Journal - Burnaby - Labor Day Weekend

I’ve made it.  The work week was a slog at times, angry, blaming, sad, depressed, fearful patients holding onto old way, drugs and marijuana and alcohol and childhood coping mechanisms long past their shelf lives.  Abacus’s in the world of computers,  I go with them on their journeys.

But really there were also those in recovery doing the right things and getting rewards, showing gratitude and making being a doctor okay.  I realize always that at the end of the day I’m seeing the ‘difficult’.  Family, then friends, then nurses, then doctors and even psychiatrists have been involved,  I’m seeing people infrequently.  My practice is akin to my original general practice. I miss the intensive weekly sessions and even monthly sessions when I knew patients more fully and deeply.  This week I hadn’t seen someone in months and mixed up their partners,  It’s scarey. The Oscar chart system encourages such errors. I never would have made such an error with the paper charts

It’s done I survived.  I think I was tired too. I’m a bit burnt out.  The collective frustration with government incompetence and increasing costs of living.  The media is painful.  I was thankful the Starship test went well.  Hope,  Success.  

The heat was a factor. It was so hot for a few days my air conditioning couldn’t keep up.  I’ve learned to keep the shades down and one day moved back into the living room where it was a bit cooler.

I’ll frustrated by the air conditioning noise and my hearing aids and struggling at times to hear patient.

I’m impatient in such exhausting heat,  It was perfect for the beach.

Each day I walked Madigan around the park a couple of turns a few times a day. I meditated and prayed but only once felt ‘closer’.  Mostly I’m going through the motions, A couple of days I did 10 minutes of the foundation training and tai chi for the chronic low back pain.  I’m thankfully I can walk. I couldn’t at one time,  I struggle to walk from my car to the rest rooms on the highway stops.  Now I’m hiking distance and looking forward to hunting season opening to rifle next week 

Today Madigan and I are excited, Laura is joining us for the weekend . A staycation.  I couldn’t find a nice resort RV park to go to because they were all booked up.  I’m thankful for the simplicity.  I’ve reducing and enjoying the streamlining of my life.  In an hour I’m taking my Harley which I’ve really enjoyed to Metro Vespa where I’ll leave it for storage and return with the Vespa 300 Supertech serviced and able to be carried on the back of Thor Motorhome,

I’d still like to have H#E hitch look it over before I got south but I expect it will do as well as it did coming back from Chilliwack,  

Dam’s Lincolmn Ford RV service will be changing oil on the Thor in a couple of weeks so that it will be serviced for first long trip south.  This week I’m planning to phone south and making bookings.  I’ve taxes to pay and been just getting by since the major outlay for this Motorhome. I am still working and have worked all my life and feel I’m struggling at tines to get by.  I’m blessed and concerned spiritually whenever I slip into sell pity mode because I really am blessed and the only answer truly is ‘gratitude’.  

Thank you to for Alina and Altima the lovely ladies who come every few weeks and clean my place,  The effect lasts a week at least and Laura is so appreciative of clean.  Madigan doesn’t like it. I actually took him down to the river to walk him this week in the water and his smell improved immensely. He hated baths but was happy with the river experience, water to his belly, not swimming. He’ll only swim if  i do .

The weather is perfect,  I passed Kim walking madigan and said “lovely day’, Talking to Mac last night we agreed it was still too hot and muggy but a major improvement over Monday and Tuesday.  

Thank you Jesus.  Thank you God. Thank you Higher power, God of Gods.  Very God.  God almighty.  Creator.  Holy Spirit come,  Thank you