June 5, 2020, Covid 19, Uncertainty

A patient summed it up for me this week with the one word, uncertainty.  He said it was frustrating to face the uncertainty each day. Camus’ Plague was a treatise on uncertainty and absurdity.

I talked to my accountant yesterday, a wonderful man, a gifted artist, a loving father.  He was wondering about the planning of his daughter’s wedding.  It needed to moved. Would it be okay next year or would it need to be two years. He was thinking of guests and travel and quarantines. I shared that the same had been true for my nephews wedding.  He then recommended I pay more taxes to the criminal PM Justin Trudeau and his criminal Liberal gang with their unholy alliances.  Nothing is more certain than death and taxes.  Trudeau had just doubled the taxes on death. He was channeling tax dollars to abortion, euthanasia and the UN Agenda 21. He was encouraging death as he has encouraged drugs and alcohol. The government gets a cut in these. He disarmed Canadians while selling 14 billion military supplies overseas like he’d given away the doctors and nurses personal protection equipment.

I’m weary of the media. I’m weary of the approved narratives and growing censorship.  The incursions of cultural communism masquerading as multi culturalism continue while Hong Kong residents are dying. Talk of Racism and the blacks don’t care because Hong Kong is yellow. 

I tried to explain that I was raised as a Christian. These  societal divisions today borrowed from communism and aetheism meant nothing to us. I sat with Black, yellow, brown, red and white people in church. We all attended church picnics together. We were Christians. We believed in Life and we believed in Love your neighbour as you would have them love you.  We believe in God.

Last month Trudeau accused me of have a military assault rifle. I was shocked.  I have a rabbit rifle.  Last week he accused me of being racist. I’m not racist. I am tired of being falsely accused by a coward who is unfit to run a lemonade stand or lead a school outing. 

I am old and the discrimination against the old by Trudeau and his pretty girls and boys is frightening to me. I’ve just watched thousands die in nursing homes because the government failed to do it’s job of regulation and enforcement. I just watched on tv a man shooting and burning his neighbours in the lockdown because the police didn’t didn’t do their job. I have watched looting and protesting and riots. Celebrities in pedophile rich Hollywood bail out criminals and celebrate destruction. There is apparently little more accountability anticipated than the consequences for the hockey riots in Canada where the offenders didn’t even compensate the full damages for their dastardly deeds. The courts are despicable. The judges should be utterly ashamed.  Mobs stop trains and the criminals go free. A father and his children skateboard in an empty lot and he is arrested and fined.

I’ve lead a long life of being a good citizen obeying the law and working damn hard.  I’m long past retirement with no end in sight because taxation and inflation make whatever savings I managed naught. I fear nursing homes and the communist approach to the elderly. The future is uncertain.  I find I’ve hidden money in jars here and there, $5 bills, like a kid whose known starvation  and hides bread.  I hear the anxiety in the voices of my patients and see it in their faces . 

I am thankful for Premier Horgan, Health Minister Dix and Dr. Bonnie Henry and the BC CDC.  They are little flickers of light in my world of gathering darkness. India has been invaded by 10,000 Chinese and there is endless coverage of a criminal’s death but I have to search  to find what more destruction Communist China is unleashing on the world. There are no riots in Vancouver but the news is about Alabama. Meanwhile in Hong Kong the light of freedom is going out.  I can’t find what is happening to the leaders who have gone missing. I still don’t know what happened to the doctors who were arrested and jailed in the Middle East. I had to look on the NASA site to find that the astronaughts are still. The media was covering  a woman shitting on a car as evidence of Democrat protest.  They are always ready for Trudeau’s ridiculous daily propaganda phot op. He’s such a slithering snake. And Butt is back after a vacation. The weasels never cease their hogs swill. 

I’m home in my bubble, working virtually. It may as well be a space ship. I only go out to get the mail and walk the dog. I love walks with the dogs and visits by birds and the new flowers.  I miss song and dance.

My back always hurts now. I’m waiting for a new chair that promises to stop my suffering. More bells and whistles. It will be my third such magic chair. They unfortunately stop working like magic pills.  I must move on to the latest. For now it gives me hope.  It’s paint with magic words like ergonomic and back rest adjustable and several more, an improvement on my last office chair from a decade back. 

It’s Moore’s law. The technology really is advancing. We may remain monkey and chimpanzees but we have better gadgets, hair products and facial cream.   

I was thankful today for Donald’s discourse on Yeshua.  I repeat the name Jesus Christ often.  God within. God will come again.  I have called out Yeshua, saviour, comforter in times of trial. I have cried saying his name. I have laughed saying his name. I’m afraid I’ve cursed saying his name. It is like the words, father and mother and brother and friend to me. Jesus Christ. The Desert Father Arrow prayer, Lord Jesus Christ. 

