Journal - Labor Day Weekend -Laura Visit

I’ve awoken to another grand relaxing long weekend day.  We didn’t go away but stayed here in Burnaby in the Thor for the weekend.

I’ve been able to trade in my Harley Nightster Special which I love the best all around for my Vespa 300 Supertech which is best for city and lighter carries on the back of my Thor motorhome.,  Now the Harley is stored for winter and the Vespa is providing me fun and service.

Alina and Alyina from Merrit Maids came on from Merry Maids and the Thor has been a joy. 

Laura arrived Friday morning.  

I’ve picked up my laundry from Tikki. 

I did a post office run and took care of some patient concerns Friday and Saturday. 

I did an important run to the storage locker dropping off the folding electric bike and large guitar. I now need to get another mini guitar. I brought back my shot gun . Bow hunting season opened this weekend but I had difficulty with the BECid and Wild sites online so haven’t even got my hunting license and tags. They claim it’s the post strike but it’s never been such as hassle.  Some change in the codes and demands for me to reconfirm my residence.  I did it.

Yesterday had the same difficulty paying corporate taxes at the bank.  Had to have the coupon. Thankfully Anil, my accountant had told me exactly what I needed to do and I was after a couple of tries paid my corporate and business taxes before the Sept 1 deadline.  

I’ve been trying to book my winter stay in Long Beach too so waiting for word on that.  

Laura has been over and we’ve been walking Madigan.  I’ve barbecued steaks and did a run to White Spot for lunch Burgers and had salad for dinner.  We’ve watched tv.

It’s been a pretty laid back weekend but I’m thankful to have done the errands and outstanding little tasks that I wouldn’t have been able to do if we’d gone camping. Laura whose been mostly reading and petting Madigan has said she’s happy with this. She like the Thor like I do.

Thank you God for this weekend

I’ve had two on line recovery meetings this weekend too.  Sunny days and blue sky here with the heat no longer stifling.

I’m listening to the Joseph Campbell Primitive tribes audiobook.  I finished a British thriller novel. We loved Thursday Murder Club with Helen Mirren, Celia Imse, Pierce Bosnan and Ben Kingsley movie.

Thank you Jesus. 

 

Journal - Burnaby - Labor Day Weekend

I’ve made it.  The work week was a slog at times, angry, blaming, sad, depressed, fearful patients holding onto old way, drugs and marijuana and alcohol and childhood coping mechanisms long past their shelf lives.  Abacus’s in the world of computers,  I go with them on their journeys.

But really there were also those in recovery doing the right things and getting rewards, showing gratitude and making being a doctor okay.  I realize always that at the end of the day I’m seeing the ‘difficult’.  Family, then friends, then nurses, then doctors and even psychiatrists have been involved,  I’m seeing people infrequently.  My practice is akin to my original general practice. I miss the intensive weekly sessions and even monthly sessions when I knew patients more fully and deeply.  This week I hadn’t seen someone in months and mixed up their partners,  It’s scarey. The Oscar chart system encourages such errors. I never would have made such an error with the paper charts

It’s done I survived.  I think I was tired too. I’m a bit burnt out.  The collective frustration with government incompetence and increasing costs of living.  The media is painful.  I was thankful the Starship test went well.  Hope,  Success.  

The heat was a factor. It was so hot for a few days my air conditioning couldn’t keep up.  I’ve learned to keep the shades down and one day moved back into the living room where it was a bit cooler.

I’ll frustrated by the air conditioning noise and my hearing aids and struggling at times to hear patient.

I’m impatient in such exhausting heat,  It was perfect for the beach.

Each day I walked Madigan around the park a couple of turns a few times a day. I meditated and prayed but only once felt ‘closer’.  Mostly I’m going through the motions, A couple of days I did 10 minutes of the foundation training and tai chi for the chronic low back pain.  I’m thankfully I can walk. I couldn’t at one time,  I struggle to walk from my car to the rest rooms on the highway stops.  Now I’m hiking distance and looking forward to hunting season opening to rifle next week 

Today Madigan and I are excited, Laura is joining us for the weekend . A staycation.  I couldn’t find a nice resort RV park to go to because they were all booked up.  I’m thankful for the simplicity.  I’ve reducing and enjoying the streamlining of my life.  In an hour I’m taking my Harley which I’ve really enjoyed to Metro Vespa where I’ll leave it for storage and return with the Vespa 300 Supertech serviced and able to be carried on the back of Thor Motorhome,

I’d still like to have H#E hitch look it over before I got south but I expect it will do as well as it did coming back from Chilliwack,  

Dam’s Lincolmn Ford RV service will be changing oil on the Thor in a couple of weeks so that it will be serviced for first long trip south.  This week I’m planning to phone south and making bookings.  I’ve taxes to pay and been just getting by since the major outlay for this Motorhome. I am still working and have worked all my life and feel I’m struggling at tines to get by.  I’m blessed and concerned spiritually whenever I slip into sell pity mode because I really am blessed and the only answer truly is ‘gratitude’.  

Thank you to for Alina and Altima the lovely ladies who come every few weeks and clean my place,  The effect lasts a week at least and Laura is so appreciative of clean.  Madigan doesn’t like it. I actually took him down to the river to walk him this week in the water and his smell improved immensely. He hated baths but was happy with the river experience, water to his belly, not swimming. He’ll only swim if  i do .

The weather is perfect,  I passed Kim walking madigan and said “lovely day’, Talking to Mac last night we agreed it was still too hot and muggy but a major improvement over Monday and Tuesday.  

