Kingfisher on Brunette River

I feel blessed when I see the Kingfisher along the Brunette River. For the longest time I couldn’t get a photo of it. Then I did and I did.  Again yesterday I saw the Kingfisher and was able to observe him and take his picture. I’ve seen the pair of them. My blue birds of happiness.  I always feel grateful

Journal - post Doc Side

I’m tired. Just walked Madigan. That’s the third time.  Just around the park but two poops.

We took the mini to work. I loved stopped at around the world for mocha on Hastings. Bought donuts for the staff.  Mary Lou is terrific.  

I saw patients in the morning.  One had a skookum electric scooter bike.  They’d been very active till their last one ended and they’d been fairly isolated but with this new cruiser they were their old self.  Amazing how wheels can perk a person up. 

I saw the doctor I’m supervising and she’s really doing well.  It’s been an easy gig given how conscientious she is.  Motivated too.  We’re both going to the UBC conference in Sept I recommended.  She takes suggestions well and hasn’t required any brow beating or drama.  I was burnt years back by the doctors lying and covering up and causing illness but acting all ‘picked on’ when I said their behaviour was unacceptable.  Then I didn’t appreciate that I only had one shit and the other dozens and dozens I taught were really very good.  That shit had connections and got carried by my superior when I thought they should face a firing squad. I’ve mellowed but really appreciate pe4ople being honest and doing their jobs.

I drove home , picking up laundry on the way.  Busy afternoon with really amazing patients progressing well. I like to think I’m a part of their increasing success.  

Then a trip to the mall to pick up mail and an A&W burger for myself and Madigan.  I’d left him home when I went to the mall. He was glad to have burger delivery.  I had a full day and other dog walk.  I’m tired.  Just full day.  Good day,

I’ve been listening to BBC 4 Beyond Faith podcast, excellent series of interfaith discussions.  Love the one on euthanasia. MAID.  I had the discussion on a face book feed too, I was quite snarky because I thought I was dealing with another Liberal party paid “influencer’.  She sounded like the promotion pamphlet and attacked a woman who raised doubts pulling the ‘wheere’s your proof’ ‘cite your reference ‘liberal liar’ distract and muddy waters.  That got me . So I came chivalrously to the rescue of the abused supporting free speech and quote he Laurer and other reviews and pointed out that there was ‘idealism’ and what occurred, which wasn’t always pretty.  I was too snarky.  Still the BBC Podcast had 4 debaters, a rabbi and an arch bishop, Inman and Sikh.  The pros and cons were equally powerful and the discussion was brilliant, none of the CBC ‘fixed’ debates pitting high school grad against the PHD of the preferred side . I don’t know what CBC is doing today but it’s much better though still communist broadcasting corporation.  

I was watching a 1967 war movie with Rip Torn but not terribly captivated despite the documentary footage and good acting.  I’ve been spoiled by the fast action of recent cinema.

Now I’ll go back to it.  

Working I have long days. I’m in the other clinic this week too.  I’m thankful to be of service.  

Thank you Go

Journal - Burnaby - St. Bartholomew Church

Another fabulous sunny summer day.  I just walked Madigan around the park.

Sunday I attended St. Bartholomew Anglican Church, the church on the hill.  It was so full I thought it was a baptism but what was special was Priest EMily announcing this was her last day till November.  She’s an amazing woman so dedicated and committed and empathic.

She’s going on a 4 month sabbatical journeying to the United Nations COP 2025 in Brazil.  She was excited and is passionate about ‘social justice’.  It’s amazing how I’m so often so alone.  I consider Climate Change the greatest scam of our day, a distortion of ‘environmentalism’ like ‘MAID”euthanasia is promoted as ‘health care’.  She’s not taking a plane so at least she won’t be one of the multitude of multimillionaires telling us middle class and below to eat bugs to save the planet.

I distrust WEF, UN and the WHO as all the neo communism organizations intent on world mastery  by using what Lenin called ‘useful idiots’.  Putin was hilarious writing about his work as a KGB agent to get the hippies to disrupt the west.  In the peace movement I saw the shift with the plants screaming ‘unilateral disarmament’.  Today it’s Hamma playing victim.  It’s also prayer in the street as ‘war is peace’ and aggressive narcissism, me first.  

