FACE BOOK AND THE POLITICS of SPECIAL STATUS

I like the connection with friends on Facebook It’s been enjoyable to reconnect, if only in that flat unidimensional, phone call type way that is Facebook.  It’s been fun.  I love that I am in touch with my family.  My brother since has created a circular email. Opening that is now more enjoyable than Facebook.  I’m thinking of leaving Facebook.  It’s timely.  I love the humour.  It’s was my only connection with the ‘news’ and I enjoyed the ‘diversity’ of opinion till the last election. Then the sociopaths came out.  The AD HOMINEM attacks took their toll.  All the hate speech against the Prime Minister, a man I admired. Now I continue to express my loathing for the present regime.  The leader offends so much I believe in and aging I want death rather than to live in HIS CANADA.  My Canada is a place of freedom and meritocracy.  HIS Canada is ENTITLEMENT and bureaucracy and waste, partisanship, corruption and CHARM.  I have found myself in debate after debate only to be pilloried and condemn constantly by ‘name calling’ trolls.  It’s wearying after the work I do and the threats I live with.  Those who ‘fight’ my ‘opinion’  because Justin Trudeau and the Liberals say they want ‘diversity’ but the fact remains the Political Correct ‘want no opinion but their own’.  The left is totalitarian and their views are more religiously held than any others. We can’t even ‘agree to disagree’ because they demand my ‘conversion’.  I don’t agree.
Then there was the ‘lets all smoke pot’ agenda.  I mourn the countless hours of free pro bono time my health care friends and I put into arguing against the rich psychopathic ‘smoke’ Tobacco companies. Now the rich psychopathic ‘smoke’ Marijuana companies with their billions of tax free money and crime association constantly mis inform and promote their product.  I’m a prophet crying in the dessert.  The same groups said cocaine was not addictive.  So more and more on Facebook when I put forward a medical fact, share an interesting new thought in an area where I’m a specialist, addiction, I’m literally hammered with AD HOMINEM.  Nasty name calling.  I’m beginning to feel like I’m back in an abusive marriage with Facebook.  All the trauma of all the cutting remarks and put downs and attacks and viciousness that caused me to walk away seem here once again with this multiple personality disorder Facebook persona.
I love the humour. I love the puppy dogs. I love the cats. I love the inspirational messages.
But when Obama and Merkel and Justin Trudeau said bringing in hundreds of thousands of immigrants was good and safe,  I said, ‘whoa’.  Excuse me.  All my University level study of Sociology and Anthropology says that large movements of people quickly into other groups is the basis of civil war and societal destruction.  So I said, heck, what’s the rush.  And then the leaders lied.  “Islam is a religion of peace.”  That’s like saying ‘China is a country of Civil Liberties” or “Russia and US are countries of peace’.  These are bald faced lies.  The tragedy is if you tell a lie enough times people begin to believe it.  Further these same bullies and diabolical fiends began to rewrite history.  Christians were the enemy and Muslims were defensive. The stupidity of so many Canadians it appeared is that they didn’t know the history of the crusades and didn’t wish to study the history of the muslims.  So I systematically, already having a masters of divinity, already having many muslim friends and having trained with muslims and studied muslims studied their religion. I’d read the Koran already but I took the time to study really study history and the Muslim religions.  Everyday I’d listen to university audio tapes driving to and from work, learning about the teachings and the variety of disputes. I’d ask all the many muslims I knew and loved about their religion.  I’d travel to Turkey and hire a professor of religion and history spending every day walking through mosques asking questions reading at night about the ideas.  I thought as I always thought as education has taught me to think, maybe I ‘m wrong, maybe I’m missing something.
The conclusion was the Justin Trudeau and Obama are lying.  Islam is no more a religion of Peace than America as a nation of peace.  Good advertising.  Good marketing but the truth is far different.  Fundamentally Mohammed was a war lord and a killer and pedophile.  Jesus was son of God,  teacher, healer,  non violent.  The New Testament, the Gospel teaches love.  the Koran, like the Jewish Torah, is a mix of tribal history and guerrilla warfare teaching coupled with passages of peace and love.  Mohammed said war was the ‘lesser jihad’ whereas peace was the ‘greater Jihad’ of Islam.  Islam is a religion of war.  Now the greatest, and fewest of muslims, like Rumi know that all physical language refers to the spiritual paradoxically.  So the war that is central to Hindu texts is about the  war in each of us between right and wrong.  The war between Jesus and Satan is the war within each of us between right and wrong, love and fear.  I am ‘interpreting’ this but those who have a ‘mystical’ idea about any religion are the extreme minority. Even Buddhists are killing each other in a war over a temple in Thailand.
So Rumi, Buddha, Gandhi, Jesus, Martin Luther, may all ’teach’ peace but their followers and all the elites of the world who want power and have great greed and lust will and do use religion as a weapon for their own agenda, self aggrandizement.  The only relevant atheist political expression to date is Communism and it killed more people more efficiently than any religious based nations state in history.  Islam is no more a religion of peace than Judaism is a religion of peace. That doesn’t mean there are not a whole lot of peaceful Jews and Muslims.
The trouble is, Nazis were a very small minority of Germany and this minority lead Germany to war.  Napoleon did the same in France.  Justin Trudeau has only about a third of actual Canadian support but he insists on grandiosely speaking in the ROYAL WE.  WE, CANADIANS.  CANADIANS WANT.  I am constantly excluded by his words. Like all communists his language is language of exclusion.  If you don’t agree with me you are not a Canadian.
This is difficult for me because “Patriotism is the last refuge to which a scoundrel clings.”  I’m not a high self esteem guy.  I’m at best an egomaniac with an inferiority complex.  I have courage, which means that I do the right thing despite the incredible terror I feel.  I get up go to work, eat, sleep and participate in Canada but Justin Trudeau and the Liberals say I am not a Canadian.  The message I hear from him every day is ‘if you don’t agree with me , get the fuck out’.
Now on FACEBOOK I have had to hear repeatedly:
“Get the fuck out of Canada."
“Shut the fuck up"
“You are ignorant."
“You are uneducated."
“You don’t know what you’re talking about"
“You’re wrong”.

