Spring Images, Easter and Gratitude

Thank you Lord for all your blessings. Thank you for healing. Thank you for Easter. Thank you for the spring. Thank you for family and friends. Thank you for Kevin and Anna and Laura and the God Children. Thank you for work. Help me to let go of the resentments for false witness.  Help me to live in this ‘post truth’ society. Help me to forgive the atheists and heathens who attack Christians. Help me to forgive the ignornant who flash pseudoscience to the masses to take advantage. Help me overcome jealousy and envy. Help me to maintain integrity in face of the rewards for terrorists and liars and their unsavoury supporters. Help me Lord be more at peace.Thank you for the resurrection. Thank you for NSRU.  Thank you for the inspiration. Help me to know which way to turn. Guide me in the coming weeks   Thank you for the healing that has helped me physically and emotionally these last weeks. Thank you for mobility. Thank you for my motorcycle and the joy in the open highway. Thank you for Gilbert and George. Thank you for my home. Thank you for friendships and family. thank you for Laura and Lorne this week. Thank you for Brian, Barbara, Vivian, Michel, Antonnio, George, Gayle, Peter, and all the others I saw this weekend.  Thank you for Christ Church Cathedral. Thank you for the organ and the brass. Thank you for the Vancouver Convention Centre. Thank you for Harley Davidson.  Thank you for spring flowers.  Thank you for all the blessings. Thank you for the sunshine. Thank you for the hopes in good weather and the promises.  Thank you Lord.

Trev Deely Cared for My HD all winter.

Laura and I loved this movie on Shaw.

Palm Sunday at Good Shepherd Church with Kevin, Anna, Laura and the God Kids.

Laura and her fans.

Trev Deely Harley Davidson Museum

Picked up fleece on first ride of the season to Chilliwack

Starbucks

Lorne

Cherry Blossoms Strathcona

Coal Harbour from Vancouver Convention Centre

River Walk

Vancouver Convention Centre

Best Buds. Gilbert and George

NSRU

Christ Church Cathedral Easter Morning.

Resilience and Easter

I feel sometimes when I’m actively being punished by barbaric antiquated pre modern science systems of control and abuse that I become too ‘heavy’.  I teach that in life we should learn from motorcyclists. Driving down the freeway at high speed on my Harley Electroglide I learned that if I look at a pile of dog shit or maneur or radical leftist Canadian liberal policy I will indeed collide with the shit and get shit on my shiny motorcycle and leather armour.  Yet if I don’t keep my eyes open and my head out of the sand I won’t know who kicked me. So to navigate as motorcyclists we note the government obstacles, the ignorance and outrageously expensive counter productive policies but avoid them personally.  We see the shit and go to either side of the obstacle.  It’s been said that I personally persist in driving right down the centre of the road proverbially, politically and poetically.  In this far left country of Canada with our radically left government I feel as emotionally and mentally homeless as the increasing numbers of physically homeless.
Psychiatry Grand Rounds, Neuroscience of Resilience, 3.14.18, Psychiatry Grand Rounds by Noshene Ranjibar MD and Justin Otis, MD said the first and best response to trauma was relational, community and sharing and parasympathetic.  In contrast to the local medical administrative disdain for AA NA and Church the presenters celebrated the community and rituals that helped people deal with trauma in the healthiest way, utilizing the parasympathetic autonomic nervous system.  The second line defence most known was the sympathetic fight or flight response, the characteristic response elicited by the British Columbia and Canadian administration policies which are legalistic, paranoid, and 17th century pre scientific era, control and power based.   The third response was the basal ganglia, reptilian, ancient ’freeze’ response .
They were discussing ‘burn out’ and how they had addressed their problems with physician burn out. It was uplifting to hear all the advances in psychiatry being brought to the department and administration level.  Locally I’d been exposed to the junior low brow approaches to systemic problems best described as blame, shame and CYA administration. This is classic communist and totalitarian fear based ‘negotiation by intimidation’ also seen commonly with people drunk and stoned. The rise in marijuana use in government is certainly a contributing factor. Marijuana may removed the empathic capacity of the higher brain function.
 British Columbia is the epicentre of crime, drug trafficking and money laundering of Canada. It’s competitor is Montreal made famous by   Chabonneau Corruption Commission which showed the Mafia and Biker Gang influence on French Canadian governments. The Canadian Health Care System is descending as Canadian debt sky rockets.
Well in the midst of this I thought I’d just add a blog with the positive images of ’spring’. Because I work in a highly toxic environment in a divided country with failing health care system and roaring corruption and dishonesty, I am forever doing everything to cope.  My patients are desperate and maligned and ignored. They’re terrified and the future is very bleak for the elderly.  They’ve all been promised everything by the political system and the lies of media ,only to find that they are old and homeless and that third world people feel greater happiness.
 I sometimes want a holiday because all my time off  is “recovering’ from the George III insanity of governement dictates.  Every day colleagues take early retirement complaining of the administration and the government. 75% of doctors would not recommend medicine.
Internationally Canada is known now as the most offended nation in the universe.
Everyone collectively and individually is guilty of a social offence as laws and bureaucracy exponentially increase.
I prayer daily, meditate, write gratitudes, look on the bright side, celebrate crusaders like Jordan Peterson, JJ MacCullough,Diana Davison. I pray for willingness to forgive because I don’t seem to be forgiving as the bolts of negative energy and punishment just keep coming, I shut out thoughts of suicide knowing these creepy callous fat cat elites want this in their secret hearts and I refuse to identify with the aggressor. Too many good people have been killed by these cretans. I pray. I talk to other doctors but everyone I most admire, the greatest of the great are disgusted like I am . The evidence is overwhelming that the problem is systemic yet they continue to personalize it. I walk the dog, my little blind therap dog. I am writing gratitude lists daily while moving through the daily malaise, constant threats hanging over me, I look for ways to escape, hear all the thanks and appreciation of family and friends, feel empathy for the many who are subjected to the ptsd of unfeeling workplace of superiority and rabid arrogance. I resist the strokes and hear aches such covert evil induces. I stop and breathe and look at the spring. These people are sick I say. Pray for them. Thought block. They sold their soul to the company store long ago. Shut their contempt for those who are still at the front out of your mind. Go to church. Go to meetings. Share hugs. Focus on the good. Avoid the shit. There’s a wide open road. Head out on the highway.
Christ is crucified. Get down off the cross we can use the wood. Soon it will be Easter morning. The metaphor is there. This too will pass. Sun always rises. Christ is risen. We’ve seen worse. We will survive . We will thrive. There’s always the resilience.Holy Spirit Come. Lord Jesus Christ. Forgive them for they know not what they do. Be like Jesus. Let the light heal. Invite the Lord into your heart. Let go and let God. Wear life like a loose wrap. Smile and the world smiles with you. Hallelujah Christ is risen.