I’m tired of what Buffalo Springfield sang about so long ago,m “:People carrying signs mostly say hooray for our side’

I am concerned that Canada is increasingly promoting euthanasia for elderly and mentally ill claiming this is empathy meanwhile my patients say they can’t afford to live, just like the girls having abortions who said they couldn’t afford to have children.  The cost of food has doubled and my loan has too.  I’m doing well but then given my place in society’s it suggests that if I’m in the top 30 percent then 70 percent are suffering.  

I figure any equation that ends with ‘poor me’ is a miscalculation since all equations should lead to gratitude.  So I’m grateful and hopeful that the Liberal government will give up it’s aetheism and have a come to Jesus movement and encourage work and wealth for the country that before Trudeau came to power was one of the greatest 4economic power houses of the world but in a mere decade has become third world with it’s outdated obsolete economic policies .

I’m listening to Goldman audios book Empathy and enjoyed learning of the fMRI research on psychopathals and so called ‘functional psychopaths’ and ‘Machiavellian psychopaths’ and narcissist.  It turns out they appear to have a missing bit in the amygdala. Retraining might benefit them.  

I’m praying daily.  I’m asking how I can improve in character and faith so that I can be of greater service I’m asking direction.  

I didn’t do much after church yesterday but walk the dog and read and nap.  I had wonderful dreams Saturday night of being in church and then was in church.  I like my spiritual community. I enjoyed talked with Ben whose getting back into work 14 months after his last relapse.

Madigan was perfect in church. He didn’t growl during prayers or snarl or goose the ladies. We’d ridden over on the Harley.  He and Fritz get along.  I’ll be following Emily’s journey. It’s reminiscent of Anne’s pilgrimage in Spain.  I find it ironic that other generations blame the women of my age for supporting the Liberals and the UN and Hamas and authoritarian dictatorship of fear mongering climate change.  Meanwhile I support Musk and Starship which is actually addressing the potential risk of the ‘extinction event’. Five of which have occcured.  

How do you deal with psychopaths in power, Hamas and Kim and Xi Jingping and the media letting pass the terrors of communism while attacked the democracies and western civililaztion,.

Here in Canada we still face the lies of mass graves of residential school.  Church said the lie is half way around the world while the truth is still put ing on it’s trousers.  

I’m liking the Canne film festival and the international fashion shows better than the virtue signalling of the private jet rallies.  I’m in my motorhome looking forward to going south to Fountain of Youth and Long Beach and Arizona.  Meanwhile I’m herein paradise.  It really is wonderful here.

Thank you Jesus for all your blessings.

Journal - Burnaby -Davie Street

Thank you God.

I’ve been using BlogTouch for blogging for 13 years and it was great.  It’s closed now I I’m back to using Blogger again.  It’s only opening a box like the iPhone.  Irritating.

I had my meeting this morning. Walked Madigan. After the meeting I rode the Harley with Madigan in his box to meet up with Laura for lunch. 

I stopped at Trev Deely to buy a new mask for my full helmet.  It smelled.  Sweat and Madigan had ticketed on it.  The masks are costly. So I bought a new helmet $300. It’s sweet.  I went year with one helmet and now I’ve replaced my helmet in 2 years.  Major safety device.  Smells great too. 

I found parking at Amoka. Ordered cappuccino. Paid Parking. Laura joined us.  Madigan was bouncing and jumping ecstatic.

I made a run down to Little Sister to get some advice. I bought a trans history before.  They sell toys too. But their book section is the best on LGBTQ.  

I had picked up my new trailer hitch for motorhome at Purolater yesterday and visited Laura then.  She’s going to be house sitting for her boss and sister in the next couple of weeks.  The long weekend is looking like we’ll be here since I’ve not found anywhere better to go. The delay in the insurance for the camper means it’s remaining on the truck so either I get it off the truck or bring the truck with me.  That may be the trick for hunting season which begins with bow Sept 1 but really Sept 10 is rifle. I’m planning on rifle hunting and we’re booked in October for a week TG north of Kamloops.  

The ride downtown on the Harley and visit with Laura was great. The ride home was really hot and start and stop traffic.  I went out again and picked up post and dropped off laundry.  Last night I watched Naked Gun with Nielsen and Priscilla Presley. There’s a new one with Liam Nielsen and Pamela Anderson. I’m looking forward to that one.  I liked that Pamela Anderson says she journals a lot and writes poetry. I’m journaling but not making headway yet on completing the books I’ve begun.  