Thank you Jesus.  Thank you God. Thank you Higher power, God of Gods.  Very God.  God almighty.  Creator.  Holy Spirit come,  Thank you

Journal - Burnaby - Thor - Hump Day -Gratitude

Thank you God for peaceful sleep Thank you that the nightmares are gone. Thank you that life is relatively peaceful today. Thank you that my work is relatively straightforward, Thank you for calm. Thank you that I can be of service, Thank you I’m physically capable mobile despite chronic pain.  Thank you for the exercises that I am supposed to do and when I do them help me. Thank your for all the delicious food and meals I make. Thank you for the take out, Thank you for my vehicles,

Thank you for the Tikki laundry service.  Thank you for the propane depot service Thank you for Save On foods. Thank you for gas stations.  

Thank you for Merry Maids, Irina and Alina coming today.  Thank you for Metro Vespa who said my Vespa Supertech is ready to pick up. I;’m going to ride over with my Harley and store that while I take the Vespa back,  Maybe Friday.

Thank you for Dam’s Licoln Ford Commercial Truck and RV service.  They’re going to change my oil and service Thor.

Thank you for the baby Maizy and Fin and Elliott. Thank your for family. Thank you for Adell the amazing matriarch of the family

Thank you for Laura who is coming over this weekend,

Thank you for the forecast of showers this week. The air conditioning hasn’t kept up with the heat for a couple of days. I’ve not been able to work in my front office seat and had to move back to the table where it’s cooler.  Help me to solve the problem of hearing and a/c noise.

Thank you for George and the group I’m attending tonight. Thank you for Cyberdocs as well,

Thank you for Starship success yesterday with take off and landing. Thank you for Madigan.

Thank you God for all your blessings. Help me to know you more deeply and fully and know the will and have the power to carry that out,  Thank you for O2 and CO2,  Thank you Jesus.

Thank you for the off leash park and Loughheed Mall

Journal - Burnaby - Thor

I am up and having the morning coffee. I’ve walked Madigan and he pooped. That’s a good start to a sunny blue sky day.

I’m grateful. Thank you God for this day and all of your blessing.

I didn’t meditate as long as I might.  The neighbourds who came in last night in their motorcoach left this morning. They must be travelling and just had a stop in at night. I’ll be doing that this winter. 

On Friday I drove Thor out to Chilliwack RV Storage. This is probably the main story and if I was writing for more than a journal I’d begin here and crop if only to use the pictures I took which I like.  

The traffics was bad, What should have been an hour and a half drive was 3 hours.  The Thor has a problem with the driving air conditioning.  On the way back I used the generator so I could use the in house generator all the way back.  I talked with Coastal Ford yesterday about service but they only take 22 feet I’ve left a message with Dams Lincoln Ford which services RV and Commerical trust. I’ll set up an appointment to take Thor in on a coming Friday It’s my home and work site so a challenge to do this sort of service.

At Chilliwack RV Storage John’s son was there and gave me to keys. His father was in Netherlands.

My truck and camper were fine and I set about unloading the Vespa.  That was the mission.  To bring the Vespa back on Thor.  I unloaded the Vespa fine and set up the hitch and carrier from the front of the F350 to the back of the Thor.  I was even able to drive the Vespa up onto the carrier without difficulty.  That had been the concern. I still don’t know if I’d be able to carry the Harley because the extra 100 pounds makes a lot of difference,  The Vespa weight distribution works better too with me being able to add a strap to the ladder.  

John’s son looked it over for me and agreed it should be able to carry the weight.  I was off again. It was so hot and I was tired.

At the road back onto the Chilliwack road I found out you can’t see to turn right and had a difficult time with cars coming both ways and not stopping but passing in front of me,  Scarey.  I learned that without a passenger I can’t see both ways.  

I’d thought to stop and visit Victor but after that fearful situation I just wanted to get home. I didn’t see anywhere I could pull over. I need a Walmart parking lot to stop.  

Fortunately I was on my way. The heat was tiring.  I had the generator on in the living room but the driving cabin gets hot because of the big window.  The A/C heat in the Ford engine isn’t working but thankfully I had cokes from the fridge and Madigan had water. There was no crash of the Vespa tearing off the hitch and we carried on slowly

Great to get back to Burnaby RV.  

I unloaded the Vespa to find I’d not turned off the lights so the battery was dead.  I did park Thor alone just fine. I’m finding it easier each time. 

It took me an hour to get teady to go and less than an hour to set up.  I’m becoming more efficient with the leveling and slide.  I’ve even getting better at stowing inside which can improve.  Even setting up water and electricity and sewage was fairly quick.  I do like it. 

I find myself dreaming of travelling south to LA, Fountain of Youth and Algedones.  I really do hope it goes as well if not better than last year. 

Laura is coming out this weekend for the long weekend.  I tried to find an RV spot by a lake or close in but didn’t find one and Laura said she’d be fine with a stay cation here.  Ive got two clinics this week and don’t want to take the Vespa on the carrier till I confirm with H&E Hitch it’s sufficient and they don’t have to reinforce it.  To do that I have to drive through town and am thinking of setting up an apt for that early in a day in case they say they will work on it.  I have to phone them.  The son told me to bring it over but nobody seems to appreciate that this is the home and that I’m terrified driving in the city.  I did more driving this weekend so am gettting more confident but traffic is challenging.

Yesterday I had a tow truck take the Vespa to Metrovespa but the guy didn’t remember the keys which I had in my hand but didn’t hand them to him because he was fussing with the visa., I ran after him but he didn’t see me.  This ocasioned Madigan getting a ride into town on the Harley. He seemed to enjoy the experience.  I did except when traffic was stalled. Not too bad and a great sunny day,  I’ve only been using my leather jacket. I had the summer mesh jacket in my hand but left it in the back of the truck for use with the quad though frankly I don’t need it for that and could use it here.  Good day and good ride.