I meditated briefly , did some sit ups, loved cuddling with Gilbert and made my first cup of coffee.  I beg God I can be a better person today. I want so much to love more fully, to laugh more deeply, to care more kindly. I want to lift my head up and walk tall, not crawl on my belly.   I want to breathe love in and exhale fear. I want to know joy.  I know that Jesus Christ is all of these for me.  I know that God who I call my Lord is the centre of all joy.  I want to look for the architect as C.S. Lewis said and not look in the wall for the architect. I want to see beyond the illusions and maya and know that I am starstuff and we are all star stuff and God is Love as Jesus said. I want to embrace the moment and live in the Now like Brother Lawrence. I want to celebrate.  Praise and thanksgiving.  Thank you Lord. Thank you Jesus.  

Now lets go for a walk, Gilbert. I wouldn’t want to miss the scent of morning and sound of bird songs or the sunlight dancing on glistening dew touched leaves. 

  

Sunday, Quarantine, Covid 19

Lovely sunny day.  At home.  I’m working from home now.  I just walked Gilbert along the river.  Social distancing individuals, couples and families. Only out of controls were a few dangerously speeding cyclist.  They need to be fined.  In my day we’d just put a rope across the trail.  Taught us all caution racing on the back woods trails.  Like land mines. If you want to race go on the road.

I read another arts student journalist whose got it wrong. This lock down and quarantine isn’t going to stop you from getting Covid 19.  In Iceland and on Cruise ships and in South Korea and now in area of Britain they are finding everyone is ‘getting it’.  The good news is a whole lot of people aren’t showing symptons ever. They might have a sniffle one day or a little feeling down.  70% of cases are mild. It might be more. The key is understanding as we get older we are more likely to need hospital or ICU to get through .
The disease lastS about 21 days.  Quarantines were for 14 because of a person likelihood of showing symptons within that time. There was one extreme outlier that showed the virus 57 days out.  Exceptions that prove the rule.  You get it and it passes. Only a few end up in hospital. Only a fraction of those need ICU.

For 10 years, maybe more, the government has stolen the money for health care and given it to terrorists and pet projects.  In Canada we have the most administration, the least doctors and longest waitlists.  As doctors and nurses and patients we have been seeing people in corridors because the hospital beds have not kept up with the population increase and aging population.  We are nearly 40 on the number of beds per thousand in the western world. All the talk of how good the Canadian health care system is compared to the US has overlooked the fact that the US has more beds for their population. Japan is the best.  The US made better decisions closing their borders and being absolutely candid about their decisions.

The virus was caused by nature. The pandemic was caused by the politics of the Communist Chinese government lying. It is still lying.  It is totally reasonable to say that Communists, if they didn’t plan the pandemic, capitalized on it. Communist Chinese killed a hundred million of their people in the past. They still enslave Tibet. There is no freedom of speech and no freedom of press. We in the west were only able to react to the pandemic because of a heroic Chinese doctor who was a whistleblower and soon after died a death like Epstein.  It’s only in democracies that individual lives count.   

The statistics of Communist countries and other dictatorships are conservatively estimated at a factor of 10 times deviant from the truth. China’s ally Iran reports a few deaths whereas families described all the doctors dead in a hospital and American satellites reporting mass graves.  These war lord nations always use stats as a weapon of their perpetual war.  The truth that followed the USSR fall was amazing. It only occurred because the only rising infant mortality in the western world, a statistics they forgot to conceal, showed that all their other glowing reports were skewed way off.
China has opened new quarantine centres.  

Black faced shame faced Trudeau called everyone racist for criticizing his policy of accepting thousands of Chinese from Communist china to land unvetted and move into the community without being quarantined.  Singapore and Taiwan are predominantly Chinese and did a magnificent job of vetting travellers and following up on contacts. Trudeau was the most racist, refusing to protect Canadians and lying about vetting as he had done regarding refusal to vet Migrants so that so many ISIS and disturbed diseased individuals continued to come legally and now illegally into Canada.  They want the increasingly rationed health care services.  Trump and the US were earliest to restrict borders saving thousands of lives by slowing down the demand on health care resources.

