person will present with physical illness for the express purpose of getting financial advantage.
In factitious disorder the person presents with physical disease including pain and often dizziness not overtly for financial benefit but for some other secondary gain.  An example is a person who was cared for in childhood when they were sick and neglected when not. This person may 'milk the mercy' out of an injury or illness or pain as a means of getting attention later in life having unconsciously learned this was an acceptable way of emotional communication.
Some people can't express anger and instead have a 'pain in the neck' or a 'back ache'.  Historically most men have heard some joke about women not wanting to have sex because they have the 'proverbial headache'.
These are all aspects of 'somatization'.  Somatization simply suggests that psychological factors are experienced through the periphery nervous system. People have no difficulty accepting that the hands can feel and send feeling messages to the brain. However they have difficulty with the idea that brain messages can be transmitted to the hands in illness. Having treated patients with amputations I've had a man who when angry found his missing limb hurting him because he was 'clutching' his missing fist too hard.

Given the reality of this there's a tendency to treat chronic pain with psychiatric medication. The treatment of choice for fibromyalgia, a disorder originally called 'somatic depression' and originally described by psychiatrists not internists or surgeons, today still responds to the antidepressant medication amitriptylline.  The latest antidepressant medication which is actually 'labelled 'for pain therapy as well as depression and anxiety is 'cymbalta' or 'duloxetine.' This is today the treatment of choice for chronic pain of most kinds.

In addition individual and group therapies are used to address somatization and chronic pain with great success.  Exercise is also very beneficial.