I heard enough of this when I was married.  I remember my marriages as he said she said. We’d disagree and then the name calling would begin.  I have always been ‘defensive’.  I played defence in hockey.  I have been in a number of street fights but never hit first.  I actually avoid fights to the best of my ability because “first strike defence’ is the paranoids mantra.  And today everyone it feels “entitled” to attack because they are the victim.
I’m a white male.  White males aren’t allowed to be individually victims.
There is a flavour of the month victim board somewhere.
All my life these groups were the designated victims
1) Children  - I’ve never hit a child but I’ve been cut and bruised by rock throwing gangs of children.  I’ve been punched by children.  Teen agers up to the age of 18 , maybe 21 are considered children. The law has had a special status for children as victims.  So a gang of 18 year olds out of the blew surround and try to attack me coming home from the theatre with my wife.  As I chase these knife wielding Canadian children off I am fully aware that my police and courts that I pay half my income, and the media in Canada will condemn me if I hurt one of these little angels.  But because I put up a good resistance they flee.  My liberal wife is upset with my ‘language’.   ‘Did you not see the fucking knife!”  Yes but did you have to say you’d rip off their limbs and feed them to their mother….you frightened me. “  My wife was as silly as Margaret Trudeau who said Morocco was perfectly safe for western women when I was staying in the rooms of a western woman murdered that week and the posts in the city had countless posters of lost blond american and canadian and european girls kidnaped for the sex trade. Margaret Trudeau failed to notice or mention that the Australian Rugby team was her companions in Morocco.  The princess is always so self absorbed that she never even notices her parents or the men or servants who make her life ‘safe’.  So maybe 99% of children and teen agers are victims but maybe just maybe .001 % of children and teen agers aren’t.
2) Women - all my life women have been the victim. I was brought up in a home and Christian community where ‘chivalry’ and protection of women was central.  In the cowboy dogma of my youth a man “never hit a woman’.  I was a women’s liberationist and even a feminist. I was immersed in all the propaganda of the ‘woman as underdog’ and man as the abuser.  Then it got personal.  All men are rapists.  All men hate women.  This sloganeering just didn’t jive with me my father, my brother or my friends.  I knew individuals but then I lived in a country where the most privileged person was our QUEEN.  QUEEN ELIZABETH WAS NOT A VICTIM. QUEEN ELIZABETH was a woman.  So the delusions of the leftist feminist ideology wore thin in time.  A half dozen women physically hit me. I walked away. I had excuses for that. Women didn’t handle their drink.  Women would apologize and say they hit me because their last boyfriend hit them.  Women asked me to hit them.  Women asked me to shit one them.  I refused.  I got hit really hard trying to escape from violent women.  “You can’t leave me!” she scream. “No man has ever left me!!”  I ‘m growing deaf in the left ear. I put it down to shooting rifles but it could well be the cauliflower ear I was given by the woman bashing me as I tried to get out of the door.
“Women are never violent unless they have been attacked’ was the halcyon cry of the Canadian courts.
I’ve been attacked when I said “I’ve got to get some sleep, I work in the morning’ and the woman has been screaming for four hours and wants to keep screaming.  I’ve got up to go to a hotel to get some sleep so I don’t kill a patient in surgery in the morning and have been hit leaving the room.
I remember another woman telling me , ‘you can’t go to the hospital. you can’t leave me because you’re on call. you tell them you can’t come . if you cared for me you’d stay’.  That was the end of that relationship.
All my life men have been called the persecutors.  First chivalry then feminism then radical feminism and then the insanity of sexist women today, angry violent and lying, always claiming the victim role a bit like Israel in every interaction with the Palestinians.
And personally,  I HAVE NEVER HIT A WOMAN.  I HAVE been hit several times by women. Women have threatened my life.  Women have had their boyfriends hit me because my wives have pissed them off. I’ve fought a couple of low brows and hurt these thugs because their girl friends thought my wife was ‘disrespecting them’.   I can say I’ve not felt good punching a stupid sick brute who is only trying to please his mommy girlfriend.
I’ve never raped or sexually assaulted a woman.  But I was raped as a young man.  Sexually assaulted for sure.  I even had a woman ‘take advantage of me’ sexually when i was comatose at a party too drunk and stoned to move.  She undressed me and fondled me and climbed on top of me and was angry because I ejaculated immediately.  I didn’t feel good about that. I know I am supposed to.  She was older. I know she had sex with several other men that night so it’s probably wasn’t ‘assault’ and at best it could be said ‘she took advantage of me’ . I know if a man did that to a woman it would be rape.  Then I’ve had to live with double standards all my life. Mostly  I have been afraid to question them because when I do my freedom is threatened, violence is threatened, and I’m verbally abused to say the least.
But I’ve seen the dangers that my wives and girlfriends had had to face and the threats to them physically that they’ve known so I do appreciate their ‘vulnerability’.  When I was young I fought three guys trying to pick on a physically littler guy.  Most of the women I ‘ve known are physically littler and with rare exception most of women I’ve known have been physically incompetent to defend themselves. It’s saddened me.   I’ve only admired the few mature women I’ve known who were competent in martial arts and weapons.  I love the women I know who can take care of themselves personally.  My grandmother could take care of herself.  I liked working in the country because generally the women were so much less dependent than their city sisters.  The country women could shoot and ride horses. My ex wife, a city girl, was highly competent physically, a good shot and horsewoman, sailor and physically canny in Canada though out of Vancouver she was forever getting us in dangerous situations.  She’d piss off women native to their countries and the women would talk to the men and the men would threaten my life telling me to ‘control’ my wife.  She wasnt easy to control when she was sober let alone when she was drunk. The wives and girl friends who drank and did drugs weren't very lady like, not that I 'verbally' was a gentleman.   What canadian woman is controllable either.  So I’d get pushed around. I remember three guys pushing me about after my drunken wife had hit one of their wives.  Women do that sort of thing but you aren't supposed to talk about it.  Domestic violence studies show that 50% or more of the violence is female generated but that's not what the politics and courts say.  SPECIAL VICTIM STATUS. One female judge in Canada found 350 plus cases consecutively against the man.
Still,  maybe 99% of women are victims ,but maybe just maybe .000001% aren’t always and ever victims.  Just maybe.
A(n RCMP just knocked on the door. Gilbert had a marvellous time barking and defending the home. I had to throw on pants and go out side.  A woman had been sexually assaulted walking alone in the woods at night.  They were going door to door showing us pictures of this scruffy guy.  The chivalry part of me came on board. I have seen the damage first hand of sexual assault specially from the pedophiles and hate that the girls of Cologne and Rothingham are being raped and silenced.  It’s so sad.  I just don’t know.  I look at the picture.  I look at the young cop. )
I don’t want to be around children and I don’t feel safe around women though. I don’t know.  I was falsely accused by a crack cocaine addicted ex prostitute of sexually harassing her.  All she said was lies.  She was trying to extort $5000 told me she’d ‘accuse me of sexual assault if I didn’t give her $5000”.  I’d caught her stealing.  I wanted her to leave.  The lawyer who cost me $10,000 told me ‘this happens all the time, we always recommend men pay”.  I talked to dozens of men in business and learned that everyone of them had been ‘shook’ down at some point. They all laughed at me because ‘the going price is ‘$2000”.  “When ever we fire women they do this.”  “It’s happened a dozen times in our firm”.  A million dollars in time and energy,  thousands of dollars later, I was exonerated but she got the money in the end because the bureaucracy all on salary all committed to the ‘innocence of all women’ and ‘all men are rapists’ and ‘solidarity with women’ simply could not accept that one man might be innocent.
“Women never lie about sex, “ said the College of Physican Assistant Registrar, a female physician.
The Vancouver police said, “when we sent an officer to get the stuff she’d stolen, she said "of course she'd taken it and no she wasn't giving it back and further t4hat our officer had sexually harassed her. We’re sorry we’ve closed the file. “ Cowards.  Or smart.  I've been involved in a half dozen or more false sexual assault cases, and mostly it's been women who have stopped the lying psychopaths.  In one case though it was the police coroner who was at the site of the crime and diagnosed the woman had faked her wounds. She admitted to me she'd lied about being raped over and over again for money ,for revenge. "It was easy."

Still maybe 99% of women are victims but maybe .00000000001% aren’t.  My mother was a saint like Mary so it’s always hard for a man especially one who is divorced and knows he failed his marriages to think it's not his own inherent failure as a human. ‘  The judge said ‘you should give her everything. You can’t expect 50%.  You didn’t care for her enough.  A man shouldn’t expect anything after a divorce.”
That song, “Id rather be a hammer than a nail’ rings in my ears at times like that.
And the Christian white male in me says, “you’re a sinner.’  And Noblesse oblige.  And ‘I tried. I did my best’.  “Your best isn’t good enough’.  ‘I never meant for her to cry’.  “It doesn’t matter what you wanted. She’s crying.  You’re responsible for women crying.’  “it’s all your fault’.  I’d been brought up that way.  So I blamed myself. I curled up in a fetal position and waited till the kicking stopped.
I was poor.
I was homeless.
I was without food.
I was hungry.
I couldn’t work.
I accepted church charity.
I was on disability.
I was in jail.
I was in the psychiatric asylum.
But never was I told it wasn’t my fault. Always I was blamed.  Always people were angry with me and always there was punishment with a smile.  If ever I said to my mother or to any one, “she….’ I was told to shut up or was hit.’  If ever as a child, and I remember 6 years old, said ‘But he did….” i was told and hit and said’ It doesn’t matter what he or she did, you had no right to ‘react’.  You’re a man.
So when the female teacher stripped me in class in kindergarten and caned me naked , she was the victim. When the principals caned me I was the evil one.  When my mother or father hit me they said, “You make us hit you. If we don’t hit you the teachers or police will hit you harder and they may hit us so we’re doing this for your own good.”   And when I ran away as a teen ager my parents were told that they didn’t hit me enough and that they should lock me up like a dog. I heard the police chief telling my dad that and saw how sad my gentle father was to be told he had to hit and imprison his son.  The teacher had knocked me out with a wooden hammer thrown at my head and I’d had an egg the size of a golf ball in my forehead. My crime was I didn't stop what I was doing quick enough and he was making an 'example' of me. When my parents objected they were told that the teachers all agreed that ‘Billy Hay wasn’t beaten enough’ and that ‘his parents should beat him more’.  I lived in terror that year and didn’t so much want to run away from my home, where I knew my parents loved me, but from Canada.  I wanted to go to California but changed my mind. It was winter and I didn’t want to upset my mom and dad.  So I came home but my parents had contacted the police and they came in and talked to my dad.  I’d only been gone a few hours but it was winter in Canada and the adults knew a 16 or 17 year old kid might die alone in winter.  They cared in their own way.
But maybe only women are victims.  Maybe only feminist women are real victims.  Anally raped I wasn’t really raped because I wasn’t vaginally raped.  I never could be a victim with a woman. They had that all sewed up.   it was their “SPECIAL STATUS” and men weren’t going hone into their FRANCHISE or move in on their BRAND.
Still, maybe 99% of women are victims but what if maybe .00000000000001% aren’t.  That thought is still going to be the death of me.   I’ve already gone through so much ‘sensitivity training’. The doctors and men in general are forever getting told we're not good enough and that we're neanderthals and that we have to change.   It just hasn’t taken. I don't want to live anywhere where there are women and children.  I understand those adults only and especially those elder adults only living places because the old men just aren't safe today.   Like the Climate Change pseudoscientist position that ‘the consensus of scientists agree with the UN so this topic is closed and no one can question it or we’ll send them to jail’.  Huh?!
I’m just too radical.  “You are either with us or agin us” I”ve been told over and over again. “All or nothing’.  No maybe. No middle of the road.  All or nothing. YES or NO?
Lie, you idiot. Fuddle Duck,  say Fuddle Duck, my Liberal friends say. Lying always works for the left.  I just don't do it.  It's a character flaw.  I am truth teller.  I'm working on discernment. I'm trying desperately to avoid people and places where lying is the fashion.