Company Doctors: Professionalism and Political Correctness

Historically, physicians among professionals have had the highest rating for trustworthiness and truthfulness.By contrast lawyers have been at the bottom of the heap.  Some actually say it’s sad that 90% of lawyers give the other 10% a bad name.  My old lawyer friend had insisted that this was  a product of the rise in social legislation that followed Prime Minister Pierre Trudeau’s reign.  My friend, an  old man, had  practiced law in Scotland before coming to Canada.

“I was proud to be a lawyer. It was a very honoured profession in my youth. Today I sometimes feel it’s just because of the money lawyers are perceived so negatively. I did well enough but if money was the sole criteria I’d not be thought as good a lawyer as some of my colleagues who sought celebrity and seemed only interested in the fame and fortune.  When I became a professional I saw it as a duty and service and frankly most of my colleagues saw it as that too.  We were there to serve people. Our independence and autonomy as professionals allowed us to protect our clients from governments and corporations alike.”

It wasn’t long after I heard him say that, that  a lawyer at my church told me “I think you can still can be a lawyer and a Christian in Canada but I no longer think you can be a Christian and a Corporate lawyer in Montreal.”

I can say the same is increasingly  true for doctors.  The lowest slur a doctor could make against another was to call him a “company doctor”. 

The ‘company doctor’ reached it’s a nadir during the years of the asbestos mining.  Miners were coughing up blood and dying all the while the doctors hired by the company and were paid exorbitantly essentially to lie and insist the problem wasn’t the  asbestos at all.  The miner instead, in classic ‘blame the victim’ was told he had ‘weak lungs’. It became the  great scandal of the era exposing corrupt courts, government, corporations and the doctors involved..  Science eventually prevailed as today we know and diagnose “asbestos lungs’. 

It should be understood that a doctor may give his opinion in court ,which remains a 19th century rationalist construct and sees the world in black and white as opposed to the multi factorial quantum universe considerations of 21st century rainbow science.  The ridiculousnesss of such ‘opinions’ was highlighted best by the farce of the OJ Trial with all its dream team and ignorance of DNA. 75% of the fruitfly DNA is the same as Human DNA. 

In British Columbia “Moynihan’s Law’  was enacted essentially to reign in the competing claims of ‘expert witnesses”.  Moynihans’s Law insisted that expert opinions be predominantly objective and serve the judge not the solely the lawyers paying them.  Some of the insurance company expert witnesses were paid so exorbitantly as to make the ‘company doctors’ of the asbestos mine era look like altar boys.   Tragically I was obliged to teach a judge the history of this in recent years, as he appeared to have missed out on the insanity of the courts that required a specific new “Moynihans’s law” to reign in the ‘expert testimony ‘ of competing factions.  Perjury laws have always existed but do appear to be rarely used as increasingly the courts move away from the ‘truth’ standard of old.  “The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth” is no longer associated with the modern court but rather remembered as a line from the Perry Mason era. 

The judge appeared unaware of Dr. Jay Lifton’s seminal book, the “Nazi Doctors” which addressed the whole issue of the ‘company’ or ‘government doctor’ in exquisite horrifying detail.  

It should not reflect badly on this judge because we’re collectively seeing this phenomena today  in the ‘fake news’ . The media was once constrained by the idea of ‘fact’ but today has  lost all track of the very notion of  ‘objective’ and now sells ‘facts’ as ‘opinions’ to the highest bidder.  Judges, themselves, have historically been considered’ corrupt’ as their opinions have been on occasion bought as readily as world soccer players.  The remaining issue today ,as Canadian culture devolves into multiculturalism,  increasingly,  is not whether someone will sell out their integrity but at how low a price.

Around  the world in other jurisdictions and cultures the issue is not whether to bribe the official ther how little one can give without insulting   government representative. The whole idea of the ‘tip’ which once was only an issue in hotels and restaurants is the very basis of business and law in`many countries.  

The next worst ‘slur’a doctor could have against him was that he was a ‘pharmaceutical company doctor’. Some pharmaceutical companies hired doctors to promote their medications and rewarded those who ‘sold’ medications by down playing or denying risks while celebrating success.  I was hired only a couple of times by one drug company to give talks to family physicians about new produce.  I was subsequently   told by  that company that  I was ‘too objective’ and hadn’t ‘sold’ enough of  the product. . I took that a compliment but it caused me to look askance at some of my colleagues who took pride in being consider ‘trendsetters’ by some in the pharmaceutical industry. They considered it a compliment to be called ‘drug pushers for the multinationals’ and paraded their academic and financials rewards with gusto.   “Unhinged: the Trouble with Psychiatry” by Dr. Daniel Carlat discusses this problem in depth. 

It became so egregious an issue in medicine  that physicians in academic settings and journals are collectively now required to give notice of their ‘conflicts of intererst’.   At the beginning of a lecture a doctor is required to put up a slide indicating which drug companies or businesses had paid him for this lecture or his research in this area.  