Listening to audiobook Kindnes by dr Goldman of White coat Black Art CBC doctor show.  It’s fascinating on fMRI work on amygdala and empathy.  I loved hearing that psychopaths brains light up when they see picture and imagine them being hurt but when they see same picture and imagine someone else being hurt the normal empathy spots in amygdala adn cingluate don’t fire but rather a pleasure center one does.  He describes Machiavellian psychopathic traits and functional psychopaths a term I don’t like. I liked cluster b with psychopaths, sociopaths and antisocial and narcissists , borderline and histrionic of dam 5 .  I’m keeping up I guess. I think ‘disorder’ and ‘traits’ is at issue.  Traits like even ‘antisocial’ have value.  

Laura bought me brunch, cappuccino with breakfast croissant , delicious

Journal - Burnaby - Thor

The long weekend is passed.  Madigan and I walked Laura to her little red Smart Car and she headed back to her Bute apartment home.,  Madigan barked but wasn’t as upset as he’s been in the past. I think he’s learning ‘objects constancy’ . That’s the term we use in child psychology for when a baby drops something and doesn’t believe it disappeared.  I believe Madigan is begging to believe Laura will return or we’ll visit her but she’s not ‘gone’.  

He adores her and she loves him.  I believe he sees her in some mixed up Oedipal way as his mommy he’;d like to hump.  I love how much he enjoys our walks together, part of a bigger pack,  Also he works the room.  Has her throw his toy till she tires then comes to me to ‘fetch’.  It’s a family atmosphere.

I didn’t do anything this weekend.  A few errands, a few calls to pharmacy, a meeting, a swim, walks and mostly preparing and eating meals and reading novels.  I love hugging Laura.  I like kissing her too,

The Pride weekend was on with the parade and crowds and I miss seeing it but frankly traffic and crowds are barriers to me going to events. I’d much rather have gone camping with the Sober Riders in Keremeos.  Maybe next year.  I have been enjoying life in the new Thor Hurricane motorhome, barbecuing outside, sitting in lawn chairs in the sun.

I really am enjoying For All the World the Apple TV Science fiction historical drama based on idea that Cold War continued with NASA and the Russians having moon colonies. Last night they had a mars colony and were trying to capture an asteroid.  It’s captivated me like the Sons of Anarchy, Yellowstone, and Breaking Bad series did.  

Madigan had an accident with diarrhea I cleaned up in the morning. Then he didn’t poop all day and I walked him for over an hour before he did. He’s had lose stool this morning.  I’m thankful for the paper towel and comet and the new wet swifter.  

Now it’s work.  Yesterday’s BC Day civic holiday will make it a short week. I’ve just signed up for the UBC Pacific Psychopharmacology conference.  

First the long term neighbour across from us left then the neighbour on the left and now the neighbour on the right has pulled out.  All this activity has me wanting to head to Logan Lake like I did a couple of years back, enjoying swimming each lunch hour.  We’ve considered going away for the Labor Day Long weekend but didn’t find a good RV campground open. Our first choice was Whistler Campground and next Harrison.  It’s a popular weekend for camping and everything seemed booked up.  I may look more.

I’d best get settled into the office seat and begin the days telemedicine work.  

Thank you God for this weekend.  Thank you Jesus for all your blessings.

Lazy Days - BC Day - Journal

I felt tired after last weeks work.  Accumulated stress. New patients.  Uncertainties.  Some difficulties even with experience.  Negativity and stickiness,  Facin that and memories.  Politics and the lack of support.  Management getting richer and richer while the frontlines suffer with more platitudes.  Hard to peddle hope when Liberal governments promises no better than last.  More money to propaganda.  Marketing without logic.  Distraction.

Friday was a sunny day.  Work was work and social media was advertising and fear mongering.  I enjoyed seeing my friends taking holidays. Road Trips , hiking, travel.  Glad to see the kids. I really like baby elephants.

The best part was Laura arriving early Friday.  She’s really beautiful, such a kind soul.  I like that I’m not alone.  She shoulders the burden of Madigan. He’s constantly demanding play and treats and walks and I’m fine with that. He’s just a joy but when she arrives I’m off the clock and he smothers her with love.  She’s without her own dog all week so glad to play.  Her patience is amazing. He wants to have his ears scratched all day and she complies forever while I’m a brief massage and pet kind of guy.  

She also says it’s okay that I’m doing nothing. 