Now I’m up and ambivalent about going to church.  I considered I’m in the clinics this week and can lie in the sun while we have it.  Sunbathing for Jesus may be all I do today.  I could aim for some time in the pool. Summer it’s so busy with kids I’m not enthusiastic to go

I’ve no idea what to do today. I imagine if I ever retire I’d be faced with these blank slates which do get filled,  I get bored easily and am glad that I don’t have a blank slate that often. I am pleased that I got the Vespa back and it’s having it’s maintenance done and the switch fixed. I’ll store the Harley and have the Vespa. Then I can just leave here without any extras but my car.  One day I’ll have the Maverick truck 

We’ve a week of hunting in Clearwater planned and I’ll just take the truck with the camper on it. Insurance is resistant to paying up so the strut can be fixed . Once that’s done I’m thinking of seeking truck, and camper and downsizing to the Maverick with trading in my Mini as well. I’d like to pay off more of the Thor as well.  

I’m due for another coffee and some yoghurt and maybe a quiche and vitamins.  I was going to have  a shower too, My only plan for today is to drive my laundry over to the drop off. 

I could start doing my own laundry like i do when I’m travelling but the cost is very little. I’m enjoying my new Dickinson Barbecue. The Weber did well with 7 years and no maintenance.  I’m going to try to do more maintenance now that I’m older.  I did sort a bin under the bus today.  I’ve got a whole lot of organizing to do here and reducing clothing, The storage locker needs to be sorted too.

For now another coffee is the plan.  Shane told me that the heat is the big window and keeping it cover certaintly makes it easier to keep my home cool.  

I even considered replacing the outdoor TV so I could sit outside and listen to it through the ear pods .  That’s what I do with this Roku in the living room and the bedroom tv was upgraded before.  I am spoiled with tech.  

I could do some work too later today.  I’ve calls to return.  Some days I just like having the weekend free to myself.

I’ve been planning on taking Madigan to this off leash dog walk by Barnet on the beach. I’d like to explore and maybe that would be the ‘event’.  I think too I could do that with Laura and have also wanted Fish and Chips so that’s a possibility too,  There are so many possibilities and I really like reading and napping. I’m enjoying the Joseph Campbell audio book and finished David Niven’s the Moons a Baloon. 

Thank you Jesus for all of the blessing. Thank you for caring for family. Maizy looks so darling in her little ethnic dress. Must ask which European country that was from, Thank you God for caring for family and friends, Madigan and for patients. Thank you for this lovely summer.  Thank you for Thor and getting us and the Vespa home, Thank you for Laura and Madigan, Thank you for mobility and health. Thank you Lord Jesus for all of your blessings. 

Journal - Thor - Burnaby

There are breaks in the clouds with blues sky. It’s brighter and warmer outside.  Madigan is well. I am well.  It’s a new day. Hump day Wednesday

Thank you Lord for Carbons Dioxide.  Thank you for Oxygen. Thank you for the periodic table, Thank you for history and learning.  

Thank you for the new soft sensuous feeling SAXX and Jockey underwear.  I remember when Stanfields were rough and harsh but today I have the pleasure of clothing for an emperor or queen,  I like the pleasures of aging.  Young we prided ourselves in not washing some of our sports gear. Today i wash everything. I like being fastidiuouds today but I’ve never been a pig. Just not washing in winter hunting expeditions of a week or so. Changing standfields socks and long John’s and tshirts but not worrying about clothes or comfort so focused on moose hunting,.  We did have wet ones.

I love wet ones today too.

Sailing I loved being clean and living in just a sarong or shorts and sometimes a T-shirt.  I loved the lightness of dress in the tropics.  In the sub arctic wore layers of clothings and parka and wool pants and heady boots and mits and toques.  

I have become a softy with age.  I like the looseness and freedom and lightness of being,

I could live naked except for a loin clothe or khaki sailing shorts.  A couple of pair for washing every day or so. I used to just wear jeans and wash camping with a bar of soap wearing the jeans in the water.

I miss the lake here. It’s great being near work and having this urban routine but living as I might in the country but I’d like to be able to go out in the morning for a swim. 

I loved running naked down the dock and jumping into the lake as the first event after toilet before making breakfast.

I was a stoic young and read Marcus Aurelius but now I’m becoming a hedonist/epicurean.  I like putting lotion on my skin and sun tan oils when I’m outside.  I love Olay SPf 15 for my face.

I’m thankful for all of these luxuries.

Thank you for indulgence.

I dreamed that I was at the conference in the mountains and that women were helping me.  I especially liked one older lady who was untangling  a sweater for me. I loved remembering my mother untangling my fishing line when I was a child and we went out fishing with Ron and Dad and Her and I as a family.  Dad was impatient and only he and Ron seemed to have a line in the water because WI was always tangling my line and mom was untangling it patiently as I was frustrated wanting to catch fish.  I was 6 or 7 at the time.  

I had the fondest memories of childhood and my Dad and Mom helping us.  It’s probably why I like the baby elephant movies.  Thank you God for caring loving parents and kind communities and learning. 

I took Madigan to the off leash dog park and picked up mail.  I continue to work and be of service and am thankful for my health. Thank God I’m alive.  Thank you God for this day and all it’s possibilities.,

Journal - Thor - Burnaby

There are breaks in the clouds with blues sky. It’s brighter and warmer outside.  Madigan is well. I am well.  It’s a new day. Hump day Wednesday

Thank you Lord for Carbons Dioxide.  Thank you for Oxygen. Thank you for the periodic table, Thank you for history and learning.  

Thank you for the new soft sensuous feeling SAXX and Jockey underwear.  I remember when Stanfields were rough and harsh but today I have the pleasure of clothing for an emperor or queen,  I like the pleasures of aging.  Young we prided ourselves in not washing some of our sports gear. Today i wash everything. I like being fastidiuouds today but I’ve never been a pig. Just not washing in winter hunting expeditions of a week or so. Changing standfields socks and long John’s and tshirts but not worrying about clothes or comfort so focused on moose hunting,.  We did have wet ones.

I love wet ones today too.

Sailing I loved being clean and living in just a sarong or shorts and sometimes a T-shirt.  I loved the lightness of dress in the tropics.  In the sub arctic wore layers of clothings and parka and wool pants and heady boots and mits and toques.  