Unfortunately the licensing bodies for professions, in general, like the Colleges of Physicians and Surgeons, have not as yet had such a renaissance. The conflicts of interest that influence hiring, appointments,committe membership of non professionals,  their  political and fashionable decisions remain darkly opaque.

  

This practice has been in place for decades and naturally doctors wish that politicians and bureaurats would be required to do the same housekeeping regarding ‘conflicts of interest” and ‘lobby groups.” The partisanship of bureaucrats is a huge problem since they are required to be 'objective' but increasingly in Canada it has been exposed that government bureaucrats are Liberal biased.  To avoid this in many countries and eras the whole government apparatus was overturned and replaced by the followers of the winning party.

Given the scandals  over the foreign influence on Hillary Clinton and Justin Trudeau by Islamic countries and the alleged influence on Trump by Russia , politics seems mired like the media and courts outside the promises of the 21st century.  Escobar, the great drug lord used to brag that he had bought both the Republicans and the Democrats, hedging his bets, not that that did him much good in the long run. 

Doctors addressed this issue of autonomy first in the Hippocratic Oath of Ancient Greece.  I’ve taken the revitalized Hippocratic Oath of today since the ethical and moral foundations of professionalism have been increasingly eroded by government intrusion. The ‘do no harm’ clause is all but obsolete now  the ‘abortion industry” and recently  ‘euthanasia industry’ have completely won over the prevailing  government and their bureaucrats so reminiscent of the 'banal' of Arendt's writings.   Further, the various ‘codes’ of doctors in the western world were influenced by the “sanctity of life’ premise  inherent in Christian religion which inherited and refined the Judeo Graeco Roman traditions from which Western Civilization arose.  Other cultures have not had this notion of ‘sanctity of life’.

Further the ideas of where on the continuum the doctor sits regarding the collective and the individual are wholly different than what most Canadians assume.  Also the 'accountability' of the doctor in different countries is wholly different from the local ever changing responsibility of the doctor and indeed the health care system. This was never better reviewed than the greatest scandal of hospital administration of our time, the finding of the man dead for 36 hours in the Canadian teaching hospital and the abdication of accountability of administration.

There is also distinctly different ideas of cause and effect and accountability in eastern and western 'culture' which affect the very practice of medicine by doctors depending on training and background.

It was no surprise that Dr. Kellie Leitch, a brilliant physician and accomplished paediatric surgeon, should spearhead the importance of 'Canadian values' in this time when the dope smoking pretty haired selfie snapping Canadian Prime Minister Justin Trudeau was insisting there was no 'Canadian culture' and hence no 'Canadian values'.  Ironically he also said that Quebec French  speaking Prime Ministers were superior to English speaking Prime Ministers when his basic premise was that there was no such thing as a Canadian ‘culture’. While denying Canada 'culture' and denying Canadian 'values'  he insisted on the superiority of the French speaking. 

The word ‘culture’ derived from the Latin word ‘cultus’, ‘to care’ and from the French word to ‘cultivate’ or to ‘fill the ground’.  Well no one in their right mind would doubt that Dr. Leitch cares or is a highly cultivated individual who has done a lion’s share of work, there continues to be complaints about PM Justin Trudeau, simply not caring about Canada, and not by his personal history having much to do with cultivation and work.  Unfortunately Dr. Leitch’s insightfulness flew over the stoned heads of easily offended young followers of the Prime Minister. 

The ‘private’ physician retained their autonomy and worked for the patient just as the lawyer and accountant and engineer primarily served their client.  Historically the true ‘statesman’ served the country as a whole not the entrenched interests of corporations like Bombadier or the  urbans tastes of Montreal female voters.  

The ‘business’ of profession however always was tied to the idea of ‘he who pays the piper calls the tune’.  As the “private” physician was working directly for the patient even though an insurance company might well be paying the bill, the doctor’s greatest concern was the ‘patient’s health’.  This was before the Hydra of  Cultural Marxism's weaponized political correctness redefined 'health' like the 'renaming' of 'gender" as something other than the ‘morbidity and mortality’ of science.   

Today the ‘insurance doctor’ is the next greatest ‘slur’ that can be made against a doctor.  It’s a bit wrong as there clearly are good and bad insurance companies. But clearly if the patient becomes sick and unable to work and provide insurance payments it’s in the interest of the insurance company to ‘de list’ that member as they are no longer a viable ‘client’.  Further, the worst insurance companies use and abuse the courts to offer the least inclusive definition of health and spend fortunes on lawyers fighting claims. 

Canada is a single party insurance scheme so that the ‘government doctor’ and the ‘insurance doctor’ ‘slurs’ can overlap.  Historically in public and private endeavours there was this area where the public need for finance existed because of the size and ‘risk’ of the project and in areas where there was no likelihood of profit but that as a society we collectively saw a need to care for others in a way private sources could not afford to.  

Our present government appears to be giving billions to foreign countries while not caring for it’s own sick and old.  The sick and old and those who suffer catastrophic  injuries were the principle reason for development of the Canadian Health Care system.  Tommy Douglas and those who were  principally Christian doctors of the  Saskatchewan model would obviously roll over in their graves  if they were to see the actions of the ‘company doctors’ and ‘government doctors’ of today.  Government spending today,  is to those early men and women of Canada,  a total corruption of the ideals of Canadian traditions.  Not surprisingly, Liberals get around this by indeed,   denying Canadian culture or tradition.

The highest paid doctors today are government doctors  and cosmetic surgeons while the front line workers in all fields are policed to no end and treated as the enemy by their superiors because they have been given the unenviable task of ‘rationing health care’ while the government doctors and political doctors make endless promises that are simply impossible to meet.

Professionals say that there is no ‘autonomy’ or ‘profession’ any more because the structure of our present centralized communist leaning government which is totalitarian authoritarian and diametrically opposed to the freedom of the individual and wholly supportive of the ‘collective’.   Indeed many professionals have considered that the ‘unions’ which developed in a much more hostile relationship to government may be the answer to the failing health care system.  Some doctors have approached the Teamsters feeling the whole idea of ‘profession’ is defunct in face of government corruption and the cancerous growth of the government burocracy to the detriment of professions and their clients.  

