Egomaniac with inferiority complex

I first heard that 28 years ago and thought that sums up my dilemma perfectly.  I also heard the words ‘incomprehensible demoralization’ and felt sympatico again.  Today I don’t feel the shame, anger, hurt or self pity I once did. I just had a lovely dinner with friends I’ve known decades.  I was simply thankful. Great food, great service, great company.  I am blessed.  

Thank you.