The Communist Chinese refused to share scientific and medical information until the now dead whistleblower did his wiki leak.  The pseudoscience of the Climate Change Alarmist industry with their hysterical adolescents screaming ‘how dare you’ and declaration the North Pole ice would be gone by decade ago or that we ‘d all be dead unless we gave them world control before 12 years, all was crying Wolf. There is Not and never was a ‘climate emergency’.  The language of terror coming from so called scientists and the communist and dictator dominated UN IPCC delayed the reaction to a real emergency with rising death rate and a need to act.
Thankfully the west did act.  It was estimated that there would be 1.5 million deaths by Covid 19 in the US by this summer.  Italy has 10, 000. Dr. Fauci is now estimating that with the protective measures and social distancing and quarantine the number of dead will be more like 100,000.  Dr. Bonnie Henry, Public Health Officer, British Columbia estimates the matter has halved the speed of spread.

Trudeau gave tens of tons of emergency medical supplies to China against medical advice and against Who advice.  Italy was overwhelmed because they didn’t have proper protective wear.  We needed n95 masks.  We needed respirators. Trudeau gave them away and the most harrowing thing I saw was nurses swabbing coughing patients in the test site wearing inadéquate surgical masks which solely protect patients from them not the other way around. China now is giving the west defective masks and thermometers. Who really is saving Canadians and who is the enemy?

Despite the national mismanagement, politicking, lying and rank obscenity, the Premiers especially NDEP Premier Hogan of BC and his government have been doing sterling work to managed this real ‘emergency’.  Hoarders were fined for reselling. Businesses were closed who wouldn’t follow public health laws.  

All of these measures are to ‘slow down the spread’.  They are working. We have now had time to produce tests and laboratories have ranked up their prodution. Vancouver has now got drive through testing sites and independent testing sites in Burnaby and Chilliwack.  Testing initially overwhelmed at 1000 tests a day, so given to the most needy, are now ramping up to a hundred thousand a day and like South Korea we’re testing more to see that so many are fine despite having the disease. Everyone is likely to get it in time. But that’is the key.
Without hospitals the rate of death in the elderly, the immunosuppressed or those with heart disease, lung disease, and diabetes, is 5 time greater.  This is not going to be the case here.  The College of Physicians and Surgeons has moved doctor resources and streamlined processes to address the problem. UBC Faculty of Medicine and the BC CDC have had time to get into action. These are the great minds that contributed to curing Aids and finding cures for cancer. Trials are already being done on the most likely cures.
 In the US the present administration is moving forward on treatments by removing beurocratic delays that would have meant years but now hospitals will have tools in weeks.  

Mr Trump was right though pilloried as usual. The sun and heat will slow the virus spread. There is a likelihood of a vaccine perhaps by fall.  I said we’d be out of the extreme medical crisis and need to quarantine and lock down by June. Mr. Trump says end of April. I hope he’s right. India just went into a 21 days lock down of 1.5 billion people.  The next crisis which some continue to fear was the Chinese communist plan is the economic crisis.
The world will not go back to normal. Not until we all have a safe vaccine and 70% of us at least get it.  That’s months away simply because of the fixed delay on trial of a vaccine in humans.  It’s not as quick as finding Hydroxychloroquine is an amazing treatment that reduces symptons and may prevent disease. India has recommended it’s frontline health care workers all take hydroxychloroquine. It’s not ‘proved’ by double blind controlled scientific studies but there is strong scientific evidence for it.  Vitamin C, D and zinc are all recommended. Now add sunshine to that.

The problem with our media today is that there is no objective ‘truth’ in this post modern world. Everything is going subjective and partisan. 

We are fortunate here at home. The question is now when to return to work. April, May or June. How and when. Also we must ensure our government doesn’t steal healthcare resources putting us all at risk for personal self aggrandizement. We also must celebrate the courage and great service we have seen from so many.

Thursday March 26 At home with Gilbert

7000 dead in Italy. We are into the third week and three weeks or so behind Italy.  We haven’t the deaths and the number of cases is rising solely because of the extension of testing.  The hospitals are full but not yet overwhelmed. It will be a close call. I think by next week we will see if we are going to have the resources.  The demand is increasing.  The key is in the percentages by age who need hospital and of those what percentage need to go onto intensive care.

In hospital they have IV fluids, O2 and suction as well as IV medication.  Other than that a whole lot of TLC from already overworked nurses and doctors there’s not much more than one can get at home.  811 is the emergency number to call to discuss going for testing and even going to hospital.  Obviously if you can’t breathe call an ambulance or a friend to get you to the emergency. Personally if I get sick I’m going to stay at home as long as I can because I like my space. I have chicken noodle soup. I always prefer my own bed and I won’t be spreading disease.  Gilbert is a good nurse.