All I did this weekend was a post office run, a storage locker run, and a laundry run. We walked Madigan together. He likes being part of a pack.  We ordered Chinese at Yan’s and it was delicious.  I’d barbecued steaks that were perfect with potatoes and corn the first night. Chinese the next night and Me&Ed’s Pizza last night.  We did sit outside in the lawn chairs in the sun and read.  All around us are travelers with this as their holiday destination. I feel like people who live in Banff at times. The holiday feeling of the resort town here where I’m in transit. I saw Kevin at Staples and am looking forward to a $700 paperback. He’s writing hunting memories with the God kids. I bought a monitor and set it up for work.  Laura brought the wet swifter I’d ordered on Amazon. I cleaned the floor with it. More advanced than the broom. The Merry Maid ladies Irena and Alina were here Thursday and made the place special. They cleaned the refrigerator and freezer which was fabulous.  Laura loves it when they’ve been and everything is squeaky clean. 

It was Pride Weekend.  I said I missed it because I was annoyed at the rejection of the Police and the reaction to the Palestinians taking over the Parade last year. I really like to go wearing a dress and participating in the eelebration of LGBT. I was there decades ago and every few years since. I’ve grown older and am less inclined to crowds. I avoid the fireworks after going a dozen times younger.  I don’t drink and don’t like the drugs and alcohol. I don’t like people on them in crowds.  I don’t like the corporate hi jacking of Pride either. .  My favourite has always been Dykes on Bikes and the Gay Trans floats. Davie’s costumes are the best. I liked seeing friends especially those from Loving Spoonful and early AIDS days.  When I was the emergency doctor at VGH I volunteered to help with the psychotic AIDS patients overwhelmed with grief and isolation.  My friends were health care workers who served.  The Gay Parade was special then. it was a celebration of life and inclusivity without the anger and entitlement that followed, along with the drugs and politics.  When the first politicians marched they were special but now it’s just another photo shoot.  

But to younger folk not jaded with experience it’s still a kind of special. Not courageous but good,  I didn’t like that the 8 is too late group marched with their banner 30 years ago. Last year it was a family event and I was glad the fat old naked guys didn’t make an appearance.  I’d bought a white bonnet for the event and was glad to find a place to sit and watch as my back doesn’t take standing long.  I was on Denman and it really was a community celebration but I didn’t stay.  

This year I didn’t go because I said I didn’t want to go to a Palestinian parade but mostly I don’t like traffic and crowds. Besides Laura said it was okay if we just sat on lawn chairs in the back yard reading.  She’s good that way. Supports me when I’m being daring and outrageous these days.  I tell her I feel like I’m not doing anything and she says that’s okay.  I shared with friends that I’m getting older and don’t think there’s enough time for me to do whatever. I need to to get a Nobel Prize.  I know I’ll never deserve a Medal of Honor but with the rogues who’ve got the Nobel I thought I might just get one, if only for not screaming ‘fuck, fuck, fuck” in front of parliament, as all day performance art. 

The fact is the highlight of the day was after dinner watching For All Mankind. It’s a show that takes off from the premises that the Cold War continued and the Space Race did too with Russians and Americans having Moon Colonies and Halo a private corporation competing with NASA and Star City to put the first man on Mars. Wonderful soap opera with Star Trek themes.  

Laura and I also watched Echo Valley with Moore and Sweeney.  Moore is hot. I’m of the age where I’d choose her but Sweeney , all the rage today, is a gorgeous young woman and great actress reminiscent of Angelina Jolie, Julia Roberts’s and Sandra Bullock.  They were all young like Sweeney who really is talented like them as an actress . She’s plays the drug addicted brat daughter of Moore.  Incredible thriller drama. Sweeney is today’s flavor of the month American Eagle jean scandal.  The ‘woke’ crowd that’s anti white and anti merit promotes bearded ladies in marketing and doesn’t get that the majority don’t want propaganda.  Dr. Jordan Peterson makes a good argument that when the middle is conservative and family the potential for fringe is greatest as opposed to when fringe tries to lead only to create chaos and backlash. That chaos is in full swing now as traditional is buying Sidney Sweeney jeans because she’s cute and the jeans make girls butts look good. It’s all fairytale.  It’s all Barbie.  

Meanwhile I’ve spent most of the days reading first a western by Frank Wheeler. It’s a bit over the top like Kill Bill.  So many bad guys chasing the good guy and girl. Then there’s the the Sons of Valor False Flag thriller which really moves.  Saudi Arabia, America, Israel, and Iran all entwined with navy seals and CIA.  Great action and moving plot. 