Canada has a history of having had a purely ‘government socialist based’ health care system which was associated with the worst morbidity and mortality statistics in the Canada. This was the Indian Affairs government health care system which is now being used as a "model" for all of Canada despite is at times horrendous failures.  

Given that immigrant doctors increasingly come from countries which do not share  Canadian ‘values’ of ‘sanctity of life’ , the importance of the individual, freedom, and libertarianism and other such ‘pesky’ ideas it is increasingly no surprise that the government calls’ physicians’ not by their ‘professional designation’ but increasingly as ‘health care workers’ as a collective job title. Ethically there fore in the government eyes they have no difference from the cleaning staff in the hospitals.  

It concerns me as the corruption of government and media and the refusal of the courts to move forward that doctors medical professionalism is now defined solely by ‘company doctors’ and dominated by ‘conflicts of interest’ that soon it will be said of doctors that 90% give the 10% a bad name.  It is no surprise that 75 % of Canadian doctors would not recommend medicine at present in Canada. 

As a dinosaur doctor I am increasingly concerned about health care not as much as a provider but because I might well need services and can see from the desperate experiences of my patients that they are utterly frustrated, dissatisfied, and wholly crippled by the government callousness, Naturally their opinions never appear in the government propaganda media or are always attributed to the doctors and nurses rather than the top heavy administration.  They express repeatedly concerns about  inefficiency and corruption the feeling that their basic needs and values are not being met.

A company doctor explained to me that I ‘cared too much’ and must ‘lower my standards’ as well as ‘learn to lie’ as he did for he enjoyed greatly his well rewarded government company doctor lifestyle.  I personally have to consider every day whether I want to continue as a ‘company doctor’ or if I should, like the other dinosaurs of my era retire early and accept that Christians, godly people in general,  moral people and all the doctors of old, especially my most esteemed mentors, and Tommy Douglas, a politically incorrect Baptist minister, are all  no longer welcome in Canada.  Insurance company models also routinely reward the physicians who do the least for the patient and save the government the most money.

This was a 'joke' of my surgical training where heart surgeons and lung surgeons would compete among themselves as to who could use the least 'thread' as the administration had a fashion of the month campaign to get the surgeons to save money in the operations.  At the time I thought it was something out of MASH where no show better defined the oxymoron on 'military intelligence". Yet the surgeons explained that the administrators were more concerned with their budgets than the lives of the patients. Indeed I caused myself no end of difficulty complaining that a small town administrator had robbed the hospital budget for a baby incubator so that he could have a new desk and chair with better wood panelling.  

I do envy the migrants who routinely return to their ‘homes’ whereas I personally feel my own home and profession have been destroyed.  This feeling has grown strongest since  I was told that  Dr. William Osler is no longer considered a ‘professional’. Clearly Dr. Osler is no longer welcome in Canada and  should never  apply to work here.

Jesus, the greatest healer of all time, would not be welcomed  either.  Jesus  was vulgar, kept the wrong company,  swore and behaved badly, the epitome of a politically incorrect individual.  Politically correctness and professionalism were once diametrically opposed.  Today a doctor kills or heals as the prevailing mood dictates. It’s just fashion.  Medicine is theatre.  The Kardashian’s are the new models of medicine.    

Gratitude Tuesday

Thank you Lord for this day. 

Thank you for waking me.

Thank you for the warm body of my little dog curled close beside me.

Thank you for the nuisance cat that loves the dog so is okay

Thank you for the morning. I so enjoyed watching the darkness become light

Thank you for eyes and reading and internet and iPad

Thank you for the furnace and heat, this home, the refrigerator, the stove and coffee

Thank you for the boiled eggs I made this week and the one that was waiting for me this morning

Thank you for work and a place to go and service and duty and all of the blessings of community.

Protect me from the bullying and ravages of the cancerous burocracy and the out of control government

Protect me from the corruption in government and burocracy

Protect me from the petty and arrogant and conceited and especially the ideologues who are so full of hate

Protect me from those who call themselves activists who are but todays new form of agitators.

Protect me from Jihadists and violence. 

Protect me most from the perjurer and those who bear false witness , the liars 

And those who enable them and use them to destroy society and health care 

Protect me from the intrusion of the paranoid mind of those in state , the ones who spy on everything

Protect me from the corporate businessmen who have no ethics not like their brethren who are still human.

Protect me from those bankers who are like the Goldman Sacks and Fanny May sociopaths

Protect from the corrupt in the elite

Help those in leadership who continue to fight for freedom against the evil tyranny of the Trudeau dynasty

Restore us to a democracy and remove all the appointed thugs who worship the UN and Agenda 21

Free us from these diabolical immigrants who would impose sharia law on Canadians collectively

Protect our Christian communities and the secular communities especially from the Aetheists, the godless destroyers

Celebrate with us the joys of community and fellowship and let us all work and share together 

Without the intrusion and war monger ing of the divide and conquer leftist government

Let us become central as a country again and counteract this lean so far to the left with all the communist dictators

Help us be a nation of workers and celebrate family and friendships of those who actually get out each day

Protect us from the propaganda of television and facebook

Thank you Lord for my mobility. Thank you for my breathing. Thank you for my sleep.

Thank you for the vehicles I have to escape with

Thank you Lord for introducing me to the trauma of abuse of power and dishonesty and theft and rape and physical assault

So that I can appreciate the lies of the government bullies who perpetuate these crimes and protect those among them

Who rape and bully and steal. 

Make this world a heaven on earth Lord.

Help those who choose the death of drugs and alcohol come alive again and return like prodigal sons and daughters.