3) Quebec - all my life Quebec has been the VICTIM.  Quebec and the French  ngrates have been telling me about their mistreatment since Waterloo and the Plains of Abraham.  All my life as an Western English Canadian I’ve been told that the French have “SPECIAL STATUS” and that I am am their victimizer.  Even after they got countless billions of dollars from Western English Canadians they bite the hand that feeds, threaten to leave and call us all stupid shits.  Fuck you English.
I have been required to learn French. I’ve paid for everything French and then one day in Montreal the French took down all the English signs.  There was no social justice in Quebec.  There was no level playing field.  Further as a Canadian I learned that I couldn’t get work in Quebec because my 12 years of high school French didn’t make my ‘language’ strong enough.  Further I was disenfranchised as a Western Canadian because I could never speak both languages well enough for the French ‘language police’.  Indeed I was never welcomed in any of the Federal government positions because I was ‘linguistically disabled’.  But this ‘disability’ was considered ‘offensive’ and ‘punishable’ and I suffered a great deal by being told I’d never be able to lead in Canada because my English accent ‘offended the ears of the Quebec’.  My St Boniface room mate was humiliated in Quebec by their ridiculing him for his St. Boniface accent.  If he, a fully bilingual person was to be inadequate there was little hope for me.
So maybe 99% of Quebec are victims, what about the .0001%?
3) Jews - Jews have always been victims as long as I’ve been on the planet.  AUSCHWITZ gave them pride of place.  And really I supported them and supporting my Jewish friends my life and my families life was threatened.  There is antisemeticsm.  But when a group of Jews were caught for theft and claimed that they were ‘victims of antisemiticism’  it seemed a bit far fetched.  And over time I saw that the Auschwitz Brand competed with the Rwanda Brand and the Cambodia Brand and the SUDAN brand.  This was a marketing issue not a humanitarian issue.  Then there was the day that the Israelis invaded a ship at sea and claimed they were the victims but I’m a sea captain. And I couldn’t really identify with the Israeli air gunships and machine guns because as a ship captain I identified with the ship captain whose ship was invaded by pirates.  So I had problems with Israelis as always the victims especially when I heard my Palestinian Christian tell me how her Christian people were persecuted.  So yes the Jews are victims 90% of the time but 10% of the time maybe not.  I was called ‘anti semiotic ‘ when I voiced this thought. So maybe 99% of the time and .001% maybe?
I remembered my wife shouting at me, “you will agree with me when I’m wrong’.  True, loyalty is important and we don’t need each other’s loyalty as much when we’re right.  Thankfully most of my jewish friends were moderates whatever that means to a Jew.  I suspect mostly I’m not considered a threat because I’m irrelevant.  My Jewish friend says he’s considered ‘irrelevant’ by the Jews that matter.  We are the marginalized but ‘we’re not allowed to be victims’.  We don’t get “SPECIAL STATUS” .  Victimship does get Special Status.  There is a major competition for ‘special status’ too because it’s not only lucrative but it’s powerful.
4)Indians/aboriginals/indigenous/first nations - all my life the aboriginals have been victims.  What more can I say.  White man is the oppressor of aboriginals though elsewhere black men oppressed the aboriginals and brown men and red yellow men oppressed the aboriginals as did red men oppress red men.  So while it’s ‘racist’ to single out the white man as the oppressor it’s acceptable for a black woman to oppress a brown man.  In Canada with it’s multiculturalism and liberalism all this wasn’t complicated but then it was.  With immigration the competition for victim status heated up.  Further the French , notorious oppressors of aboriginals, because they were oppressed didn’t have to deal with the issue of oppression till recently when it was recognized French Canadian men were indeed white and according to the Marxist play, white men rape women.  Now Quebec is an oppressor of aboriginals and the rising number of aboriginals and the increasing wealth of aboriginals makes them a major powerful lobby competitive with the Jewish Lobby, The Quebec Lobby and the Women Lobby.
I’ve never hit an Aboriginal.  My cousins are aboriginal.  I grew up defending aboriginals and have given millions of dollars of my time pro bono to aboriginals.  I’ve been threatened by aboriginals. Aboriginals tried to kill me when I was saving the life of an aboriginal.  When I tried to stop an aboriginal woman being raped in a back ally she shouted at me, “I’d rather be raped by an Indian than saved by a whitey”.  At that moment a group of guys ,aboriginal (we called them Indians back then) f came around the corner and I had to run for my life grabbing my girlfriend who’d said ‘aren’t you going to do something’ when we saw the girl being pushed down on the sidewalk.  Later she’d say, “why did you get  involved, you almost got me killed. You know how frightening that was for me.”
When an Indian was shooting at me screaming ‘kill the whitey’ one day and bullets were flying by my head because he mistakenly thought I was on aboriginal land when I shot a grouse I didn’t feel like a victimizer.But maybe his great great grandfather was victimized by someone else's great great grandfather and I was getting the hand me downs.  My great great grandfathers were getting the shit kicked out of them by the English in Ireland or Culloden.  But no one can mention Culloden. Irish Slaves and Culloden don't fit the PC Narrative.
But other than my Metis cousins, despite helping countless natives for decades,  I’ve always had the uncanny feeling that natives would not help me. Indeed I have challenged my native friends about how they only beg and demand for themselves and never help others. I’ve pointed out that Jews help all manner of underdogs as I myself have.  My French Canadian room mate would have given his life to protect me.  With the Jews I expect that there may be an element of Marxist wisdom in keeping perpetual warfare going so they as a minority group can take advantage of the never ending war.  The women I've always helped seemed to take it as 'entitlement'.  I've given fortunes to women and they've always just laughed at what a sucker men are.  My mother loved me more than anyone and my aunts were jewels so I really should be thankful.  I've had great female friends.
Other Jewish and Muslem and secular friends, the physician and psychiatrist friends , are just as stupid as me . We admit we’d take a bullet out of Jesus, Mohammed, Hitler and Stalin and Obama and Justin Trudeau and Nixon and Buddha.  We’re an indiscriminate lot as physicians and none of my friends who aren’t physicians understand why I’m so concerned that the Bahrain doctors were imprisoned for treating partisans and non partisans.  It challenges my fundamental belief system and makes me wonder if I became a doctor because we never have to choose sides. But today all countries are targeting the red cross and in Vancouver the rioters attacked the ambulances.  So I m beginning to think that doctors and nurses need to be issued hand guns because increasingly we’re being attacked.   I've been threatened with guns and knives and struck in my office or at the hospital. I’ve been attacked a half dozen times in my work and never have the authorities cared. They’re in rank denial about the danger of the front line care givers  all the while they cowardly stay as far as humanly possible from the real work and heavy lifting of front line medicine and surgery.Beaurocrats in general lead from behind.  Like the Communists who shot the soldiers from behind to get them to go forward.  Corporate ship captains these days are demanding to be the first to leave their sinking ships.
So I don’t know, it’s just that I now know Aboriginal Millionaires.  My aboriginal lawyer friend is arrogant, obnoxious,  pompous and vengeful.  Meanwhile my aboriginal leader friend with countless grandchildren had two of his houses burned  down by his own people but is as close to Martin Luther as anyone I know, a truly loving peaceful quiet elder . His successes have helped so many aboriginal people he’s become envied by those he helped. The TALL POPPY syndrome is very much alive in Canada.
It still seems  though that while 99% of aboriginals are victims maybe .0001% aren’t.
5) Blacks;   I grew up with all manner of immigrants around.  Mom and Dad travelled and befriended people from other countries. So our friendship network included poles, ukranians, filipinos,  blacks,  chinese, catholics,even, jews, americans, just about anyone who was competent.  If you worked and weren’t a ’shirker’ you were alright with the family.  Part of that was being Baptist.  There was only one Jew and one black person and one chinese person in my neighbourhood growing up.   As protestants we thought the Catholics were the ‘other’.  If someone accused my Irish mother of being “Caholicphobic’ they’d be right on because Grandad was an orange man and he’d left Ireland because he got tired of Catholics blowing things up.  He came to Canada because it was peace fl.Then the Immigrants brought their wars with them. And the East Indians blew up the Canadian air plane.  Dukabors burnt down houses. Dad just shook his head and said the people should leave their wars behind.
My friend is black.  He’s an American Canadian immigrant.  He loves Canada.  When he talks about the Southern States he’s pretty angry. I’ve never thought he thinks I’m white. I’ve only started thinking about him as Black when I began getting called RACIST for questioning Muslim Syrians being fast tracked to Canada with all the evidence of riots in Europe, hundreds of women attacked in Cologne, the Muslim pedophila rings in Britain and the Angry Muslem men in Eastern Canada shouting at Canadians about their right to have sex with 9 yo girls while the LIBERALS are supporting SHARIA LAW courts for Muslems to complement the ABORIGINAL COURTS for aboriginals. I didn't even think of the Syrians as a 'race'.  I certainly wasn't Islamophobe because I've never had anything but admiration for the Sufi's. A couple of my greatest mentors were Egyptian.  They were psychiatrists. I might have thought less of them if they were surgeons but I never thought of them as 'other'.
I know some really rich and important black people in Canada and they don’t seem like Victims to me.  I suppose EVERY MINORITY IS A VICTIM according to PC but I just don’t see it individually.  The richest family in Canada is apparently Scottish but individually he’s not personally helped me though I accept I’ve been blessed to have been born in Canada. I'm eternally grateful that I wasn't born elsewhere. Being a Toronto Maple Leaf fan I was abused for years and only became accepted in the sporting world when I moved to Vancouver and started supporting the Canucks.  The fact is black hasn’t been part of my world except for a couple of black friends. I’ve never fought a black . I grew up with a black doctor who was the best doctor a boy could have when he was desperately sick.  I just missed out on the black thing. The media is full of blacks that sure haven't missed out on the white thing. The white thing is all they seem to talk about.  I have to admit I really like the Black guys called the Black criminals and wankers on their shit.  Like the one guy who said 'how can it help the black people if black people take every opportunity to have a riot so they can break into black people's stores and steal their cvs'.  Reason doesn't affect the irrational emotional sensationalist PC Leftist crowd. They don't listen to anything but their VICTIM mantras.
It also doesn’t mean that complete  strangers don’t call me “RACIST WHITE SHIT” all the time not even knowing me.
And I’ve put my time , my money and my work into helping people regardless of race and as a physician I’m poor today because I worked with the poor and marginalized.  You get rich by being a doctor to the rich. it’s not rocket science. The richest doctors are the cosmetic plastic surgeons because they don’t help the sick, they help the rich and well.  Doc Holiday might well do a little work in a burn unit but the money is where the rich and powerful and well are.  I’ve always worked in the dark alleys of this world with the needy.  That doesn’t count at all.It certainly doesn't pay.
Activists are a special group like journalists and critics in general.  They are above looking at facts. They just talk and make money off criticizing everyone.  I’ve lost money off helping people . I did years of pro bono work only to be condemned time and again in the rich Canadian courts for helping people who the courts clearly wanted to be denied ‘their day in the courts’.  Journalists have attacked me for my pro bono work helping women in recovery.  Whole columns have been written against me for years of pro bono work.  I’ve been condemned by my colleagues even for helping schizophrenics.  R.D. Laing the great defender of Schizophrenics was pilloried by his society.  It’s not new.
If you stand up you make yourself a target. I know I'm not alone too.  Just stupider than my colleagues.
If you are a ‘good samaritan’ in Canada you are running a risk of being destroyed along with those you help.  When you get to heaven , St. Peter asks you, “show me your scars’.  If you have none, he says, “didn’t you find anyone or anything worth fighting for.  Didn’t you learn how to love.”
So again, I ask what if 99% of Blacks are perfect and only .00001% are maybe questionable.  And then if there is a bad black like Idi Amin, say a black man is a murdering rapist, do I have to call him a RADICAL BLACK to be politically correct?  And like, duh, the Queen of England and Canada is a woman and Obama is black. He’s the President of the most powerful country in history.So they're victims right, and because I'm a poor old white guy I'm the bad guy, right.?   I just want to know if I've got this straight.
 6) Gays, Lesbians, Transexual, Non Binary, Transvestites - I’m a male transvestite. I wear kilts and have even worn gowns but w’ere persecuted as perverts. My strictly gay friends are now ‘accepted’ victims’ . Gays and Lesbians have higher special status in the Sexual Victim Registry with the Transexuals vying desperately to catch up and get the same perks but it still happens that Transwomen are rejected by the biological women and transmen by the the biological men and both by gays and lesbians.  But the transvestites they’re ridiculous. They're Monty Python and Benny Hill material.
When I got dressed up for the famous Vancouver ball, a group of men , drove down Davie street shouting obscenities and threats  at all of us.  I felt really vulnerable in high heels and felt a lot of sympathy for women then.  Men dressed as women. Women dressed as men that night.   It’s a very funny charity fund raiser.   The drag queen ball.  I’ve also done the Rocky Horror Picture show in lingerie with my toilet roll ready in my hand.   I do dress up for Halloween too and wore a diaper once but mostly preferred pirate attire. All women in the west are Transvestites.  Still when I put on a kilt for Robby Burns night I get asked by Asians, “why are men dressing like women tonight.?”  So as a tainted heterosexual , once raped . you are an outsider. At best  you get to be a bisexual.  Then bisexuals are the most outside in the sexual world, not homosexual enough or heterosexual enough and thoroughly stigmatized.  Asexual isn’t too good either since the priests ruined it for the monks and hermits.    Wanker is the most acceptable slur today. Calling a person a masturbator is still fair game.  I’ve been called every sexually negative word by someone sometime and never has it related to sex.  When my ATV was stolen, the thief said,  “Of course I stole the homos’s ATV” Of course the police and courts didn’t do anything because ‘sexual status’ isn’t quite there yet as I learned helping AIDS patients.  In a game of Victim STATUS chess the lowest one is still a pedophile. But all the other sexual deviants including the S&M crowd are fair game. The SODOMITES are a particularly bad lot. And watching Porn of any kind still costs men their jobs all the time, but women can watch erotica.  50 Shades of Grey, a more disgusting book than any Penthouse letters ever was is okay because the billionaire has his lawyers get the virgin to sign a consent form before he whisks her off in his helicopter.
But what if we agreed 99% of the perverts are saints is it possible that .000001% of this group could be wrong maybe once? Maybe once.
7) Immigrants - My grandfather’s and grandmother’s were immigrants and I didn’t hear them ever whine about Canada.  They were critical about the British Empire but would have fought as Canadians if called up to do so. Certainly my father joined the Royal Canadian Air Force and served in World War II as a bombardier.  He was scared he told me but never shot at.  He was scared of the stupidity of the officers and the things that were expected of soldiers.  He described a few occasions when he nearly died doing something that looked good on a map but didn’t take into account ravines and cliffs and such. Military ’timelines’ were myths that humans were expected to be superhuman to meet for the sake of officers who were good and bad.  Dad’s most important lesson he learned in the military he said, was “Never Volunteer’.  His best camaraderie though was with ex service men or the men he worked with.
Canada is a country of immigrants. All my life I’ve been surrounded by immigrants. Even though my best friends have been French Canadians and other Immigrant Canadians, I’m called XENOPHOBIC and RACIST constantly simply  because I question our immigration board letting in a 3 time  drug dealer murderer from Cuba who has done time in Cuban and US Jails and tells me he thought the people he killed needed killing.  I wonder what this guy is doing in Canada. When I ask this question i'm called a XENOPHOBE.  The scares even me and I’m attacked for asking the question.  Really, verbally attacked.
Always my ‘license to practice medicine’ is threatened whenever I say anything ‘POLITICALLY INCORRECT”.  Where physicians were once the voice of reason in politics now all my colleagues, all those I know, say, “I can’t afford to get involved in politics. The College of Physicians and Surgeons would have my license.”  “Look what happened to…….and the list goes on”.
The beauorocratic attack politically is never direct. it’s always indirect. The COMMUNISTS were the best. When I was with the Psychiatrists against Political Abuse of Psychiatry, I learned how the game worked.  It’s standard operating procedure in guerrilla warfare.  “FIND SOME DIRT ON HIM and if you can’t find dirt on her, make it up”.
But I’m tired of defending my Grandfather and Grandmother as immigrants. The issue was never about immigration.  Pierre Trudeau changed the laws regarding immigration to discourage the ‘needed’ immigrants and encourage those who were sick   My black doctor friend said, “I only came to Canada because my parents  needed dialysis.  We wanted to go to the states but we couldn’t afford to pay for dialysis. That’s why all my friends came to Canada because they have sick or disabled family who were costing them too much in our country.  Now as a doctor here myself I can’t appreciate that the free health care system means I get paid very little and pay exorbitant taxes. In the end it’s better than where I came from."
8) Vegetarians/Anti Vaccers/Scent Senstives…etc etc…etc.
I am a hunter and a fisherman. I was a strict vegetarian for years and then an egg and fish guy then an egg fish and fowl guy then a bloody moose ,venison and bear loving Canadian who is the scum of the earth because while I’ve shot my food with a bow, shoot deer with bow and arrow, and hunted pigs with spears (scariest thing I’ve done;the pigs all got away and I ran away) I’m the enemy of all. I’m the evil one.  I’m a chicken killer.  All those whose families have ever in the history of the world, in all 100,000 years who have ever eaten meat are suspect and abusing the poor vegetarians and their pure food diet people.  I’m to be outlawed. The stigma against me is so great that I have to pay a fortune for the rifles I own and have been put in special registry of dirty bad Canadians who are watched 24/7 by the law because they are evil.  Anyone who has killed an animal is SATAN.  The poor vegetarians are victimized by our presence in their midst. They line up on streets showing pictures of chickens being killed.  I noticed they’re wearing leather and things like that but that just inflames them .  I been spat on by people who have told me that ‘people like you need to be killed so the plants can live’.  I say I’m killing the deer to save the plants and they look at me with disdain and chant ‘killer killer killer’.  Vegetarians are holy.