I have become a softy with age.  I like the looseness and freedom and lightness of being,

I could live naked except for a loin clothe or khaki sailing shorts.  A couple of pair for washing every day or so. I used to just wear jeans and wash camping with a bar of soap wearing the jeans in the water.

I miss the lake here. It’s great being near work and having this urban routine but living as I might in the country but I’d like to be able to go out in the morning for a swim. 

I loved running naked down the dock and jumping into the lake as the first event after toilet before making breakfast.

I was a stoic young and read Marcus Aurelius but now I’m becoming a hedonist/epicurean.  I like putting lotion on my skin and sun tan oils when I’m outside.  I love Olay SPf 15 for my face.

I’m thankful for all of these luxuries.

Thank you for indulgence.

I dreamed that I was at the conference in the mountains and that women were helping me.  I especially liked one older lady who was untangling  a sweater for me. I loved remembering my mother untangling my fishing line when I was a child and we went out fishing with Ron and Dad and Her and I as a family.  Dad was impatient and only he and Ron seemed to have a line in the water because WI was always tangling my line and mom was untangling it patiently as I was frustrated wanting to catch fish.  I was 6 or 7 at the time.  

I had the fondest memories of childhood and my Dad and Mom helping us.  It’s probably why I like the baby elephant movies.  Thank you God for caring loving parents and kind communities and learning. 

I took Madigan to the off leash dog park and picked up mail.  I continue to work and be of service and am thankful for my health. Thank God I’m alive.  Thank you God for this day and all it’s possibilities.,

Journal - Burnaby -Thor

I’ve made it to Tuesday.  I sometimes see the week as a mountain and like the term, “hump day’ for Wednesday.  I like my work and the routine. I especially like the people.  

It’s the cloudy days in August that level the mood, and work.  

Yesterday I worked, I made Kraft dinner.  Nothing else except Madigan’s walks.  I finished David Niven’s audio book “moons a ballon’.  I’d read the book many years ago and enjoyed it . It was worth the listen.  I’m revisiting more.  Classics are in my audiobooks library too,  I like to listen walking Madigan.

Other days I pray.  I did some more Eric Goodman. It’s a challenge to exercise. I’ve been too long sedentary. I see the merit of a class. I only get five minutes in and stop when it’s stressing.  I’ve too fond of lying on the couch or sitting.  

I’m enjoying the coffee this morning, French

When I’m not working I struggle to do projects though some just occur while when I’m working I’m just making it throug the day and work,  Trudging.  I’m mostly in the day.

I enjoyed that the Trump and Putin and then NATO and Zelensky all met to end the war.  Quite significantly Canada was excluded.  I’m saddened that we would ally with Communist China who killed Canadians in Korea and threaten us in Covid. They’ve invaded Hong Kong against our ally Britain’s and threat Taiwan and Japan.  They are aetheists still while Putin crossed himself at the graves of the WWII Russian and American Soldiers.  I like the Orthodox Church in Russia and in Greece.

Pierre Poilevre won his seat in by election.  I believe the election was rigged because Trudeau didn’t act surprised or concerned when the BC Chinese MP exposed Communist China’s interference and rigging and corruption. 

I ve ordered a book on fMRI advances.  I’ve a psychopharmacology conference next month.  

Today it’s work and walks. I might have time to make a run to the post office.  I took out smokies to thaw to barbecue tonight.  

I tried to point out that racism in Canada when present was directed mostly at native and Chinese workers and not the black affair today.  That set off the blacks and the idea of BLM Marxism and the political , “racism is our flag’ , much like the jewels who were and are persecuted in Canada hang onto the ‘genocide flag’ while the Armenians and Cambodians are excluded,  The point made was that the focus on anti Nazi has taken the heat off the equally if not more destructive communists 

I go periods of time disinterested look at FB for dog pictures and recovery then this week I let myself slide back into playing chess with pigeons, The ad hominems and grade school approach to discussion with verbal abuse but no understanding of debate or discussion wears me down,  I then go back to spirituality.  Bean me up Scotty there is no intelligent life.

I’m practicing principles and program in my person life but not in face book which i play like a board game. It’s not real but what is and research continues to expose the stress we experience in these media.  

The good news is that sperm has antidepressant properties with oxytocin etc so it’s good for you as well as functioning as reproductive.  Philomena Cunk was suggesting it would be good if it was tomato soup and we could share a bowl in bed after

Journal - Burnaby - Monday Aug. 18

Good morning God. Thank you Lord for this day.  Help me to be a better person and serve you more truly and fully.   Help me overcome pride, judgementalism, hypocrisy.  Help me to be kinder. Help me in my work as a clinician.  Guide me. Lead me.

Thank you for this day, Thank you for wakening.  Thank you for Madigan. Thank you for Eric Goodman. Thank you for my grandfathers and grandmothers, my mother and father, aunts, uncles, cousins and nephews and neice, Thank you for my ancestors. Thank you for my brother Ron and my close friends like George, and Kirk and Garth and Glen.  Thank you for all the beautiful sexy loving women I have known,  Thank you for the lovers. Thank you for the teachers and mentors, Thank you for Carl Rudd, Jack Hildes, Nady el Guebaly, Don Hedges, Willi Gutowski, Phillip Ney, Hank Olivier, Art, Bob Manness, and so many more. Thank you for my colleagues.

Thank you for my patients and our work together.

Thank you for all your blessings and lessons,  Thank you for my education in chemistry and spirituality.  Thank you for learning,

Thank you for all the pets I’ve known, Thank you for the local off Leash dog park.

Thank you for this grey weekend, mostly overcast with heavy rains on Friday and bits of blue sky on Sunday, Thank you for my new Dickinson Sea B Que barbecue and the years fo service my Weber 1000 gave me,  Help me to do more maintenance and care with my equipment.  The Weber lasted seven years but the burners would be working fine if I’d cleaned it more. I’m pleased with the Sea B Que because it’s smaller and fits with the Thor.  