Thank you Lord for AA meetings, Churches, Synagogues, Temples, Community clubs and Kiwanis, and Masons, Odd Fellows

Thank you for Toast masters and the Game and Fish Associations

Thank you for the gun ranges and the gyms and the swimming pools and the hot tubs

Thank you for karma Lord and let me forget those who schemed to destroy me with their lies and false witness 

And their deceitful testimonies and words and those who celebrate sociopaths and get behind the liars and give them teeth.

Thank you for retribution. I have been vindicated every time for my honesty and good work and look forward to this again

Not so much as vengeance but to know that when there is no justice in the courts of this land there is a greater justice still

I trust that you will protect me and others from the liars and deceivers.

Protect me from those who say ‘my truth’ and claim that ‘truth’ is only relative, denying gravity and air and biology and chemistry and physics,.

Protect us from the false teachings of the university today where silly intellectuals and false philosophers claim ‘deconstruction’ 

And ‘constructionism’ but themselves can’t perform miracles or part the seas or walk on water and lives lives encased in their stupidity and arrogance

Please Lord be with me in all my endeavours.

I know Christ Lord. I know you are the One. I know that you are the Way the Truth and the Light. I know that Many are called but few follow

Let me be a follower but I don’t want to be crucified or to be sacrificed any more in the courts of today’s Herods and Neros

I grow weary of their thrones and smug arrogance and their belief that they know it all when they only have a peephole on reality.

Please Lord protect me from the criminal drivers of Vancouver who stoned on BC Bud with lung conditions and brain disorders from too much pot and alcohol text while they drive and hit other cars so their lawyer friends can quickly launch a law suit giving the lawyers who really do help a bad name.

Please lord get rid of the ambulance chasers and the social justice warriors and the vagina hatters hysterics and the lying white girls who hope to play both sides against the middle, lipstick limousines feminists waving their booties for stupid rich men to be caught and serve them in the ‘industry of feminism’.  That’s the big bucks that needs to be addressed Lord. Those who are rallying everyone with the sole purpose of a godless Marxist agenda, that twisted bizarro Jewish kafetch thinker who claimed to have turned Hegel on his head and wanted only to be the king himself, a petty tyrant, angry at the world and mostly at his wife.  Please Lord if it were possible I’d never hear again that ‘offended by everything” ‘oppressed by everyone” ‘funny dog imperialist’  propaganda that permeates the killing fields the world over. Please lord remove that evil and let me once again hear the songs of birds and children’s laughter. 

Help me rise above my own pain and misery. Help me to see all the blessings that are there for me and so many others. Help me to focus on what I have and not what I don’t . Help me to overcome envy and jealousy and shame and rise above the limits of ego to see as you see. Let me be more spiritual today.

Thank you for the struggles with myself to be a better person.  Thank you for the learning. Thank you for the antidote to self pity, all the love I know. Thank you for friends and family. Thank you for the Holy Bible. Thank you for the holy books. Thank you for inspiration. Thank you for spring. Thank you for sunshine. Thank you for laughter and smiles. Thank you for good news and thank you for all those who struggle against the increasing police state of Canada where freedoms are daily eroded by the monsters in Victoria and Ottawa.  Help protect us all from their appointed apparatchiks and their committee of cronies who share their diabolical ideologies , some kind of left over plague from the 20th century. Help us go forward into the 21st century celebrating individualism and creativity and respecting the breadths of society not just the small minded ideas of the Trudeau set with their tax paid gifts to terrorists and Johadists and terrorists and their constant holidays and evasion of work .  Help us know the fullness of life.

Help me rise above the division of politics and see the joy of the centre I have known all my life so have bullet and stab wounds all over my body from the liars and bullies of either side, the extremists in burocratic power today undermining all the work of Canadians and British and American and Romans and Greeks and all those who contributed most to civilization. Let us move beyond the tyrant of the UN with it’s arms dealers and pedophilai and sex trade slavery. Help us to have some Canadian values not the low life of the perverted Trudeau family with it’s sex scandals and drugs and utter swaggering pompous arrogance. 

Help deal with the criminals in high place in Vancouver and British Columbia. Please bring down all those who promote lies and false witness and encourage the perjury and sociopaths that have turned the once fine courts from truth to a place where money launderers and lying dishonourable women are used as weapons against the good and true

Please Lord help me to see your wisdom. Thank you for all your blessings and help me today to focus on gratitude and overcome my fear and worry about the future and the waste of resources as our governments destroy our resources and people and scare everyone away except their own bottom feeding criminal kind.  Let there be revival and bring back truth and honesty to this country of dark lies and crime.

Protect me today Lord.

Christ above me, Christ behind me. Christ in front of me. Christ beside me. Christ in side me Christ in all those who I meet today., Christ everywhere today Lord. Let me focus on the light lord. Help me to look to the positive and to the love. Help me have hope despite the ravages of those in committees who hide behind their self intestestg and celebrate the lies and deceit of female sociopaths and those who bear false witness and use the victims of their own designs to justify their evil behaviour claiming to do good when their motives are the darkest of all and they are so fallen to think they’re so clever getting away with their destruction and pillage by deceit and bullying

Help me Lord over come this feeling of humiliation and despair and lack of hope for Canada or Vancouver or BC as I’ve been so exposed to the lie and corruption of our government here and it’s celebration of the sociopaths who bear false witness and those who use such lies to steal and rape and kill.  Please Lord bring down the slavers and the drug dealers and those who money launder in our casinos and banks and make the judges less susceptible to the seduction that has caused them to fall.  Help those good judges to raise up or weed out those evils judges who celebrate deceit and perjury and allow the criminal lawyers to thrive with the criminals and please Lord stand up to those evil doers.

Help me focus on healing Lord. Stop taking me from my work to save lives to be fighting to protect my back from the back staggers who just use the health care system for their own personal profit and destroy all who tell the truth. Help me to stand up to the liars and deceivers and their burocratic bullies who reward false witness and deceit.

Help me Lord to have the courage to go to work where I face guns and feel less worried by those who brandish guns and knives and the big men who punch and kick me as the deceitful manipulative little girls who lie and bring a bullying government burocracy to back their theft and deceit where they betray other women and call them whores when it is they who are whores.  But who cares about sex when it’s all about money and the bullies that they are their helpers are just thieves and bandits lying.