The fact is I find it hard to kill animals and when I raised chickens I found it really  hard to kill the chickens I raised.  I don’t even like killing fish.  But then I felt sentimental about pulling up carrots.  I am a big sissy and I’ve been called a sissy countless times.  I’ve been called a killer and a sissy and an old white guy and all manner of horrible hate names. These are just the english terms.  I’m sometimes interested in what I overhead when two people were pointing at me and calling me something as I was walking by. Just walking down the street in Canada or some other country, and much to my surprise,s I’ve looked up the word and I’ve learned that there are countless words in other languages that translate roughly to something like ‘nigger’ would in our english language. But it’s okay for people to use those words , words like ‘smuck’ or ‘round eyes’ but it’s not okay if they’re translated. My French friend told me just some of the french canadian "hate language"words for the English. Oddly they seemed to have some religious slur thrown in. But the vegetarians seem to get all the venom needed in ‘meat eater’.
I guess ‘cannibal’ doesn’t need a lot of dressing on it.  If my neighbour ate my child and I was trying to be wholly inclusive and avoiding hate speech I might slur ‘cannibal’ at them even knowing the ‘PC speech police’ might not care if the guy ate my kid but certainly would be there to arrest me for saying ‘cannibal’.If I didn't want to go to jail, I'd have to remember to say something like "YOU RADICAL CANNIBAL!"
Oddly my Immigrant vegetarian friends don’t care that I eat meat. It’s only the white Canadian female vegetarians from wealthy families with private school education that have called me filthy names for being a meat eater and objecting to them blocking the sidewalk with their demonstration and signs.  A lot of my life I’m just trying to get to and from my work as a physician and I have to go through all this drama and I’m tired. I broke up a fight once between three white guys and three black guys in front of my apartment and then all six of them were going to beat me up. I’ve had all these white girls angry with me because I just want to walk down the street and they’re angry I’m not caring for the chickens they’re holding up pictures about.  it didn’t help that I told them I killed Bambi to protect the vegetables.    I know I’m wrong. I know I’m the source of all evil in the world.  My ex wives made it very clear that I’m the source of all evil.  I am a total and utter failure .  So I understand why vegetarians would hate me. But…..all ….100%.
But what if 99% of vegetarians and all the other folk are   right, is it possible maybe  that .00001% are wrong?  Maybe?
8) Refugees.  One of my favourite psychiatrist friends came as a refugee. My first wife came as a refugee.  Obviously I love refugees.  I love that people who are persecuted in their country can come here. I love that my refugee friends who  lvoe Canada and compare Canada so favourably with their country of persecution.
I’ve helped countless refugees.
I’ve raised an eyebrow though when increasingly ‘political refugees’ who have come to Canada because their lives were in danger in their country once they get citizen status and are on disability return to their country. It happens more and more and has caused me some concern.  There have been reasonable explanations. Regimes have changed.  It’s all above board most of the time but occasionally it’s the  DISABILITY INDUSTRY that has attracted patients who turn out later not to be ‘at risk’ in their country.  But one bad apple…… They’re rare in the range of things though I’ve noticed that the Canadian government doesn’t rectify matters when these same people turn out to be doing a variety of criminal activities here.  They seem to have SPECIAL STATUS.
Increasingly as a Canadian I’ve thought ‘if i did that’ I’d be arrested.
But I know of no country where an Immigrant of a minority religion gets to be the MINISTER OF DEFENCE.  We have Mr. Singh and we had Dr. Hedy Fry who I campaigned for and yet travelling around the world I notice no CANADIAN Immigrant to other countries being made Minister of Defence. I know of no Muslim Country where a Christian could be Minister of Defence. I know too that Syria had a law that said ‘only a Muslim could be President”.  Further, travelling I found that there were restrictions on foreigners buying land all over the world and so many restrictions to me as an immigrant.  Mexico our friendly neighbour even had restrictions against me as a Canadian.
The whole idea of ‘fair play’ or ‘what’s good for the goose is good for the gander’ or ‘level playing field’ or ‘equal opportunity’ are all meaningless to a whole lot of people of other religions and nationalities. I begin to worry playing soccer doesn't teach people to be good sports like playing hockey does.
When I questioned the decision to have ‘25000 refugees’ brought into Canada  in a month because of political showboating and suddenly we were going to accept refugees from a country who were the allies not of our ally America, but rather of our former enemy Russia, and were of a religion that promoted death to infidels (Christians, Secularists, and Canadians in general) I expressed my heart felt ‘fear” . In stead of being told ‘we understand your fear’ I was called a RACIST.  "I was called an Islamophobe" (It was as bad as when I questioned yet another tax , the CARBON TAX, a tax on breathing, on top of all the taxes we already pay as Canadians and how useless the government increasingly is, having multi million dollar parties and giving billions of dollars to the UN, I was called a CLIMATE CHANGE DENIER>  i.e. "YOU're Psychotic!!! to question more Taxation by your Liberal Good Government.  I
 was lied to by my leadership and was attacked verbally in the most offensive way.  Indeed I was threatened.  I continue to be called RACIST and XENOPHOBIC.  People tell me to get the fuck out of Canada if you don't like Justin Trudeau and his plan to bring in hundreds of thousands of immigrants willy nilly at billions of dollars cost when all day long I see homeless people and can't get supplies for my patients and haven't any resources and am chronically tired of saying no to patients who can't understand why they've paid for services and can't get anything.  
(Now Canada has a history of having had refugees and immigrant women from the Congo.  These Muslem women were sent to Canada by their warlord husbands.  Each husband had 4 to 10 wives. The men sent their wives here to collect disability.  The women collected disability here and sent 9/10 of the money back to the Congo.  American soldiers wondering who was paying for the ammunition which the Muslim terrorists were shooting at them found out that the CANADIAN GOVERNMENT was Paying for the AMMUNITION and Weapons to supply terrorists by this little African muslim women's scam).
Having lived in America I know that the terrorists that attacked America came through Canada so I have some anxiety.
I was bombed when I lived in London by the IRA. I evacuated buildings a dozen times. My life was often threatened.  My wife was caught in a bomb blast.  Her face was torn up by flying glass. She cried in her sleep.  We were scared. Our parents wanted us to come home because it was so dangerous.  A plane I was boarding was found to have a terrorist on board. I’ve had my close calls.  I’m not known for crying wolf.
But when I expressed concern I was condemned.  I was called a RACIST. I was called countless obscenities.
I recently was called IGNORANT.  I was called UNEDUCATED.  I WAS CALLED WHITE.  I WAS CALLED OLD MAN.  The number of slurs and character assassinations and hate speech directed at me in the last few months is incredible.  And though I never ‘started’ any of these visious violent interchanges I might well have contributed to their escalation.  As a Christian I’m taught to ‘turn my cheek 70 times 70 times so I keep count and when the right number pops up I confess I do take a certain delight in retaliating which I recognize is a character flaw but I’ve also found that bullies will bully until you hit back.
An Israeli leader just got in deep shit saying that the only thing that stops a muslim terrorist is the threat to rape their daughter. Naturally as an isralei in the world of real politick he’s probably had the life of his daughter threatened. RAPE is indeed a recognized act of war in the history.  The RAPE of the SABINES wasn’t at all sexist but biological. By ‘raping the wives of your defeated’ you could ensure that they had a generation delay in the production of another army.  But SEXISTS only see rape through their discrete lens i.e. about women.  Boys and men have been raped in the past too but they don’t count.  Still it’s all ‘barbaric’ but when Mr. Harper tried to stop the genital mutilation of children with his law against ‘barbaric practices’ he was condemned a dirty old white man despite the law being proposed by  muslim and  hindu canadian woman.
The fact is a REFUGEE is a VICTIM all the time.
I have this problem because when I was in italy the refugees who were attacking girls there were former soldiers from Africa.  I got mugged and called an‘INFIDEL” as my cross was torn from my neck by a muslim gang, ex military. The Greeks were incensed at the Afghanistan and Iraqi young men attacking Christians and stealing their silver and gold crosses to sell because they didn’t care for the wider ramifications these attacks had on the Greek Tourist trade.  So my friend who rescues ’snakes’ says that no one wants to put money into saving ‘reptiles’ but the SPCA has a booming trade in cuddly kittens, puppies and bunnies.  Sentimentalism and Emotional Reasoning reign.
 But to even question if a refugee might be a psychopath is to break the rules. This is despite the fact that we have major crime problems in Vancouver because of Immigrant or Refugee TONG Gang Members from the East and Russian Gangsters from the west.  To even suggest that a Middle East refugee might be a serial murderer or a serial rapist or GOD FORBID, Isis or a Jihadist, may get you arrested.  Justin Trudeau was more angry with a refugee being pepper sprayed than he was when Canadians living here were murdered by terrorists. He certainly didn't get very concerned about police being killed.  There’s that double standard.
But what if 99% of refugees are saints  and only .0001% of refugees are dangerous psychopaths, is that reason for concern.  Or should we be, claiming we want to hear from all Canadians,  but shut up any Canadian who expresses ‘fear’ and ‘anxiety’.  I heard once that a woman being raped was criticized for screaming. Ironic because we're normally condemned for not screaming.
An American soldier told me that a beaurocratic message had been sent round advising the soldiers to remember that they may be being filmed when they are wounded and that profanities negatively affect the war effort. So don’t say ‘fuck’ when you are shot, please.
Don’t you just love POLITICAL CORRECTNESS!. We can all kill and maim and lie and cheat just as long as we maintain the proper grammar, speak with proper sentences, wear suits, smile that lizard like way.
I’ve helped countless refugees get into Canada. I’ve done thousands of dollars of ‘volunteer’ ‘pro bono’ work for refugees getting them the letters and referrals needed for them to get resources and assistance they need.
So maybe 99% of refugees are perfect but what about that .0001%.
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I don’t know where it stops.
As a Christian I’m taught that I must ‘get down off the cross, we can use the wood’.  There’s a song, ‘were you there when they crucified the lord’ and it teaches us that we weren’t just spectators but that we were shoving the spear in his side. That’s the message of Sinners.
It’s a joke when the therapists did ‘past life regression’ therapy and the hypnotists looked at ‘past lives’.  Everyone was Cleopatra or some King or Queen.  But no one was Hitler or Stalin or Jack the Ripper.  It’s just ‘not nice’.
Now some of the SPECIAL STATUS ‘victims’ are Christians too so I wonder ‘what their part was in killing Jesus’ because as Christian’s we are taught to believe that we are all Sinners.  Even Peter denied Jesus.  In the history of Martyrs all one generally had to do was say, alright I’ll worship the Emperor. Okay the lions don’t get fed with a Christian today, The same with witch trials .  Mostly people just had to say, okay I’m a witch and they didn’t get burnt.  The big problem is the truth tellers and those inflexible sorts that won’t lie.  Jesus, they are a royal pain in the ass. Personally, I’m not a very good Christian because I don’t think I’d insist I was if one of my friends or family were threatened. Hell, threaten my dog and I’m jelly.  I know because my cat was killed when I took a stand against something earlier in my life.I regretted what I had done. It didn't seem to warrant the death of my cat.  She was an innocent and I couldn't protect her.
The problem arises for me today is the HIERARCHY OF SPECIAL STATUS.  If a brown refugee man rapes a jewish aboriginal women which counts more especially if one is from Quebec and one is from Western Canada and both have a history of drug abuse and lying but the judge is a Liberal or an atheist, whose the more victim.
It’s just incredibly confusing for me.  I really don’t know what the law is any more.  I know ‘thou shalt not kill’ but even ‘innocent until proven guilty’ is gone in Canada because everyone’s lives are ruined with only the accusation and then FACEBOOK gossip columns do the rest.

