Nostalgia hits

When nostalgia hits like an old piano slipping harness on a wooden staircase

I’m knocked to my knees

Breath caught in unfolding gasps of emotional pain

You flash before my eyes like yesterday

I’m no longer here

I’m in a rabbit hold of memory

Tears of worship and regret

Such sweet forgiveness.

I was there I say, I am here now.

We were young once

So cool

So hip, slick and cool

And the future was to be chased

Ideas were explosive

Faces left impressions like footprints on the moon

Love and youth and songs and colours and scents.

Not better times. Different times. Innocence. 

Not yet bittersweet, just sweet.

First time lovers

First time everything.

Walking on the beach

Her bikini

The mountain rising above me.  The day growing the climb continuing steps and hands

There were always girls

And family

And friends and dangerous times.

Exotic places

Near death.

There was meaning and not so much blood

Not so many hours of grief and tears.

The evil ones had not stood outside the jails of their minds forcing you into their little spiritual cages

Your wings hadn’t been clipped and your feet hadn’t been bust by hammers

You saw a morning like no other. The whales off the coast. The Galaxy above the Sierras.

The northern lights in the arctic.  Sun sets at sea. Trade winds

Tree forts.  Bicycling forever and ever

Mini skirts Lingerie. 

Smooth skin and smiles with laughter of friends. Dinner parties. Music.

Guitars and drums.  Tapestry.  The winter outside, the warmth in side.

Nostalgia hits.

I’m in my first surgery.

Nostalgia hits I’m hunting with my father.

I’m catching my first fish.

My mother is teaching me to pray on my knees beside my bed.

There are library and more libraries and places to explore.

Nostalgia hits and I’m out of this day and out of this moment

Like Petit mal

People are staring.

I’m sometimes talking about something mechanical here and now 

Only to find myself babbling about yesteryear looking at a moments of exquisite charm

Tears welling in my eyes.
It’s like I only just realized how many decades ago that was

Nostalgia hits
Below the belt.