Please Lord let’s me let go and let god. Help me to trust you and your protection. Help me after of life of service get the strength another day and go out knowing that there is no protection for us in this world from the government bullies and their designatived victims and the lies and hate that they throw down upon us who would just like a space to work and heal and not be constantly looking over our back at the millions upon millions of thieves who themselves won’t go to the front line but will shoot and stab us who are doing the work and claim that their back stabbing is the reason healing has occurred when indeed the world would be a wonderful place if it weren’t for the cancer of government corruption.  

Please Lord find and remove those on that committee who could not tell right from wrong and celebrated Eva Brawn and Hitler. Please Lord let them know the consequence of their banal decisions. Help them to see the evil that their incompetence does when they support false witness and evil motives.  

Please Lord help me to focus on the small things, the flowers, the dog the cat, the little ones. Help; me to get dressed and go out there edespite knowing the corruption of this government and that’s we who do good and tell truth will find no protection or support from these drug addicted drunken enablers and their cronies.  Help me Lord to go to work today. Help me over come the fear of going out knowing that millions have done their duty despite Fascist and Communist governments and corrupt buroceracies.  Let me do my part today.

Please protect me . I beg divine protection today because I have lost all hope in the likes of Canada’s government the Trudeau thinking adn those who support false testimony and especially those racists who hate the white man and the ageist was who hate the old man and the sexists who hate the man and their infiltration of burocracy and courts and government, this small core of dedicated Bolshevist bullies with their love of money and power and their saddism and love of lies.

Please Lord help me today.

Thank you.  Cleanse my mind. Holy Spirit Come. Thank you. Help me to day to focus on gratitude.  Free me Lord. 

Porta Bote on Buntzen Lake, BC , St. Patrick’s Day

I had the perfect Kevlar canoe from Western Canoe and Kayak on Salton Road Abbotsford BC. The problem became storage. It simply took up too much room in my storage locker.

As well, last year when I was carrying it on my shoulders a young kid offered to help me. My first thought was, ‘do you know I white water canoed all my childhood and youth. Do you know I did the mighty Winnipeg River. Do you know Ive portaged miles from lake to lake in Northern Manitoba and Northern Ontario?” What I did say though  was “thank you, thank you.”  Profusely. 

 I was staggering down  a hill through trees and and bushes over uneven ground and rocks and boulders thinking I’d been a couple of years younger since I’d last done this.  Somehow the canoe had become heavier. It was probably one of the largest ones WC &K had. I’d envisioned bringing moose I’d shot out of woods with it. I did catch  one fish with it  and shot one duck with it’s help.   It did provide evenings and days of enjoyable lake canoeing, never saw white water or streams and lived a good life.  We’re it not for the storage issue I’d have never parted from it.

I also have to admit, I’m getting older. I ‘m lightening up and  scaling down.  I have an inflatable on my sailboat and an inflatable kayak I’ve used maybe once.  I sent my AB hard bottomed with 20 hp honda down to Hay Bay for the nephews to use. The sailboat GIRI is on land waiting another expedition. .  I have a 2.5 hp Honda engine and an electric.   I was looking through the internet for storage  solutions and discovered the  Porta Bote.  

A folding boat. Really.  What a novel idea!

Next one appeared synchronistically on the side of RV near by.  It was taunting me.   Another great idea. Lock it to the side of the RV for storage . I’d only thought it would fit flat in the storage locker. Now I liked that it could be mounted on the RV ready for use.   It looks just like a surf board and not  much wider.  A few inches altogether. There’s a 10 foot and and 8 foot and one bigger. 

It was at the BC Sportsman Show. Maple Marine Services of Langley, 20693 Langley Bypass, a few blocks from the centre of town, is the distributor.  They had a booth at the BC Sportsman Show at Abbotsford Tradex. I’d spoken to them at the Vancouver Boat Show but they hadn’t brought one there. I wanted to see and lift one.  I was afraid they’d be too heavy but they’re manageable. They also come with wheels which is how I had transported my ocean going folding kayak.  I just have to order the wheels. The paddles and seats came with it.  

At Maple Marine, the staff were great.  “If you’re using it mostly for yourself and the dog and maybe one other , then the 8 foot is fine. But if you’re using it with another person and the dog or maybe even want to ferry three people, then the 10 foot is the way to go. It’s also our most popular size”. 

I got the 10 foot one. The Maple Marine staff  loaded it on my Mini Cooper S.  The greens matched colour.  Very fashionable. 

I  texted my friend Kevin about all the good deals on aluminum fishing boats they had at Maple Marine. His wife Anna and the kids are great fisher folk.  A good place to buy gear, small enough to be personal but big enough to have lots of great stock.

Eric, from Star Fleet RV, mounted the brackets for the Porta Bote through my RV side ensuring it wouldn’t be going anywhere soon. Eric does amazing work.

Laura was indispensable.  I’ve been “aware” of my back this last couple of months, usually a psychic

indication that government is somehow stabbing me in the back. Probably the consequence of carbon taxes or sociopaths bearing false witness.  Laura isn’t judgemental having injured her back once.  She kindly helped me carry the Porta Bote to my truck. I can lift alone  but we had to  maneuver around picnic tables and bushes and it was  just so much easier to ask for helped.   Also a woman looks darn sexy carrying the front end of any boat.    I will get the wheels for future now that I know how easily it will assemble beside the truck and can be wheeled to the water from anywhere near then.

At Buntzen Lake I unloaded the boat  and  Laura and I carried it to the water’s edge.  Laura read the excellent instructions showing me the pictures as I put it together. I’d seen an excellent video which showed it could be put together in 15 minutes. It took me a little over 30 minutes. It’s going to be faster now that I know what to expect.  