Finally I’m suffering from a disease which makes me tend to be prone to self pity.  I spend all day convincing myself life is good.  I do prayer and meditation and force myself daily to see that the glass is half full or all full.  Hell I know that the problem is me.  My friend Milton, a marvellous black Christian used to tell me he had a sentence on his mirror that said “you’re looking at the problem’.
So I know that.  Justin Trudeau is probably Jesus Christ incarnate.  Obama is probably Einstein.  Putin is for sure Mother Mary. I love Leonard Cohen.  I am the KY Jelly.
But I know I’m not supposed to think like this, especially now.  I am warned by the threats and the verbal abuse.
It’s just every day I want to run away from Canada because I don’t belong here.  I have no home.  I sailed away once and it was good.  More and more people come to me agoraphobic and social phobic. The number of people who are anxious is incredible.  Everyone I know is afraid to talk openly now.
I loved when my Indian friend told me ‘we all had to learn to whisper’ .
Now I’ve been told to leave Canada. That I’m not a Canadian.  Every time Justin Trudeau or a liberal speaks for Canadians I know they’re not speaking for me so I’m utterly and fully excluded.  So I really want to leave. I’m tired of the hate speech.  I’m so tired of AD HOMINEMs.  I’m so very tired of being told I’m IGNORANT, UNEDUCATED, STUPID, SEXIST, ISLAMAPHOBE, RACIST, WHITE and OLD and the names go on and on. I could take it but not when the leader of the country and his leading party and his followers are constantly calling me names anytime I disagree with something they say.  I spend all day dealing with people who I tell that they’re better than the names they’re called. I am all day long hearing people talk about their abuse in this country. Then I go to FACEBOOK and I hear it all night.
I thought to make a job of it.  I try to give it back .  You hit me. I hit you back.
But I’m just too tired.