Of course I have a book I should be writing.  Thankfully when I say to Laura who’s enjoying reading her book and social media watching her kids and grandkids , she says , ‘it’s okay’.  I responded to the pharmacists requests and watched my great nephews at the beach.  I walked Madigan.  I’ve been very active this year with a couple of conferences and driving to Southern California and Ottawa. But that was then.  Thank God Laura says it’s okay for me to ‘do nothing’.  

I have these books to write, all the cleaning to do and the storage locker to sort but I really love lying on the couch in the summer. And the day in the sun tanning on the lawn chair was heavenly.  Being with Laura is terrific.  She’s beautiful and sweet and sexy and kind and she puts up with the crazy dog who wants us to throw his toys all day.

It’s a fabulous restful peaceful lazy weekend in the sun.  I’m doing nothing but it’s okay. I’m loving my Thor Motorhome. it’s an elegant sufficient space with great potential.  I brought my Martin acoustic guitar back from the storage locker and played a bit. Since hearing aids I’ve not enjoyed it so much but plan to get back into it with a pick. It’s good for the soul.  I like that my barbershop quartet friend George is always organizing karaoke.  Patti at the church is always making music. I feel it’s time to begin again.  

Thank you God. Thank you Laura and Madigan., 

Journal - Burnaby

Friday is my day off. I used to work 120 weeks and thought an 80 hour week was okay.  12 hour days five days a week and paper work and phone calls on weekend. I’d like to be sailing on weekends because I’d be outside phone at first then cellphone range included all of straight of Georgia. Back in the day too a whole lot of necessary work, like call, was not paid. The Administators took all the free work of doctors and got more administrators Administration excpanded trying to keep pace with government and beurocracy.  I remember it.  It got better for me for a long time in the community. Today is great. 30 to 40 hour work week and finished mostly by Friedan.

Today is rare. I’ve really nothing pressing.  I’ve been in a whirlwind since the beginning of the year, returning to Canada from southern US, then dealing with practice and taxes, then trip to visit family, first time since Covid, driving my truck and camper across Canada to Napanee then returning with my boat and outboard. Then more practice and July, the International Conference of AA and Spokane International Doctors in AA.  Motorcycle trips. Now coasting.  Work is a challenge.  New Patients are unknowns.  I’ve started so many practices and survived the first year with all these unknowns.  Now I’m facing a mix of patients, many longer term and stable.  I really like the patients as they are progressing and so many make quite miraculous recoveries.  Mental illness is chronic but there are the wins’ .  I felt useful prescribing viagra last week.  Monitoring a medication and blood work. Diagnosing quite a few people whose diagnosis’s hadn’t been completed.  The GP’s who refer so commonly don’t know about cocaine use or infidelity or domestic stressors.  It explains so much.  

But today I’ve really nothing pressing.  I stayed up late watching the series For All Mankind, the idea of the moon mission and mars mission persisting with the Cold War. Great music.  Captivating for me.  I really do love sci fi.  This morning I was a little slow.  After getting up and getting started lay down for another half hour. Just got back from laundry with new owner, seems nice and no change for my routine. I was out at 9 and it didn’t open till 10 and Full Basket Butcher didn’t open till 930 so I walked Madigan and came back.  

Home I had coffee yoghurt and boiled egg.  Now I’m off to Staples to meet Kevin. Encouraging his writing and putting out a musings hunting book.  I love his stories and pictures of the kids.  Meeting at Staples to look at laptops. 

Laura is coming over for the weekend which is good given my general lack of motivation. She’ll help us lie on deck chairs in the sun. I can be impatient and have difficulty just being. 

I finished Jordan Peterson’s audio book. We who wrestle with god.  Uplifting.

I gave George his 49 year cake and Neil said I was okay, high praise from Neil and George said he was as honored but not as much as me.  Marty was away and would have been first choice.  I said I was second choice, like giving people Justin Bieber when they were hoping to hear Elvis Presley.  George won the international barbershop quarter championship in US and travelled the world with his group.  

I miss my little guitar and might get to the storage locker to bring one back. Last time I was there I saw the keyboard but not the guitar.  I’ve things from here I can drop off there tool. 

Madigan will like the Staples trip as its dog friends. 

I’m very thankful for all the blessings I have today. Summer is wonderful.  

Thank you God.