The percentage of those in hospital who go on to need mechanical assistance with breathing is the key. This is a percentage of all those who are in hospital and where the bottle neck shortage really exists. There’s a finite number of resources and too many cases for the existing number of respirators. If the hospital and ICU resources are overwhelmed then the death rate jumps five times higher.  Considèr death rate of 10 to 15% for the over 80 crowd. Without hospital beds O2 etc or respirators this group’s mortality jumps to 50 to 60%. The same holds true for all the other groups. 

Social distance and isolation reduce the ‘run’ on the limited resources.  It’s just like toilet paper whereas in that case assholes hoarded it but in the case of respirators its not that people are choosing to use them.  The good news is that respirators can be bolted to the floors in hospitals. Otherwise we would have to fear the toilet paper hoarders and the sanitizers resellers would have stolen all the respirators in the city for their own personal greed.  

That’s why I’m thankful for the police and civilization and frankly what I’ve come to know as advanced Canadian culture. Canadians are caring, sharing, generous people who are known the world over as the best of killers too. Our women soldiers and men soldiers constantly get the sniper awards for longest shots.  We just are tolerant too.  As the majority of Canadians were taught the Christian value of tolerance and forgiving, turn your cheek 70 x 70 and judge not lest you be judged, that’s a finite number. Once we have shown forgiveness ‘enough’ we act.  So the police are thankfully arresting and confiscating and fining those people who are trying to take advantage of a bad situation.

I’m in a virtual office at home. It’s tough.  Yesteray 10 hours in front of the computer mostly listening to sorrowful tales and advising. I love telling people about the great leadership by our NDP Premier Horgan and Minister of Health Dix.  I think Dr. Bonny Henry needs the highest award for her calm and smart response to this public health crisis.  I qlove Dr. Oetter head of the College of Physicians and Surgeons and their quick responses and overall brilliant leadership.  UBC Department of Medicine has always been world renown clinically and in research so we’re seeing the Immunology Department, Infectious Disease and Microbiology and Pharmacology all responding letter perfect to an unprecedented crisis. The family physicians of this province have always been lauded across the country and they are showing their mettle. The Doctors of BC are just great.

India just went on lock down  1.5 billion people quarantined for 21 days except most essential services. I am blessed to know East Indians who are sharing what their families elsewheee are experience. Through this personal communication channel too we learned that Iran was lying like China had been but that France and Germany are facing the challenge stoically. Taiwan was as amazing as South Korea. It’s a bit like watching a Science, Politics and Intelligence Olympics. Iran right now is vying for the Darwin Award but Jamaica is doing well so far.

The Coronavirus will infect everyone until we have viable vaccines or herd immunity comes along.  Some very lucky rare individuals for reasons we don’t understand have natural immunity.  We saw this in Africa with these ‘truck stop hookers’. Truthfully I can’t remember what the scientific studies name was but it’s still being investigated because these rare individuals despite constant exposure to the Aids virus somehow didn’t get the disease but then did if they moved.  It remains a mystery.  Spontaneous remission is never something to be sneered at. Miracles happen. Grace exists but as my mother said “God gave you hands and a brain to use, so get up and help.”

Everyone now is helping by washing their hands and staying at home. I”ve loved Facebook. The Guppie Girl Dance routines in quarantine have been so funny and delightful.. I love the dogs nails painted red. I love the songs about quarantine It’s just great to see people coping and carrying on. That’s the same spirit which Britain was famous for in the great Battle of Britain.  We’re in a kind of Seige and our job is to survive and not go out where the enemy is waiting to pick us off.  Of course we have to go out for essentials and that’s the same in any seige.  Soldiers get shot going for water but they must go for water. So when I go out I try not to touch things, keep my social distance of 6 feet, and take off my clothes and shoes at the door when I come in. I put them aside and believe they’re ‘decontaminated in 12 hours’.  The virus stays on surfaces for 12 hours.

Otherwise Gilbert and I enjoy walking in the woods and don’t feel afraid in nature.

I’ve got to get ready for work. I’ve not devolved to staying in a house coat at the virtual office but I can see it might happen.  

Another great day in quarantine.  Singapore is already getting back to normal allowing more businessses to open.  I see Mr. Trump is saying we might be at that place by Easter.  India is hoping 21 days will control the wave and  ‘flatten the curve’.  I think Singapore might have been 6 weeks before they could loosen up. I believe we have at least another three or four weeks of cost to face because nationally we were so slow to react .  Thankfully our province and the Mayor of Vancouver took strict measures and we’re all working together with the help of our very fine and caring police.  

Thanks to everyone. God bless.  It’s great to be sober, clean and free and awake in these dire times.  I feel I’m ready to respond to what comes my way with the help of my faith and family and friends. I do pray for their safety and look forward to getting to the other side.  Hallelujah!