FACE BOOK doesn’t want me.
CANADA doesn’t want me.  I’ve been told too many times to Fuck off .  Get out of Canada. If you don’t like it leave.  It’s where I was born.  No other country wants CANADIANS.  I can’t claim refugee status in any other country.  Most of Africa won’t have me because I’m a wanker.  Blacks don’t masturbate or have sex with other men or women with women so most black countries kill people like me who admit to it.  Muslim countries don’t want Christians.  Buddhist countries don’t want Christians.  Everyone thinks that as a doctor I should be able to go anywhere but it’s not like that. There are barriers to doctors all over the world. I have a dog.  Dogs are discriminated against everywhere in Canada and as a dog owner I’m discriminated everywhere in churches, in AA meetings, in stores.  The only reason I’m willing to go to heaven is they take dogs.  Generally I’ve learned too that if a place doesn’t want my dog they’re eventually going to hurt me.  It was even better when I had my cat.  Generally speaking people who don’t like pets don't like pet owners and don’t like me.  Weird. I have fish too.  It’s too much baggage so no one wants me.  The Landlords hate us and no one cares about us but we don’t have any SPECIAL STATUS. I pay more in all the hotels and I”m excluded everywhere even though my dog is a THERAPY DOG.
So I don’t know where to go.  Somedays I just don’t go out. I’m afraid to talk to people because I might say something that might offend them. I lived with wives who were depressed and everything I said offended them so now I’m in a country where I’m feeling like those last years when their parents had died and they were depressed and everything I did was offensive and I spent years walking on egg shells until I accepted I was the problem and ran away.  I’m always running away.  Soon all I’ll have to run away to death but that’s okay.Death looks better than Canada some days.  Especially if Heaven is like Mark Twain's Captain Stormfield's heaven.
I’m a dinosaur. I’m extinct.
I don’t have a SPECIAL STATUS category. I can’t even complain about being bullied.
I don’t even have a country any more. I’m not a Canadian.  CANADIANS don’t think like I do.
Reminds me of when Paul Simon wrote the song about ‘going off to look for America’.  I guess that’s what I m going to have to do soon.
I miss my sailboat.  Sometimes I could find Canada standing by the mast smashing through big waves heeled over in a storm.  Sometimes I found Canada riding on my motorcycle through the mountains.  It’s been raining for days. Maybe when the tulips come back I’ll get some hope. Maybe even have some faith.
It just seems bleak.  Life is suffering unto death, Kierkegaard said.But he was Dutch.  He never was a Canadian.

Vancouver TENT CITY

Oppenheimer Park in the Downtown East Side of Vancouver is now TENT City.  After Occupy Vancouver with countless civilly  disobedient or just 'above the law' people living rent free in downtown Vancouver, TENT City, another 'rent free vacation development'  has sprung up.  "Activists" need vacations too.
Vancouver ‘real estate’ is so expensive that most working people in Vancouver cannot ‘own’ property.   The DTES is to Vancouver like the centre of London, or Paris, or Manhatten. It is the most expensive, most desirable real estate in British Columbia, certainly Canada and perhaps the NorthWest.  Nearby 800 square foot condos are priced at a half million a year.
In Oppenheimer Park, dozens and dozens of 100's square foot tents are enjoying the glorious summautumn in Vancouver.  One of my favourite beaches is three blocks away.  China Town is but a couple of blocks away.  There a lovely walk ways and all manner of conveniences within steps from this park that has it’s own washroom facility in addition the porta potty arrangements that the city has provided. Public transportation connects this central 'hub' of the city to all of Downtown Vancouver.  There is a quick trade in stolen bicycles in this area as well expanding the possibilities of urban community luxury living. People are discouraged from doing drugs and alcohol in Tent City but there is really no need since there's a high density of bars in the area desperate for the 'welfare cheques' issues every 2 weeks for housing.  Free food is provided throughout the community by every manner of charitable organization.
Nearby , a block away, is Main and Hastings.  This is the most notorious of thoroughfares in the city.  During ‘rush hour’ traffic all the city’s north Vancouver commute along with other streams of commuters go through this ‘choke’ point.  Every day drug addicted ‘zombies’ stagger about on Hastings proudly disregarding cross walks and even an extra traffic light to reduce ‘dangerous’ jay walking, dancing seizing and jeering masses some of who now sleep off their party time in TENT City.
No fences have been put up to curtail the flagrant disregard for law and proud disrespect for the police but instead Mayor Robertson has ‘punished’ all the working commuters by reducing the traffic speed through this “drug city” zone to 30 km/hr. He has even provided bike lanes in the district for the easy commutes by those who flee police on their stolen bicycles.
If a walking zombie hits your car and is injured you will, and people have been charged with assault or even manslaughter.  Indeed there are even those who appear as zombies but walk into cars to feign assault and collect the high insurance premiums off the working legitimate law abiding folk of Vancouver.   Mayor Robertson hates law abiding working citizens especially those  who drive cars and this daily survive this futuristic drug infested  "obstacle course’ , his murky idea ‘enlightened' urban planning.
Tens of thousands of Vancouver workers, unable to afford to live in Vancouver, but working in Vancouver, drive their cars past this DTES holiday vacation centre reserved by the Mayor for ecstatic zombie jerking staggering drug users and their exaltant drug dealer priests.
In the centre of this section is the Safer Injection Site “Insite”, a bastille for the heroin trade where anyone can walk in with their street bought adulterated high priced heroin and shoot up with the prettiest,  youngest high paid nurses and assistants watching them so that for this one time they can be safe and the world of youth in Canada can believe injecting heroin is a 'safe' alternative to the 'natural high' of life.  For years this Safer Injection Site has been in the news distracting all public attention from the crime that it fosters and the heavy death toll it's perpetuation of heroin addiction supports.  Years too late it has now introduced a 'detox' site 'window dressing' to maintain it's stronghold on the centre of the DTES where it's Cathedral of Drug Addiction crucifies anyone who questions it's 'validity'.
 There has been literally no ‘change’ in the number of deaths as a consequence of this multi million dollar media ‘drug culture’ celebration centre.  The ‘research’ is suspect at best and highly embarrassing despite it's left wing popularity. The whole ‘centre’ is not science but wholly politics and religion. This is  ‘church of heroin’s’ central cathedral.
Tent city Is three blocks away.  Drugs are discouraged in TENT City.  Heroin addicts must walk down   the centre of Hastings Street disrupting traffic through Main disrupting traffic up one block and over two.  All the while drug dealers, the high priests of the drug culture religion, watch over them and  kowtow with corrupt officials in the Downtown Eastside.
We are still looking for the millions of dollars that Vancouver Coastal Health Officials gave the Portland Hotel Society leadership.  Linda Evans and Mark Townsend, the defrocked Cardinals of the DTES drug trade, laying low in their million dollar Vancouver homes having taken the fall for NEST of the Drug Addicted Religion of the DTES.  Jenny Quan, the NDP leader who was caught red handed with tens of thousands of dollars of bribe and kickback money which “my husband and the dingo made me take” has reappeared after her vacation after her Disneyland vacation.
Mayor Robinson promised housing for the DTES.  Vancouver Coastal Health and others after taking their cut for handling money, gave this to Portland Hotel Society.  Portland Hotel Society naturally did make a few spaces available at high cost of development and maintenance, government costs similar to the defence industry, but the short fall that went to UPTOWN Housing for Linda Evans and Mark Townsend and their Nest is why TENT CITY exists. Why these people are in Oppenheimer Park and not in the backyard of Mark Townsend, Linda Evans and Jenny Quan makes no sense.  Indeed, why the tents aren’t on the NDP headquarters property is a major concern. The NDP leadership was using the housing money for trips to Disneyland. Why spend Canadian dollars in Canada when it’s so much more fun to spend them out of the country where there are fewer witnesses.
People complain about the number of prisons and the for profit prisons of the United States but those working and living and paying rent or owning property in the DTES often express the sentiment that they're living in the prison.  If not a prison, then certainly an Asylum.
Some say Tent City will go when the Vancouver Monzoons come.  The activists won't want to be there when the lawns destroyed by the tents turn to mud.
 Heroin use is rising in young Canadians.  Canada has the greatest percentage of young people in the western world using pot. An adolescent using pot daily is 60 times less likely to complete high school than a drug free student.  Holland and Amsterdam have outlawed BC Bud.  Portugal has reduced it’s drug addiction by rigid ‘treatment’ requirements, decriminalization, but heavy ‘requirement for treatment’.  Sending people to jail doesn’t work. Look at Mark Emory. He’s grown rich on pot sales.  Had he been mandated to a drug free, urine tested,  2 year treatment program all the research suggests that even he might be abel to experience  a ‘natural high’ . As it is there are no John Denver songs being sung in TENT CITY. Marc Emory is running for Liberal Leadership alongside the smoking Liberal Leader Justin Troudeau and his smoking mother and smoking' wife.
Personally i’m too old for TENT CITY.   With the rising cost of gas and the commute , moving an RV into Oppenheimer Park seems like the only way for me.  Old People and maybe Vets for protection might well benefit from a downtown RV City.   Everyone wants to live in Vancouver. Most pay millions to have the privilege but why bother when you can do it for free with all manner of amenities  most working folk in Vancouver have difficulty affording.

Rate My Doctor

I was delighted to hear that Dr. Shane, one of the finest forensic psychiatrists in Canada, was working to limit the damage done by the Rate Your Doctor organization.  As a forensic psychiatrist he is not supposed to be popular.  I totally relate to him.

I just reviewed my rate my doctor site. I was mr popularity in school. I'm a psychiatrist and an addictionist. I've reported pedophiles who have had hundreds of victims. I've notified Transport Canada that their pilot is smoking crack or marijuana.  A lot of my work is done on behalf of third parties where the person I'm seeing is being assessed for dangerous ness to society or whether they are a risk to others in the workplace.  I'm a methadone doctor and I have had my prescriptions forged and have on several occasions discharged patients from the methadone program for illegal abuse of methadone or breaches of the protocols of the methadone program that require the physician to terminate the person's care.
I have been asked by the police to treat people for bestiality.  Routinely I'm asked to sign forms for people in which they are lying and wanting me to lie on their behalf to get money falsely from insurance companies or the government.  I say no and they hate me.

When I reviewed complaints I'd received 90% were because I'd 'diagnosed' a person as having a drug addicton or alcoholism and the person was being required to see me because of domestic violence or workplace safety issues or harm to children.

I am referred patients by doctors and commonly the doctor referring the patient doesn't advise me or may not know the patients history. I have refused to see several men because they tried to conceal from me their history of rape and violence against women.  I have found out this information from collateral sources. I have refused to see them because I have a female assistant who I will not put at risk.  I might have seen them if they had been honest with me.  I refused to see a Nazi once. He was very threatening. My windows were shot out. I've changed my phone numbers on several occasions and I've lost a staff member because of the venomous rage poured out at her by a patient blacklisted by most psychiatrists for their damage to property in the office.