I pushed it into the lake for the inaugural immersion. I’d forgotten the champagne bottle to break across the bow.   I used a cut up water bottle as a bailer though. . I didn’t need to use it .  The boat remained dry as a bone. No leaks.  Smooth rowing. Moves like a skiff. Lots of maneuverability. Really comfortable. 

Laura is not by nature intrepid these days. .  She has all manner of laurels for just  hanging out with me.    She did motorcycle as a kid but traded her motorcycle in for a washing machine when she had her first child. Gilbert’s blind and he’d rather stay with her than  adventure with me.  He acts like he’s protecting her.   I convinced them both to join me though. A kindly gentleman who like several others had admired the boat now came to  hold the bow  at the dock so the dog could jump down on the seat and Laura could step down after. 

 “I don’t want to go out any further. Just around here.”

“Alright, I’ll just row us about close to shore.” 

Gilbert was delighted with the boat. He’s had to deal with squishy inflatables and tippy canoes so this stable sturdy little boat  was all a dog could want. He preferred my big sailboat but has been in every boat with me since he was a puppy 8 years ago. Now he’s a blind dog and I could tell he really liked this boat.   I rowed and Laura relaxed.  Gilbert was in dog heaven.

I began singing “Michael row the boat ashore” and Laura laughed. 

After a while I brought us ashore.  Boats must be off Buntzen Lake by 630 pm.   The park closes at 7 pm.  The Porta Bote  is just skookum.

It was really easy to take apart, 10 minutes max,  to fold it down. Laura helped me carry it back to the truck.  The three seats that give it it’s sturdiness  stowed easily in the back seat of the Ford F-350
Lariat.    

Driving out of the park we picked up an ice cream bar.   Both of us agreed, what  fun the afternoon
had been.

The next outing I’ll take the electric motor.  Buntzen Lake only allows electric. I charged my marine battery and tested the electric motor that night and amazingly the thing still runs.   I’m excited now to get out on the lake with a motor and the dog. I may even catch some trout trolling or casting.

I like too that the British Everest Expeditionary group carried the Porta Bote up Everest to cross a lake high up that famous mountain to shorten the distance of their overall climb. Not that I plan to climb Everest.  It’s just  nice to know I’m geared up for it:)

Evil Phobia

The word evil like the word sin has got a bad rap from the pseudo scientific atheists masquerading as secularists.
The trend isn’t new and hopefully will burst soon like the  pimple on progress it is.
The liberal arts crowd took Darwin’s ‘survival of the fittest’ and created the  “Social Darwinism” insisting those with the most toys wins.  Very Marxian in it’s own way.  Rather reductionist and wholly unscientific.
The Darwinian hypothesis still devolving hasn’t bridged the lack of inter species evidence.  It’s defenders argue now that it’s influence can be seen at the ‘genetic level’ becoming more and more a ‘matter of faith’ than any religion before it. The trouble is ‘mutation’ and it’s tendency to die.  Difficult when a whole science is underpinned by something so, well,  fragile.  Not at all robust.  
Owen Barfields treatise on ‘saving the appearances” and the Structure of Scientific Revolutions by Thomas Kuhn are worthy explanations of these injudicious times. We are living in what the the Asians described as a period for  equal opportunity for success or failure. In other words, chaos.
Similarly language imperialism is rampant.  The internet fans the flames such that superficial or shallow knowledge of a word or ‘meme’  is more important than the in depth understanding that once made the Oxford dictionary so desirable. Today words like ‘gay’ or ‘Snowflake’ or ‘conservative’ or ‘progressive’ are changing so fast that today’s professive is really regressive and snowflakes are indeed the hot item.
Yet evil remains, quite unadulterated. .  Bad has fallen to the relative truth group.  Bad is good. But not evil. Why is that?
Sin is another word that remains off the record. The modern media doesn’t want to consider sin but will embrace ‘fake’ news.
Today, statements about morality and evil are tied  to ideas like  ‘the winner writes history’ and the ‘ends justifies the means’.  One would not expect a book like Persig’s Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance to sell today. Yet “50 shades of Grey” is the most popular female book of today even if it is porn.  
Even  pedophilia which at very least is unhealthy for one is being considered byh the new world order of globalism, in which pedophiles argue they are the ‘oppressed’.   PM Justin Trudeau just changed to age of consent? for ‘beastiality’.
What is ‘verboten” today?
‘Everything goes.” “If it feels good, do it”.  Yet a day doesn’t go by that that a new diet is conceived and everything has become ‘unhealthy’.
What is evil?
The greatest evil historically was ‘pride’ . Humility was a sense of the ‘right size’ of oneself.  Pride goest before a fall.  But if as PM Justin Trudeau says, if you kill your enemy, he wins, then clearly pride, such as his selfie addiction is alright.  Nothing really is wrong.  Unfashionable, perhaps but not ‘wrong wrong”.
But what is evil?  Historically it was consider ‘unhealthy’.
Since we all die everything we do can be considered unhealthy.  Healthy historically stood for the quantity and quality of life. But Andy Warhol said everyone deserved their 15 minutes of fame.  But as the physician is now not just the handmaiden of life but also of death, euthanasia being big bucks,  the Hippocrates Oath is out.
So what is evil?
Once there was the idea of evolution and devolution.  Once there was an idea of a heaven and a hell.  Once there was an idea of good and evil.
Today if there is no evil there is no good, surely.
So what of evil.  What of sin.  Best we not talk of them.  They might well be construed as ‘hate’ speech.  
What is evil?
Some would say its Satan acting anonymously but that would be a personification besides which we know that perception is as much as what is inside as outside.
Wouldn’t such a person who talks about Evil negatively be “Evil Phobic.”
So sad.