Thank you for my visit with Mack and Helena. Thank you for daily contact with Laura.  Thank you for her companionship.

Thank you for last nights barbecue steak from Full Basket Butchers.  It really was delicious. Thank you for the Invasion series on Apple TV.  Thank you for our walks and the fresh air and lovely green trees and bushes, Thank you for the rain that pleases the vegetation and also puts out forest fires that are finally being recognised as made made rather than that ideological financial trap called ‘climate change’.  Please Lord help unburden ourselves from this Marist Aethist agenda and 1900’s thinking. Thank you for the advances in science.

Thank you for prayer and meditation. 

Thank you for coffee and cream and honey. Thank you for this day, this week , this life.

Holy Spirit come, Thank you for my virtual meetings and my men’s meetings.  Thank bananas and ice cream.

Thank you Jesus

Journal - Aug. 17, Sunday, Burnaby

I shut off the alarm this morning and slept in till 830 am. I’d decided not to go to church. I’m following Priest Emily’s journey overland to Brazil.  My priest and the Anglican Church are globalist and UN and Climate Change folk but I don’t support it. 

The trouble with having rained in science and done scientific research and studied the history of science I’m at variance with the MSM.  Our PM is a globalist and Trudeau before him said he was ‘transnational’. 

When Fauci was blaming the Pangolini I was studying the genetics and recognised it was a bat viruse from the Wuhan lab.  Gain of function research.  But I couldn’t speak out against the absurdities and followed the moderation from UBC.  Public health was political and fowl.  The WHO was no more. I’d seen the politics in Malaysia and Delhi.  They were anti American not anti truth and angry and entitled. 

Everyone is entitled.  

I’m afraid of the censorship and communism and neo communism in Canada.  I saw that the anti Americanism was increasing whether it was Republican or Democrat.  The Liberals have dramatically increased the corruption in Canada.  We dropped from number 6 of the least corrupt nations in 2015 to 14 this year.  SNC Lavalin and the WE scandals.  

It’s all politics and I enjoyed a friend saying he finds it easier to watch if he just thinks it’s two gangs the Cripps and the Bloods.  Voltaire did say steal a little and they put you in jail,

I’m aware I’m aging and of an age where I’m learning of friends dying, retiring or breaking something. I worry my caution is cowardice.

I lay in an hour and a half and thought I could appreciate the people who ‘bed rott’.  It’s depression.

I’m a moderate so I’ve bullet holes all over my body. The extremists of either side don’t realize they’re not shot in the back like us moderates.

I chose to engage in a couple of chess games with pigeons on the internet this week - I put up a post saying Canada was the greatest country in the world and fought back against the disclaimers.

It’s fundamental to the lefty that they are victims and never satisfied.  They just want power and more power.  The essence of communism and jihad are the same. Power. There will be peace when we win totally but all the predictions are false like the ones that say the world is ending.  

It wearies me .  I’m slightly down mainly because the sun isn’t out. We had a deluge, most rain in a hundred years in a day on Friday and then it’s been cloudy since, Today it’s grey. I say I have flower genes along with the Neanderthal and Homo sapiens.  Today is grey. I walked the dog one lap about the park but he hasn’t pooped yet.

I’m considering replacing the Weber barbecue or fixing the propane jets on the ring.  All I do is barbecue though i have the oven working now and made frozen fish and chips and would like fish sticks.

I’m keeping up with my work and glad to be of service.

I was paid yesterday and paid off my credit cards which felt good. I’m not in the black but the red is just pink.  Another couple of weeks without more major costs and I should be okay again. Dealing with buying the motorhome was a challenge but it’s going to be okay.  

I want to be able to carry my Vespa or Harley on the back of the motorhome and have been talking to the father and son at H&E. They want to see the motorhome and I almost had the courage to do that this Friday then the rain. I think I’ll book an appointment and force myself to drive it across town to their shop.  

I enjoyed reading that Pamela Anderson likes to write poetry and journal.  

I like to journal.  

I’m supposed to be writing a book.  I’ve hundreds of pages done on all three of the projects but I don’t seem to make the time for editting and compiling,.

I did baby steps and started my 12 minute a day Foundation Training back exercises again with Eric Goodman. I’d begun these 2 years ago but I’ve begun again. I did 5 minutes and took a break.  

There’s some blue sky in the west.

I’ve been talking to Mac and he doesn’t like the real heat . He has an outdoor fan so he can leave his inside air conditioning and sit out side.

Helena’s son has gone to Holland 

McGrath is doing major hikes into the mountains and finding amethyst.  I like seeing all the folk getting sobriety.  I’ve attended a couple of virtual meetings this weekend,  I did swim too.

I’ve taken Madigan about doing errands like picking up laundry, picking up mail.  There’s just a myriad of chores to be done.  Then there’s always the storage locker to be reduced and even the bins under the motorhome could be better organized or the holds in the living room and bed room. I did sort the clothing some but all I do is say it’s ‘better’ when I’ve done a little. I worry though that I’m moving the deck chairs on the titanic at the storage locker. I get rid of something and add something.

I pray.  Every morning I meditate but it’s not as deep as it’s been.  I have been blessed with revelation and spiritual awakening and peace and peace of mind and bliss at times but today it was mundane, I’m doing the ritual. Doing the exercises lighting the lamps so I’m ready when the master comes,.  I should. “Should’. ‘Should’ be doing more exercise as meditation. I rest on the laurels, I’m thankful for my health but I’m not reaching for the stars. I’m just getting by.  I’m kind of coasting.  

I ‘ve done a lot this year but now I’m in between. 