My own life has been threatened on many occasions simply because my correct and truthful assessment has resulted in a person losing their income because of dangerous drug addiction, because they were hearing voices telling them to kill their boss and I am required by law to report this to the person they are threatening, that they were under control of spirits that wanted them to violate children and I am required by law to report this to child protection service. When called by the RCMP regarding whether threatening and dangerous persons should be issued a firearms license I have had that person turn up at my office threatening me. One person sent to by police after an arson attempt tried to pour gas on me and set me on fire. The police accepted the person needed to be restrained.

A patient brought a gun to an interview demanding I give them valium.

I was a supervisor in the dangerously insane ward of the asylum. I did see patients in jail. I was a supervisor in the psychiatric emergency.  I have been a supervisor in a detox unit.  i have many times had to say no to people who felt entitled to services which they were not and they were not willing or could not  pay for those services.  I have had patients come to my office demanding an MRI saying they need one and their stupid gp won't give them one and if I don't do it they're make me wish I had.  They want the MRI for free because they're involved in some litigation and hope that the MRI will help them get more money. However they don't meet the 'criteria' for MRI .

I have always worked in the areas of greatest need. When I was a country family physician and northern flyin doctor I was much loved and appreciated.  When I was a psychoanalytic psychotherapist I was highly regarded.  When I began working in areas where I was required by law to serve the state and the client or have to consider the rights of children as opposed to parents and doing occupational psychiatry where the issues of safety sensitive factors employment arise,  suddenly I've got this filth on rate your doctor.

When I diagnose alcoholism the pilot is required to enter a treatment program. Their disease is so severe that they want to 'kill the messenger'.  They are putting their co workers and others not to mention millions of dollars of company property at risk and they are very angry at everyone whose job it is to think of more than just them but consider the life of others.

There are 'feel good' psychiatrists. They are junior psychiatrists and they rarely have the responsibility for major decisions outside of the individual.    They can remain 'popular'.  They are not Forensic Psychaitrists.  They are not Occupational Psychiatrists. They are not Addiction Psychiatrists.  They are not Emergency Psychiatrists or Psychiatrists that work in the Asylum.  They never say 'no' and their patients love them. I sometimes have the unhappy task of treating the patients of these doctors who have left their patients grossly addicted to a variety of medications that the patients are very angry to be having to stop when the 'good' doctor gave them this and they can't understand why he won't see them or why he can't prescribe to them anymore.  Many of these 'good doctors' have lost their 'prescribing' priviledges. Not Ironically a couple of these psychiatrsts are called as the very best psychiatrists and I could just throttle them for the mess they made of their poor patients which we in addiction psychiatry are left to clean up.

I have one patient who is still angry with me because I stopped her from killing herself.  She insists that if I didn't resuscitate her God would have saved her baby from dying.  There's no reason outside her psychotic thinking to believe her death would have revived a dead baby but she wanted to try and I interfered with that.  I know one schizophrenic patient that believes anyone who is treating him "nice' is just preparing to kill him.  I have to be extremely 'neutral' with him. No medication has altered his underlying paranoia but he's not been chronically suicidal in my care.

I do use 'story telling' as a therapeutic tool.  I do cognitive behavioural and supportive therapy.  I do not let people venomously 'vent' about their ex-husbands or ex wives in my office.  This is not 'good therapy'. It's highly lucrative but it only reinforces the injury and re traumatises the patient.

I'm not being paid to passively listen to patients.  I'm first and foremost a medical psychaitric diagnostician. I have to be sure a patient doesn't have symptosn of anxiety or depression because of an undiagnosed cancer, brain tumor, thyroid disorder, or metabolic problem.  In a therapeutic assessment I'm informing patients as I go along often answering questions and correcting misinformation they increasing come baggaged with by reading fear mongering web sites which are selling a diagnosis or treatment.

I have far more effective 'tools' for helping people than passive listening.  I have done years of training in active 'listening' therapies but there are few who are specifically suited for these types of therapy. Less that 10 % of patient's referred to psychiatrists are appropriate for anything like the televison psychiatry models of therapy. Further the research says those types of therapy work best where patients are paying for that kind of care. Hence psychoanalysis is no longer covered by health care funding insurance programs.  I am specifically trained in 'change' therapy. As an addiction specialist I'm trained in motivational therapy which implies that the person will 'change'.  The state pays for psychiatrists to help people change for the better, not to make them feel good sick.  The health care system isn't in place to perpetuate disease. (At least it's not supposed to be)

My obese patients want to 'talk' about their problems but are very angry when I say after a couple of sessions or so , "If you're not willing to do some thing about your problem then there's nothing further I can do".  Based on a motivational assessment they aren't even in the 'contemplation' phase and are best advised to come back in 6 months to review what they're willing to do about their problem. All the 'life style' disease problems don't get better by having patients go on and on about 'why' they drink, gamble, over eat, shop, hoard, live on pornography sites.  These people want to collude with you and talk about thier problems as a means to maintain their problems without actually doing anything about their problems.  As a result of research findings we're not supposed to see these people and perpetuate their illness by enabling. They are angry because they get tremendous 'secondary gain' by seeing top specialists and showing that another doctor 'failed' to help them because their addiction is a really sick disease.  It's considered a waste of tax payer money for specialists to persist in therapy where the patient only talks about change but doesn't make any actual change.

A large part of my therapy for some patients is 'educational' as is the case with all 'cognitive behavioural therapy'. Many of my patients however are referred because of behavioural problems.

Only 20 % of my present practice are relatively highly functional individuals with 'neurotic' concerns. When I had a psychotherapy practice this was about 80% of my patients.  My present practice for the last 15 years has focused more on trauma and addiction:  head injury, ptsd, personality disorder, and major medical illness.  Most psychiatrists exclude personaliy disorder and addiction and head injury from their practice.

Because I've worked in areas of greatest need I've always had very sick patients as well as less sick patients but more I've had a higher per centage of really sick patients.  Many of my patients have major medical and neurological illness. They are not likely to return to work but it is hoped that they can have a better health care outcome. Often there are a dozen other specialists involved in the care of these complex patients.  No psychiatrist in the "business" of medicine would touch these patients because they are extremely costly, timely and sick.  They're generally very unhappy with life and their medical care in general, frankly because they have had horrible events happen to them . As a psychiatrist I can't offer them a new life, or millions of compensation and often all I'm doing is trying to provide sometimes only 'palliative' care.  Smart and popular psychiatrists send these patients back to gps, avoid them like the plague, and won't see them more than once for a consult.  Dozens of my patients have been rejected dozens and dozens of times by 'cherry picking' psychiatrists.  Sometimes like me, other psychiatrists are just  overburdened  and may not be able to take on another highly disturbed patient.

I have to move my patients around so that my waiting room isn't a nightmare of trauma for the patients. I don't want my active crack using patient to come before or after the lady I'm seeing for grief after losing her baby.  I try to avoid having my rape patients  sit next to the sex offenders I see. I have a lot of difficulty managing my booking schedule and it's a real hard time for new staff who sometimes wil book three severe borderline personality disorders in a row and wonder why I look like vampires have sucked my blood at the end of the day.  I can't see two grieving patients back to back and I don't like seeing more than one manic in any day. I can see schizophrenics one after another.  There's a reason for that.  Most active addicts can not be seen for more than 15 minutes though for special reasons you may have to see them for an hour. That's usually far too stressful for them. The same goes with adolescents and people with early dementia.  I can only do one family, group or couple in a day usually because the intensity of the complexity is so draining.  Emergencies are always screwing up my schedule. Scheduling my office is like booking an operating theatre. It's a speciality in itself.  Despite notices patients often arrive with reams of paper work and cavalierly 'expect' doctors to just get this done by a deadline arbitrarily set by someone who usually doesn't know anything about medicine.  My schedule is booked 6 months in a advance. Now where is there going to be 'time' for this 'urgent' report thatn's never properly funded to be done.  Patients get moved to accommodate emergencies.  So every patient often thinks their particular 'need' (never want) is an 'emergency' and want you to just cancel or move all the other patients to accomodate them.  Sometimes we don't leave the office till 8 or 9 pm and often on weekends I'm working.



Because I do truama I'm commonly having to do medical legal reports and suddenly because judges (who scheduling problems make mine look trivial )  free up courts, I'm scrambling to have a report done and to see a patient so that this can all be available for a court date that moved sometimes months ahead. I'm a treating clinician and as such I have to be willing to provide these reports if  I am to be of help to my patients. I have much more control over independent medical examinations because I can simply not book these. They pay much more than regular psychiatry and most of my colleagues are doing these so they can continue to do the 'publicly funded' psychiatry.  More and more psychiatrists are simply not doing 'public funded' psychiatry but rather working in administration, on salary or doing private work for companies and insurance.  Private psychiatry has high overhead, no benefits, no pension, no cars, no lunches, no fixed hours, no overtime.  My colleagues in 'salaried' positions are rich and luxurious in their slower paced much more highly rewarded positions often far from the maddening crowds.

There's no money where the most angry patients live and the risks are increasing every day as the cost of the complaint process sky rockets because of all the "time loss" for private clinicians. When a patient complained I wouldn't see them that day, I lost a full day of work, having to cancel patients and re book them so that I could accomodate this 'bully' who wanted to jump the queue and thought by threatening my secretary they could.  When I reported staff office theft I had to cancel an afternoon of patients to meet with the police and go over all the damage this irate and violent person had caused.

Everyone likes to provide one time 'consults'. The doctors who do this are popular with patients and commonly disliked vehemently by family physicians who want someone whose going to share the burden.  Familiarity breeds contempt.  It's really easy to see a person, get in and get out and hope to never see the person again. A number  of psychiatrists specialize in this approach.  This is essential in other areas of medicine but the work of psychiatry is in the ongoing and chronic care and the 'acute management' of sick patients.  The government expects the health care teams to take care of these patients and they do but more often than not the patients don't want this often 'factory' type care. They want to see a psychiatrist and not a counsellor with only 2 years of training and rarely the appropriate supervision.  The psychiatrists in the teams rarely spend any real time actually meeting and  talking to patients.  They adjust medications maybe every 6 months.  When I worked in mental health teams only a small portion of my time on salary was devoted to direct patient care. The majority of times I was going to committtee meetings, meeting with other staff, reviewing reports, making phone calls, doing lunch.