The Social Terrorism of "I'm concerned" COMPLAINTs, Anonymity and False Accusation

Increasingly in Canada bureaucrats have extraordinary powers and are involved in every aspects of peoples existence.  Unfortunately they are commonly poorly trained, woefully inexperienced and no longer the ‘service’ of yesteryear but now the unionized ‘fat cat’ elites with security, power, benefits and pension. They are attracted less by duty and charity and more by money and petty power and most importantly the lack of accountability that government extends to it’s ‘loyal’ servants.
I just heard of several more ‘I’m concerned’ complaints.  In all cases a passive aggressive sociopath called an agency ‘anonymously’ and advised that agency that they were ‘concerned’ . The ‘concerned’ citizens, once an asset to the community, are now the root of its destruction .They are increasingly just a ‘jail house snitch’ with an agenda.  
Without disclosing details that would expose the individuals these are the three scenarios that I learned of this week.  I’ve encountered these hundreds of times in the past most commonly when I worked on drunken “wet” northern Indian reserves and also in the DTES  urban ghetto. This has however  now  migrated to middle class society and beyond.
A professional “fired" an employee and the employee contacted the licensing body for the professional claiming that they were ‘concerned’ about that professional’s judgement and mental health.  I presumed they learned this ‘technique’ of vengefulness watching the continued caricature of this which has polluted the American political arena.
President Trump having survived countless attacks on his sanity, character, and ability to lead most recently passed ‘dementia’ tests.
A group of the most unprofessional psychiatrists in history came forward and without ‘permission’ or ‘having examined’ the patient proceeded to suggest the President was mentally ill solely because he was a Republican and they were Democrat psychiatrists.  Further  his policy changes would affect their ‘fat cat’ bureaucratic positions.  They indeed expressed their ‘concern’ and presented themselves as ‘helping’.
Meanwhile there has been a non partisan military mechanism in place for assessment and monitoring of the ‘commander in chief’. These “appointed” doctors and psychiatrists are there to serve as a ‘check and balance’.  The group of arrogant psychiatrists had no right to abuse their positions and over ride the democratic institutions. Yet these low brow thugs justified’ their ‘political assault’ on the President and democracy by claiming they were ‘concerned’. The fact is they were self serving narcissists of the lowest common denominator. These  bullies and social terrorists were quite willing to destroy the democracy, the impartiality of psychiatry,, and it’s institutions for their own personal gain. All the while they hid behind the increasingly creepy clown mask of the ‘concerned’ do gooder.
The professional in this case was suddenly ‘assessed’ by a mental health ‘team’ based on the ‘anonymous tip'. The process in the end costs thousands of dollars and was extremely frightening and abusive.  The professional felt that they were in a Communist/Fascist police state and that any ‘enemy’ could on the basis of their ‘allegation’ bring the full power of the government against the individual. Though vindicated , that individual, was denied being told who initiated the vicious attack The anonymous swaggering “concerned”  aggressor  by contrast would be rewarded with the knowledge that through  a phone call or a letter or a visit to the government office they could wield such power and destruction without any cost to themselves.    In this individual instance, they might have stayed anonymous if they hadn’t chosen to expose themselves to gloat.
I have had patients by the dozens brag about their doing this to their enemies. Mostly it’s been women fighting with other women and calling some Child Protection Agency to claim that they were “concerned”  about the ‘child’ of their sworn enemy.  This was indeed nature of the second case  I heard of this week.
A false accusation was made anonymously and this triggered  a public investigation of the husband ,wife, and children with neighbours and teachers being questioned. This occurred after the individual attacked refused to let their neighbour use their garage. The neighbour had drug addiction and increasingly has felt entitled to the property of neighbours. When  neighbours refused to loan tools or allow party cars to park on their lawns,  each one had been ‘punished’ in some such “concerned” way.  The trauma to the victims is not negligible especially as the children’s teachers are questioned and the ‘suggestion’ is always left ‘where there is smoke there is fire’.  Those without character are always happy to attack those with character.
The last one I heard about this week was regarding a dispute between two drivers about ‘territory’.  The aggressor wanted more ‘territory’ and when they were refused, the victim had the experience of having to do an alcohol and drug abuse assessment because of an anonymous call saying ‘I”m concerned."
In all these instances the individuals and families were exonerated and vindicated. The cost however was exorbitant,  the trauma likely long lasting and painful. The experience of  ‘bureurocratic police violence’ initiated by psychopaths and sociopaths destroys the fabric of the social contract.  Individuals need to feel ‘safe’ in society and the very bureaucracies tasked and paid outrageously for this service have become the principle threat to individuals. This corruption is what precedes and permeates failed states the likes of what is now unfolding in South Africa as it did before in Zimbabwe. (aka Rhodesia)  Police states such as the USSR and China thrive on and reward the informer. This “I’m concerned’ is therefore not a laughing matter.  My East European colleague did joke about the  police state he escaped from saying,  ‘we all knew one of us was an informer if two of us were talking and a third joined us.”
Research has repeatedly shown that bureaucratic agencies are utterly incompetent of recognizing psychopaths and sociopaths. Desperately wanting to be seen as ‘good’ and “caring’ , and utterly fearing loss of their protected cushy committee positions, they  err on the side of becoming the agent of social violence in their false belief that they are ‘protecting the community’.
By contrast judges trained to address ‘motive’ and well versed in the manipulative cunning deceits of sociopaths and psychopaths commonly correct the bureaucratic errors of these pseudo judicial agencies that increasingly in such cases are little more than ‘Kangaroo Courts’.  Judicial oversight unfortunately is too costly and the legal system due to the intrinsic high cost serves mostly the governemnt and the wealthy and powerful.
As the country devolves to a third world state it behooves us all to demand that these increasingly corrupted  quasi judicial bureurocratic committees have their inordinate power vastly curtailed.  In addition  individuals who wield such power must  have the training in the psychology and passive and overtly aggressive techniques of the ‘I’m concerned” aggressors. They must be taught what real justices know about the the techniques of the usually charming and seductive sociopaths and psychopaths that routinely abuse others and the community at large.  
A judge knows that the “I’m concerned’ is often the opening gambit of sophisticated assault.  Hitler always said he was ‘concerned’ before he invaded a neighbouring country.