Sunday, June 14, Storage Locker run

I missed church.  I think they are still in process of hiring a new priest.  They didn’’t have Eucharist when I went with Laura a few weeks back.  The uncertainty was all it took. I turned over and had another half hour nap.  I had thought of walking to Brunette Lake with Madigan but it’s going to be so hot. I had begun to pile things like biker jackets for the storage locker run.  That’s the plan now. Less effort and a mall stop as well.  

The government offered me a couple of thousand for a gun buy back, they outlawed the rifle I bought almost the day after I bought.  I thought it being Canadian made it would not be attacked by our government that claims to want to help Canadian industry.  It’s safer in storage because here I have the cleaning ladies and it doesn’t store easily like the break down 22.  I might get the big pot too since I don’t envision doing that kind of cooking.  I want to reduce what I have in the Thor and in the storage locker.

I really enjoyed seeing Ragina’s wall of art and buy a small picture I can mount in the motorhome..  I have a place for this nude but have to get fastener that will hold up in a motorhome.  

Madigan is sitting on the table tooling at the street very entertained.

Yesterday the FIFA crowds made driving stressful.  I drive downtown so little I’m becoming a country driver.  It’s demanding to be watching drivers and the pedestrians as well as the drug addicts. 

I’ve had a coffee 

I have to make room under the bus for the barbecue since the hitch has taken up more space.  I was planing on testing if the Vespa could ride on the back of the jeep with the tire there but I’m thinking that could wait till next week.

I was pleased to get my cheque and pay off the credit cards.  I’d hoped to put some money into my tax free savings account but after all the costs and money on loans I let up this month and had a little shopping fun. I like my new electric toothbrush. I had to pay for medical prevention devices too and insurance.  So dome significant outlay. , I’m paying the bank which has significant shares in my Thor home and Jeep.  

I had my hair done by Shirin at Chaterers and it looked so good I couldn’t help but see the wrinkles and turkey neck as well.  So I want a face lift and even consider electrolysis because the neck is a hassle shaving. I’ve obviously got some time on my hands now beause for years I was only thinking of fixing houses and boats and education and supporting wives, partners and dogs.  I’m pretty content by comparison to that early life of study responsibility and struggle.  

I understand men who go to dominatrixx,  I have spent a life time of leadership and so called ‘alpha’ male behaviour in a socialist ountry where only the elite are rewarded and the ‘doers’, trades and professions are punished with taxes and anti male language like ‘toxic masculinity’.  I appreciate the fathers and the families but I’ve married infertile professional women for some reason. I’ve wondered if I didn’t want a sister more than to be a father.  I really did want to be a father in the Medicals school years and residency and after but then decades of women putting the timeline back and not having sex in the end,  being absorbed in their mothers and anything but present and future family defeated me.  I confess I lost interest.  I was more into service and God and adventure.  The heroic too.  It’s been a good run and I’ve enjoyed the many years of companionship with so much to show for those years in learning.  Now I’m just comfortable with this dog and friends and the ability to move my home to the lake.  For years I was hauling stuff each weekend for camping and hunting I’m thankful for the glampingmobile.

The city waits for me a decade from now. Aging the downtown calls with conveniences because the life of the road is a whole lot harder.  Even now I wonder what emergency equipment I need and what can I put in storage. I’d really like to reduce the storage locker too. I’ve been cutting costs all springs with selling of vehicles .  

I still like the Vespa but think an electric folding bicycle may be the way to go. 

I want to fish more and moved my rod and reel to a more accessible location. I do want to hunt too and want to do more target practicing.  

I’m looking for God and God is looking for me.  It’ s just that I don’t think God only likes stoicism.  Time to go

Thank you God for today. Thank you God for Madigan and this body with all its potential. Heal my back lord.  Help me stretch more and exercise more. Help me loose weight so I’m healthier and less at risk for disease,  Help me fasting today and more often,  Help me snack less and watch tv less.  Help me increase my exercise this summer and swim in lakes more.  Thank you for friends., Thank you for Laura. Thank you for Thor and Jeep.  

Thank you for sobriety.  I take a cake next week and then Laura Madigan and I have 10 days at Harrisons.  Thank you for the work vacation.  

Thank you