Laura is coming over for the long weekend. I’ve not found a good place to go to so we may have a stay cation

Sept 10 is the opening of rifle season so I may just get the camper and truck and head out for a week with Madigan to careen about with the quad.  The thanksgiving long weekend is planned for a week off and I’ll have the same arrangement for deer hunting in an area where I could even shoot a moose though I’m really happy to hunt partridge and rabbit. I ‘d like to shoot another buck .  I miss the joy of venison steaks and stew, I figure if I shot a moose I’d have to call for help to get it out.  The fact is my back hurts and I don’t want to fall and break anything so I’m cautious as I’m out of shape,. If I was more in shape , did more hikes and climbed trails I’d be less at risk.  But I’m frankly ‘lazy’ or just tired. I find some days at the end of a day of work I’m exhausted and drained.  Working in addiction most people don’t realize their negativity and anger and neediness. It’s so different working in emergency or acute care. Chronic pain and chronic disease is a difficult kind of painful. 

I’m blessed though. Really , Thee’s blue sky among the clouds. I have had breakfast and coffee. I’ve a dog that chases his tail and barks at it. I’ve friends and work of value. I’m in this motorhome which the bank and I own though i have the money to pay for it the government would punish me more and demands more taxes so thankfully I have an accountant and bankers that are looking out for me.  Thank you Jesus Thank you God of Gods,

Journal - Aug. 15, 2025

It’s a rainy day.  I’d thought to take the motorhome out to chilliwack to pick up the Vespa and bring it back to town but I realized H&E only need to see the motorhome.  I will phone and book and apt or get the courage to drive over there.  Maybe even today. But really I’d rather be safe inside.

The other day watching other vehicles come and go I felt I wasn’t safe anyway. I have fear of being hit or hitting another vehicle. I’m waiting for insurance and repairs on my camper. This is my primary home,.

Then I think I’m aging and time is passing. I’d like to be using this primary vehicle. It’s like when I first had my sailboat. The fear of taking it out in the ocean.  

I am going to be driving south in the winter and gaining experience without forcing the process. I’ve thought also that I could hire an instructor to drive with me but that’s really not necessary. I have the skill just lack the experience .

There’s the swimming pool and I could do lengths and feel better with that. There’s dog walks on the river and the lack and a beach walk we haven’t explored.  

There’s lots to do.  I think another coffee and maybe reading is in order this early morning rainy day.  

He’ll need to walk too .  The laundry needs picking up.  

I was really tired by the end of the work week yesterday, depression, soul sucking.  Trying to motivate people to get out of the foxholes of their lives. I’m a bit like that today.  I don’t judge. I just listened to Goldman’s (white jacket, black art) book on Kindness and figure I have empathy but I’m a little burnt out, not with the individual but rather with the system. I’m jaded by government. It’s pay day today so I’ll feel better when I pay off my credit cards and get cleared away.  Money is turning out to be a spiritual hurdle these last few weeks. I have more than I think in terms of material security and wealth yet I’ve been anxious , “fear of economic insecurity’.  Possibly it’s just aging and having a decade to clear out the final debt , this motorhome, and working when I could just walk away. My struggle with being adult and responsible.  

I have to put my faith in God.  I have to pray more.  

All is well.

I am truly blessed.  

I do have to keep moving. I’ve things to do and must not procrastinate but i have no real agenda for today. It’s all okay

Thank you God for this day. Thank you Jesus. 

I loved hearing at the Burnaby Fellowship Men’s Meeting

“I begin my day by saying, “Thank you God for my sobriety. Thank you I’m not in the penitentiary.” Thank you God I’m sober. Thank you I’m not in th penitentiary.

Journal - Aug. 15, 2025

It’s a rainy day.  I’d thought to take the motorhome out to chilliwack to pick up the Vespa and bring it back to town but I realized H&E only need to see the motorhome.  I will phone and book and apt or get the courage to drive over there.  Maybe even today. But really I’d rather be safe inside.

The other day watching other vehicles come and go I felt I wasn’t safe anyway. I have fear of being hit or hitting another vehicle. I’m waiting for insurance and repairs on my camper. This is my primary home,.

Then I think I’m aging and time is passing. I’d like to be using this primary vehicle. It’s like when I first had my sailboat. The fear of taking it out in the ocean.  

I am going to be driving south in the winter and gaining experience without forcing the process. I’ve thought also that I could hire an instructor to drive with me but that’s really not necessary. I have the skill just lack the experience .

There’s the swimming pool and I could do lengths and feel better with that. There’s dog walks on the river and the lack and a beach walk we haven’t explored.  

There’s lots to do.  I think another coffee and maybe reading is in order this early morning rainy day.  

He’ll need to walk too .  The laundry needs picking up.  

I was really tired by the end of the work week yesterday, depression, soul sucking.  Trying to motivate people to get out of the foxholes of their lives. I’m a bit like that today.  I don’t judge. I just listened to Goldman’s (white jacket, black art) book on Kindness and figure I have empathy but I’m a little burnt out, not with the individual but rather with the system. I’m jaded by government. It’s pay day today so I’ll feel better when I pay off my credit cards and get cleared away.  Money is turning out to be a spiritual hurdle these last few weeks. I have more than I think in terms of material security and wealth yet I’ve been anxious , “fear of economic insecurity’.  Possibly it’s just aging and having a decade to clear out the final debt , this motorhome, and working when I could just walk away. My struggle with being adult and responsible.  

I have to put my faith in God.  I have to pray more.  

All is well.

I am truly blessed.  

I do have to keep moving. I’ve things to do and must not procrastinate but i have no real agenda for today. It’s all okay

Thank you God for this day. Thank you Jesus. 

I loved hearing at the Burnaby Fellowship Men’s Meeting

“I begin my day by saying, “Thank you God for my sobriety. Thank you I’m not in the penitentiary.” Thank you God I’m sober. Thank you I’m not in th penitentiary.