I talk to patients. I listen to patients.  I am known by patients. I'm an open book.  Most of the patients who chose to see me and want to see me want to 'change' and want more than a band aid. Many of my patients come in at a particularly low spot in their lives and leave restored. I joke about my practice saying "I overhaul ferraris or sometimes just tune up ferrari's:. The people I choose to work with are usually survivors or fighters.  So often I feel priviledged to be a part of their journeys.

The majority of my colleagues who are practicing frontline clinical psychiatry are facing all the same systemic problems as I am. I see the addiction doctors and the occupational pscyhiatrists and forensic pscyhiatrists are often faced with similiar complaints as I have.  I admire their work and feel sorry that so many of the people who I see doing a really tough job are the ones getting it in the neck becasue they're there. I don't respect those who are hiding somewhere far from the patients,  smiling. I may envy them at times but I don't respect them.  I also know I have some of the most amazing colleagues and some of those in other areas of subspecialization in psychiatry are my true heros. A couple of my favourite women psychiatrists are working all day long just like me but with injured children and a fundamental lack of resources in the community.

5 million Canadians can't find a family physician, 1 in 5 and of the people who need a psychiatrist maybe 1 in 10 at most actually get to see one once and one in a hundred actually get to see someone who will see them regularly.  20 years ago I could refer a patient to a colleague and they'd see that patient for consultation that week. Today I wait 2 years to get a patient into a pain clinic, 6 months for an MRI, a year to see a subspecialist neurologist, and thats just some of the wait list problems constipating the system and making all the patients who are often getting sicker and sicker while they wait incredibly angry.  I don't blame them but it's not my fault personally that someone other than front line workers are getting the big bucks of health care.  Whenever I hear of millions or billions of dollars going to health care I think of fat cats in committee meetings discussing how many 'meetings' they're going to have to discuss how they're going to spend the money.  I don't see the resources translating into services that make my or my patients lives easier.  

Many of my patients come to me because I respect their spiritual traditions so ironically for an overtly Christian psychiatrist I have a fair slice of patients from every other religion in the world as well as agnostics and atheists.  I love that the atheists tell me that they like that they know where I stand.  Freud was very Jewish.  Jung was spiritualist.  My Moslem patients say they  want someone who has a faith and wont' disparage theres.  My buddhist and hindu patients like that I support their mediation. Dozens of patients over the years have told me that they were discriminated against for their faith and that psychiatrists belittled their religion in countless ways they probably weren't even aware they were doing.

Patients are referred to me. Over the years I've accepted more patients from certain family physicians whose work I've admired.   I am not accountable for the tremendous shortage of psychiatrists.  I am not required to see all patients referred to me and turn away a dozen referrals a week because I'm overbooked or because the patient doesn't 'fit' my practice.  My assistant tries to communicate with the receptionists in the gps office. Many referrals come from walk in clinics where receptionist turn over and many doctors results in my assistants responses not getting passed on.  I am not required to communicate in this way.  I am only responsible for patients once I've actually seen them. I am not required to see a person more than once for assessment.

If I choose to provide care I do so based on what is indicated for the particular condition. Many patients want them to see me daily, 2-3 times a week, weekly.  I used to see patients 2 x a week and weekly.  In response to the shortage and because there are no psychiatric resources I've reduced the frequency I see my patients to what isn't ideal but remains marginally okay. I't's much easier to see a few patient frequently or a lot of patients for assessments. It's very hard to see a lot of patients at 2 week,  one,  three, and six month intervals in terms of scheduling. I have patients coming back to see me who I first saw 25 years ago.  What they had then was 'cured' but what they have now has come on with age and is a different kettle of fish. I try to see people I've seen before a s priority.  I've seen thousands of patients over the years so there's more and more difficulty getting people in when they return or when the need to be seen.

Walk in clinics are a very mixed bag.  20 years ago I used to have referrals from a half dozen physicians who I communicated regularly with and who knew me and my work and didn't send patients to me that they hadn't already thoroughly screened. This is not the cases with walk in clinics.  Commonly today I see patients who were seen by several psychiatrists that year or just got out of hospital and the referring family doctor doesnt' know this and hasn't communicated it.  I am deeply saddened by how little walkin clinic doctors know their patients and then I know many patients are 'doctor shopping' and 'specialist shopping' and their's no system tracking patients to see whose doing this.  One patient I knew was seeing three psychiatrists and I only learned when I wasn't paid for their visits to me, something I only found out a month later, having accomodated their 'emergency'.


I have been working without any of the resources I was promised in my training for nearly a decade.  I am routinely handling emergencies in the office because there are no resources in the community.  I am treating people who once were locked up for life without any of the resources they were promised when their hospital was closed.  I had  several head injured patients I was seeing every three months then had to see monthly and discuss weekly because the government closed their clubhouses and these poor tragic individuals were left in their rooms all day.  Naturally their psychosis got work and their angry outbursts increased.

No one notifies me months in advance that they're going to suicide.  When I had a psychotherapy practice like most private psychologists I was always on time and always on top of my schedule.  If a patient had problems I could send them to the hospital and they got good psychiatric care.  A few months back I witnessed my patient jump in front of a bus while my assistant tackled them to save their life and not have bus driver and passengers traumatized. I stopped my practice and spent an hour with patient the ambulance and finally got the patient to the hospital where they were discharged an hour later. So without any 'back up' the family physician and moved our schedules and patients around to see this incredibly sad and highly suicidal man several times a week until he was over his crisis.  Office practice was never meant to serve this purpose but there are no hospital beds and none on the horizon.

The hospital emergency used to have a ward where psychiatric patients could stay a week, then if they needed longer they had a ward where they could stay a month and then if they needed longer they could go to a hospital where they could stay for 6 months or years.  No body had figured out that all of this has gone and the money has been spent on 'planning' , 'administration' , 'talking' and 'politics' and 'ideas' and 'consultants' and 'business consultants'' and a whole lot of other things but the fact is there's no money and countless patients in dire need.

Some days my office is busier than a psychiatric emergency. Other days I think I'm back at the asylum.  I start my day at 7 am. I'm required to review my emails. I've got a hundred a day. Most of it is spam and the government won't pass the appropriate legislation to stop these 'business bullies'.  I am in direct patient contact often 10 to 12 hours a day. Some days I see 10 or 12 patients while others I see 50 or more.  I get dozens of phone calls a day and dozens of f axes and dozens of lab work and other records I have to review.  I rarely get lunch and drink coffee always on the run.  I feel guilty but still take bathroom breaks.  Sometimes I feel like not coming out of the cubicle. I routinely cancel lunches and miss all manner of engagements and have cancelled vacations many times to accomodate work demands. I have many colleagues who do far more than I do in this regard and there are all kinds of 'platitutes' out there about not working so hard but never do those spouting platitudes help with the heavy lifting or late night shifts.

When  a person misses an appointment and doesn't notify us in 24 hours those dozens of people on the emergency wait list can't be called. Those others who are waiting six months to see a psychiatrist in the lower main land can't be seen earlier.

A lot of people sent to psychiatrists are incredibly angry long before the time they get to see us. This wasn't the case 25 years ago.  Rarely was I referred an 'angry' person. Most of my patients were 'sad' or anxious. Now all the sad people seem to be creamed away by counsellors and psychologists whereas the angry and the angry/depressed/anxious are sent to us. My obstetrician colleague says the same. He's not had an easy delivery in years.  Like us his fee schedule hasn't changed and the amount of time he has for a patient hasn't been adjusted to deal with the aging population and greater risk.

The government has been cutting my income since I started practice. I made the most money I ever made in my life working as a general practitioner in my first job.  It's been down hill financially ever since. The government says they're going to cut doctors incomes again.

So I try not to read rate your doctor.  I wouldn't recommend for anyone to be a specialist clinician in Vancouver today.  I am really thankful for men of Dr. Shane's caliber who take the time to address the problem.

I see that there is a Rate My Judge site in the US but not in Canada. I really wonder if it's a good thing to have a criminal popularity poll against judges.  I know I'm terrified when I see pedophiles and violent people and psychopaths and sociopaths. I'm afraid to do the right thing because I don't want to face the abuse that comes from those people who want to fly planes stoned, work drunk, beat up their wives, have sex with their children.  99% of my patients are fine human beings. I know it's their 'sickness' but that doesn't necessarily limit the damage they can do.  Rate your doctor like rate your judge strikes me as likely to appeal most to people who are looking for a place to put their anger and carry out vendettas.

I noticed though that many people did rate my work positively and thanked me for my care.  I am humbled by that and very thankful indeed. It's the highest praise when patients take the time to share the positive. I realize I personally must make a greater effort to be thankful to all those I often take for granted because I 'expect' them to do their job. I know I too tend to 'blame' the customs officer for the delay when the fact is he's there and a half dozen others didn't make their shift and they not him account for the back up.

I  am more likely to be annoyed by the person who isn't doing their job according to my expectations too without realizing that my expectations of what they are supposed to be doing is not what their boss or the governnment or administration is telling that person to do.  It was said that a paediatrician has 90 minutes of examinations and things to do with a child before they actually see the child and hear the child's complaint for the booked 15 minute appointment.  Everyday I have a new and more absurd and utterly ridiculous demand put on me by some one who may never have seen a patient or have a clue about what a psychiatrist does.  This is increasingly common with insurance companies and employers.

Patients get angry about confidentiality but they have signed away that confidentiality to their employer or to their insurer and if their insurer is with their employer I'm required by law to share my records 'regardless'.  I'm now required by law to keep detailed records and produce those records for the courts as well.  It is against the law for me to not 'lie' for patients yet I've been approached hundreds of times by patients demanding and expecting me to do just that.

Just as I teach my patients getting over major trauma or cancer or life threatening events  to focus on the positives I have to do that myself.

Thank you all who have thanked me.  I really appreciate it.  And I'm sorry to those who I've somehow offended because I lacked the skill to serve you better despite the fact that I probably was not what you wanted. Somehow it's a shame the system results in such mismatches or it's just sad that people can't have what they want all the time.