I’m so happy to be here. I woke at 7 am, even had a shower and walked Madigan before I attended my morning meeting. It’s a wonderful group of inspirational friends. Some call us family. I try to attend as often as I can on line. There’s an overlapping meeting Monday and Friday with some of the same people. We talk of god and the unmanagability of life. Fate and free will discussion and spirituality. It’s a wonderful way to begin a day listening to geniuses and sharing.
I crossed the border into Mexico at 930 am but here in the time zone was 830. I first met Sandra and was able to buy the earrings Laura picked from the photo I sent her after seeing Sandra yesterday. It’s Laura’s birthday so jewelry goes well and is easy to ship with Fed Ex or UPS. Last year I used the US mail but don’t trust Canada Post yet after their strike, Sandra’s husband’s name is Israel and they got to the Catholic Church Sunday. I bought some more earrings for the girls in the family as well. I sent purses last year and they were liked .I’ll send wallets or little purses this year so it’s easier to mail.
I walked over to Sol Opticians but they had a line up so I said I’d go for breakfast. He recommended the outdoor Prius cafe down the snowbird alley. It was good to sit outside in the sun. I loved the huevos rancheros. Huevo Rancheros is a favourite food I first encountered in Mexico 40 years ago and have loved ever since. The same goes for Mango Lassies I discovered in Bomba India when I visited there in the late 80’s.
At Sol Optical, the lovely woman optican told me I needed to see a specialist since she was concerned I may be developing cataracts, My night vision has declined. She asked about floaters but I ‘ve had those since I had a ball hit me in the eye. She recommended I see my ophthalmologist before investing in another pair of glasses. I’ll definitely do that when I return. Dad said blindness was the worst in his late 80’s as it took away so many of his enjoyments, watching, tv, reading, driving. I liked that at Sol opticians they were more interested in my health than making a sale.
After I left there I walked around the corner to my favourite leather store. The last couple of years I’ve sent purses to family and bought some for Laura when she visited. This time I only bought my sister in law a large purse while the niece in laws and Laura I bought new smaller Coach purses that appear contemporary. I liked that being smaller they’d be easier to ship with UPS or Fed Ex. Now I’ve done all my major gift buying but will be in the area a week or two more at least. I’ll have time to consider the God kids in that time.
For now I’m having express at the Coffee Shop. Each year I come and sit in this corner typing with my iPad and enjoying the Mediplaza atmosphere, fairly tranquil and out of the way. The street vendors haven’t bothered me as much this year but then I’ve only been au drab while in previous years I was dressed au femme most of my visits alone. It goes in waves apparently aligned with my anxiety and boredom. Right now I’m rather content with my masculinity. Also medical conditions tend to focus attention on survival. I don’t seem to be able to escape aging. I might want to face it and try not to be distracted.
I’m ambivalent about the future. I have lost my two best friends of decades in Vancouver and my brother these last years. My childhood best friend remains in the islands and I’m grateful for his contact. On Facebook I see school friends and am inspired by them. It’s difficult aging and making decisions for the future. I am wealthy today but poor without pension and if I live to be 100. I continue to work because I enjoy being of service. The alternative would be to write books and I’ve certainly been procrastinating that. I really should write a discourse on psychiatry and gives talks when I travel so I can continue to write off trips.
With the high costs of living in Canada and the punitive tax burden of the communist oriented Liberal government and their corrupt PM Trudeau who has just retired, I don’t know what to plan for the future I envisioned living in Mexico younger. I thought it would be great to live in La Paz on my ship and work half the year. Now here I am living in southern Arizona relatively inexpensively. I’m essentially on a mixed work vacation and can afford to do this as long as I’m working. But there’s damage to my Camper that will cost to repair. Last year my camper repair costs were $10,000. My RV home costs were $2000 a month. If i moved out of Vancouver to the country I could live for $1000 a month for housing like it is here. I simply don’t know. I’m mostly here because Laura is here and I’ve work and friends in the two clinics I work at. I have my men’s group and George and others there give me a sense of belonging.
I’m very grateful for the adventure of life. I love my dog and travel and have enjoyed sailing, skiing and scuba diving but don’t do those anymore. I’m not even excited as before about hunting. I like motorcycling and quadding, camping, reading and writing. I like my meetings and church. I would like to get back into Tai Chi.
It’s the whole issue of living in the present. I’m calm and happiest when I’m present. My mind is mostly at peace, I drift into future zooming and dooming and then the anxiety strikes., Being told my eyes are aging is unsettling , For several years my back pain has interfered with sex and exercise. I’ve tried to do the exercises and swim but the pain is straining.
I am thankful that Trudeau has stepped down. He was evil and my nemesis. Now I feel there is perhaps hope.
I am lonely at times . I returned to Canada earlier last year after only a couple of month because I was lonely. I am a lone with. God. I enjoy being here than being alone in wilderness as I did before. I like sitting in cities writing. I have my camper and it’s isolated in an RV park miles front Yuma. Tomorrow I’ll ride my Vespa with Madigan into Yuma to attend church.
Madigan is beginning to bark at strangers When he gets into sheriff mode, he’s bored and wants to move on, There are children playing on the crow in the plaza and he wants to play with them. Considering how many people I’ve seen in my life I am rather aloof now in life . That goes with the territory.
Thank you God for this life Thank you for the color and sights . Thank you for Madigan. Thank you for Laura. Thanks you for Adell, Graeme, Andrew , Allen , Tanya, Meagan, Elliot and Finn. Thank you for the dogs.
Thank you for all the blessings, Thank you for the glorious hot dry weather. Thank you for the kindness and friendliness of people. Thank you for coffee. Thank you for my ability to travel. Thank you for all o the senses.
Time to use the washroom and head for the border crossing.
It’s a good day. God is good all of the time