Kingfisher on Brunette River

I feel blessed when I see the Kingfisher along the Brunette River. For the longest time I couldn’t get a photo of it. Then I did and I did.  Again yesterday I saw the Kingfisher and was able to observe him and take his picture. I’ve seen the pair of them. My blue birds of happiness.  I always feel grateful

Journal - post Doc Side

I’m tired. Just walked Madigan. That’s the third time.  Just around the park but two poops.

We took the mini to work. I loved stopped at around the world for mocha on Hastings. Bought donuts for the staff.  Mary Lou is terrific.  

I saw patients in the morning.  One had a skookum electric scooter bike.  They’d been very active till their last one ended and they’d been fairly isolated but with this new cruiser they were their old self.  Amazing how wheels can perk a person up. 

I saw the doctor I’m supervising and she’s really doing well.  It’s been an easy gig given how conscientious she is.  Motivated too.  We’re both going to the UBC conference in Sept I recommended.  She takes suggestions well and hasn’t required any brow beating or drama.  I was burnt years back by the doctors lying and covering up and causing illness but acting all ‘picked on’ when I said their behaviour was unacceptable.  Then I didn’t appreciate that I only had one shit and the other dozens and dozens I taught were really very good.  That shit had connections and got carried by my superior when I thought they should face a firing squad. I’ve mellowed but really appreciate pe4ople being honest and doing their jobs.

I drove home , picking up laundry on the way.  Busy afternoon with really amazing patients progressing well. I like to think I’m a part of their increasing success.  

Then a trip to the mall to pick up mail and an A&W burger for myself and Madigan.  I’d left him home when I went to the mall. He was glad to have burger delivery.  I had a full day and other dog walk.  I’m tired.  Just full day.  Good day,

I’ve been listening to BBC 4 Beyond Faith podcast, excellent series of interfaith discussions.  Love the one on euthanasia. MAID.  I had the discussion on a face book feed too, I was quite snarky because I thought I was dealing with another Liberal party paid “influencer’.  She sounded like the promotion pamphlet and attacked a woman who raised doubts pulling the ‘wheere’s your proof’ ‘cite your reference ‘liberal liar’ distract and muddy waters.  That got me . So I came chivalrously to the rescue of the abused supporting free speech and quote he Laurer and other reviews and pointed out that there was ‘idealism’ and what occurred, which wasn’t always pretty.  I was too snarky.  Still the BBC Podcast had 4 debaters, a rabbi and an arch bishop, Inman and Sikh.  The pros and cons were equally powerful and the discussion was brilliant, none of the CBC ‘fixed’ debates pitting high school grad against the PHD of the preferred side . I don’t know what CBC is doing today but it’s much better though still communist broadcasting corporation.  

I was watching a 1967 war movie with Rip Torn but not terribly captivated despite the documentary footage and good acting.  I’ve been spoiled by the fast action of recent cinema.

Now I’ll go back to it.  

Working I have long days. I’m in the other clinic this week too.  I’m thankful to be of service.  

Thank you Go

Journal - Burnaby - St. Bartholomew Church

Another fabulous sunny summer day.  I just walked Madigan around the park.

Sunday I attended St. Bartholomew Anglican Church, the church on the hill.  It was so full I thought it was a baptism but what was special was Priest EMily announcing this was her last day till November.  She’s an amazing woman so dedicated and committed and empathic.

She’s going on a 4 month sabbatical journeying to the United Nations COP 2025 in Brazil.  She was excited and is passionate about ‘social justice’.  It’s amazing how I’m so often so alone.  I consider Climate Change the greatest scam of our day, a distortion of ‘environmentalism’ like ‘MAID”euthanasia is promoted as ‘health care’.  She’s not taking a plane so at least she won’t be one of the multitude of multimillionaires telling us middle class and below to eat bugs to save the planet.

I distrust WEF, UN and the WHO as all the neo communism organizations intent on world mastery  by using what Lenin called ‘useful idiots’.  Putin was hilarious writing about his work as a KGB agent to get the hippies to disrupt the west.  In the peace movement I saw the shift with the plants screaming ‘unilateral disarmament’.  Today it’s Hamma playing victim.  It’s also prayer in the street as ‘war is peace’ and aggressive narcissism, me first.  

I’m tired of what Buffalo Springfield sang about so long ago,m “:People carrying signs mostly say hooray for our side’

I am concerned that Canada is increasingly promoting euthanasia for elderly and mentally ill claiming this is empathy meanwhile my patients say they can’t afford to live, just like the girls having abortions who said they couldn’t afford to have children.  The cost of food has doubled and my loan has too.  I’m doing well but then given my place in society’s it suggests that if I’m in the top 30 percent then 70 percent are suffering.  

I figure any equation that ends with ‘poor me’ is a miscalculation since all equations should lead to gratitude.  So I’m grateful and hopeful that the Liberal government will give up it’s aetheism and have a come to Jesus movement and encourage work and wealth for the country that before Trudeau came to power was one of the greatest 4economic power houses of the world but in a mere decade has become third world with it’s outdated obsolete economic policies .

I’m listening to Goldman audios book Empathy and enjoyed learning of the fMRI research on psychopathals and so called ‘functional psychopaths’ and ‘Machiavellian psychopaths’ and narcissist.  It turns out they appear to have a missing bit in the amygdala. Retraining might benefit them.  

I’m praying daily.  I’m asking how I can improve in character and faith so that I can be of greater service I’m asking direction.  

I didn’t do much after church yesterday but walk the dog and read and nap.  I had wonderful dreams Saturday night of being in church and then was in church.  I like my spiritual community. I enjoyed talked with Ben whose getting back into work 14 months after his last relapse.

Madigan was perfect in church. He didn’t growl during prayers or snarl or goose the ladies. We’d ridden over on the Harley.  He and Fritz get along.  I’ll be following Emily’s journey. It’s reminiscent of Anne’s pilgrimage in Spain.  I find it ironic that other generations blame the women of my age for supporting the Liberals and the UN and Hamas and authoritarian dictatorship of fear mongering climate change.  Meanwhile I support Musk and Starship which is actually addressing the potential risk of the ‘extinction event’. Five of which have occcured.  

How do you deal with psychopaths in power, Hamas and Kim and Xi Jingping and the media letting pass the terrors of communism while attacked the democracies and western civililaztion,.

Here in Canada we still face the lies of mass graves of residential school.  Church said the lie is half way around the world while the truth is still put ing on it’s trousers.  

I’m liking the Canne film festival and the international fashion shows better than the virtue signalling of the private jet rallies.  I’m in my motorhome looking forward to going south to Fountain of Youth and Long Beach and Arizona.  Meanwhile I’m herein paradise.  It really is wonderful here.

Thank you Jesus for all your blessings.

Journal - Burnaby -Davie Street

Thank you God.

I’ve been using BlogTouch for blogging for 13 years and it was great.  It’s closed now I I’m back to using Blogger again.  It’s only opening a box like the iPhone.  Irritating.

I had my meeting this morning. Walked Madigan. After the meeting I rode the Harley with Madigan in his box to meet up with Laura for lunch. 

I stopped at Trev Deely to buy a new mask for my full helmet.  It smelled.  Sweat and Madigan had ticketed on it.  The masks are costly. So I bought a new helmet $300. It’s sweet.  I went year with one helmet and now I’ve replaced my helmet in 2 years.  Major safety device.  Smells great too. 

I found parking at Amoka. Ordered cappuccino. Paid Parking. Laura joined us.  Madigan was bouncing and jumping ecstatic.

I made a run down to Little Sister to get some advice. I bought a trans history before.  They sell toys too. But their book section is the best on LGBTQ.  

I had picked up my new trailer hitch for motorhome at Purolater yesterday and visited Laura then.  She’s going to be house sitting for her boss and sister in the next couple of weeks.  The long weekend is looking like we’ll be here since I’ve not found anywhere better to go. The delay in the insurance for the camper means it’s remaining on the truck so either I get it off the truck or bring the truck with me.  That may be the trick for hunting season which begins with bow Sept 1 but really Sept 10 is rifle. I’m planning on rifle hunting and we’re booked in October for a week TG north of Kamloops.  

The ride downtown on the Harley and visit with Laura was great. The ride home was really hot and start and stop traffic.  I went out again and picked up post and dropped off laundry.  Last night I watched Naked Gun with Nielsen and Priscilla Presley. There’s a new one with Liam Nielsen and Pamela Anderson. I’m looking forward to that one.  I liked that Pamela Anderson says she journals a lot and writes poetry. I’m journaling but not making headway yet on completing the books I’ve begun.  

Listening to audiobook Kindnes by dr Goldman of White coat Black Art CBC doctor show.  It’s fascinating on fMRI work on amygdala and empathy.  I loved hearing that psychopaths brains light up when they see picture and imagine them being hurt but when they see same picture and imagine someone else being hurt the normal empathy spots in amygdala adn cingluate don’t fire but rather a pleasure center one does.  He describes Machiavellian psychopathic traits and functional psychopaths a term I don’t like. I liked cluster b with psychopaths, sociopaths and antisocial and narcissists , borderline and histrionic of dam 5 .  I’m keeping up I guess. I think ‘disorder’ and ‘traits’ is at issue.  Traits like even ‘antisocial’ have value.  

Laura bought me brunch, cappuccino with breakfast croissant , delicious

Journal - Burnaby - Thor

The long weekend is passed.  Madigan and I walked Laura to her little red Smart Car and she headed back to her Bute apartment home.,  Madigan barked but wasn’t as upset as he’s been in the past. I think he’s learning ‘objects constancy’ . That’s the term we use in child psychology for when a baby drops something and doesn’t believe it disappeared.  I believe Madigan is begging to believe Laura will return or we’ll visit her but she’s not ‘gone’.  

He adores her and she loves him.  I believe he sees her in some mixed up Oedipal way as his mommy he’;d like to hump.  I love how much he enjoys our walks together, part of a bigger pack,  Also he works the room.  Has her throw his toy till she tires then comes to me to ‘fetch’.  It’s a family atmosphere.

I didn’t do anything this weekend.  A few errands, a few calls to pharmacy, a meeting, a swim, walks and mostly preparing and eating meals and reading novels.  I love hugging Laura.  I like kissing her too,

The Pride weekend was on with the parade and crowds and I miss seeing it but frankly traffic and crowds are barriers to me going to events. I’d much rather have gone camping with the Sober Riders in Keremeos.  Maybe next year.  I have been enjoying life in the new Thor Hurricane motorhome, barbecuing outside, sitting in lawn chairs in the sun.

I really am enjoying For All the World the Apple TV Science fiction historical drama based on idea that Cold War continued with NASA and the Russians having moon colonies. Last night they had a mars colony and were trying to capture an asteroid.  It’s captivated me like the Sons of Anarchy, Yellowstone, and Breaking Bad series did.  

Madigan had an accident with diarrhea I cleaned up in the morning. Then he didn’t poop all day and I walked him for over an hour before he did. He’s had lose stool this morning.  I’m thankful for the paper towel and comet and the new wet swifter.  

Now it’s work.  Yesterday’s BC Day civic holiday will make it a short week. I’ve just signed up for the UBC Pacific Psychopharmacology conference.  

First the long term neighbour across from us left then the neighbour on the left and now the neighbour on the right has pulled out.  All this activity has me wanting to head to Logan Lake like I did a couple of years back, enjoying swimming each lunch hour.  We’ve considered going away for the Labor Day Long weekend but didn’t find a good RV campground open. Our first choice was Whistler Campground and next Harrison.  It’s a popular weekend for camping and everything seemed booked up.  I may look more.

I’d best get settled into the office seat and begin the days telemedicine work.  

Thank you God for this weekend.  Thank you Jesus for all your blessings.